Another Love

sound of water.

"Zhao Ziqing, you don't love me anymore, do you?" Zhou Yingchen was so emotional that he didn't notice that there was a new person on the phone.

"There's nothing to say, is there?" Zhao Ziqing frowned, and when he left the room, he saw the light in the bathroom.

"There's nothing more to say." The other end of the phone seemed to be chewing on the sentence, "I never expected, Zhao Ziqing, that you would say this to me." It was heard that Zhou Yingchen's voice was very hoarse, what did he do to make his voice become like this?Zhao Ziqing was not an idiot, he knew that the person who never cried easily, cried hoarsely because of him.His heart clenched, this was the third time.

"How can you believe it?" Zhou Yingchen's voice seemed to be disconnected.

"..." Zhao Ziqing walked to the balcony, and the moist wind in the morning blew over his cheeks, and he felt a bit of coolness.

"I don't like Gu Qingqian. What I like is you." His voice lowered, "It's always been you."

Zhao Ziqing's heart hit his chest heavily, he felt like his heart was being poured into sea water, and a feeling of suffocation came up.

"I like you for four years." The shy voice echoed in the deep black sea, there was no echo, no follow-up, no trembling, no hesitation, no regrets, just such a soft and shallow statement, that is, become a fact.

four years?Zhao Ziqing's mind suddenly went blank. For four years, he had known Zhou Yingchen for four years, dated for two years, and separated for two years.At that time Zhou Yingchen was only 15 years old, a sophomore in high school, really still a child.But Zhou Yingchen was very tall, already 1.7 meters eight at that time, only a little shorter than him.When I met him in KS, he was surrounded by some not-so-famous dandies in the circle, and those young men tried to touch him, he showed an angry and disgusted look, he hates gay the most, this is Zhao Ziqing only found out after this.This is not an idol TV series, there is no plot of a hero saving the beauty, Zhao Ziqing did not save the boy who looked like a high school student.Like those dandies who molested Zhou Yingchen, Zhao Ziqing also thought that Zhou Yingchen was the MB of KS, no matter how much he fell in love with a man/prostitute, he would not fight for him.However, Zhao Ziqing called the manager of KS and calmed down the matter, only then did he realize that Zhou Yingchen was not a "boy" here.He is a little lost.

Zhou Yingchen came to look for his sister.However, when Zhou Yingchen found Zhou Bichen, Zhou Bichen was having an affair with Zhao Zi.When we first met, Zhou Yingchen just looked at him with disgust and anger, just like looking at those notorious playboys.Zhao Ziqing sneered in his heart, he suddenly made up his mind to do one thing, he wanted Zhou Yingchen to take the initiative to climb into his bed, he wanted Zhou Yingchen to fall in love with him.

Zhao Ziqing didn't know when Zhou Yingchen fell in love with him.He hurt Zhou Yingchen, hurt him severely, and even seduced/raped him.Zhou Yingchen has always looked at him with contemptuous, disgusting, and disgusting eyes, but since when, Zhou Yingchen became inexplicably angry at him because he found a male prostitute, and became inexplicably angry at him for making fun of women. Night took the initiative to kiss him and asked him to hug him.When did this happen?

Before he understood and enjoyed the moment of being liked by Zhou Yingchen, a huge rift suddenly appeared between them.Zhou Bichen said that she was pregnant with her child, Zhou Yingchen asked him to marry Zhou Bichen, Zhou Yingchen got drunk and slept with Gu Qingqian... One after another, they were pushed away so far.He hasn't had time to love Zhou Yingchen properly, hasn't heard Zhou Yingchen tell him that he loves himself, he is not ready to lose, and they haven't had many experiences to recall, they have only just begun... and they are already going to part Yet?

He did not want.He thought he wouldn't let go.

But Zhou Yingchen said that he did not misunderstand, what he saw was the truth.fact?The fact he saw was that Zhou Yingchen and Gu Qingqian were having sex, and Zhou Yingchen said it was true, so is it that Zhou Yingchen is in love with Gu Qingqian?He didn't have the courage to argue with Gu Qingqian, because in Zhou Yingchen's eyes, he was the one who got his sister pregnant, he had sex with his sister first, and he was the one who betrayed him first.Do they really have a way out?

Does he, Zhao Ziqing, really have another way to go?

No.

no more, no?

He stayed at the place where Zhou Yingchen and Zhou Yingchen had lived together for nearly two years all night. At first they were suspicious and hurt each other, then they cared about each other and tested each other. Finally, they didn't have to be together bloody, and they could do it in the name of love. / Love, but now, their ending is still separated.He sat on the sofa in the living room and smoked two packs of cigarettes. He looked at the sofa, bathroom and bed they had made, and thought of the boy trembling in his arms.They really can't go back.

When they broke up, Zhou Yingchen was only 17 years old.They originally spent two years together.

He didn't expect Zhou Yingchen to cry.He thought that he had always cared about and loved them deeply.Zhou Yingchen was crying, and he actually cried because of him.The one who was brave would get angry for no reason. The young Zhou Yingchen who had never cried before cried because he was about to leave.

His heart ached in panic.

Whether it was two years ago or now, when he heard, saw, and knew that Zhou Yingchen was crying for him, his heart ached in panic, and the familiar pain that he couldn't restrain was brought to him by Zhou Yingchen, and Bai Yiheng was reluctant to bring it to him. Yes, the only illusion.

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"But, it's already too late." Zhao Ziqing turned his head involuntarily to see that the frosted glass door of the bathroom was lit, lit by the hazy yellow light inside, and became very soft.There was a lazy young man in there, indifferent, arrogant and docile, his eyes were always wet.He loves acting very much, and is very good at acting, and he is still very young.

"It's late, isn't it?" Zhou Yingchen's voice choked, Zhao Ziqing frowned, listening to the slight twitching sound from the other end, his heart was confused.

"Even if it's late, I still love you. Zhao Ziqing, can you just let me love you and leave it alone?" Zhou Yingchen's voice came out clearly.

"..." Zhao Ziqing frowned, Zhou Yingchen knew him, perhaps better than himself.

yes.he can not.

"Zhao Ziqing, can you have a good talk with me?" Zhou Yingchen said in a slightly pleading tone.

"..." Zhao Ziqing remained silent.

"On the day of Lixia, I was waiting for you at 'Pleurer'. If you don't show up, I won't leave. It doesn't matter how many days I wait." Zhou Yingchen's voice trembled a little, trembling with fear.He has been waiting for two whole years, waiting for Zhao Ziqing to appear, waiting for Zhao Ziqing to come to him, waiting for Zhao Ziqing to come back, waiting for Zhao Ziqing to say 'I'm back' to him.But no matter how long it took, Zhao Ziqing never showed up.He was afraid, waiting in countless dark nights, or waiting endlessly with no results, that feeling of fear made him despair.He is still afraid now, Zhao Ziqing managed to let him find it, but Zhao Ziqing is no longer willing to come back.He was afraid that if he waited again, it would be as hopeless as two years. He was afraid that Zhao Ziqing would not show up again, and he would be left there alone, just like those two years.

"Zhou Yingchen, I won't come." Zhao Ziqing was silent for a while, then suddenly said.

"You decide whether you come or not." Zhou Yingchen's voice trembled. "I'll wait, it's my decision."

"Xiaochen." Zhao Ziqing frowned, why did he come to disturb his heart.

"If you called me Xiaochen, I would think you would still give me hope." Zhou Yingchen closed his eyes, tears rolling down from the corners of his eyes silently, Zhao Ziqing, have you really let me go?

"I just want to be with Ah Heng right now." Zhao Ziqing pushed the loose hair behind his ears irritably.

"If you love him, I have no objection." Zhou Yingchen opened his eyes, and his beautiful brown pupils were soaked in water, emitting a faint light.

"Of course I love him." Zhao Ziqing was very anxious and annoyed, why everyone was questioning his intentions for Bai Yiheng.Even, even himself.

"No, if you're sure, please tell me in the future." Zhou Yingchen felt that even if he knew that Zhao Ziqing didn't love Bai Yiheng so deeply, he still couldn't be happy because Zhao Ziqing just didn't love so deeply. Well, Bai Yiheng is special to him, everyone can see this.He was worried about such a beautiful and outstanding person.

"I can tell you right now. I, Zhao Ziqing, love Bai..." Before Zhao Ziqing finished speaking, Zhou Yingchen interrupted him, "Zhao Ziqing, don't you feel insulted by saying this now? "Zhou Yingchen's tone was a bit cold.

"I won't. I can't." Zhao Ziqing was a little angry. No one can hurt his Persian cat, let alone himself.

"Can you guarantee that you have completely forgotten me now? Can you guarantee that you really don't have any feelings for me in your heart? Can you guarantee that your whole heart is filled with him now? You Is the current intention equal to his intention for you? Do you think you are respecting him by saying you love him so hastily? Do you think he will be happy if he hears you say that? You are just talking to me Angry." Zhou Yingchen mercilessly punctured Zhao Ziqing's fantasy.

"I really love him. Whether you believe it or not, whether he believes it or not. Maybe not that deep, because we just started. I will give him the best love. I will give him what he wants. He deserves it The best." After listening to Zhou Yingchen's words, Zhao Zi suddenly felt distressed, did he not do enough?He wants to share his best and most precious everything with Bai Yiheng, wants to give him the best love, wants to live with him, wants to give him the life he wants most...he wants to have everything Bai Yiheng has. , I also want Bai Yiheng to have everything, let Bai Yiheng also have his everything.Is this not enough?

"You, are you really tempted?" Zhou Yingchen felt his heart suddenly empty, he thought that Zhao Ziqing just felt that he owed Bai Yiheng, and wanted to fall in love with Bai Yiheng desperately to make up for him.It seems that Zhou Yingchen was wrong.It was because he was too self-righteous, he firmly believed that Zhao Ziqing still couldn't let him go, as long as he pestered him, he would definitely come back to him again.However, he did not expect that Zhao Ziqing was really tempted by others.Yes, tempted.Not yet love.

However, Zhao Ziqing's heartbeat is more important than love.The reason why they insisted on loving each other even though they were scarred by each other was because Zhao Ziqing had a crush on him.Because once Zhao Ziqing is tempted, he will be sure, and if he is sure, it will be a lifetime.He might have spent his life with Zhao Ziqing, but he gave up, maybe he missed it.Now, Zhao Ziqing is tempted by others.For a better person than him, he was really afraid, afraid that he and Zhao Ziqing would just go away and never return, and they would just be separated like this.He is not afraid of any other obstacles that stand between him and Zhao Ziqing, whether it is his sister, Gu Qingqian, Zhao Ziqing's father, he is even prepared to deal with it, he admits that he really didn't think of it before He would be so serious. He thought that even if he really fell in love with Zhao Ziqing, he only wanted it to be love. He didn't want to have a deeper relationship with Zhao Ziqing. Let's spend a lifetime together.Because he is really timid, he really can't blatantly fall out with his family like Zhao Ziqing.He only had his sister, and he wanted her to be happy, but her sister couldn't accept him and Zhao Ziqing, and Zhao Ziqing had dated his sister before.He is just an ordinary person, a person with an average family background, and a person who depends on his sister for life. His ideas are different from Zhao Ziqing's. , he used to be a normal person, what he wanted was a gentle wife who understood him and took care of him, he really loved Zhao Ziqing, but he still needed time, at that time he couldn't give up everything for Zhao Ziqing , but he didn't expect that there was no time between them at that time.Now in front of him, those are no longer obstacles.He is ready, he can do anything for Zhao Ziqing, whether it is to give up anything, or to fight against his father with him, or to go to the United States to obtain a certificate, he is willing.As long as Zhao Ziqing wants to, as long as Zhao Ziqing is willing, as long as Zhao Ziqing still loves him.But the premise no longer exists.Is it really impossible to come back?Has two years really changed everything?

The answer is, yes.Now, Zhao Ziqing was tempted by someone else.During the two years he was away from him.

His distress was unbearable.

"It's not the first day you know me. Will I return the love because of guilt?" Zhao Ziqing finally calmed down, his body gradually warmed up, and his heart began to beat normally.

"Yes." Zhou Yingchen didn't know what to say, should he really let go?

"Will you come to 'Pleurer'?" Zhou Yingchen paused for a moment, then continued.

However, he still couldn't let go.

He, loved him for four years.It has almost become a habit.

"No." Zhao Ziqing sighed inaudibly.

"However, I will still wait for you. Even though, I know you won't come." Zhou Yingchen laughed suddenly, silently.Tears trickled down from his eyes, moistening his lips.

Even though I know you won't come back.

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Zhao Ziqing heard the beeping busy tone from the other end of the phone. He closed the phone and lost his mind for a while.Then he turned around to look for Bai Yiheng, the light in the bathroom had already dimmed, and the whole room was not turned on, so it was a little dark.

"Ah Heng." Zhao Ziqing went back to the bedroom, but there was no one there, he searched the whole room, but there was no sign of Bai Yiheng.His heart suddenly tightened.

"Heng!" He was a little anxious, he was still wearing a half-open nightgown, and his hair was loose.He quickly searched the room again, but there was still nothing.

He, is he gone?

impossible.But why is it impossible?Zhao Ziqing frowned, his heart was empty, as if it had been pulled out.

Is it because I'm not happy to answer Zhou Yingchen's call?Zhao Ziqing shook his head again.His Persian cat wouldn't do that.But... where did he go?He usually does not carry a mobile phone with him.I did it so many times last night, and my body is not feeling well. It should hurt to walk.Where will it go?

"Click!" Suddenly there was the sound of the door being opened, Zhao Ziqing turned his head and saw that Bai Yiheng was coming out of the bathroom with a pale face.His feet were limping, and his posture was a bit strange.

"Ah Heng!" Zhao Ziqing rushed over and hugged Bai Yiheng, as if he wanted to strangle Bai Yiheng into his body.

"You're hugging too tightly." Bai Yiheng put one hand on his waist with a pale face. "pain."

"..." Zhao Ziqing let go of Bai Yiheng, seeing Bai Yiheng's expression turned pale, he frowned, he was really worried!

"Why did it take so long to wash? I was looking for you just now. The bathroom light was not turned on, so I thought you had come out. It turned out that you were not at home..." Zhao Ziqing helped Bai Yiheng to sit on the soft white woolen sofa.

"En." Bai Yiheng only hummed, still frowning and supporting his waist.

"Does your waist hurt?" Zhao Ziqing wanted to rub Bai Yiheng, but Bai Yiheng shook his head.

"Just now I slipped in the bathtub and hit my waist." Bai Yiheng lowered his eyes, a slight redness appeared on his face unconsciously.

"Is it serious? Let me see." Zhao Ziqing asked Bai Yiheng to lie down, and gently lifted Bai Yiheng's nightgown. Sure enough, a piece on his waist was already red.Then Zhao Ziqing saw the dense deep and shallow hickey marks on the rest of his waist, and a suspicious sense of shame gushed out.

"How is it?" Bai Yiheng turned his head and tried to look at his waist, Zhao Ziqing's gaze met Bai Yiheng's stunned gaze unexpectedly.

"..." Bai Yiheng turned his head away and buried it in his arms.

"Heng, I... didn't do it on purpose." Zhao Ziqing was a little anxious.

"We still have to film tomorrow." Bai Yiheng was a little angry.

How could this "gorgeous" hickey disappear tomorrow.When I change costumes tomorrow...

Thinking of this, Bai Yiheng seemed to have remembered something, he was a little excited and wanted to get up, but his back hurt badly.Zhao Ziqing hurriedly helped the Persian cat up. "Where are you going?" Zhao Ziqing looked at Bai Yiheng's anxious expression, a little surprised.

"The sink." Bai Yiheng was supported by Zhao Ziqing, and ran towards the sink.

Facing the huge, neat, bright, King-Size mirror above the sink, Bai Yiheng carefully examined his neck.When he saw the shallower but still dense hickeys on his neck, he didn't know what to say.

"Well, if you apply it with hot eggs, it will disappear soon." Zhao Ziqing looked at Bai Yiheng's slightly darkened face, and said weakly.

"..." Bai Yiheng met Zhao Ziqing's eyes in the mirror.

"Ah Heng?" Zhao Ziqing still supported Bai Yiheng's waist.

"I want to eat." Bai Yiheng sighed, it's useless to be angry now.

"Well, good." Zhao Ziqing smiled wickedly, with a flattering expression on his face.

After the meal, Zhao Ziqing poured eggs on Bai Yiheng respectfully and attentively. He carefully peeled off the shell of the eggs, and when the eggs were moderately hot, he held the eggs and rolled them around Bai Yiheng's neck. , to be honest, Bai Yiheng's skin is really comparable to that of an egg, smooth, delicate, and resilient.He just couldn't put it down.

After compressing the neck, massage the waist again.Although Bai Yiheng was unwilling in every possible way, Zhao Ziqing coaxed Bai Yiheng to submit obediently.Bai Yiheng's waist is very soft and very flexible, even though his waist is so thin, he can take any posture.Zhao Ziqing rubbed Bai Yiheng's waist lightly and unhurriedly. He could feel that Bai Yiheng couldn't help avoiding his hand. He really couldn't control it. He really wanted to grow older. Do a few games.

"Don't...don't rub it." Bai Yiheng grabbed Zhao Ziqing's dishonest hand, and that hand repeatedly rubbed the skin of Bai Yiheng's waist, moving around.Bai Yiheng frowned, forming a knot, which was so cute as hell.

"..." Zhao Ziqing looked straight at Bai Yiheng and blinked.

"You, you won't..." Bai Yiheng stammered a little.

"Does your waist still hurt?" Zhao Ziqing continued to look at Bai Yiheng and blinked.

"It doesn't hurt anymore." Bai Yiheng felt a little uncomfortable and wanted to stay away from Zhao Ziqing.

"Shall we do it again?" Zhao Ziqing put his hands on both sides of Bai Yiheng's body, fixed Bai Yiheng, and prevented him from running away.

"..." Bai Yiheng shook his head resolutely.

"Just once." Zhao Ziqing looked at Bai Yiheng pitifully.

"..." Bai Yiheng looked at Zhao Ziqing in disbelief, and said once, who knows how many times you will do it once you are in heat?

"Ah Heng..." Zhao Ziqing pressed the tip of Bai Yiheng's nose against Bai Yiheng's, looking as if he would pounce on him at any time.

"We really have to film tomorrow." Bai Yiheng tilted his head, "And we have already asked for leave today, Director Wang and the others can't arrange it."

"Huh—" Zhao Ziqing sighed, a little dissatisfied.

"Besides, it's not good to do too much." Bai Yiheng looked at Zhao Ziqing cautiously, Zhao Ziqing pursed his lips.

"Many?" Zhao Ziqing looked at Bai Yiheng, Bai Yiheng slightly pursed his lips, frowned, his eyes were wet.Zhao Ziqing felt that he had really become a master of abstinence.In the mouth, you can't eat it, and it exudes a tempting fragrance all the time.This is to test his self-control!

"Yeah. Hurt." Bai Yiheng still looked at Zhao Ziqing.

"We only did it twice in total, and the total is less than seven." Zhao Ziqing looked at Bai Yiheng, eyes full of desire and dissatisfaction. "I used to do it seven times a night!" Zhao Ziqing intentionally moved closer to Bai Yiheng's ear and bit Bai Yiheng's earlobe.

"..." Bai Yiheng's face was hot and he didn't speak.

"Didn't you say you wanted to squeeze me out before?" Zhao Ziqing teased Bai Yiheng.

"No. I really can't do it today." Bai Yiheng frowned, a little angry.

"Okay then! I owe you today first, and I will come back later." Zhao Ziqing looked at Bai Yiheng, afraid that he would be really angry.

"Huh?" Bai Yiheng looked at Zhao Ziqing with some doubts.

"Do you think that's all for today?" Zhao Ziqing grabbed Bai Yiheng's hand and touched his lower abdomen. Bai Yiheng suddenly bumped into a fiery huge object that had already stood upright. He was startled, his face turned pale It's flushed red. "I have endured so hard, and I will definitely pay it back in the future. Put it in the account today, and it will be three times. It's cheaper for you." Zhao Ziqing pinched Bai Yiheng's nose.Then walk out of the living room and head towards the bathroom.

"..." Bai Yiheng's face was still reddened suspiciously, red and hot.

Then, after a long time, Bai Yiheng's expression returned to normal. He looked at Zhao Ziqing's cell phone on the table, and his eyes darkened.

He raised his hand to cover his eyes, then put it down again.

The heart is beating without trace, heavy and frightened.

"What did he tell you?" Bai Yiheng's voice was extremely soft, like a dead leaf falling on the lake.

"What did you answer again?" The tone seemed to be muttering.

"Zhao Ziqing, can we really love each other?" He closed his eyes, the heat in his eyes spread to his eyelids, and the liquid wanted to gush out.

"You don't even remember me." Opening his eyes again, his eyes were already clear.

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"Liangyu, what are you talking about?" The emperor opened his eyes wide, looking at the mouth of this beautiful and docile woman in disbelief, and said to him in a leisurely manner.

"Your Majesty, what I'm talking about is that I inadvertently caught a glimpse of Du Zixiu's prosperous demeanor, and I really admire you. My daughter adores Lord Du." Qin Liangyu lowered his head and bowed respectfully, but his words were clear, neither humble nor overbearing. .

"Then you are..." The emperor's eyes revealed a look of astonishment, mixed with an imperceptible hint of sadness.

"My daughter, thank you for your majesty's love. Although my father is old, he is favored by your majesty, and he still eats the imperial salary. My daughter is very grateful. But my daughter is only a commoner, and I am really afraid that I may not be able to bear your majesty's love." Qin Liangyu's voice was still the same. No hurry, no panic.

"You rejected me because you love Prime Minister Du?" The emperor's eyes darkened, and his heart felt cold.It's Prime Minister Du again, Du Zixiu.

"It's one thing for a minister's daughter to love Prime Minister Du, the second is for a minister's daughter to be humble, and the third is for my father to be old and afraid that he will not be able to continue to be loyal to His Majesty." Qin Liangyu still replied clearly.

"You said that your status is humble, so you are worthy of Prime Minister Du?" The emperor felt cold, would he really care about those statuses?Is that how she looks at him?Or did she really not want to be with herself that much?After all, he is the King of Nine Dragons, so he can't compare to a little prime minister?Could he be inferior to Du Zixiu?

"Lord Du probably won't mind the status of a courtier's daughter. Lord Du is a gentleman with an open mind, and won't care about worldly matters such as fame and status." Qin Liangyu replied lightly.

"Then you're saying that I'm a villain, a narrow-minded villain who cares about fame and status?" The corner of the emperor's mouth curled into a sneer, unexpectedly, the person he likes would look at him like this!It turns out that I have always been self-important and misunderstood others.His majestic emperor is not as good as a small prime minister, not as knowledgeable, as broad-minded, not as indifferent to fame and wealth... In the end, he will be called a "villain" by his favorite people.I really don't know who is the real emperor of this great omen!

"My daughter dare not. My daughter is just talking about my daughter and Prime Minister Du. I don't want to offend Your Majesty. Please forgive me."

"You and Du Zixiu?" The emperor recalled that in the hall, the ministers compared him with Du Zixiu and scolded him for not knowing the sufferings of the people. .He just wanted to renovate because the pillars of his biological mother's palace had been soaked by the rain for several days, and this group of officials who didn't know the truth would only come in and scold him.Du Zixiu stood up and spoke up for him, which made him even angrier.He was a little startled, how powerful Du Zixiu was in the court, Du Zixiu stood up and said a word for him, and the ministers who refuted all fell silent and stopped speaking.Du Zixiu, Du Zixiu, how far do you want to go?Apart from me, you are the person with the highest authority in the whole Dazhao, under one person, above ten thousand people, are you not satisfied?Now even the woman I love has fallen in love with you, Zixiu, do you really want to take everything from me before you stop?

"Yes, my daughter really loves Lord Du." Qin Liangyu was still talking.

"Do you want to marry Zixiu?" The emperor's heart was filled with ice, and his heart ached.

"May Your Majesty make it happen." Qin Liangyu said earnestly.

"Okay, I will help you." The emperor smiled.His eyes are so cold.

"Liangyu, when you didn't know Zixiu, did you really have no feelings for me?" The emperor looked at the woman standing in front of him respectfully. The woman bowed her head, her hair tied behind her ear, Shoulder cut, Linglong heart.

"Your Majesty deserves a better woman." Qin Liangyu raised his head slightly, looked at the emperor, and stared straight at the supreme person in front of him who was wearing the emperor's golden robe embroidered with gold thread. That person looked at her seriously, There are thousands of unexplainable emotions in the eyes.However, she felt that those eyes were not filled with her, but through her, those deep, passionate, expectant, and hopeless feelings were conveyed to an unknown person behind her.

"Hehe..." The emperor couldn't help but smile bitterly.Zixiu, look, she said that I deserve someone better than her!Could it be that in her heart, I am actually better than you?Or, those words are just rhetoric to coax me!Zixiu, do you really want everything from me?My woman, my palace, my people's hearts, my people, my ministers, my world.But everything I have is given to me by you.Why do you want it back after you gave it to me?Zixiu, did I do something wrong?Did I do something to make you angry?Did I let you down?You, want to return everything, are you going to abandon me?

Du Zixiu, I, hate you.

Du Zixiu, I hate you.

I will not let you abandon me, I will not let you fail me.If you want, I can only blame you.It can only be that I abandon you.do you understand?

"Your Majesty, what's the purpose of summoning the minister?" Du Zixiu stood alone in the dark hall.

There were no candles lit in the huge palace, and the surroundings were pitch-black, as if the lights were dull.In the middle of the night, his voice was low and hoarse, conveyed in the endless blackness, full of anxiety.

"Is it Zixiu?" A vague figure moved in the luan chair directly above the hall.

"The minister is here." Du Zixiu knew who the owner of that voice was without looking.He knows him better than anyone else, knows him better than anyone else.His voice, his face, his breath, his smell.Knowing the emperor whom he can never get close to more than anyone else has become his habit, his obsession, and his catastrophe.

He knew that his eleven was no longer his eleven.Now in front of him, he is used to calling him "Your Majesty" and calling himself "Sir", and he is also used to humbly forget how close the two were before, and is used to enduring the suffocating distance between them; No matter how he always corrected himself, so that he would not be so polite; he was no longer annoyed by his intentional tone of voice; his eyes began not to meet his own, and he even raised his chin slightly in front of him.Since when did they no longer have the intimacy and tacit understanding they used to have?Since when did he start to look at him with suspicion and guard?The boy who jumped, jumped, and came in a hurry just to tell him that he had copied another poem by Du Gongbu had disappeared.The young man who would not know the importance and insisted on pinching his shoulders for him disappeared.That little boy who only called him "Zixiu" and "Zixiu" over and over again, that pure boy with all his sorrow, joy, anger, and anxiety engraved on his face, that frizzy, reckless boy who would never grow up The boy, the boy who only cried in front of him but made him at a loss what to do, the boy who gave up his own brother for him, the boy who was only lost, worried, and angry in front of him, the boy who he once cherished so much , The young man who valued his life more than his life, finally, no match for the caress between people's hearts, the ruthless passing of time, disappeared.

He was not sad, nor indignant, nor jealous.

He was just lost without trace, involuntarily lonely.

"Will Zixiu come and stand this year?" The figure of the emperor is still hidden in the stillness of the night. They hide in the night with each other, hiding their figure, their aura, their face, and themselves. original heart.

"Thirty to six." Du Zixiu replied indifferently.

It has been 17 years since he became Prime Minister.It's been 20 years, since he's known him.

"Did Zixiu ever marry a wife?" The emperor's voice was unhurried and clear.

"Return to Your Majesty, never." Du Zixiu felt that his whole body was very cold, and it was really late at night.

"Zixiu should have a family too." The emperor couldn't see Du Zixiu clearly, he tried his best to look at the tall and thin figure in the center of the hall, and suddenly, inexplicably, dull emotions rolled in his heart.Does he, really, hate Du Zixiu?Can he, really, hate it?

"I don't want to talk about Fengyue in court." Du Zixiu really felt the shocking cold, the chill penetrated into his skin, his flesh and blood, his meridians, his bones, and his spinal cord.He only felt the chill.

"Then let's talk about politics." The emperor didn't frown at all, he was going to go with Du Zixiu, because that person was always so incomprehensible, he knew him well, so he felt very helpless about him.

"Listen respectfully." Du Zixiu's voice was like a stone falling to the ground.

"I feel that Qin Zhen, a scholar of the Hanlin University, has been respectful to his studies for decades, and his writing skills are unfailing. However, considering that Qin Qing has passed her sixtieth birthday, she is unable to do what she wants, so she wants Qin Qing to retire and return to her hometown to take care of her life. What does Zixiu think?"

"It's a pity that Master Qin is more talented than Huagai." The emperor's tone was gentle, and Du Zixiu had the illusion that it was the same as before.

"Qin Qing got two daughters in old age, and Qin Liangyu is the only one left under her knees." The emperor's tone sank.

"..." Du Zixiu frowned, could he still not let that woman go?Du Zixiu vaguely remembered the scene when the emperor came to look for him in a panic five years ago. At that time, he had no relationship with him. At that time, he came here in a hurry just to tell him that he fell in love with a woman.That woman is Qin Liangyu, the second daughter of Qin Zhenzi's Youqing family.How glorious he was at that time, the emperor was the first to tell him such a private thing, and the first to share with him such a happy thing for the emperor, but he would rather not.The emperor never asked his wishes, no matter what he thought, he cruelly put those bloody facts in front of him.What the emperor loves is someone else, what the emperor loves is another person, the emperor will never know your heart, what the emperor loves is not you.Those bloody facts kept reminding him, mocking him, and lingering at him all the time, and finally his heart was dripping with blood.

"I have orders." The emperor's gloomy voice pulled Du Zixiu back from his thoughts.

"I order you and Qin Liangyu to choose an auspicious day and get married quickly." The emperor's voice was like a chime, heavy and loud, echoing in the hall, as empty and turbulent as a strong wind passing through the grassland.

Du Zixiu heard the gloomy sadness.

However, that sadness was not for himself.

"Chen, I can't take orders." Du Zixiu couldn't tell whether he was too surprised or too uncomfortable.He could only maintain the last sliver of reason, and was fighting.

"Then I beheaded Qin Liangyu's family." The emperor's voice was cold.

"What does it have to do with the Qin family?" Du Zixiu stared at the figure in the luan chair, his eyes cracked.

"Because Qin Liang