winter past

Xiao Manyuan wanted to take a taxi and rush there, but the cars were stopped, he touched his pocket and checked his phone, he could only scrape together ten yuan.He got out of the car resentfully, the driver cursed, kicked the accelerator and disappeared.Xiaoman had no choice but to take the bus to find Zhao You.

It took nearly an hour to get out of the development zone, waiting for the bus and changing buses. When Xiaoman finally got on the night bus leading to Ping'anmen, he didn't catch his breath when he got out of Yin's house. It even came up.He is less anxious.The bus crossed the bridge, went downhill, stopped suddenly, started suddenly, and the driver wobbled the car.The car can travel unimpeded in the exclusive lane of the bus.Xiaoman knew that he was getting closer and closer to the Aegean Sea.

There were not many people in the car, either dozing off or looking at their mobile phones intently. Everyone was very quiet, with almost no expression on their faces.Outside the car is much more lively, who knows why so many people are walking up and down the road, it is late at night, and there are still so many people not going home, whether alone or in pairs, what to look at They are all fresh, what to eat, what to drink, what to buy, scrambling to line up, get a number, wait, and gradually become expressionless.

The bus shook so badly that it was like sailing on land. Xiaoman saw a group of half-grown boys coming out of an Internet cafe together.He said "good night" to Lu Yang on WeChat.Lu Yang didn't reply to him.Since Lu Yang left, he would say "good night" to him every night at this time, and he has not received a single reply so far.I haven't even seen the message "The other party is typing..." before.

Xiaoman sat alone in the back row, the cold air was blowing at him, and the smell of wet plastic raincoat penetrated into his nose.He hugged his arms tightly and leaned against the car window. The glass window was sticky, and he wrote again: I've been fine recently.

A promotion pops up above the chat interface: "The other party is typing..."

Xiaoman was startled, and hurriedly sat upright, grabbed the phone and pinched herself.It wasn't a dream, but he wasn't sure if it was a hallucination.He touched the phone screen with his hand, but he could only touch the hard screen, not the line of words.

Lu Yang asked him: Why didn't you tell me about Louise?

Xiaoman tapped his head with his mobile phone, and cursed secretly: "Idiot! Xiaoman! You idiot! You can't do anything well!"

Lu Yang wrote again: I am not a child anymore, I can handle and digest such bad news, I know what happens when people die, everyone will die, right?

Xiaoman knocked himself on the head several times, sniffled, and replied: I'm sorry.

Lu Yang was probably very excited, and there were a lot of typos in the reply: I ask you to apologize from time to time, you just say sorry, you just apologize, you just don’t change it, I will tell you if I have a problem, why do you have a problem You just deflate yourself, you hide everything from me, why are you doing this, Xiaoman, you will die.

Xiaoman typed slowly: Everyone knows...

When he typed the word "death", Lu Yang said: Don't die.He never messaged again.Xiaoman deleted the typed words and typed again: Don't worry, I...

He deleted the line and stopped replying to messages.He didn't know what to answer.He was afraid that he would say the wrong thing again.There are too many mistakes in what he said, so let's not talk about it at all, but he still wants to apologize to Lu Yang. He has done many things wrong, and he has not handled many things properly.When people do something wrong, they just have to apologize, don’t they?But there are too many apologies, and every sentence of "I'm sorry" sounds so insincere.How should that person express his apology?How should one care about others, how to protect a person?He is afraid of bad news, bad news, those bad things will hurt others, he always doesn't know how to deal with them, he always chooses to wrap them up by himself, the psychologist said, you should share more with others and be honest , some things are not as bad as you think, your friends will not hate you because of these things, hate you.The psychiatrist didn't understand how repulsive the things he was hiding were.The psychiatrist said that talking is a good way to relieve stress. Here you can say anything, just say it. The psychiatrist doesn't know, some things he can never say to anyone.He said, okay, I'll tell you, I really need to talk.Psychiatrists don't know.He lied.He's lied too much, it's normal for him, it makes him look gregarious, he looks like a normal guy, his body is full of lies.

Lu Yang made no typos.It should be "deflated".He did have a lot of problems, and he really held them back for a long time, so that his soul was shriveled and almost disappeared.It's the heavy lies in his body that keep his feet on the ground.The only side effect may be that the lie has melted into his blood, rushed to his forehead, and blinded his senses. He often cannot distinguish between illusion and reality.

Maybe he should also go to the end of a certain movie and find a hole in a tree in Cambodia, tell it all his secrets, and then seal the hole with mud and leave his past there.

Xiao Man scratched the scar on his face.He remembered some scenes in that movie, he remembered watching that movie on the bed of Aegean Sea 404, he even remembered the background music, den, den, den den, as if someone was plucking the heartstrings.At that time, there was still a person sitting next to him.

Xiao Man slapped his head hard, he wanted to get those pictures and sounds out of his head, even if he couldn't get rid of them, he could press pause, right?Forced pause, forced shutdown, unplug the power!Delete file!Cut his past out of his body and burn it!throw it away!forget it! !

"Are you OK?"

A girl asked softly.

Xiaoman raised his head, and all the passengers in the bus were paying attention to him.The ghosts of the whole city seemed to wake up, squeezed onto the bus, and stayed in every gap between soul and body to look at him.There are big and small holes in everyone's body, as if waiting for big and small secrets to fill them.

Xiaoman ran out of the car, he fell on the platform, his arm was scratched, and his knee was red.A group of young people frolicked past, carefree, Xiaoman called out to them, and one of the young people looked back at him: "What are you doing?"

Xiao Man said, "Go home, it's not safe at night!"

"Crazy!" The boy spat, and strode away with his friends.

Xiaoman got up from the ground, wiped his hands on his clothes, and walked towards the Aegean Sea Hotel.

When he arrived at the entrance of the hotel, he saw a woman with heavy make-up and a tight leopard-print tube top skirt that only reached her thighs standing in front of the iron gate.The woman was smoking, she caught a glimpse of Xiao Man, threw away the cigarette, ran up to him on high heels, took his arm, and led him to the hotel, saying: "Wait to kill me! How could you do that?" Come on! Your colleague asked me to come down to pick you up, and I have been waiting for more than ten minutes!"

Xiaoman blinked and blinked: "Sorry, the bus is off schedule."

The woman waved her hand: "Forget it, forget it, anyway, I charge by the clock, just count it for me."

When the two entered the hotel, Qian Haoyang, who was sitting in the iron cage at the front desk, saw Xiaoman, his neck stretched so long, his eyes almost popped out, and he was about to get angry when he pointed at Xiaoman. The woman stretched out her hand and patted Qian Haoyang. Yang rubbed his forehead, pinched his cheeks, pushed him back, and said: "Brother Hui, don't hinder my mother's business!"

"Are you doing his business??" Qian Haoyang couldn't believe it.

"Why? Can't you? Haven't you seen a calf eating old grass?" The woman lifted her skirt, twisted her waist twice, and walked away with Xiao Man on her arm.

Xiaoman heard two aggressive sounds from behind, as if someone was throwing darts.Xiaoman and the woman entered the stairwell, and he asked the woman in a low voice, "Did you make an appointment with someone from 404?"

The woman stepped on high heels, but walked much faster than Xiao Man, she smiled and winked at him: "Handsome guy, you are so excited."

"The 404 person asked you to be..."

The woman said: "Hey, do you want me to take off the skirt later? Hey, you should borrow your seat. If you take it off, it's not good if you accidentally reveal it? It will be deleted by the platform, right?"

Xiao Man smiled and didn't answer, the woman glanced at him and snuggled up to him, she smelled like a bouquet of jasmine flowers in bud.She showed a distressed look, raised her nail-painted fingers, stroked his forehead, blew a few breaths on his face, and said miserably: "What's the matter with your scar, come on, sister!" Huh, ouch, such a pretty little face, sister Huhu."

Xiao Man felt a little itchy from her, curled up his neck, and asked her, "What's your name?"

"Call me Ah Hong."

When we got to the fourth floor and entered 404, the door was unlocked and all the lights in the room were turned on. The room still looked very dark, but the TV was very bright.

Ah Hong pushed Xiao Man in and asked, "Do you lock the door?"

Zhao You sat on the bed, looked at them, and nodded.He was stacking playing cards on the bed, stacked several layers, and piled up very high, with a lot of colorful sticky notes pasted on his face.

Ah Hong twisted her waist and swayed to Xiaoman's eyes: "Before you, the photographer, came, we had no choice but to play cards."

Xiaoman looked at Zhao You, pointed at himself, Zhao You said, "Then let's go to the bathroom."

He also stuck a few sticky notes on his nose, and when he spoke or was silent, those notes flew around.It looks a little funny.Xiaoman smiled.

Zhao You also smiled, and carefully got off the bed. The tower of cards on the bed was still stable. Ah Hong stood by the table in the room, took out the makeup mirror to touch up makeup and lipstick.Zhao You walked up to Xiao Man, and whispered to him, "Didn't you suspect that this room might be the first scene of the Kong Ting case? I was very curious after you said it, just so..."

"Just right?"

There was a very familiar fragrance on Zhao You's body. He glanced at Ah Hong and scratched the bridge of his nose with a smile: "In this way, there is no need to register for an ID card. I heard from Sister Hong that you can also delete videos, and it has been verified from the side that even today's , There is also a way to open a house here without registering an ID card and leaving no traces."

Zhao You pointed to the big bed next to him: "Do you want to eat butterfly crisps? Have you been drinking for another day without eating?"

Xiao Man turned around and saw that there was a carton from a bakery on the bed, and beside the carton was a large envelope with a few lines printed on it.On the TV, more than a dozen people, men, women, young and old, greeted each other happily, so noisy, so bright, the words on the envelope were clearly illuminated.Printed on it is the name and address of Qingshi Traffic Radio Station.

Xiaoman glanced at Zhao You and asked him, "How do you assign the role? I'm a photographer?"

Zhao You took out the mobile phone and handed it to him: "Yes, you shoot, I am the murderer, and she is the victim."

Xiaoman took out his mobile phone, and whispered to him: "Xiao Jing has a new discovery, the video may be shot with one of the three mobile phones, my model is closer to those three mobile phones, use my Yes."

Zhao You went to talk to Ah Hong: "Sister Hong, I'll be counting on you later, whether our short play can be favored by the boss or not, it's all up to you to be on the hot list."

Ah Hong giggled and pulled the sticky note off Zhao You's face. Zhao You rubbed his face and walked to the door with her. Then Ah Hong immediately leaned on him and fell unconscious.

Xiaoman took out his mobile phone, turned on the camera mode, stood in front of the TV and pointed the camera at them.Zhao You held A Hong's waist, helped her to walk in, passed by Xiao Man to the bathroom, Xiao Man turned an angle, Zhao You carried A Hong horizontally, and walked towards the bathtub.Xiao Man followed, Zhao You put Ah Hong in the bathtub, and he himself squatted by the bathtub, looked down at first, and then began to take off his clothes, pants, shoes, and socks. Then, he stepped into the bathtub, bent over and squatted down.

Sour water rose in Xiaoman's stomach.Zhao You looked back at him, his dark eyes were like two hard and cold stones, without emotion, unlike human eyes, like the eyes of gods enshrined in temples who watch the world with cold eyes.Xiao Man's heart skipped a beat, and his hairs stood on end.There seemed to be a person standing in the bathtub looking at him, and that person's eyes were also pitch black. That person should be dead, long ago.Xiaoman didn't dare to look, didn't want to look, his hand slowly dropped.

Ah Hong raised her head at this moment and asked, "Are you ready?"

Zhao You smiled immediately, and became kind again: "Okay, I didn't step on you, did I?"

It was just the two of them in the bathtub again.

Ah Hong said, "Hey, are you all gone?" She beckoned Xiaoman over, "Let me see?"

Xiaoman rushed to the toilet and threw up while hugging the toilet.Ah Hong yelled, got up and asked him, "Are you okay?"

She said: "Handsome guy, go outside and get my bag. There is liver protection medicine in my bag. Did you drink too much? Oh, I smelled alcohol on you just now!"

Both Zhao You and Ah Hong went out, and after a while, Zhao You came in again. He was afraid of patting Xiaoman, so he handed him a bottle of mineral water and a box of liver protection medicine.The cap of the bottle of mineral water was unscrewed, Xiaoman drank a few sips of water, rinsed his mouth, and said first: "The perfume on your body smells so strong."

"Ah, is it Miss Hong's?" Zhao You pulled up his clothes and smelled it, "It smells like jasmine."

"No." Xiaoman sat on the ground and threw the phone to him, "Take a look, is it the effect you want?"

"Is he okay?" Ah Hong asked loudly outside.

Zhao You looked at Xiaoman, and replied loudly: "It's okay! I'm still vomiting, it's fine when I finish vomiting."

Zhao You went to close the door, and said: "There are often men who come here with drunk women. I inquired about it, and it was probably like this before. If Lin Midong helped a woman go upstairs, the boss I don't think there is anything strange, and his previous identity registration was written by hand. If he didn't want to register, it probably wouldn't be a big problem. He can kill people, embalm, and re-dress the dead. Pretend that the deceased is still drunk, and then help the deceased to leave grandly."

Xiao Man said, "You seem very happy."

Zhao You sat next to him and said, "Of course I'll be happy when I think of a highly probable way of committing a crime."

Xiao Man spit out some acid water again, he pulled some paper towels to wipe his mouth, flushed the water, and asked Zhao You: "You are very knowledgeable, do you know what kind of bloodthirsty god? The kind of twisted, bloodthirsty god The compassionate kind."

Zhao You said: "Isn't there bloodthirsty in Western mythology?"

Xiaoman shook his head, took out the cigarette and lighter, took a cigarette out of the cigarette case, and drank it.

Zhao You said: "Why don't you eat some butterfly crisps to pad your stomach? It's quite delicious."

Xiao Man turned his head, looked at the wall behind the bathtub, and said, "It's strange, people nowadays don't seem to be afraid of these things."

"what?"

The canned laughter that would appear in variety shows came from outside.

Xiaoman scratched his hair and said: "When the first case came out ten years ago, there was no one on the street after eight o'clock in the evening. Now...it seems to be happy, and the moment is the most important thing." He covered his forehead and let his hair Covering his eyes, a sour smell gushed out of the toilet. He leaned against the toilet and said, "Both Louise and Yu Meng attended a psychological counseling class organized by Hongfeng. She may have considered suicide. I don't know anything at all, if I cared more about her..."

Zhao You said: "You should care more about the people around you, the people around you."

Xiaoman brushed his hair back, but didn't react for a while, and asked him dumbly: "Isn't it my fault that you should comfort me?"

Zhao You smiled: "You are so strange, do you always write scripts in advance when you talk to people? What if you don't follow the script?"

Xiaoman laughed and rolled his eyes: "I can write many scripts."

Zhao You pouted at him, Xiaoman handed him the cigarette and lighter he was biting, Zhao You lit the cigarette, took a puff, and returned it to Xiaoman.Xiaoman also took a puff, and asked Zhao You: "Can you get Yu Meng's autopsy report, can you get the photo of the golf bag?"

"We'd better go and ask the security guy who picked up the ball bag."

Zhao You said: "Do you really don't want to talk to me about the case ten years ago?" He looked at him: "You have been changing the topic. Regarding the case ten years ago, what are you afraid or unwilling to talk about? What are you facing?"

Xiao Man was stunned: "I didn't realize you were so good at chatting before."

Zhao You stretched out his hand and pressed down on the ground: "This is the worst performance I have when dealing with people and dealing with people's feelings. The bottom line is that it makes people very unhappy, very annoying level of outspokenness. I will put the worst performance now. I'll show you that, can you accept me like this?"

Xiaoman asked him: "What do you want from me?"

Zhao You blinked twice, thought for a while, looked at Xiaoman seriously, and said, "I don't know, maybe I haven't been with the person I like, and I don't know what will happen, just think about it." I think it's very interesting, but don't put too much pressure on you. I like you, but it doesn't mean I need you and I like me. I want to be with you, but we don't have to be together. If you don't like me, I will approach you , then tell me, and I will keep a distance from you immediately."

After he said so much, Xiao Man was overwhelmed for a while, so he asked him: "Have you met A Jie and Xiao Yuan?"

Zhao You nodded: "I know something about your past." He said, "If you don't want me to keep secrets from you, I can do it, but if you want to have secrets, I don't care. "

Xiaoman snorted: "Of course you don't care, you will try to find out by yourself."

Zhao Youdao: "That's not the case, it just so happens that your matter overlaps with some other matters..."

Xiao Man patted him and said: "To tell you the truth, I didn't tell Xiao Jing and the others that day, one was because I was afraid they would ask more questions, and the other was that it wasn't something I was willing to bring up again. Lin Midong and I I know him through a radio program, and we talked a few times. I don’t know where he works. When I checked the funeral home staff, I didn’t check him. Later, I checked the records and found out that he was working in the funeral home. Yes, I also found his shift record very suspicious, plus some information he revealed when chatting with me, such as his father used to be a doctor, he had a certain obsession with the incompleteness of the human body, and said that the dead He was very relaxed. I suspected that he might be the murderer, so I asked him to come here for a meeting. I didn't want to startle the enemy, but I was afraid that he would run away, so I called Dai Rou just to be on the safe side. Lin Midong was still very sharp. We chatted for a while , he may feel that his identity has been exposed, and he suddenly became hysterical. I managed to control him. When Dai Rou came, the scene suddenly became chaotic. He took the opportunity to hold Dai Rou hostage. I had no choice but to shoot him dead. We must take him back for a proper trial, how many crimes he has committed and how many people he has killed, no matter what we have to give the families of the victims an explanation."

Xiaoman said: "I didn't think carefully about this matter. I shouldn't have come here alone."

He wiped the sweat off his face: "Dai Rou and I lied, she didn't know about my relationship with Lin Midong, she thought I really found out by myself, I couldn't say it, I was gay, I still I have been in contact with this perverted murderer, so I don't care what other people think about me, but when the news gets out, what will everyone think of our second team and the criminal investigation team of the Municipal Bureau? After much deliberation, I can't stay in the police force any longer. Just resigned."

After finishing speaking, he glanced at Zhao You: "Is there anything else you want to ask, do you want to know?"

Zhao You said, "That's all you want to say, isn't it?"

"Yes."

At this time, Ah Hong came over and knocked on the door, and said, "I'm here, two handsome guys."

Xiaoman stood up holding the toilet, dragged her numb legs, walked to open the door, and asked her, "How did you go back?"

"Take a taxi." Ah Hong fiddled with her long curly hair, and another burst of jasmine scent hit her.

Xiaoman said: "Then you have to walk to the main intersection to take a taxi, right?"

"correct."

"Let me see you off. It's not peaceful outside recently, it's getting late."

Ah Hong patted her chest flattered: "Wow, I met two money-spreading boys today." She threw herself into Xiao Man's arms with a smile.

I don't know whose stomach growled.Xiao Man looked at A Hong, and A Hong stared at him, Xiao Man heard Zhao You slowly ask behind him: "How about... shall we have a late-night snack together?"

He said, "I have a treat."

Ah Hong immediately took out her mobile phone and clicked a few times: "Is the bone soup good? I have group purchase coupons and haven't used them up yet!"