There are no couples on the road

Smelling the familiar scent, Shi Xun almost didn't immediately think about those painful days and nights after the operation, nor did he think about the state during recovery, but a word came out of his heart immediately.

It's another year.

He turned his head to look at the little assistant who was communicating with the doctor, thinking about it, this year might still be different.

For example, the little assistant didn't sleep because of jet lag this time.

When Shi Xun woke up from the plane, he saw Jiang Weichi silently looking at the sun visor that had fallen, his eyes were the same color of sunken ink as the outside of the cabin, and there were bloodshot red in his eyes.

Another example is that this time he himself is not confused about retiring.

For another example, at this moment, he is not alone in the hospital waiting for the verdict.

The same thing happened, like...losing the game and ending the year.

A few days have passed since the game, and Shi Xun has just started to let himself think about these things, about the game, about the future.

It seems that everything, including post-match interviews and arranging to fly to the United States for inspection, including the decision to have another operation, was done by the superficial him.

When he lost the last game and ended with 2:3, Shi Xun felt that he didn't have any ideas, maybe his mind automatically blocked him.

It's not that it's not painful, it's hard not to be sad, and even for a moment I feel that this is really the case, this is the ending.

It's just that when things came to an end, he didn't have too many surging emotions.

Is it even possible to get used to failure?

He knew that Jiang Weichi would definitely follow.There is no reason for the little assistant to let him out of sight again, then disappear from Beside's career, and finally disappear from Jiang Weichi's life.

This time someone held him tightly, taking frustration, failure, and pain into his arms.

Jiang Weichi noticed Shi Xun's gaze, as if comforting his own cat, turned his head and gave him a slight smile, then turned back to continue communicating with the doctor.

Shi Xun didn't think that anyone would be willing to take on these trivial but heavy matters for others.

The closer you get, the heavier it is, the harder it is to face, and the more you want to escape.

Shi Xun didn't want to listen to those "disclaimers". Before the first operation, his face would turn pale from nervousness, and was told by the anesthesiologist that his face would turn from white to blue. This time, he simply handed it over to the assistant.

It's just that when Shi Xun was about to get up, the head nurse came over.

Relying on the bit of English that Fu Minge stuffed into his head, Shi Xun followed the head nurse to another room. Fortunately, there was an interpreter in this room, and Shi Xun felt a little lucky looking at the documents on the table.

When Shi Xun finished signing the documents here, Jiang Weichi had almost communicated with the doctor, and when he saw him return to the room, he tickled his fingers.Shi Xun was still a little hooked by his fingers, and walked over to hug him from behind.

Back in the ward, the two of them ate some fruit, Jiang Weichi pulled the man halfway on his lap, and helped Shi Xun massage his head and neck.

"I'm sure that the operation is so fast this time, and I feel a little uneasy." Jiang Weichi said.

Shi Xun closed his eyes, "I have no other plan. I don't want to miss the Spring Split again, so I can recover faster."

Jiang Weichi sighed silently, "It will hurt again."

"I'm more experienced this time, so I'm sure I can get through it, don't worry." Shi Xun joked, and sat up to get the water glass on the coffee table, "Don't dare to say anything else, bear the pain No. 1."

Jiang Weichi walked to the carpet in front of the window, the garden outside the window was similar to the photos Shi Xun showed him later, and it was still full of vitality in winter, but Jiang Weichi was always restless and interested in everything he saw Que Que was just watching.

"I know you can bear it, and you are willing to bear it. It's just... I can't help but feel sorry for you. If it's possible, if it's me who hurts."

Shi Xun walked over, "But I will love you too."

"Then I'm in pain and happy," Jiang Weichi joked, and then looked out of the window, "Actually, I don't want to part with it, if it doesn't hurt so much, that would be fine."

Shi Xun looked at Jiang Weichi under the sun, it was so white that it was a little transparent, and the blue color in his eyes became more and more obvious, like a sinking galaxy.

Shi Xun suddenly understood something that he had never thought about before.

"Xiao Chi." Shi Xun sat on the carpet with his arms around him, his back relaxed, and his chin rested naturally on Jiang Weichi's shoulder.

Even though Jiang Weichi wasn't short, he was surrounded by Shi Xun from behind, as if being rushed by his own lion to wash his hair.

Jiang Weichi has always liked being close to Shi Xun like this.

No one else can do it, except Shi Xun, who is willing to approach infinitely, and even indulge in touching.

As if they were supposed to be close together.

Jiang Weichi tilted his head and kissed his lion, with a soft sound in his throat, waiting for Shi Xun to speak.

In the past few days, they have not talked about their feelings. Even if they are like just now, they have only tasted it, and they will not talk about the game and the future.It seems that there are only immediate things left in life, and I will not be troubled by anything. I just need to prepare for the second surgery.

Even the result of the operation will avoid thinking and avoid thinking.

Jiang Weichi understands that this will not solve any problems and pains he faces, but it is not so evil to avoid it for a while.He was just waiting, and he was mentally prepared, no matter what Shi Xun chose, he would be able to deal with it.

It's just that what Shi Xun wanted to say had nothing to do with the current situation, which still surprised Jiang Weichi a little.

Unlike the superficial feline habits, in most cases, Shi Xun is always a straight ball player who realizes what he will express seriously.

"I'm sorry, Xiaochi." Shi Xun unconsciously rubbed against Jiang Weichi's shoulder, "It suddenly occurred to me that you will be very sad when you know about my surgery and rehabilitation process."

Jiang Weichi didn't expect his overly divine boyfriend to think so far from the conversation just now, and was a little dazed for a while.It seems that seeing a god who doesn't understand love slightly tilted his head and stretched out his hand, asking, "Is that so?"

"In the past, I felt that pain could not be replaced, so the process of witnessing pain can only add another pain." Shi Xun's palm gradually felt the warmth under Jiang Weichi's clothes, and he couldn't help but tighten a little, "But Even so, this process is still very important to you."

Jiang Weichi blinked slowly, spending a few seconds with sore nasal passages, "I don't like the unknown, I want to control my life as much as possible, or the direction of the future. But about you... I will feel sorry for the unknown." Fear."

"I'm afraid that I won't be able to keep you. I'm afraid that you will go further when I don't know. I'm afraid that you will leave again later. I'm afraid that you will bear the pain that you always don't care about and feel unnecessary to say. .”

You always downplay the pain you have endured, as if the pain is invisible.

Then it loses its qualifications for pain in the eyes of others.

"So, I want to watch." Jiang Weichi inserted his fingers one by one into Shi Xun's, "I want to know how hard you are, even if it can't be relieved, and I don't have the qualifications, I can treat you Say, you have worked very hard, you have worked very hard, and it doesn’t matter if you feel unwilling, feel unfair, or feel wrong.”

"TimeStone can hurt too."

Shi Xun didn't speak, but the arms around Jiang Weichi became stronger, and his whole body was buried on Jiang Weichi's body from behind.

The two sat quietly for a while.

"Actually, the anesthetic just passed at that time, and it really hurt." Shi Xun's voice was muffled, "In a daze, I was still thinking that if I started contacting the little assistant again after a few years, I would tell him not to be angry. I've already been punished, and if I show him the scar, he won't be able to get angry anymore."

Jiang Weichi was a little annoyed, and a little funny, thinking about Shi Xun at that time, he still thought about comforting himself a few years later, and was a little bit heartbroken, so he could only ruffle Shi Xun's hair, "You know that acting like a baby is useful."

Shi Xun rubbed him casually without moving, and whispered, "It hurts."

Really useful.Jiang Weichi felt that his heart had softened to the point of failure.

The second day is the match between LN and First, and the S8 finals.

The night before, Shi Xun and Jiang Weichi chatted a few words in their small group of four, and said "Come on" as they did when they shook hands after the game that day. Today, they have checked the time difference, set the alarm clock, and are ready to watch the game up.

Avoidance has never been an option for Shi Xun, not to mention that this is the top event of the year, it is impossible for him not to watch it.Cheering is sincere, and so is yearning.

Jiang Weichi put the warm water aside, the two cuddled together and turned on the live broadcast.

They were all very involved, until the last round of BO5, they almost shouted excitedly.

LN won.Then they exchanged a few words with each other, and slowly and silently listened to the commentary to fill the gap before holding the cup.

Then came the cup.

Shi Xun watched as LN won the second S Championship trophy that LPL won after a few years.The shock seemed to come at this time, so strong that it seemed a little unreal.

He once saw S6's River and Lighting's NEA hold the trophy.

The feeling at that time was still clear and palpable.He still thinks about the day of exchanging places, thinking about working harder, thinking about what it feels like to touch the pattern of the championship trophy with his palm.

heavy.It must be very heavy, a little harsh, very...

Shi Xun subconsciously turned his head and smiled at Jiang Weichi in the light and shadow.

"I'm quite envious," he said.

Jiang Weichi worried for a long time.When this day and this moment come, how can he make Shi Xun feel less sad and less painful, and how can he share Shi Xun's pain.They have never experienced the "long and rich life in the future" they said when they pretended not to care. For Shi Xun's professional life, it is already the twilight years that cannot be more hopeless.

Jiang Weichi has been thinking about it for the past few years, he has thought about it for so long, so many times...but he still can't say anything.

Shi Xun just said, envy.

His precious, the most important red in his heart, the snow that he relies on to draw water and not only wither, is laughing unconsciously and shedding tears.

The eye sockets were so red that Jiang Weichi was burned without knowing it.

Of course he is envious... Of course he should be envious!But...but how could he be envious for so long and hopelessly?

Shi Xun probably felt envious in the past, but he can also have the confidence to talk about the next year.But now, this year he didn't say anything, what did he say, and he bowed and said sorry in the post-match interview.What his pretty cub envied probably already felt that it was so ridiculous to say what he wanted.

He really doesn't seem to get it.

Health, or a lower requirement, can support a body in a competitive state.

time.

……

future.

Hopes become extravagant hopes, and extravagant hopes become dreams.

But ah.

Jiang Weichi almost wanted to bite through the inner wall of his mouth, his mouth was full of salty and sweet blood.With these he swallowed the whimper and pulled himself up.

But ah.

Jiang Weichi slowly walked over to meet Shi Xun's gaze, even if it was as red as the last charcoal fire, he would rather protect it with his hands, whether it was hot and shivering, or full of blisters.

He couldn't let the light go out.

His fashion, his ADC, his love, his meaning.

Why is it so difficult, so difficult that no matter what is said or not said, it is useless.

But ah.

Jiang Weichi couldn't admit that Shi Xun's dream was a dream, and he wanted to prove it wasn't.

He understands all the difficulties and hopelessness.Jiang Weichi's whole body was stiff with pain, as if hallucinating, coolness gushed out from his heart, painful and cold, as if he was about to suffocate in the next second, he heard the bones creaking and rubbing the teeth-stinging sound.

He walked to Shi Xun's side, wanting to squat down gently, not to disturb his baby.But in the end, it was as if he was out of control, and his knee hit the carpet.It's just that now he didn't pay attention to his own perception, approached Shi Xun's face, and kissed Shi Xun's eyelids.

All the tenderness that could be squeezed out was used up.

"We can do it too, Shi Xun, Xiao Xun, don't be envious."

"You still have me, I can win, we can win."

Jiang Weichi grabbed Shi Xun's hand and put it on his heart, "You are my life."

His thin chest could almost see the pulse of blood, "I won't let you go, don't let me go, if you let me go, I won't be able to live."

"Shi Xun, let me do it this time, let's come for another year."

The scar on the palm of Shi Xun's right hand was attached to Jiang Weichi's heart veins, as if they were gradually growing together.

After being stunned for a few seconds, Shi Xun slowly came back to his senses, as if he had just realized that he was hugged tightly by Jiang Weichi.He could feel the little assistant's body trembling uncontrollably. He didn't know why his mind seemed to be stagnant, and he felt a little guilty after knowing it.

He hugged Jiang Weichi back with his left hand, and patted Jiang Weichi's back comfortingly, "I'm sorry, nothing..."

Jiang Weichi felt his shoulders sink, and Shi Xun's voice stopped.

At that moment, the world was as silent as a vacuum.

After the silence, there was a roar, and the pace of the next thing was as fast as a revolving door before death.He rang the bell, hugged Shi Xun and called the doctor, the doctors and nurses rushed in to rescue Shi Xun, and Shi Xun was pushed into the operating room...

When the consciousness was pouring into Jiang Weichi's body roaringly, he had already talked with the doctor outside the operating room, and the doctor signaled the nurse to hand him the folder.

"It's your call."

The author says:

The manuscript of this chapter was written on December 19, 12, and it has been repeated for two years.I'm really sorry for everyone's waiting.