farewell to sunset

Tang Nuo had no father since he was a child, nor did he have brothers or sisters. The only family member he had was his mother, who brought him up single-handedly.

My mother is not in good health and has always had kidney disease. Although she is not terminally ill, she has many symptoms of chronic diseases, and it may worsen if she is not careful. Therefore, she has been taking medicine for a long time.

His family is not rich, and his main source of income is a cake shop opened by his mother. When he was in middle school, the cake shop opened next to his school. Tang Nuo felt sorry for his mother's hard work. No matter at noon or at night, he always came back after school. help.His mother refused to let him go back to study, and told him that only by studying more can he get out of the county town, see the world, and live a life different from his mother.

Little Tang Nuo was very competitive. He had always been a top student when he was a student. He ranked fifth in the county in the college entrance examination and entered F University. Because he was interested in languages ​​since childhood, when choosing a major, Tang Nuo chose French.

My mother was also very relieved and said happily that my Nuonuo was going to be successful and was going to live in a big city. She sent Tang Nuo to school, because she couldn't bear to pay for the hotel, so she didn't go shopping in S City, so she went back that day .

That was Tang Nuo's first time away from his mother for such a long time.

Tang Nuo was often worried about her mother's poor health. He was not around, no one would take care of her when she was sick, and endured it by herself when she was not feeling well.In order to let Tang Nuo concentrate on his studies, his mother would make a video call with him every evening, telling him in substandard Mandarin that two children were arguing in the store in the morning, and in the afternoon they heard a song that sounded like ours. Nono.

These small pieces of sharing are filled into a soft and good mood. When there is a mother, Tang Nuo is not alone.

He has endured a lot of hardships, worked a lot of odd jobs, but also has to maintain good grades and help his mother share the pressure.But he never complained, never felt unfair, he was too easily satisfied, he always felt happy.

But God is so cruel, insisting on breaking his peace.

A car accident in April made her mother leave Tang Nuo forever.

Because of the onset, my mother went out that day and suffered sudden deafness. She couldn't hear the horn and ignored the passing cars.

The owner of the car who caused the accident took full responsibility and paid a huge amount of compensation. Tang Nuo couldn't accept the reality. What did he do wrong?Will it make the wish of just wanting to be safe, unable to come true?

In the spring when the cherry blossoms were just in time, everyone of the same age was on the university campus, enjoying the last fun, but Tang Nuo was in the dark mourning hall, wetting the coffin with tears over and over again.

From that day on, he no longer has the willfulness of a young man, he is a fallen leaf in the frost, he is destitute and embarrassing.

He has never talked about this with anyone, even Le Xiaqi learned about his past only after experiencing it with him.This is the first time he has voluntarily opened up his scars.

It's a scar, but I don't feel any pain anymore, probably because I have cried too many times, and now even my eye sockets are no longer wet.

He stared blankly at the table, numbly.

Shen Youning couldn't listen to this. At that time, the other party brought up his life experience, and he didn't dare to think about it carefully in private. Now that Tang Nuo told him word by word, he felt pain in his heart.

During the long pause, Shen Youning's eyes never left Tang Nuo's shoulders and neck.

Under the loose sweater, her complexion was snow-white, and her skin was as thick as fat, but there was a dark mark on it.

Is it a scar?Or cocoon?How?Did it happen while working?

How many jobs he has worked and what he does, do he still have time to rest, and can he get a good night's sleep.

Shen Youning didn't dare to listen any more, let out a breath slowly, and put a warm palm on Tang Nuo's shoulder.

"What happened later? Why did you come to City B?" he asked.

"Because I have nowhere to go, staying in S City is not happy, and going back to my hometown...is even more sad."

Shen Youning rubbed Tang Nuo's back, and reluctantly withdrew his hand.

"It's a good thing you came to City B, otherwise, we wouldn't have met."

"Actually, I also feel very lucky." Tang Nuo said, "The only time my mother and I traveled was in City B. After graduation, my seniors came to work in City B, so I followed."

"After you came here, you decided to open a shop?"

"Actually, it was decided a long time ago." Tang Nuo circled the wall of the cup with his index finger, and continued: "When my mother and I passed by Huakang Building, my mother said that if I came to study and live in City B in the future, she would Open a cake shop here, and it closes on time at 6 pm, so that she can accompany me after class and work."

Shen Youning was speechless for a while, that's why Tang Nuo bought a store with his mother's compensation, and Coucherdesolei closed on time in the evening.

"Actually, that's why I don't want to study."

For some reason, it should be rotten in the stomach, but it doesn't matter if you talk to Shen Youning.

"The reason why my mother wanted to open the store in Huakang Building is because my original dream was to work in the High School of A University."

"Across the street, we are very close."

"But now, let me go to A University to study, as if reminding me all the time."

"I'm here, but she's not there."

Tang Nuo finished the last sentence, shook his head to himself, and said with a wry smile: "Brother Youning, don't laugh at me, I know it's naive to think so, and I also know that people should look forward, it's not that I haven't tried hard, but... Not very good..."

"I'm even afraid to meet new classmates. I'm afraid to talk about the past, and I'm afraid they will feel sorry for me. It seems that I can't get along with people normally. I also feel bad, but there is no way."

The more Shen Youning listened, the tighter the knot in his heart became. He remained calm on the surface, and said softly, "Have you seen a psychiatrist?"

"No." Tang Nuo bit his lower lip, "I don't want to tell anyone."

On the one hand, she didn't want to tell others, but on the other hand, she had no reservations about herself. Shen Youning knew that her status was important, so she was extremely careful with every word she said.

"Xiao Nuo, I'm not the person involved, so I'm not qualified to judge your choice."

"But no matter what you think, don't think that this is not normal, or that this will be laughed at, because everyone is like me, and without your experience, you have no right to judge your feelings. "

"Your past, who you want to talk to and who you don't want to tell, are all decisions that only you can make. I'm not good at enlightening others, but you tell me, and I will support every choice you make. If you are in pain , I can also bear an extra point for you."

"You are not naive, let alone force yourself to look forward. If the current state is what you feel comfortable and satisfying, then just maintain it. I am willing to do my best to help you. I hope you can be happier."

Shen Youning spoke sincerely, with a pitiful look on his face, he half explained and half promised.

Tang Nuo also did not expect that such an answer would be given to his confession, he stared blankly at Shen Youning for a few seconds, and then suddenly parted his lips.

"Brother Youning, thank you very much."

"I said this not to make you worry, not to make you pitiful."

Maybe it was because the promise was too deep, or maybe it was because the eyes were too emotional. Even if Tang Nuo hadn't thought about it, he could read it at this moment, which was different from usual.

"I know." Shen Youning replied, "I didn't pity you, I should thank you."

"Thanks for what?"

"Thank you for believing in me, and thank you for being willing to tell me this."

When the hour hand reached the center of the dial, Santa Claus was in someone's chimney, and hexagonal snowflakes fell outside the window. After Shen Youning finished speaking, Tang Nuo gave him a gentle hug.