winter past

Yin Miaozai quickly grabbed Xiaoman's hand and called out to him, Xiaoman shivered and looked at Yin Miaozai in a daze.Yin Miaozai seemed a little scared, but then showed a look of sympathy, pulled Xiaoman away from the police station, patted him, and said softly: "Don't worry, Lu Yang might go somewhere to play with his friends." Now, do you have the contact information of his friends? Do you have the phone numbers of their family members?" She asked him, "Did you catch a cold? The nasal voice is so heavy."

Xiaoman shook his head: "He never told me that he has any friends."

Yin Miaozai took out her mobile phone to make a call, pointed to the front and said, "Let's go get the car first, the cafe is nearby."

She led the way, and Xiaoman followed her. After a while, Yin Miaozai looked back at him and said, "It's really turned off, so let me send him a text message first. If he turns it on at that time, we will know that we are looking for him." gone."

Xiaoman shook his head, biting his nails and said, "He has no friends... I thought that number was my illusion. At first no one answered the call, and then the number was turned off..." He grabbed a small Locks of hair, slightly hitting the temples.Yin Miaozai called him again, this time she looked very stern, pulled Xiaoman's hair out of his hand, grabbed his hand and walked side by side with him on the road, and asked him: "Will that be okay?" What relative's house did you go to?"

"He has no relatives in Qingshi."

"Maybe he's really with some friends, but he hasn't mentioned to you that he has good friends, and he's an older kid, so maybe he has his own secret." Yin Miaozai poked Xiaoman with his elbow, "Stop thinking about it here, maybe he's gone to find a girlfriend, the young couple is sweet," she smiled and looked at Xiaoman, "When you were his age, didn't you have any secrets from your parents? With whom?"

Xiaoman let Yin Miaozai hold her back, and called Lu Yang again, but the phone was still off, and only a mechanical female voice kept repeating: "Sorry, the number you dialed has been turned off, please try again later."

"He is two o'clock and one line, and he never runs around." Xiaoman said, "He is different from other children."

"I think he is quite independent, and he has his own opinions when things happen, and nothing will happen."

"He is very dependent on me." Xiaoman said, scratching his hair several times, his head was so heavy that he couldn't lift it up, he could only stare at the ground and his own shadow on the ground, "It's my fault, I'm sorry Him, I texted back to ask who he is..."

The shadow was gray and strange, with horns on its head and claws on its hands, like a demon.Xiaoman shuddered.Yin Miaozai tugged at him, raised his voice, and asked, "You're not going to sister Xu's place, are you?"

Xiao Man still shook his head, still denied: "No."

"You are not the roundworm in his stomach, you can call and ask."

Xiaoman called again, to Sister Xu, to Sister Fangfang, to Sister Li.Either no one answered, or the other party was very noisy, and the music was deafening. Xiaoman had to ask loudly, "Is Lu Yang with you?"

"Did you see Lu Yang today?"

"No."

"I didn't see it."

"Is your dance hall still open?"

The busy tone beeped beeping.

Xiaoman's heart was pounding.His shadow rolled up from the ground, about to pounce on him, he rubbed his eyes, and tightly grasped Yin Miaozai's hand.Yin Miaozai comforted him: "Let's go back to the ballroom first, maybe his phone is dead and he has gone back." She asked, "Did something happen in school today?"

"Beep!"

The two were crossing the zebra crossing when a car ran a red light and sped past them.

"Beep beep beep!"

"Fuck, can you drive!"

"Mommy mommy!"

The sound of horns, shouts, and cries rang out. Xiaoman was startled, and dragged Yin Miaozai to the opposite side of the road. He told her: "Lu Yang knows he can't be a policeman anymore."

He panted heavily: "he knows I'm hiding it from him."

At night, the oxygen in the air seems to be getting thinner.Yin Miaozai looked at Xiaoman, sighed softly, didn't say any more, Xiaoman was also silent, he spent a lot of time exhaling, inhaling, and adjusting the rhythm of his breathing, but still couldn't get rid of the feeling of suffocation, he breathed Very tired.At the entrance of Mingdao Cafe, Yin Miaozai looked left and right, and asked, "Where's my car?"

After inquiring with the people in the café, they found out that after six o'clock the street was closed for parking and her car had been towed away.

Yin Miaozai laughed and was about to cry, and finally let out two crisp laughter to Xiaoman, Xiaoman saw her smile, and couldn't help laughing too.Yin Miaozai hailed a taxi, and the two sat side by side in the back row.

The driver was listening to the radio, Yin Miaozai still had a smile on her face, the corners of her mouth were slightly raised, she was looking out the window.Xiao Man was still smiling at this time, his face was a little stiff, and his facial features could only make up a "smile" expression.

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Xiaoman asked the driver with a smile: "Master, can you open the window for ventilation?"

The air conditioner in the car was buzzing and blowing air-conditioning, the driver glanced at Xiaoman from the rearview mirror, with a puzzled expression on his face: "Ventilation?" Suddenly, his face changed drastically, he turned on the turn signal, and changed his voice: "You Don't spit in my car!"

Yin Miaozai leaned to Xiaoman's side, and asked with concern: "Are you okay?" She touched Xiaoman's forehead, "Why are you sweating so much?" She hurriedly called the driver to stop.The driver slammed on the brakes, parked the car on the side of the road, and shouted at the top of his voice, "Spit up! Don't spit in my car!"

Xiaoman said helplessly, "I don't want to vomit, but I just want to breathe."

The driver said: "Then you open the window yourself." He turned around and looked at him suspiciously: "Are you really about to vomit?" He also impatiently taught Yin Miaozai, "What's the matter with your boyfriend? Don't you stop me? What time is it and you drink too much?"

Yin Miaozai said: "He may not have slept or rested well in the past few days, and he is not feeling well."

"You drive, we are in a hurry." Xiao Man suddenly had a flash of inspiration, and slapped his thigh: "Yes, there is still a landline, I will try calling the landline in the dance hall."

The driver restarted the car suspiciously.

Beep, beep, beep, beep.

The only thing waiting for Xiao Man is the busy tone.

Yin Miaozai said: "Otherwise, you should send a text message to apologize to him first, and tell him the reason why you kept it from him..."

"Apologize...yes, I did something wrong, I was wrong..." Xiaoman squeezed his phone, biting his nails, he lowered some car windows, hot air swam in, wrapped him like glue, and wrapped his body Hair and clothes stuck tightly to his skin.He lowered his head and silently typed on the phone.

I am sorry.

The car drove into Guanjing Boulevard in Fubei District. The two sides of the road are really lively. You can see couples of men and women everywhere, old people walking vigorously, fashionable women walking their dogs, young boys on skateboards, mothers Holding the baby, the father is holding the baby, a boy is chasing a girl, a girl is pushing a stroller about her height, showing a toothless mouth, balloon sellers are all over the street, flower girls are dodging The urban management followed, and the waiter at the entrance of the hotel shouted the count with a loudspeaker.

"Number 67! Three digits! Number 67!"

"Is there any? Number 67!"

"If you don't, you'll miss it!"

"Mom, mom, my sister is smiling at me, look."

"I want a bunny too."

"Ha ha ha ha."

"Crying."

Someone starts crying.Crying and crying as if the sky is falling, crying and crying.

"Tingting, Tingting...give me back my daughter, give me back my daughter..."

A funeral procession walked silently through the crowded streets.Xiaoman looked at those mourners dressed in white and asked Yin Miaozai, "Did you see those people?"

"The line in front of the grilled fish shop?"

"Is there only people in line in front of the grilled fish shop?"

Xiao Man grabbed his hair, scratched his temples with his uneven nails, and closed the window.

"Is it not ventilated?" The driver asked angrily.

Om, oom, oom, oom.

Cold air blows out from the air outlet.Xiaoman breathed into the air vent and swallowed a mouthful of saliva.

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Xiaoman felt sick for a while, and slapped the car door twice: "Stop, stop..."

The driver asked angrily, "What are you doing again?"

Xiaoman covered his mouth and the driver stopped the car. Xiaoman pushed open the door and vomited out.Yin Miaozai got out of the car from the other side, ran up to him to give him a break, and the driver also got out of the car cursing: "Didn't you vomit on the car?"

Yin Miaozai said, "I'm going to buy a bottle of water."

Xiaoman staggered down from the car, knelt on the side of the road and vomited, all the vomit was yellow bile.The driver asked in a low voice: "Young man, are you okay..."

His voice and tone of speaking suddenly became very soft, and the street lights were also soft. Xiaoman felt that someone was gently stroking his back, and that movement was also extremely soft.He vomited harder.

Yin Miaozai ran back, handed Xiaoman a bottle of water, and stuffed a pack of tissues into his hand.She paid the fare and sent the driver away. Xiaoman turned her head to the driver's back and said repeatedly, "I'm sorry, I'm sorry."

Yin Miaozai said: "Leave him alone, are you okay?"

Xiao Man slowed down a bit, rinsed his mouth, and took out his mobile phone to call Lu Yang.

"Sorry, the number you dialed is turned off, please try again later."

Xiaoman squatted on the ground to drink water, Yin Miaozai was by his side all the time: "Have you not eaten all day?"

Xiao Man asked her, "Is someone following us?"

"Who? No..."

"I'm sorry, I'm not in a good state today." Xiaoman stood up, looked around, and said, "It's not far away, let's go back."

Yin Miaozai nodded. When passing by a pharmacy, she went in and bought a box of stomach medicine and a bottle of Fengyoujing.Seeing these two things, Xiaoman laughed.He took stomach medicine, smelled the essential oil, and inhaled vigorously.

"why are you laughing?"

"It's nothing."

"Are you losing weight?"

"Easy fasting."

"I believe you are the only ghost." Yin Miaozai rolled his eyes.

"Have you ever seen a ghost?"

"Do you believe that there are ghosts in the world? The police also believe in supernatural powers?" Yin Miaozai said.

Xiao Man shook his head: "I don't believe in ghosts, I believe people can have hallucinations."

"Yes, that's right, people with that kind of persecution paranoia, they feel suspicious all day long that someone is following them or trying to harm them." Yin Miaozai said, "How do you distinguish hallucinations from ghosts?"

"Ghosts don't have shadows, but hallucinations have shadows. Hallucinations are like real people, confusing people."

Yin Miaozai said, "Here we are."

They returned to the downstairs of the Yaochi Grand Ballroom, and went upstairs, but the door of the ballroom was still locked. After entering, everything was exactly the same as when Xiaoman left in the afternoon, up and down, no one was there.There was a damp smell lingering in the room, Yin Miaozai went to draw the curtains and opened the windows.

The light of the golden neon lights hanging on the upper floor of the adjacent Baccarat Hotel spilled in, and the bright red walls of the ballroom floated with dark light.

Yin Miaozai said, "Will it be with that lawyer?"

Xiao Man sat by the window, lit a cigarette, and shook his head.It was a bit noisy outside the window, dynamic music could be vaguely heard, and people screamed and passed by from time to time.Suddenly, there was a sound of brisk footsteps downstairs, like a woman's footsteps.Xiaoman looked towards the door, and Yin Miaozai ran there excitedly: "Lu Yang??"

It was Sister Xu who came up. As soon as she entered the door, she walked towards Xiaoman, waving her arms and yelling: "Let me ask you, what's the matter with Louise? Why can't I get in touch with you? Turn off the phone and go to her place." I'm looking for her somewhere, and the co-tenant also said that she hasn't been back for several days, will she come to work part-time in the future, if she doesn't come in the next half a month, I have to find someone else quickly."

Xiao Man asked her: "Didn't Lu Yang look for you later?"

"No, do you have her home phone number? You can call and ask."

Xiao Man said, "I only have her mobile phone."

"No, how many days has she been gone? She has gone to Beijing, right? Then I should tell you!"

Yin Miaozai brought over two glasses of water: "Sister Xu, do you see who Lu Yang usually plays with?"

Sister Xu said: "Shouldn't you ask Xiaoman about this? Xiaoman, call Louise, why are you standing there? It's so hot, alas, let's turn on the air conditioner."

Yin Miaozai said, "Let's ventilate." She walked away to move the fan.

Xiaoman said: "Okay, okay, let me ask for you."

Xiao Man called Louise, but someone answered the call quickly, and the other party first asked, "Are you looking for Xu Luhua?"

It's a female voice, like Dai Rou's voice.

"Dai Rou?"

Dai Rou was silent for a moment, and then she asked softly: "Xiaoman... No wonder I see this number so familiar, this number is saved by her as a small boss, the size is small, you are her boss?"

"She sang at my place. I haven't seen her for several days. Why did you answer her cell phone?" Xiao Man straightened up and drank a big mouthful of water.

Sister Xu tugged at Xiaoman's sleeve and asked him, "Who is it, Louise? Call me, and I'll tell her, is she sick or something?"

There was still noise outside the window, a man yelling and a truck backing up.

"Please take care when reversing, please pay attention when reversing."

"Where are you now?" Dai Rou asked.

"Are you saying something? What's going on??" Sister Xu asked.

"Drip, drip, drip, drip."

"Is there anyone else around you?" Dai Rou said.

"It won't be in the hospital." Sister Xu said.

Xiao Man asked, "Is this a case of the task force?"

"Yes."

Xiaoman hung up the phone.He looked at Sister Xu: "Let's find someone else."

"What do you mean?"

"People are dead, don't be busy looking for someone, don't be busy..."

"Drip, drip, drip, drip."

Xiaoman said: "She hasn't shown up for several days, I should have realized something was wrong, it's my problem..."

A dragonfly flew in and landed silently on a red wall. In a daze, Xiaoman heard the sound of the curtain falling, a kind of dust settled, busy, went round and round and returned to the original point. The feeling suddenly hit his heart, and the whole world became completely quiet in an instant.

Xiaoman held the phone, the phone was so hot, so hot.He wanted to throw up again, felt nauseous, sick to his stomach, the headache came back, and the ringing in his ears came back, this time it sounded like a busy tone on the phone.The cold that had been silent for the entire afternoon came back at this moment, and it was so fierce that Xiaoman felt uncomfortable all over. He quickly understood that he couldn't stand this wave anymore, couldn't resist it anymore, and simply couldn't resist, so he was caught without a fight. Nose congestion, muscle aches, dizziness, tinnitus.

Sister Xu looked at Xiaoman, and Xiaoman looked at her mouth.Her lips moved up and down.

She said, "Then I'll go first..."

Yin Miaozai came back with the electric fan, plugged it in, and she started talking.Her voice was completely lost.

Why did sister Xu just leave?Have you got in touch with Louise yet?

A lot of things came out from that Xing Tianxiang. Do you know that the matter of killing Lin Midong is actually tricky. It seems to involve some disciplinary issues within the police force. Go ask Zhao You, he might be interested, but in fact it was because the policeman was too sloppy at that time, maybe he gave the real murderer a ten-year respite.

Have you texted Lu Yang yet?Just say sorry, it's very simple.Or should I edit it for you?Apologize sincerely, he will forgive you, in fact, maybe you should tell him earlier, this matter should not be hidden from him.

Xiaoman's ears could only hear the busy tone of the phone, the sound of the air-conditioning vent, the sound of fig leaves colliding, the sound of the computer case, and the sound of the printer.

Yin Miaozai's mouth was still moving, and there was a lot of noise around him, and all kinds of mourners sat in front of him, or stood in front of him and looked at him.

They don't speak.They were not breathing and neither was he.It's too noisy... It's too noisy outside the window, too noisy on the road, too noisy from the air conditioner, too noisy in the school, too noisy in the library, too noisy from the fan, too noisy from his heartbeat, too noisy from Yin Miaozai, He doesn't want to hear anything now, he just wants the world to be quiet again, just for a moment, just for a second.

He wanted to hide, to cover himself with his own shadow.

The dragonfly's wings moved, and Xiao Man said, "Stop talking."

"Do you know what to hide and what to say?"

"Then let me tell you now, I killed Lin Midong, and I was the policeman who disregarded human life. I apologize, I'm sorry, it's very simple, right? But what qualifications do I have to apologize? Why should others forgive me? Loved ones, how does it feel to lose a loved one and have no one to blame?"

meet edge meet edge

"Those cases are real human lives, those people are real people who have lived, they would have had a lot, and there would have been many good things waiting for them, love, marriage, children, family relationships Joy, success in career, walking the dog on the street, taking a walk, waiting in line for dinner, boring things, interesting things... many, many things are waiting for them...

"They're not a respite from your boring life, a detective game you pass the time, seek self-worth, and get the attention of your fiancé.

"Don't take other people's pain as your own antidote. Solving other people's problems can't help you get out of your shadow."

Yin Miaozai glanced at Xiaoman and took the purse.He saw the shape of her mouth.

"What do you know about me?"

She turned away.

Xiao Man was extremely tired and sleepy, so she crawled under the table, hugged her body tightly, and fell asleep leaning against the wall.