Do not hesitate

Fanwai (Xiang Qiantong three)

For me, college was a happy time.It's all because I have a good friend by my side, Si Luochen.

My worldview and values ​​have changed.

It is subtle.

It's just that she doesn't know, and neither do I.

It's like the prosperity that broke out of the ground silently at the beginning, like some kind of tough weeds that no one cares about.The world is not as scarce, monotonous, and simple as it was in our childhood.That era has passed, and all kinds of prosperity are coming, with exquisite, colorful, and extravagant atmosphere.

But in memory, many things cannot be taken away by these changes.

Just like Si Luochen always sat quietly in a corner of the playground, under the dense shade of trees, her legs outside the sports shorts were like pure white ice sculptures.Her hands, too, were pale and delicate, like snowflakes seen under a magnifying glass.

Since high school, she never followed us to gym class.However, in every physical education class, she would put on her sportswear as solemnly as we did, and then sit reservedly under the shade of a tree, watching us sweat profusely.

One day, I couldn't bear my curiosity, so I walked over to her and asked, "Luochen, why don't you take physical education class?"

She is always so quiet. When I called her, she turned her eyes slowly, tilted her head to look at me, smiled slightly, and suddenly put her crystal right hand on her chest: "Because I have less A part. It was born, I didn't have a choice. So I can skip gym class."

Those few very simple words were so different when they came out of Si Luochen's mouth.

I can't tell what is different, I just know that the smile she really bloomed in front of my eyes can be called a genuine smile.I mean, the word "smile" is only valid when faced with a smile like hers.

At this moment, I admit that I am different from her.

I want to be with her often.Be influenced by her, reflect her light, and become in love with her under her subtle influence day after day.

However, I'm not going to let her know.

Although I like her, it doesn't mean that I have to forget my pursuit - freedom.

The most important thing is that the self-esteem of a cold-blooded animal is more precious than anything else, because there is nothing else to defend this self-esteem.

It's just that her quietness has changed in the later period. When she was in college, she could start to participate in simple basic training, and then she could jog for a short distance.

I thought it was related to the Si family. Her congenital heart disease has completely healed.

Until the matter at Si Luochen's house, she needed to leave school temporarily, and I had to help her copy homework, so I would go back to the dormitory very late every night.

I rode my bicycle from the teaching building back to the dormitory as usual, but saw a familiar figure standing there.

It's Si Luochen's older sister, I didn't expect to see her.

This is the first time that I have had close contact with Si Luochen's family, and she is also the elder sister whom she yearns for wholeheartedly.

"Hello, I'm Luochen's older sister, Si Ruonan." Her voice was very deep, which was very pleasant to my ears.

"Hello." I pushed the bicycle to her, approached her and responded politely: "My name is Xiang Qiantong."

She seemed to know and nodded to me.

We didn't talk about too many issues, we just said that Si Luochen might not be able to return to school in two days.I also asked some questions about her life in school, actually I was very surprised, why did she come here so late, just asking me these questions?

As for the meeting that day, I seemed to be getting more and more vague afterwards.

Wang Shaoke said that I fell asleep right after I came back that night without washing up, thinking it was because I was too tired.

In the next few days, I was almost in a daze. Lu Hui thought I was sick, and Wang Shaoke thought I had done too much homework and was tired.

I don't deny or want to admit it, it's just that my mental state is not very good.

Even when I heard her voice calling me, I wasn't that excited. My subconscious told me that something was wrong with this state.

May be really sick.

I don't know what happened to the Si family, there are so many people protecting Si Luochen.I'm worried... I'm even scared, my head seems to be running wild.

All I can do is be by her side every day, although I know if something happens, there is probably nothing I can do.

Until she told me that the matter is over and there is no need to worry so much.

I really want to tell her that this has become a habit of my life.But I still don't want to say it, it seems that I can't say it...

One afternoon before the holiday, most of the students in the school went home, especially graduate students, and there was no one living in the entire dormitory building.

I went back to the dormitory with the pizza but there was no sign of her, and no one answered the phone. I asked the classmate next door in a hurry and found out that she had gone to the Academic Affairs Office.

But when I went to the Academic Affairs Office, there was no sign of her.

When I was clueless, I saw her figure, and when I was about to breathe a sigh of relief, I saw the person following her holding a knife in his hand.I knew at that moment that I wanted to bark but couldn't, it would be alarming, and the only thing I could do was run to her and push her away.

For the rest, I didn't think about anything.

I can't even think about it.

When the knife pierces the flesh, it doesn't hurt as much as I imagined, it may be because the knife is too fast.

At that moment, as long as I control my breathing, the muscle tissue there will not move, and I can bear the slight pain.

But the pain, like an ant crawling slowly, gradually increased.In the end, every breath was painful and unbearable.

Fortunately, at the end of my consciousness, it was her face that I saw.

She must have been terrified at this time...

All around her ears were her anxious voice.

But getting farther and farther...

so quiet.

In the coma, I remember that I woke up, and it was the first time I felt that I was so important to my father.

But judging from his tone, it seems that no one can save me.

I asked myself, am I going to die?

It turns out that facing death is not so terrible.

But why, I just can't hear her voice?Is something wrong?still……

Forget it.

Don't come to see me for the last time. I, who have decided to face death, don't want to be afraid again.

……

When consciousness faded away little by little, I thought I would never wake up again.

But I know I'm not dead yet.

I can feel the environment has changed, the surrounding is a bit damp and cold.Even I smelled a musty smell.

Will death be like this?

Obviously, no.

The sound of the door opening, the sound of footsteps walking around me.I can feel a cool thing on my arm, wriggling, and then burrowing into my skin, drinking my blood.

After that, I heard their conversation. It was a woman's voice, who sounded quite old, and a man's voice.

"How is it?" A woman's voice sounded.

"I can't die." The man replied, "It's just that the side effects are also very serious."

"Well, in exchange, it's good if you don't die. By the way, what about the girl?" the woman asked again.

"Miss is not here. Ma'am...I want to ask, my sister?" The man asked in a low voice.

"Don't ask the question I asked once. Find that girl, I have something to ask her." The woman's voice sounded coldly, and then the door opened.

The pain in my arm has made me numb, and I even feel that they are not saving me, but treating me as an experimental product.

Every time after being bitten by something that I don't know what it is, my body hurts and I can't wake up. I can only feel the pain and twitch all over, and then ooze layers of sweat.

I don't know what I look like at this time, I only know that I am in pain, and this is the feeling that life is better than death.

I've woken up and seen so many strange faces, and I don't know if they are good or bad, or what they did to me.

That man's voice, that woman's voice, I never heard it again.

I thought my life was like this.I can never go back to the time before, and I can never see that quiet figure again.

It turned out that fate treated me well, I left that dark place, I remembered everything in that room, everyone's faces, but I couldn't suppress the pain in my body.

Dad said that someone from the Si family would arrange for me. I thought it was Si Luochen, but I didn't expect it to be Si Ruonan.She promised that my father would settle me down, and let my father feel at ease to do what he wanted to do.

In fact, I really want to ask, what is it?

But I couldn't ask.

I remember that Si Ruonan looked at me with some doubts, saw the corners of her mouth move, and finally opened her mouth and said, "Thank you for saving my sister."

When I heard this sentence, the corners of my mouth curled up slightly, and I shook my head to indicate that it was okay.

"I know, you treat Luochen differently. But...for the Si family, after Luochen, I will not allow anything to hurt her. I hope you understand."

I didn't understand the implication, but I saw Si Ruonan frowned slightly, and said: "You are not suitable for her, and she is not suitable for you. You are two completely different people. You are both women, and your relationship is not blessed. If this continues Does it make sense?"

I was so surprised that I couldn't say anything more.

"I've seen your heart, so I know it. I hope you understand me. I can't make fun of Luochen's future." It can be felt that her tone became softer and more helpless when she said this.

To be honest, I understand, I even hope that Si Luochen can be happy more than anyone else.I don't understand what it's like to bless someone wholeheartedly, but I really hope that she can live her life with peace of mind.

Even... without me.

Although I couldn't speak, I nodded towards Si Ruonan, and expressed my father's matter with a little doubt, and how is she now?

Si Ruonan seemed to understand what I meant, and his expression was slightly gentle: "Thank you Qiantong, Luochen is fine, and so is your father. As long as you leave, the rest will be fine. You can also be fine Life. Don't forget, there are things only I can do."

I understand that Si Ruonan is not threatening me, but protecting the most important person to her.

I know the price of my life is never seeing the people I want to see again.

I understand

From there, I lived aimlessly on the other side of the earth.I often stand on the top of the mountain in Los Angeles, watching the sunrise and sunset, looking at the city, no matter how beautiful it is, I still like that mountain the most.

But those are just memories.I admit, after all this time, my personality has changed.I have become better at communicating with people, and I have become more fond of genuine smiles.

I am ambivalently grateful to those people, who made me completely reborn, and I am no longer as cold-blooded as my father.

But at the same time lost the free and easy.

I thought I would live forever in this hemisphere, so I changed places irregularly, continued to pursue her favorite ideals, and started further studies.

Until one day, the moment when the person I have been thinking about but dare not to read fell before my eyes like a dream.

Minecraft, all, all.

It's different.

Some memories seem to be starting to become blurred...

The author has something to say: Luochen Qiantong's trilogy is finished.In fact, when I wrote this chapter, I felt very complicated and uncomfortable, and even at the end of writing, I was so excited that I wanted to cry.

A person who thought she would never see you again appeared in front of you like this. It turns out that she has been working hard to find you for so many years... If it was me, I would be so moved that I would cry to death.

cough.

I even felt a little impulsively thinking that this chapter would be the end chapter, a story cycle about Luochen and Qiantong.

Of course, I can't do that.

There are still many things that have not been explained, how can I be so irresponsible_(:з」∠)_

I am deeply honored that Congxin was patronized by a large audience yesterday.In an instant, there was momentum.

Hahaha.

Thank you for your support, I will work harder.