Rebirth is not a dream

This coffee shop is located in a secluded corner of the city. It is quiet and low-key. The warm yellow lighting renders the surrounding very warm, with the warmth of the sun in winter.After Chi Su walked in facing the strong wind, he immediately felt warm from inside to outside.

The waiter took him to the reserved seat, where Xia Qihan was already waiting.

Even if this handsome and strong man is sitting in such a petty bourgeois coffee shop, he still looks like a sharp knife, with cold determination in his eyes.

"Awaited."

Chi Su let out a breath, sat down, looked at Xia Qihan, and smiled faintly.

Xia Qihan, on the other hand, looked at this young man who had only met a few times calmly. After seeing him for such a long time, this young man seemed to have changed a lot from the inside out.Unexpectedly, the boy would take the initiative to make an appointment to meet again, not to mention that the reason would be Qile.

There was a glint of darkness in the man's eyes.

Xia Qihan nodded, picked up the coffee, "Order a cup of hot cocoa to warm up first, then let's talk about business."

Unexpectedly considerate.Chi Su raised an eyebrow.

The atmosphere is also very quiet, with the leisurely singing rippling in the coffee shop.

"Tell me, what happened to Qi Le?" Xia Qihan went straight to the point.

Chi Su was not surprised when he held the cup.

"I've heard about you and Lele..." This opening remark didn't seem very good, Xia Qihan frowned and frowned, but Chi Su didn't care, and continued: "Maybe as an outsider interfering in the relationship between you Things are not good, but I still want to ask, Mr. Xia, are you going to abandon Lele?"

Not to mention frowning, Xia Qihan's face darkened instantly.

"What do you mean?"

"It's nothing interesting, I'm just here to confirm your thoughts." Chi Su said bluntly, looking straight into his eyes, "In this way I can make Lele give up."

"..." Xia Qihan was taken aback, a crack appeared on her indifferent face.

"Is Qi Le telling you these things?"

"Yes. He thought you didn't want him."

Xia Qihan smiled wryly upon hearing this.Don't want him?Obviously he didn't want him, right...

"What about abandonment? Why don't you want to? We've never been together before, so where did the abandonment come from?"

The despair in the words made Chi Su's heart skip a beat.

"However, Qi Le clearly said that he doesn't want to be separated from you."

But to Chi Su's surprise, Xia Qihan didn't have a look of joy and anticipation. Instead, he was filled with deep sadness, as if the whole world had fallen into darkness.

"Maybe, he really doesn't want to be separated from me."

But so what?This does not mean that Qi Le loves him...

Wouldn't that be good?Chi Su wanted to speak, but felt something was wrong.Don't want to be separated, isn't that a good thing?It means that this person has you in his heart!

"We are brothers. We have been together for 18 years. I understand all his thoughts, so why don't I understand the meaning of his words?" Xia Qihan picked up the coffee, and the rising mist covered his expression, He seemed to be smiling with his lips hooked, and understood Chi Su's confusion.Then, he revealed a shocking fact: "A half-brother."

As expected, Chi Su was blown away by these words!

Hey, did he have some kind of hallucination?For example, Xia Qihan said that he and Qi Le are brothers...

Seeing Chi Su looking at him in surprise, there was no disgust in his expression, just a little dumbfounded.Xia Qihan smiled again, and sure enough, he didn't see the wrong person.

He didn't know what kind of psychology it was, so he just said the biggest problem between him and Qi Le... Perhaps, it was because this young man wanted to do something for them, which touched his heart a little.

In Chi Su's eyes, blood relationship is not the biggest problem, as long as they love each other, that's enough. ——Unfortunately, not everyone can let go like this.

Maybe it's also because Chi Su is still a little out of it.After all, not everyone can face the taboos and shackles of blood or same-sex calmly.Not the person involved, nor can I empathize.

"I guessed right, Qi Le really didn't tell you."

Xia Qihan's whole body returned to calm, as if all the injuries and pains disappeared without a trace with his calmness.

Chi Su was speechless.Indeed, Qi Le really didn't say this fatal point.

"Actually, I used to insist because I thought he was ignorant and time could change. But later, time made me understand that I was just deceiving myself. Moreover, this self-deception hurt him and myself. He always desperately wants to Let me return to the path of "normal person". But, what is a normal person? I love him, but I can't help it."

"Although he didn't say it, I understand that he can't accept me, and he can't accept me."

Chi Su was still speechless, and found that his heart ached as he laughed at himself.

The shackles of taboos and the fact of not being loved really made him at a loss as to how to persuade Xia Qihan...

"Although I am still very happy, every time I see him and Weiwei, I feel that this is the light of my whole world."

No time to complain about Xia Qihan, such a man who looks like an indifferent elite, would actually say such love words. Thinking about such a strong man, he fell for the word "love", which shows that when it comes to love, everyone really loves it. All are equal.

"That's why you plan to leave him?" Chi Su pursed his lips, his face showing confusion. "Lele and Weiwei are very sad..."

Do you really, have the heart?

Xia Qihan had an indescribable emotion in his eyes, "Maybe without me, they will live a better life."

Without him, there will be no shackles, and with the freedom that Lele envisions, he will be happier.

……

Xia Qihan stood outside the ward, looking at Qi Le and Wei Wei with tender eyes. At this time, Wei Wei didn't know what to say, making Qi Le laugh out loud. The bright winter sun shines down, making the gentle-eyed young man look like an angel.

Xia Qihan watched quietly, really, really reluctant...

But, can you be happy without me?If so, I am willing to let go.

Staring deeply, as if wanting to engrave youth into the bottom of eyes and bottom of heart.

Obviously feeling so satisfied in my heart, but there is another burning pain spreading in my heart, which makes people feel overwhelmed with pain.

Xia Qihan covered her face.

Chi Su stood aside, shaking his head.

Why bother?I can't bear it, why force myself to let go...

Although, feelings are such a thing, it's always unreasonable and chaotic.Although, sometimes forcing myself to let go is better than both of them suffering endlessly.

"You really don't think about it? Lele, he obviously wants to be with you."

Chi Su said softly.Originally wanted to help Qi Le persuade his elder brother Han to return, but unexpectedly, he was drawn into it instead...

"You don't understand, he really wants to be with me, but that's not love for me, it's just because of dependence." Xia Qihan whispered, with untraceable pain, "We have lived together for 18 years, If he loses me, he will be sad, he will be sad. But, it is still not love."

"There are some things that I can't control, but I don't want to hurt him... It's been so long, it's time to end."

Thinking of that young man who said firmly at that time: I love my brother, but that is because he is my family.

There is affection, but there is no love.

Immediately, the heartache became uncontrollable.

Xia Qihan, you can, just wake up.

Chi Su was speechless.

I want to say, how do you know?Maybe Qi Le just didn't want the two brothers to go on the wrong path... But when he opened his mouth, he couldn't say anything.The pain of so many years made him think of Hue, and his heart seemed to ache, and he couldn't imagine how Hue could bear it at that time...

"Really, is that the only way?"

"Now Weiwei has basically recovered, and she will be discharged from the hospital in a few days." Xia Qihan looked at the situation in the ward, a little dazed, "I will ensure that they have no worries about food and clothing, and they will be happy in the future live on."

As if looking forward to the happy life of the two younger brothers, Xia Qihan showed a smile on his paralyzed face, which was unexpectedly charming.

Chi Su was not as optimistic as him.

Without you, there are only the two of them, this is missing a corner of happiness, how can we live happily?

But seeing that Xia Qihan was already determined to do so, all the words of outsiders would be meaningless.Besides, he really couldn't bear to see Xia Qihan's troubled appearance.If the two can separate for a while to calm down, maybe they can see more clearly what they really want in their hearts, right?Especially Qi Le, is it family affection or love for Xia Qihan?

"Thank you, Chi Su." Xia Qihan turned to look at Chi Su, and the sudden thank you made him stunned, "Please spend more time with Lele when you are free. Also enlighten him more, after all, as a parent , always let the child fly away."

The corner of Chi Su's mouth twitched, what do you mean by that, are you the parent or Qi Le is the parent?Why does it sound so wrong?

But suddenly remembered what Xia Qihan said, Qi Le treated him as a family member.

So he was speechless immediately.

"Don't worry." Chi Su smiled with a sigh, "Qile is also my friend."

Xia Qihan nodded reassuringly.

"Xia Qihan, otherwise, you should separate from Lele for a while." After being quiet for a while, Chi Su suddenly said, "Don't be like now and draw boundaries with Lele and the others in a hurry, just separate for a while, Look at Lele's reaction, maybe there is an unexpected harvest?"

Chi Su still doesn't believe that Qi Le really only has family-like affection for Xia Qihan, and what they said at school last time is still vivid in his memory.

Qi Le is obviously confused about whether she loves Xia Qihan or not...

Why doesn't Xia Qihan believe it?Maybe, feel discouraged.

More expectation, more disappointment.Xia Qihan, he has experienced too many disappointments, even despair.

Xia Qihan remained silent.

"You have been disappointed so many times, are you still afraid of this time? You are already planning to quit the world of Qi Le, so you don't want to fight for the last time?" Chi Su patiently persuaded, still unwilling, and did not want this pair of lovers Just miss it.No hope, like Chi Su in the previous life, it's too late for them to regret. "If you fail, it's not too late for you to leave. If you succeed, you can get the one you love. You really don't intend to take a gamble?"

"you……"

Xia Qihan smiled wryly.He really couldn't stand the slightest provocation. When he thought that Qi Le would really love him, his heart was full of expectation and hope... This heart, even though it felt desperate, still longed for that person's love.

"I don't want you and Qi Le to regret it for the rest of their lives."

Xia Qihan shook her head, neither saying she agreed nor refusing, took one last look at Qi Le and Wei Wei, turned around and left.

"Please take care of them more."

……

So, is it a yes or no?

Chi Su watched his tall and straight figure gradually go away, feeling helpless.

But at this time, Qi Le raised his head as if feeling something, only to see Chi Su wryly smiling.

"Xiao Su?"

"Lele, I'm here."

Chi Su pushed open the door of the ward, with a sunny smile on his face, as if the wry smile just now was his illusion.