Gold medal pet

It lasted almost two months.

Since moving that day, Xiao Nan hasn't had a good night's sleep.

I always dare not fall asleep. I feel that as soon as I fall asleep, someone will come to find me in my dream.

Who is that person?

Tall, broad shoulders.

Sometimes I hear his laugh, sometimes I hear his cry.

Who is that person?

Xiao Nan remembered that he seemed to blur that face with great effort, rubbing it again and again until he couldn't see the face clearly.

Just remember a vague outline.

Can't remember anything else.

Now Xiao Nan does everything by himself.

When I woke up in the morning, I rode my bike to school alone.

I eat at school at noon, and I am alone.

When I came back from self-study in the evening, I was still alone.

So lonely.

So lonely.

Xiao Nan never said that he felt lonely.

However, Xiao Nan feels so lonely now.

Like, something very important is missing.

My heart is so empty.

When evening self-study ends, Xiao Nan is always the last to leave.

why.

Every time it seems like a fixed habit, Xiao Nan always packs his schoolbag, and then stands at the corner of the corridor all the time.

He stared blankly at the crowd after school, passing by in front of him.

One by one, in groups, in batches.

One class was gone, two classes were gone.

Eventually, the entire floor was gone.

Then, Xiao Nan was left alone.

Carrying his schoolbag, Xiao Nan walked forward.

Walked through shift one, passed shift two, and stopped at shift three.

Always stop here, then, lean on the window.

Xiao Nan looked at the dark classroom, looking at a desk.

There, it was empty.

Now there is another classmate sitting in that seat.

Every day, I sit in that seat, attend class, do questions, and take a nap.

But I still feel that the desk is different.

It's just different.

After watching for 1 minute, 2 minutes, finally, after 5 minutes, Xiao Nan stood up straight, turned and left.

When he got to the garage, Xiao Nan was always surprised.

Why did everyone in the garage leave, why was he the last one to leave.

I am really dawdling.

Xiao Nan forgot what happened just now.

Never remember.

When riding home, Xiao Nan always likes to look at those street lights.

Those street lights seem to have something to say to themselves.

Say what?

It's like telling a personal story.

Oh no, it's a story of two people.

Telling the story of two people, who and who.

do not know.

The street lamp seems to be saying that once upon a time there were two people.

One is a boy and the other is also a boy.

They go home together every day, riding their bikes, talking and always having a good laugh.

However, Xiao Nan wondered why he couldn't meet those two boys.

Bad luck.

That night, Xiao Nan still suffered from insomnia.

I thought that if I made myself very tired every day, I would definitely fall asleep.

As a result, every night when the light is turned off and lying in bed, Xiao Nan becomes extremely awake.

Always keep your eyes open and look at the roof in the dark.

Xiao Nan didn't know what to look at.

Just looking at the roof like this, Xiao Nan slowly fell asleep until the early morning.

day to day.

Two months later, Xiao Nan lost several kilograms.

Mother Xiao also blamed herself for not taking good care of Xiao Nan.

Xiao Nan understood that it was all caused by her insomnia.

However, Xiao Nan didn't tell her mother.

Because it's useless.

Just can't sleep.

Maybe the body just couldn't take it anymore. One day during physical education class, Xiao Nan got a nosebleed and passed out.

There was no sign at all, Xiao Nan sat alone on the concrete floor, watching a group of boys playing basketball.

Looking at it, the figures in front of them began to overlap.

Then, a stream of blood flowed from the nose.

Xiao Nan didn't even have time to see the blood dripping on his feet when his eyes went dark and he fell over like a log.

Afterwards, many people rushed over, forming a circle in a dark mass.

Xiao Nan was lying in the middle, and a few classmates squeezed over from the crowd to help carry Xiao Nan to the infirmary.

Xiao Nan was lying on the bed, an aunt showed Xiao Nan, and said that it was caused by overwork.

Those classmates glanced at Xiao Nan on the bed, and then looked at each other.

I thought to myself, this Xueba is really working too hard.

Make yourself like this.

Several students went back to explain the situation to the teacher, and Xiao Nan stayed in the infirmary alone.

After lying down for about two hours, Xiao Nan woke up in a daze.

Blinking his eyes, Xiao Nan looked around.

Where are you?

Feel dizzy.

Xiao Nan reached out to brush his face, and suddenly saw an aunt walking in the door.

Auntie smiled and told Xiao Nan about the situation.

Only then did Xiao Nan nod his head, remembering what happened when he fainted from a nosebleed just now.

Aunt asked:

"Student, are you under too much study pressure?"

Xiao Nan froze for a moment, then shook his head.

Auntie smiled and said.

"Don't put so much pressure on yourself, it's not worth it when you're physically exhausted."

Xiao Nan suddenly thought of Wu Tao.

Wu Tao's mother said the same thing before.

Auntie said again:

"Sleep well for a while, your teacher already knows about your situation, and said to let you have a good rest, and go back to the classroom after a good sleep, or you can ask for leave and go back to rest."

"Don't worry, take a good rest. I still have something to do. I'll go back to the office first. Call me if you have anything to do."

After the aunt finished speaking, she left.

Xiao Nan watched Auntie off until the figure disappeared.

The room fell silent again.

Xiao Nan opened his eyes and looked at the roof again, which he has often done this time.

It sounded like someone was talking.

Buzzing, what are you talking about.

"Are you lying to me?"

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"Don't worry, I'm here."

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"You, you disgusting thing!"

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Then, there seemed to be another quarrel and crying.

"Get up for me!"

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"let it go······"

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"The one I can't afford to lose is you."

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It's noisy, it's noisy.

Xiao Nan clutched his head in discomfort, with a splitting headache.

The body began to tremble uncontrollably, and after a while, there was a whimper.

From silent sobs, to small whimpers, and finally, a tendency to cry loudly.

Xiao Nan stretched out his hand to cover the quilt, covering himself in it.

Then, I couldn't stop crying.

It turned out that there are still memories.

Haven't forgotten yet.

Everything that gets better is a lie.

They are all deceiving themselves.

why.

Could it be that he really had to wait a few years before he could escape?

However, I don't know how to get through it now, and how to get through those years.

Who will save yourself, who will save yourself...

The cry in my heart seemed to be drowned by endless darkness, without any echo.

Chapter 74 Will there be that day Wait until after five o'clock, Xiao Nan left the infirmary and went to the cafeteria to eat.

There is no one in the cafeteria, and almost everyone has returned to the classroom, because the evening self-study is about to start.

Xiao Nan made a bowl of porridge and a bun on the first floor.

Just eat a little, anyway, you can't taste anything.

After eating, Xiao Nan went back to the classroom.

When I got to the stairs on the third floor, I happened to meet the head teacher standing there.

The head teacher is Xiao Nan's physics teacher, surnamed Yuan.

I'm in my 40s, but I have a lot of gray hair on my head. I don't know if it's hereditary or because I'm overworked.

I heard from others that Mr. Yuan has supervised the third year of senior high school for several years, and his grades are very good every time.

Teacher Yuan has a son who has entered a very good university.

It can be regarded as a person with a smooth career and a happy family.

Teacher Yuan, who looks very calm, wears a pair of thin-rimmed glasses, doesn't like to smile, and has no expression.

Xiao Nan felt that Teacher Yuan was more like teaching Chinese.

There is a generosity of compassion for the world.

Xiao Nan called the teacher hello, then walked slowly towards the classroom.

Teacher Yuan suddenly stopped Xiao Nan from behind.

Xiao Nan paused, then turned around.

Teacher Yuan beckoned, motioning for Xiao Nan to come over.

Teacher Yuan took Xiao Nan to the corridor next to it. This is the corner of the teaching building. You can see the school gate and the flower bed in the center.

Xiao Nan stood beside him, lowered his head, and did not speak.

After standing quietly for a while, Teacher Yuan turned around and looked at Xiao Nan.

Being looked at like this, Xiao Nan didn't feel uncomfortable.

Perhaps, it was because Xiao Nan respected Teacher Yuan very much.

Teacher Yuan looked at it for a while and said:

"Xiao Nan, do you have something on your mind?"

Xiao Nan was taken aback.

Others felt that they were under too much pressure, but Teacher Yuan got it right.

was seen.

Xiao Nan was a little nervous at once, and Teacher Yuan saw all of this.

this kid.

It's a bit worrying.

Teacher Yuan said:

"Is there something that bothers me, can you tell me?"

"Don't be afraid. Although I am a teacher, I am also an elder. I also want to care about my students."

"Just treat me like an uncle,"

Teacher Yuan smiled slightly, very kindly.

Xiao Nan struggled a little in his heart.

Can you tell someone about this?

Even Teacher Yuan hates this kind of thing.

Must be disgusting.

Xiao Nan snorted coldly in his heart.

Yes, how could such a thing be said.

No one will understand respect.

After struggling for a while, Xiao Nan calmed down again, with a dull expression on his face.

Teacher Yuan frowned, worried about Xiao Nan.

Xiao Nan is a student with excellent grades. Teacher Yuan has always been optimistic about Xiao Nan, hoping that he can be admitted to a good university.

However, Xiao Nan's current situation made Teacher Yuan very worried.

I always feel that the child has become dull and in a bad state.

I don't know what happened to have such a big impact.

"Aren't you going to tell me?"

Teacher Yuan asked again.

Xiao Nan was silent for a while, then raised his head.

"Teacher, I want to ask you some questions."

Teacher Yuan nodded.

"You said."

Xiao Nan then asked:

"Are each of us free?"

"of course."

"As long as we don't violate the law and endanger society and others, we are all free."

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"So, are we all equal?"

"Of course, every life is equal and precious."

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"Do we have the right to choose what we want?"

"of course can."

"Anything obtained through one's own efforts is worthy of respect and respect."

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"But why, what adults always say is different from what they do."

Teacher Yuan paused, and looked at Xiao Nan silently.

Xiao Nan added:

"Obviously did not hurt others, but still hurt, obviously sincere, but was despised and cast aside."

"Is there really freedom, equality, and tolerance in this world?"

"Still, everything is high-sounding."

Teacher Yuan didn't speak, and didn't understand why Xiao Nan said that.

After a while, Teacher Yuan said:

"I don't know why you say that, but if you think the world is not beautiful, I think it will be beautiful one day."

"Because there will always be people trying to improve society, and society will become more and more tolerant."

Xiao Nan was slightly taken aback.

I don't know if I should have hope or not.

Can I see such a day?

do not know.

Xiao Nan sighed and said:

"Thank you teacher for your concern. I won't affect my studies, because I still have reasons to struggle."

Teacher Yuan nodded, although he couldn't feel relieved, but since Xiao Nan said so, let's rest assured for now.

After the conversation, Xiao Nan returned to the classroom.

Teacher Yuan stood there, watching Xiao Nan's leaving back, frowning.

Later, Xiao Nan heard from her mother that Ding Yuheng had already left the country.

That day, Mother Xiao went shopping outside, and happened to see Papa Ding and Mama Ding.

Xiao's mother said that Ding's father and Ding's mother had strange expressions.

Unlike before, Mama Ding was always smiling and very kind.

Maybe it's because I'm busy with going abroad, so I'm a little tired.

Mother Xiao said so.

Mother Xiao asked Ding Yuheng which country he went to, but they didn't say.

They also asked when they would come back, but they didn't say anything.

What's the point of keeping these things a secret?

Xiao's mother shook her head, thinking, since people don't want to talk about it, then forget it.

After all, this is someone else's business.

They didn't even ask about Xiao Nan's recent situation.

Xiao's mother said a lot of recent things by herself, until later, Ding's father and Ding's mother seemed to be unwell, and hurriedly said hello, saying that there was something to do, and then left in a hurry.

In short, Xiao's mother felt that the meeting was very bad.

Ding's father and Ding's mother seemed unwilling to see themselves.

But forget it, after all, I have been favored by the Ding family.

Still have to thank them.

While Xiao's mother was talking, she didn't notice Xiao Nan over there.

Turning his back, tears rolled in his eyes.

Xiao Nan stroked the book in his hand.

The book left by Ding Yuheng.

Thinking that the guy hadn't done his homework for the summer vacation, he begged himself to help with writing.

It turned out that there was no need to write, and I was going abroad.

Is everything predestined?

It turned out that everything was empty.

Now Xiao Nan has only that memory and these two books.

When we moved that day, Xiao Nan didn't take any commemorative things.

I dare not take it either.

Fortunately, fortunately, these two books.

There is also Ding Yuheng's name written on it, as well as his notes.

That's enough.

Let these two books accompany me through this period of time.

When the wound is healed, the two books can be stored away.

And that part of the past is gone.