mr frank is faithful to love

(FR. Zuo Boyao)

It's likely that I'm not letting go of 2020 that is about to pass.

The New Year's Eve plan with Zhao Yun has been shrinking again and again, both of them have the sequelae of breaking up, and finally choose a bar that is not noisy, and plan to sit from the night of the 31st to the next morning.

I think my emotional experience has lost the value of discussion, so I always avoid it deliberately and talk more about music, racing, and games, but after sitting for less than two hours, just after ten o'clock, Zhao Yun He was called away by a sudden phone call from home, saying that his grandpa suddenly fainted at home and had already been sent to the hospital.

For a moment, I couldn't think of any effective words to appease people, so I could only watch Zhao Yun rush away worriedly, and at the same time, I was even more worried about the old man, remembering that I ate the snacks made by him some time ago.

So, all the plans before the New Year's Eve went to waste, and tonight became a occasion for me to be alone again. I was bored in the bar, but I could only stay in the bar because I had nowhere to go.

Suddenly began to think: What is Frank doing now?

But in the next second, I ordered myself to stop this dangerous guess. I didn't drink much, and after thinking about it, I decided to go back to rest early. After all, after the New Year's Day holiday, there will be a long and busy work.

I played the piano a lot, and my hands were full of calluses. I sat in the car and clasped my hands, only to realize that my hands were not very comfortable to the touch. I reclined on the seat and fell asleep for a few minutes. In a few minutes, there were many, many stories on New Year's Eve.

Downstairs where I lived, I saw someone taking pictures with a burning fairy wand. I avoided them in order not to disturb them. Suddenly, my phone rang. It was my mother who asked me to go to my grandpa’s house for dinner tomorrow.

I said, "I said I would go."

"Just to remind you, you haven't slept anyway, I'm afraid you will forget."

I took a deep breath and felt that the outside of the mask was about to freeze. Standing far away watching others play fairy sticks, I said to the phone: "I've gone home, I'm going to pack up and go to bed."

"If you were not like this before." My mother said.

The sparks in the hands of those people came to an end, and I said, "It's quite normal, I'm not the same as before."

I didn't have much to chat with my mother. After talking about going to grandpa's house, I said good night to each other. I felt that I was more awake than before, so I left the community and walked around the perimeter of the community. It was very lively outside. , There are still many people eating, drinking, and dating, and I haven't seen a few people who are as idle and aimless as me.

What I have to admit is that right now, at this stage, someone is chasing me.

Thinking about it, I'm still not used to it. After all, I haven't been gay for a long time, and it's the first time I've been chased by a man like this.The other party is an insider, but he is not a celebrity, but the head of an entertainment company, he is still half an Internet celebrity, but to put it bluntly, I occasionally think of his pursuit now, and I just think it is very funny.

I wasn't surprised that he knew that I had a boyfriend. After all, the rumors the Yuan family made up for me were quite a sensation. I didn't think too deeply about the fact that he knew that I had broken up completely.

If you really want to describe it, he is what the best man in China is.

Needless to say, he is young, he is not bad looking, he is clean and self-sufficient, and there is almost no pornographic news. Apart from being a boss, he has also participated in several variety shows. received great acclaim.

So... why does this kind of person like me?

Of course, the main reason why this kind of question can arise is that I have no feelings for him. Zhou Yiyi knew about it a long time ago, and after knowing it, he actually laughed at me, saying: "Wild pigs can't eat fine chaff."

When I finished drying my hair and went to bed, it was already around [-]:[-] p.m. I turned off the lights and silently waited for the arrival of the New Year. I didn’t deliberately regard it as a grand moment, and I suddenly felt that it was very comfortable and good.

If it wasn't for Li Zishuo's sudden phone call, I might have fallen asleep soon.

He just picked up zero, and I picked it up frightenedly, and asked, "Are you trying to scare me to death in the middle of the night?"

"Sorry, just wanted to tell you the first 'Happy New Year'."

I was a little irritable and perfunctory, I reacted for a while, and said, "Oh...thank you, I'm going to sleep if I have nothing else to do, I have to get up early, goodbye."

The moment I hung up the phone, I thought that if Zhou Yiyi found out, he would definitely say that I don't know how to socialize.

Mr. Li is good at everything, except that he is blind at a young age.

Come to think of it, a few weeks ago, it should be the first time he saw me in real life, and it was also the first time I saw him in real life. Later, Zhou Yiyi gave me a replay, and I realized how purposeful he went to the show. He sent me flowers without hesitation, but I always refused to accept them decisively. Later, his staff members brought them to the dressing room in person.

So, I left Zhang Dou and Zhou Yiyi who were looking at each other, opened the door and ran away by myself.

This is the first time I've found myself so socially phobic.

Li Zishuo's original family is also well-known in the family circle in Shanghai. He completed his high school to doctoral degree in Europe, and then came back to inherit the family business and start a new company. Now life is going smoothly, and I have basically never talked to him. What day, the only time we ate together was when the show crew gathered, and I was dragged there by Zhou Yiyi.

Moreover, there were nearly ten people at that meal, and I basically didn't pay attention to anyone. I was immersed in the entanglement and sadness of breaking up. Zhou Yiyi didn't want to match me and Li Zishuo wholeheartedly. To make you understand that there are other, better men in the world."

I frowned and argued back, saying, "I don't like him."

"I see."

Zhou Yiyi said that she didn't mean to encourage me to fall in love, but I was too entangled in the matter with Frank, so that she didn't have a good impression of Frank.

She persistently wanted me to understand that there are people out there, and there are people out there, but it is impossible for me to shop around for things like love, rationally analyze the price-performance ratio, and then find the best one.

I used to think Frank was really good, perfect, the best guy in the world.

Later, I felt that he was born with hypocrisy, too good at putting on airs and deceiving people, mainly me.

So what is he like, I can't say for sure, but I know very well that love is not because the other person is perfect, love is a kind of metaphysics that cannot be quantified, just like I hate him so much now, but I still can't forget he.

Stationed in the city in winter, the beginning of the new year is still far away from spring.

On the first day of 2021, I drove to my grandpa’s house. My uncle and aunt were also here. Zuo Lin and Li Tao also came. We still prepared the family banquet and chatted together as before, but this time, we didn’t chat at the same time. From Frank.I used to say that Li Tao was the doom of Zuo Lin's life, but now it seems that Frank is also my doom.

I don't know if Zuo Lin is doing well now, but when I think of Frank being the wealthy husband my mother found for her, I feel that life is too unpredictable.

But looking at it from another angle, if my mother hadn't insisted on matching Frank and Zuo Lin at that time, Frank and I might have only met the identity card incident.

I took a deep breath at the dinner table, and my eyes fell on the unused blue ceramic plate. I wondered whether Frank and I would be happier now if we had just met each other.