summer passerby

After his birthday, He Ting always forgot to take the medicine for depression.

At first, I felt dizzy and nauseated. After a long time, I found that it was no different from before. The insomnia still persisted all night, and my hair still fell out in large quantities, so I simply stopped taking the medicine.

He met Ye Zhiming in the first week after stopping the drug, and Ye Zhiming asked him if he had any contact with Xu Ming recently.

He heard: "The last time we met was a year ago. He came to New York and gave me a dress designed by himself. It looks pretty good."

"Still did what he wanted to do," Ye Zhiming smiled, "Is he still...alone?"

He Ting bit his cigarette and nodded. He didn't know where to start. After thinking for a while, he decided to tell the truth: "It's just that I have had a few boyfriends one after another. It's not definite."

What he didn't say is that those boyfriends look a lot like you in the photos.

It's just that Xu Ming refused to admit this.

So He Ting chose not to say anything. The experience of the past few years told him that if he is not sure about the outcome, he should not give people hope.

The wind on the balcony blew up the soot, and through the finely scattered white smoke petals, he could clearly see that the smile in Ye Zhiming's eyes froze.

Inexplicably, he felt sad, and found himself less and less willing to recall the past.

The high school days accompanied by people I like were always thought to be slow and long, but I don't know that when I look back, it has already ended hastily.

They were all just passers-by in that bright summer of seventeen or eighteen.

What can't be kept, will eventually pass.

He Chenxing underwent chemotherapy twice, but the effect was not satisfactory. He couldn't find a better matching bone marrow, so the doctor asked He Ting to make preparations.

He Ting, who has always had a disordered schedule, started long-distance running every day under the doctor's advice, exercising, and going to bed on time to ensure that his body is in the best condition when undergoing bone marrow transplantation.

After shaving his head, He Chenxing didn't like looking in the mirror very much. He Ting bought him various hats and wigs, because recently he seemed to like a girl in the same courtyard, and every time he went downstairs to meet, he would dress up carefully.

He Ting didn't know much about that girl, only that her name was Ni Meng, and she was hospitalized because her right leg was amputated in a car accident.

The girl looked weak and weak, about fourteen or fifteen years old, slightly older than He Chenxing.

Sometimes He Chenxing would give her fruit and desserts, and sometimes the two children would sit in the yard and watch the tablet, laughing while watching.

He Ting watched from afar, and occasionally Jiang Xindong's face would pop up in his mind, as well as bits and pieces from four years ago.It would be a lie to say that it is not sad at all, but the mood is no longer fluctuating violently, it is more like a faint pain that is peeling off the cocoon.

He has lost interest in many things recently, and the only thing he cares about is He Chenxing's condition.

One day when I went to the hospital after work, I saw the doctor performing a bone marrow puncture on He Chenxing. Seeing a needle as long as a palm inserted into his skin and tender flesh, He Ting suddenly had a sour feeling in his eyes, and couldn't help it. At the beginning of the stay, I happened to see Li Man who was secretly wiping tears in the corner.

At that moment, He Ting couldn't help but think, if he could exchange his life for He Chenxing, anyway, he doesn't have much yearning for this world, and it just so happens that this world doesn't need him too much.

All are happy.

The nurses in the hospital all said that they envied He Chenxing, who had a brother who doted on him.

Li Man saw it, and every time he went to the hospital, he would bring two meals, one for He Chenxing and one for He Ting.

He Wenbin gave He Ting a valuable scooter.It is very troublesome to go to and from the hospital and the company every day, He Tingtu asked for convenience, and did not refuse.

Just driving this car to the company with a car that obviously exceeds the current income, to some extent confirmed the rumor that he is a rich second generation.

But he didn't care, because he had already planned to return to New York when He Chenxing's condition improved.

Once talking about this matter on the phone, He Wenbin seldom persuaded him earnestly: "It's better for the family to get together, as long as you find a girl to marry..."

He Ting lowered his eyes, raised his finger and hung up the phone.

Summer is the peak tourist season in City B. At night, the lights are bright and the traffic is endless.

He Ting hasn't posted on Weibo for a while, one is busy, and the other is because he doesn't want to.

The weather was fine today. It was only eight o'clock when he got home, so he opened Weibo to browse casually.

The kdfskswibb account has accumulated thousands of messages, and most of the private messages are urging him to post works related to Jiang Xindong.

It's normal, this account was originally created for Jiang Xindong, and the fans are all for Jiang Xindong.

Even if He Ting and Jiang Xindong are done playing in the three-dimensional, it does not prevent him from wanting to continue in Two-dimensional.

He turned on the computer and exported a dozen or so portraits of Jiang Xindong stored in the cloud.During the four years in the United States, I drew it one by one with a tablet computer. When I was depressed, when I was busy with my internship, I never thought of stopping.

Painting and missing seems to have become a living habit.

He Ting turned on PS, carefully erased the initials "HT" in the lower right corner of these paintings, and then posted them on Weibo one by one.

There are many words that I have held back for four years and I can no longer say them, but these paintings that I have painstakingly drawn can still be appreciated by others, which is considered lucky among misfortunes.

After posting these paintings, it was nearly midnight.He Ting opened a bottle of beer and sat on the balcony to enjoy the breeze, while the phone's notification tone kept ringing nearby.

In less than 10 minutes, the pictures posted by the account kdfskswibb were liked and forwarded wildly.In the painting with the best data, Jiang Xindong stands under the shade of a tree and looks back, with dots of light spots printed on his three-dimensional facial features, midsummer casts a hazy shadow on his body, and the whole person seems to have walked from outside time.

He Ting sighed infinitely. This painting was originally a photo. He secretly took it when he went to Yi Fan's house for a barbecue that summer. At that time, he and Jiang Xindong hadn't confirmed their relationship. Friends are gone.

He stared at the painting for a few seconds, and suddenly realized something, and his heart tightened—he had never posted this photo on a public platform, but Jiang Xindong had seen it.

If Jiang Xindong's memory is good enough, will he remember that photo and thus infer the person who painted it?

But He Ting quickly overturned this idea - it's more likely that others don't remember anything at all, and even if they do, they don't care. After all, time has changed and there are new people around, who wants to care about the old things that are so old?

He thought his nervousness was ridiculous, hesitated for a while, and deleted the painting from Weibo.

At this time, a picture of a rabbit popped up frequently in private messages on Weibo.

It was the third time today that He Ting noticed that the avatar was on the top, so he clicked it out of curiosity.

Rabbit: "Ma'am, every time I look at your paintings, I am amazed! I really like it! I know you only like Dongdong, but if you want, can you please choose a picture from the photos I sent to make a picture?" , humble CP party, please!"

The private message was very polite, He Ting's eyes moved down, but the position of his heart was suddenly stabbed.

The pictures that Rabbit sent were all photos of Jiang Xindong and Dai Ruochi together, some backstage at the awards ceremony, and some snapshots of the two at the airport.The latest one is Jiang Xindong getting off the car, Dai Ruochi is standing less than one meter away from him, the camera zooms to the front, just rightly skipping the unimportant staff around.In the photo, the light and shadow are ambiguous, and the eyes of the two are facing each other, and the corners of their mouths seem to be smiling.

Anyone who reads it can't say a good match.

He Ting drank the wine to the bottom in one breath, and the blood on his face faded completely.

He wandered around Weibo by accident, and realized that he really hadn't cared about the entertainment industry for too long, and missed a lot of interesting news.

For example, recently Jiang Xindong and Dai Ruochi participated in a music variety show together, Dai Ruochi wrote a song, the title of the song is blatantly sweet to show off - Thisistimetolove.

Another example is that these two people now have a considerable number of CP fans, and the CP name given to them by fans is "Idiot Xin Baitou", which means infatuated lovers until they grow old.

He Ting laughed as he watched, in fact, it was not a big deal that he had known for a long time.It's just that I don't know why the internal organs in the body seem to have shifted, and they are crowded and painful.

Half a minute later, he posted the last Weibo of the kdfskswibb account:

That's all for the painting, I won't post it in the future, don't read the private message, this account will become invalid from today.I wish all the CPs you kowtow can grow old.

After pressing the send button, he exited and long pressed the Weibo icon on the main menu of the mobile phone. When the pop-up window popped up, he chose to delete the app without hesitation.

The author says:

Let me tell you an important thing: if you really suffer from depression, remember to follow the doctor's advice and don't stop taking the medicine casually, otherwise it may cause serious and irreparable consequences!