Do not hesitate

Chapter 6

Si Luochen's father, Si Zheng, knew that his precious daughter was going to America alone, but he didn't agree at first.Si Luochen managed to convince his father in two months. Although Si Zheng agreed, his mother Fang Shanyu added another sentence.You can go, but in the United States, except for tuition fees and very little living expenses, everything is on your own.

Knowing that his parents were deliberately making things difficult for him, Si Luochen not only didn't back down because of this, but he also agreed with his parents' way of doing things.

When she grows up, she has to rely on herself to walk the way of the future.

After taking care of everything, Si Luochen took her luggage and left the city she was most familiar with, and headed for a strange country full of expectations.

After repeating his studies at New York University for half a year, he was going to work in a Wall Street psychiatric clinic.

Si Luochen, who is highly educated and has relevant work experience, will be hired no matter where he goes, let alone in the era of mental illness syndrome.

On the first day of work, Si Luochen left a good impression on everyone with his good looks and fluent English, and completely stunned one person.

I never thought that I could meet her here.

Because Si Luochen majored in personality psychology.Even if she has experience, she has just integrated into the team. Professor Anna only assigned her to be responsible for some patients with mild mental illness.

Si Luochen didn't have any objection to this, her goal was only for someone and practice.

Under the introduction of colleagues, I became familiar with the working environment.This place is really much better than imagined, it is indeed the place she chose, thinking while familiarizing herself with it.

But Xiang Qiantong's gaze was locked on Si Luochen, but the other party didn't even look at her.

In the first two weeks of work, Si Luochen sat in the office and read past medical records, apart from being in charge of minor psychotherapy.

When there was a knock on the door, Si Luochen was reading the documents attentively, and said casually, "Come in."

"Luochen, do you want to have lunch together?" It was Tony who was majoring in clinical psychology downstairs.A man with a very funny personality, very popular with women, and usually socializes a lot.Rumor has it that wealthy wives often ask Tony to go to the doctor for treatment, but Luochen, the gossip, is not interested.

Si Luochen looked at the time, nodded his head lightly and said calmly, "Wait a moment."

After tidying up briefly, he walked out of the office with his bag in hand, only to find that there were many people waiting at the door, including Xiang Qiantong.He just glanced at it lightly, and followed everyone to eat with a very calm expression.

A group of people came to the restaurant downstairs and chatted about some work matters while having a simple meal. The whole process was very lively.

"Today, there is a patient who not only has autism but also has a choice disorder. Standing in the supermarket to choose things, he didn't buy anything from the morning to the afternoon, and finally broke down and threw all the things on the counter on the ground..." Susan Said while shaking his head.

"You're not bad, I once took a patient, he was not interested in women..."

Many people expressed sympathy.

Si Luochen didn't like how they commented on his patients like this, how could the patient's body be said as a joke like this.But she is a newcomer, so it is not easy to say much about it.

"This is the patient's *, is it really okay to use it as a joke?" Xiang Qiantong said with a cold expression.Ignoring other people's gazes, he just quietly ate a sandwich.

Si Luochen glanced at it, the corners of his mouth slightly curled up, and continued to eat.

"Qiantong, you are really... our work is boring, and the hospital's medical records can be shared. It's okay to talk about it." Tony said.

"Yeah, Tony is right, isn't Qiantong too serious?" Susan answered.

Xiang Qiantong put the rest of the sandwich on the plate, picked up a tissue and wiped her mouth.The serious look was really scary. He glanced at Tony and Susan, and said coldly: "Take the trust given to us by the patients as entertainment and communicate with each other. They know how to look at us, huh?"

The dinner table fell into silence because of Xiang Qiantong's words.She knew that such words would have no effect at all, and she didn't want the atmosphere to be too awkward, so she got up and went to the bar to order a cup of coffee.

When I came back with coffee, I found that there was only one person left at the dining table, eating quietly.

Xiang Qiantong sat down, focused his eyes on Si Luochen, pursed his lips and said, "Hi, long time no see."

Si Luochen looked at Xiang Qiantong indifferently, and said without expression: "Long time no see? Don't we see each other every day?"

The faint smile on the beautiful face of the woman in front of her made Xiang Qiantong inexplicably feel a little uneasy, even a little uneasy.

Xiang Qiantong: "..."

Why can't you speak clearly when you see her?Now it's just the two of them here, and she's sitting in front of her.The first day I saw her, I wanted to ask her a lot of questions, why did I come here?How have you been these three years?Or is something going on over there...?The most important thing is how she thinks about herself... But at this moment, she can't ask any of these questions.

The past few years have been in vain, Xiang Qiantong thought in his heart.

Reason told her that Si Luochen's personality was suitable for being a hunter since he was a child.All intentions are invisible nets, no matter how careful the prey is, they will eventually fall into the nets she weaves.No matter what changes occur, she will be able to hold her breath. With this patience, even if the sky is falling, she still has a calm and calm expression.

Si Luochen's eyes were like the night, and he looked at Xiang Qiantong quietly, with a vague smile on his lips.

"What are you thinking about? Or... after seeing me, do you want to leave again?" The voice was very cold.

Xiang Qiantong shook his head, shook his head lightly and said, "How could that be?"

You've already walked through it once, why wouldn't you?It's just that Xiang Qiantong didn't realize Si Luochen's 'again' at the moment.

"That's good." Wei Wei hooked the corners of her lips, and continued: "I just came here, so I don't understand many things. After all, we have been friends for many years, and I hope you can give me some advice."

Si Luochen's tone was very serious, and his expression returned to his previous appearance, it was no longer Xiang Qiantong's unpredictable expression.

Hearing this sentence for some reason, Xiang Qiantong breathed a sigh of relief, and responded, "I will."

In the following days, in order to integrate into the environment as soon as possible, Si Luochen would listen to professor-level experts for auscultation in addition to normal work during the day.After work, I just huddled in the medical record room alone and looked at the historical medical records.

Si Luochen admitted that looking at medical records is always happier than reading novels.Because the novel is lighter than reality after all, it can have a seemingly regrettable but happy ending.

Life is much sadder than this.

Behind every mental illness, there is an unknown secret.Not everyone can bear those experiences, and if they don't get the correct way to relieve them, they will only go on the road of mental illness in the end.Severe harm to others and self, mild will also be restless.

Parents' education of their children, their harsh demands on their children and their many sustenances are all common mental illnesses.Not to mention people with domestic violence and tragic life experiences.

Xiang Qiantong grew up with parents quarreling since she was a child. Fortunately, she didn't learn bad things and still has such a good mind.It's just that she has deep anxiety about feelings in her heart, and freedom from being restricted has become her goal.

I remember she said that she wished she was a bird without feet.After settling down, one day she couldn't fly anymore, and died in a random place, and she didn't need someone to collect her body.

She who is so afraid of stability and feelings is also a kind of mental illness...

Can it be cured?

After closing the medical records, Si Luochen remained silent.

Unknowingly, I stayed in the medical records room until after eleven o'clock.Si Luochen packed up the materials and was about to leave with his bag, but was stopped by a person just as he reached the gate.

It's Tony.

Si Luochen stood there expressionless.

Tony drank a lot of wine, and saw Si Luochen smiling happily, "Luochen, you're still there." His tongue was already curled up.

Si Luochen nodded, without any extra expression, he was about to leave but was blocked by Tony.

Looking at the man in front of him coldly: "What's the matter?"

"Let's go have a drink together." He said swayingly.

"Do not want to."

Tony didn't expect that such an attractive man like him would be rejected by the woman in front of him, who would be rejected by the woman in front of him, and he asked in disbelief, "Is there something wrong with your Chinese aesthetics?" What, shook his head: "Impossible, aesthetics are mutual, I think you are beautiful, you should think that I am not bad..."

The smell of alcohol was heavy, Si Luochen held his breath and wanted to push open another door to leave, but just as he got out of the gate, Tony grabbed his hand that hadn't been withdrawn.

Si Luochen frowned slightly, turned his head to look at the man coldly, and shook him vigorously. Fortunately, Tony drank the wine and poured it down at the door like ooze.It attracted the attention of many people on the street, but with too much force, Si Luochen took several steps back and nearly fell, but fell into someone's arms.

This faint fragrance is very familiar.

"Are you okay?" Xiang Qiantong wrapped Si Luochen's waist with one hand, and took the takeaway with the other.Knowing that she would be busy every day until very late before leaving, seeing that she didn't bother to eat dinner after reading medical records today, she hesitated for a long time before buying takeaway to see if she went back.

Unexpectedly, he met this scene and stared at Tony with a very bad expression.

Knowing that it was Xiang Qiantong, Si Luochen straightened up without a trace, calmed down, and unconsciously pinned the broken hair behind his ears.

He said lightly, "It's okay."

Tony sat on the ground, his head still unclear, staring vaguely at the two people in front of him, and said with a smile, "What a coincidence, let's drink together."

Xiang Qiantong ignored him, called Susan who was socializing with Tony to pick him up, hung up the phone, turned around and dragged Si Luochen away.

Just like that, Si Luochen's wrist was pulled by Xiang Qiantong, moving forward all the way.Looking at her back, the high ponytail was swaying, as if she was angry.

With a smile on the corner of his mouth, he followed her and let her pull and lead.

Two tall and long-legged oriental women, with outstanding appearance and temperament, hurriedly walked into the crowd hand in hand, like luminous bodies, causing many foreigners to look sideways.

Walking around a corner, Xiang Qiantong stopped, turned around and frowned slightly: "You should not be so late in the future."