mr frank is faithful to love

(FR. Zuo Boyao)

The mobile phone with old photos dropped into the lake and could never be retrieved, and what was then discarded was the only reluctance left.

At this time, the first month of 2021 is coming to an end.

And most of my work before the Spring Festival is coming to an end. My mother and Wu Rui went to Xinjiang and brought a lot of delicious food. They also made a special trip to visit me at the studio in Nanjing. I invited them to dinner that night.Although Wu Rui and I didn't have a good conversation, at least we didn't argue again, and I didn't lose my temper with him.

Back in Beijing, chatting with my mother in the car, she said that I have grown up.

I closed my mouth and shook my head slightly, but didn't respond to anything.

"I've said before that I won't give you the company. I know you don't have the talent for business, and I didn't train you on purpose," my mother said to me, holding the steering wheel while I sat in the passenger seat.

I nodded and said, "I know, I don't really want it myself. If I really start a company, it will be for music."

"Very good, as long as you have confidence in yourself."

I laughed lightly at myself and said, "I'm confident only when I know I'm not capable?"

"No...Many great businessmen didn't know how to do business when they were young, but they still succeeded."

I sighed, opened the cup to drink water, drank half a cup, and then said slowly: "Do you really regret not raising me since childhood? If only I had studied since childhood, I wouldn't be so pitiful now .”

After I finished speaking, I carefully pondered why I blurted out the word "poor". My mother looked at the red light and didn't speak. After thinking about it for a long time, she also sighed and asked, "Why do you say poor? You are living so badly now." Well, be carefree and do what you like. I have been abroad for five years when I was your age, and I haven’t been home once in five years. I don’t even have a relative or friend around me. Your grandfather trained me to train me, So you don't really care about me."

I breathed a sigh of relief and continued to listen to her.

"There was a year when Chinese New Year was approaching, around this time, I bought flour to make dumplings and ate twelve dumplings, squatting on the balcony of the apartment while eating and crying. At that time, I hadn't eaten dumplings for more than a year. My mother paused and asked, "Don't you think I was pitiful at that time?"

I thought about it and nodded slightly.

But she said: "I don't think it's pitiful at all. People can live well without love and family affection. That is a very strong ability. I admire myself."

My mother was doing two things freely, reasoning with me while driving, while I was hesitant to speak and could only respond to her words with silence.

After thinking about it, in my impression, my mother and I rarely talked about my dad, at least in the past five years. The reason is that my mother doesn’t like others to mention that man. A love is neither sad nor regretful, she hates others to pity her because of this incident.

When I was less than ten years old, I overheard my mother talking on the phone with a good friend and said: "Don't say it's just half a year, even if it's a relationship of ten or twenty years, let it go if it's gone. I didn't expect anything extravagantly. Of course I don’t feel that others owe me.”

The time chime came from the radio, I got out of the car and said goodbye to my mother, and asked her if she wanted to go upstairs, she shook her head and said: "You are too busy, go back to sleep, go up, it's cold .”

I thought I would never have anything to do with the Fu family in this life, and I didn't want to get to know the father I had never met. I neither hated him nor loved him, because he was a stranger to me.

Recalling that I couldn't do my homework well when I was a child, my mother blamed me for not inheriting the Fu family's gene of being a good student. Her original words were: "Their family members have gathered all the famous schools from all over the world, and their brains are better than computers. "

When the host of this grand ceremony invited the award presenters, my clapping hands stopped in the air.

Zhang Dou sneaked behind my seat, patted my shoulder, and said, "I'm going to change my clothes and get my makeup done."

In fact, this is a temporary job, and the content of the grand ceremony is basically not directly related to entertainment, but the closing ceremony of an information technology forum. I will not accept the award but will be a guest performer. Bean: "You must not have imagined what just happened."

"That's really unexpected."

"Fu Jie is my father."

My tone was so natural that it seemed as if I had said some kind of greeting, Zhang Dou let out an "ah" sound in confusion, it seemed that she didn't believe it at all, and said, "Don't make a fool of yourself."

"Strange, isn't it? I haven't seen him before." I smiled.

In fact, I didn't pretend to be relaxed. Even if my mother still had complicated feelings for him, it had nothing to do with me. I seemed to be talking about what happened to others.

I went back to the dressing room to change clothes, and I complained that Zhou Yiyi gave me extra work, but she said: "It was Fu Dong who called me personally, I don't know, a programmer conference, why do you have to have a rock and roll atmosphere , he said that he himself used to rock and roll, and seeing how sincere he was, I was almost moved."

"He really rocks?"

"It is said to be."

I sat in front of the mirror and was playing with my hair, and suddenly realized, I thought: there is no genetic dominance gene, but the rock gene is taken away.

In the end, I still didn’t mention meeting Fu Jie with my mother, mainly because I was afraid of annoying her. I met Fu Jie after the ceremony, because he came to the dressing room to ask for my autograph, and Zhou Yiyi took the autograph. The album gave him one.

He knows who I am and I know who he is, but we both choose to avoid that.We routinely meet, greet each other, compliment each other, and say goodbye.

This time, probably for the first time in my life, I felt sad because of "father".

It's not because they don't know each other, nor because they don't have the opportunity to live together, but because they have an established relationship, and they know each other well, but they have to shrink back timidly, and then give each other a few false smiles.

I went to dinner with my friends, and there was a band in the restaurant, so I went up and sang a song, but I didn't enjoy myself enough.

Li Zishuo, who hadn't contacted me for a long time, suddenly called me and asked me where I was in a good temper, saying that a friend brought some snacks from Japan and wanted to give me some.

I said, "No, I'm not eating snacks right now."

"It's okay, you can give it to your friends, where are you?"

"It's really not necessary."

"It's useful."

Later, I was still the one who forcibly hung up the phone, but my friend smiled and said, "He found it by himself immediately, believe it or not?"

"why?"

"You are a star after all, just now you sang with such fanfare, the people below all took pictures and posted them on the Internet."

My friend was talking and still laughing, but I was so scared that I picked up my coat and rushed out of the restaurant. Seeing that I was leaving, some people came to ask for my autograph.

Li Zishuo was still smarter than me. Thinking about it later, he probably knew where I was before making the phone call. He bought a lot of things, and he carried a bunch of them himself, and his assistant also carried a bunch of them.

It's not the snacks he said at first glance.

I lowered my voice and told him: "If the two of us are photographed today and make headlines, you will be finished."

He said, "No, don't worry."

"You were not angry when I scolded you like that last time?"

Li Zishuo handed everything to the assistant and asked him to go to the car first, Li Zishuo said: "I did something wrong in the first place, I shouldn't make so many phone calls, my mother has already scolded me."

"Your mother?" My eyeballs almost fell out.

"My mother knows that I'm chasing you. She likes you very much. She always asks me to invite you to my house as a guest. She wants to cook some local dishes for you."

If someone took a picture of me at this moment, my expression must be very funny. I was puzzled and surprised, and slowly covered my open mouth.