beautiful patron

This time Zhuang Yan was only here to observe the art festival, unlike Zuo Jun who needed to make a lot of preparations in advance, he only needed to change his clothes and do makeup and hair before the art festival started.Today is a day off for him.

But even if he was on vacation, Lin Weinan couldn't take the vacation. Although he didn't have to go to the company, Lin Weinan still needed to work at home. After getting up, he sat at the desk and tapped on his laptop.

Zhuang Yan really wanted to cling to Lin Weinan, but he was afraid of disturbing the other party's work, so he sat by the bed and listened to music with earphones on, while staring at Lin Weinan's side face in a daze.It wasn't until Lin Weinan found this man staring at him blankly during a break that he beckoned him to pass.

"Boss Lin...!" Zhuang Yan was naturally very happy, and immediately moved to Lin Weinan's side.

Lin Weinan stretched out his hand and gently grabbed his face: "Are you stupid? Why are you in a daze."

"I have nothing to do." Zhuang Yan smiled, "That's why I want to watch you."

"...Well." Lin Weinan responded softly, lowered his eyes and didn't know what he was thinking, and said after a while, "Since you have nothing to do now, why don't you go to see Liao Songyu in advance, she should In the company."

Zhuang Yan froze for a moment, then nodded and said "OK".

Walking the red carpet tonight, Zhuang Yan was arranged to be with Liao Songyu.Liao Songyu is also an actress whose career is on the rise, and Zhuang Yan is under Wen Xuan's team, but Liao Songyu has been filming in the crew before, so the two have not really met each other.

Zhuang Yan heard from Ren Shuyu that Liao Songyu was a bit cold-tempered in private and not very good at getting along with others, so after being assigned to Wen Xuan, the two had been getting along for a long time, and only recently did they gradually show signs of getting acquainted.

From Zhuang Yan's point of view, it is of course good to meet the company's seniors in advance to say hello, but Lin Weinan raised this matter at this time, which inevitably made Zhuang Yan feel a little sad.After all, he had been away for so long, and finally met Lin Weinan, so he naturally wanted to stay by his side.

"Then I'll go first..." Zhuang Yan looked at Lin Weinan, as if he was still expecting that Lin Weinan would ask him to stay.

But Lin Weinan just said: "You go."

Zhuang Yan wasn't the only one who felt uneasy.

After hearing that the door of the suite was closed, Lin Weinan lowered his head and exhaled softly.

I don't know if it's because we haven't seen each other for a month, but he felt some kind of extremely urgent emotion from Zhuang Yan.He had been vaguely aware of it since going to bed last night.

Yesterday's Zhuang Yan seemed to be more proactive than before, and kissed him many times, even when he was so weak that he was about to lose consciousness, Zhuang Yan still lingered on his lips, as if he was very reluctant to let him go.

This made Lin Weinan very anxious.So when he woke up today, he sat in front of the computer to handle the work, relying on work to divert his attention.

After Zhuang Yan left, Lin Weinan didn't stay in the hotel for too long. Li Su called to ask him out to meet, and he went.

"Why make an appointment in a cafe." Lin Weinan pulled the chair opposite Li Su and sat down, and said casually, "It's like a date."

Li Su said: "It's good to talk about work in a different environment once in a while. The company is too boring."

Of course, since the appointment was in such a public place, it meant that what Li Su wanted to talk to him about was not very important, and he was probably just looking for an excuse to call him out to relax.Lin Weinan smiled and said, "Yes."

When he lowered his head to take an order, he heard Li Su say worriedly, "Wei Nan, you don't look very happy."

Lin Weinan froze for a moment, then raised his head: "Is it so obvious?"

"When you are unhappy, your eyes are always floating when you smile." Li Su asked, "Did something happen?"

Li Su is eight years older than Lin Weinan, and he is a person who understands human emotions and is as careful as a hair.So far, he has helped Lin Weinan many times when Lin Weinan was at a loss, so Lin Weinan trusts him very much.

"...It's nothing." Lin Weinan whispered, "I'm just a little anxious about my lover."

Li Su heard this, but said: "This is not called 'nothing', the last one who made you feel anxious seems to be Yao Lin'an."

Lin Weinan said angrily, "Don't mention him, it's even more annoying."

"Sorry, sorry." Li Su raised his lips and asked, "Is it the one who called you last time?"

"Hmm..." Lin Weinan didn't deny it.

"You—" Li Su sighed suddenly, "It's almost time for you to let go after so many years. Why do you keep resisting other people's feelings for you?"

Lin Weinan probably had the same reaction when he talked about Yao Linan with him before, so Li Su could more or less guess why Lin Weinan was anxious.

"I just..." Lin Weinan held the coffee cup, rubbing the smooth wall of the cup with his index finger, "I just can't believe myself."

He had already missed someone twice, and he couldn't allow himself to be wrong for a third time.Rather than saying that he doesn't believe in others' sincerity towards him, his hesitation and resistance actually stem from his doubt and distrust of himself.This has almost become a heart disease of his, and it cannot be easily eradicated.

So even though he knew that Xu Jin was a very good person, Lin Weinan still gave up on him.Even now, even if he knew that Zhuang Yan was sincere to him, he couldn't accept...Zhuang Yan's feelings straightforwardly.

"I know it's unreasonable and selfish." Lin Weinan said, "But that's the kind of person I am. In order not to hurt myself, I would rather hurt others."

"Li Su, you know... why did I choose to keep my lover?"

Li Su sighed and said, "I know."

Many years ago, when the two were drinking together, Lin Weinan once said that what he wants is inequality, he wants to stand in an absolutely powerful position and control the relationship between himself and his lover.He pays money to buy the obedience of the other party, so that no matter whether he abandons them or hurts them later, he can find a reason for himself to feel at ease.

——Because he is the patron, he can do anything to them.

"But Wei Nan, you chose to maintain a relationship with those people to make yourself feel at ease, right?" Li Su frowned, "But now you are not at ease, and you still feel anxious about it."

Lin Weinan remained silent.

Li Su continued: "Wei Nan, stop torturing yourself. You should also understand that you can't be that kind of completely heartless person. Instead of continuing like this, you might as well try to accept it."

some elder talk therapy x

But it's not so easy to heal, after all, Mr. Lin has been closed for so many years...

Now I do like the puppy a little bit, and I won’t hurt him easily, but I still feel very anxious when I feel the love of the puppy.

Whether it can develop into love depends on the performance of the puppy!