beautiful him

With just one phone call, something that was stagnant began to move forward.And it was far beyond Qingju's imagination. He was obviously very happy but felt that he couldn't take it lightly.Sure enough, Ping Liang let himself be confused.

"Qingju!"

Go through the ticket gate, and Hirara is standing there.Wearing the rustic plaid shirt and slacks that students often wear, his eyes are shining, his face is flushed, and he stands there upright.

"Yo"

Just one word made Hirao show a very happy expression.Like a loyal dog, he can't wait to wag his tail all the time, and the anxiety and anger of this month are all forgotten in this instant.

"Is it okay to walk for about 10 minutes?"

"What are you going to do if I say no?"

Hirao blinked.

"Then take a taxi. I'll pay. There's a taxi place across the street—"

While talking, he turned his head to look at the station.As if he was about to run to the taxi stand immediately, Qingju hurriedly stopped him and said he was just joking.Hirao asked suspiciously, "Are you kidding me?"

"Don't take it seriously"

After saying that, Hirashi's face suddenly relaxed.

"Yeah, just kidding"

Hirara scratched his neck shyly.A disgusting guy who enjoys being tricked.

"I can only go. Or do you want to carry me?"

"If Qingju wants me to recite it, I will work hard"

Seeing Hirao's serious expression, Kiyoi didn't know how to react.What this guy says cannot be taken seriously.This guy's devotion is faking.Can't let our guard down on this guy.However, he still felt very happy, and Qingju couldn't help but feel a chill towards himself like this.It was so disgusting that Qingju couldn't help but wanted to scold himself.

"too disgusting"

Even though he was scolded, Hirashi still had a smile on his face.

Although Pingliang said it would take 10 minutes to walk, in fact it took seven to eight minutes.

A detached house with a garden surrounded by a hedge of camellia trees.The entrance and hallway are also very spacious.This is the first time I have come here in Qingju, but walking all the way from the station, I can feel that this generation is a very high-end residential area.

"How about it. Can it be used for rehearsal?"

"enough"

Looking at the spacious living room, Kiyoi replied, after hearing Kiyoi's words, Hirao finally felt relieved. "There is also a piano room inside." Hirao led Kiyoju to continue walking inside.

"It's here. Although the piano has been taken away by my sister as a dowry"

"It's okay. It's more spacious this way"

Touching the wall pasted with sound-proof materials, Qingju took a deep breath.Ah——Trying to make a sound, Hirao seemed to be taken aback and took two steps back.It was a funny look.

"Coward. You're so big after all"

Kiyoi teased him, but Hirara looked stunned.

"What's wrong"

"It's nothing, you smiled at me for the first time since we met"

here we go again.That look of extreme joy.I was unique to Hirara, the smile that caused this strange illusion.At first Qingju was happy to see him like this, but gradually he became irritable.Obviously put on this expression, but Hirashi's actions are another matter.Qing Ju never wanted to embarrass himself by making a mistake.

"Did you really ask your aunt for me?"

"Yeah. But don't worry about it. I just did it on my own."

"I didn't care"

Qingju returned indifferently, Hearing this, Pingliang nodded.

"Yeah, sorry"

Why apologize.Doesn't that make me look bad-hearted.

"You said it was for me, but if I don't call, you plan to live here by yourself. It's also very close to Shibuya, so it's very convenient."

Qingju hints that Pingliang actually moved here for himself.

“I don't go to Shibuya”

"........."

This answer is too convincing.However, how could it be accepted so easily.

"If it's for me, why don't you contact me?"

After asking, Hirao closed his mouth.Hmph, I'm right, Qingju thought to himself.

"Actually, if I call, I will cause you trouble."

"Absolutely no such thing"

Hirao raised his voice in a rare way, but immediately lowered his head.

"I want to... call you. But I can't"

"Why. Didn't I give you the number?"

"The last time we met, Kiyoi was very angry"

"That, that is..."

"And you told Brother Xiaoshan that I am a stalker without friends"

"what?"

Qingju asked back, but immediately recalled the conversation with Koyama and the others at the celebration party.The elder brother told the younger brother, and the younger brother told Pingliang.However, it was Koyama himself who came to the conclusion that day——.

"Is it a misunderstanding?"

Hirao asked.

"...It's not a misunderstanding."

Although that was Xiao Shan's own conclusion, Qing Ju did not deny it.Ah, I denied it a little in the end, but in the end I let Koyama imagine it.

"It's okay. That's the way I am. Kiyoi is just telling the truth. I don't think Kiyoi is saying bad things behind my back. Kiyoi has been saying 'disgusting' and 'annoying' to me since high school."

Qingju fell into silence.The past self has driven the present self into a corner.

"You already thought this way. If I told you that the house was prepared for you, you might not only feel sick, but even go back to the police. It doesn't matter to me, but I don't want to leave a terrible shadow on Qingju, but In case Qingju calls me, I think it's better to be prepared..."

Hirao lowered his head and stumbled while talking, Kiyoju gradually felt very embarrassed.After listening to Pingliang's explanation, Qingju began to feel that Pingliang's failure to contact him was entirely his own fault.

Hirara is like a dog with its tail drooping after being scolded by its master.It was as if he was bullying Hirara, but a sense of grievance equal to guilt also flooded his heart.

Indeed, facing Hirara's own words and attitudes are sometimes very bad.However, seeing Hirara's appearance as if he was the only one injured, Kiyoi wanted to defend himself.If I was really the completely strong side, why would I be so anxious.Why do you wait for Pingliang's call and look at your phone every day to be disappointed.

"Don't make it sound like it's all my fault."

Qingju murmured.Going into negative mode again.no.stop now.The other self desperately blocked it.But Qingju couldn't bear the grievances pouring into his chest.

"Didn't you cut off contact with me first?"

"Eh?"

"I changed my email address and phone number without saying anything. Anyone who encounters this situation will feel that 'the other party doesn't want to contact me again'."

"Wait, wait, that's because Qingju—"

At this moment, the doorbell rang from the entrance.Pingliang turned around. "Wait for me a moment, I'll be right back" Ping Liang hurried out of the room.Qingju, who was left alone in the room, covered his face with his hands and knelt down.

— screwed up again.

My face is so hot.The temperature from the palm is getting higher and higher.Isn't that like a complaint after being dumped?Shameful.It really shouldn't have come.I really want to go back.

"Have any friends come?"

Hearing the woman's voice, Qingju was startled.It's not just Xiaoshan brother, is it possible that Pingliang also shot at women?Qingju poked his head quietly into the corridor, and saw an elderly woman standing at the entrance.

"I'm talking about important things now"

"I know, I know. But I thought you can't just eat convenience food, so I made a lot of dishes for you and brought them here. Put them in the refrigerator and I'll go back. Ah, how are you?"

Hirara's mother looked this way.Too bad, but it's too late to retreat to the room.Kiyoju walked out of the room and bowed his head to say hello. Hirara's mother looked very happy.

"Hello, are you friends from college?"

"Ah, no. In high school"

Hera is not a friend. Kiyoju was vague, and when he heard that, Hera's mother looked surprised, "Is that so? We are old friends from the past." A brighter smile appeared on her face than before.

"I'm so sorry to bother you as a guest. Auntie, I'll be back in a while. Ah, I've cooked a lot of dishes. If possible, let's have some with Xiaocheng later. There are fried shrimps. You usually I don’t eat much vegetables, I also made stews and cold salads, it’s almost night, I must be hungry.”

"Mom, it's okay, you can go back quickly"

Ping Liang's tone didn't sound very good.It was the first time to see Hirara like this, Kiyoi felt very strange.Hirara at home is just like ordinary people.Hirara's mother agreed and entered the kitchen with a paper bag.

"I'm sorry, my mother will be leaving soon"

"It's okay again"

"Xiao Cheng, do you want to make dinner for two of you directly?"

A voice came from the kitchen.Pingliang looked at Qingju with questioning eyes.

"Well, eat here if you can."

"……okay"

Pingliang's face suddenly brightened, "Okay—" Pingliang replied loudly towards the kitchen.It was also the first time for Qingju to hear such a loud voice from Hirao.Thinking that Pingliang's mother was still there, he couldn't continue the topic just now, so he sat on the sofa in the living room and waited idly for a while, Pingliang's mother came out.

"Xiaocheng, then mother is back."

"Yeah." Hirara stood up, and Kiyoi also stood up.Taira's mother smiled at Kiyoi.

"I'm sorry to bother you. Xiao Cheng suddenly said that he wants to live alone. I am very worried about him, but I am relieved to see friends from the past like you coming to play at home. Xiao Cheng will also ask you to take care of him in the future."

Facing Hirashi's mother's deep salute, Kiyoi didn't know how to respond.I used to use Hirashi as an errand.He never took care of Pingliang.The dialogue with Hepingliang's mother aroused Qingju's inner guilt for what he had done in the past.

"Let's eat"

After Pingliang's mother went back, Pingliang took Qingju into the kitchen, and the meal for two was already set on the table.Croquettes, potato salad with a lot of vegetables, and mushroom salad. "There's soup too," Hirashi said as he turned on the gas stove to heat the pot on the stove.

"Then I'll start"

Hepingliang sat face to face with his hands clasped together.

"Ah, what is this?"

After taking a bite of the croquette, Kiyoju couldn't help asking.When it comes to croquettes, isn’t it just potatoes? It makes people think that it’s not repeated with potato salad, but croquettes made with finely sliced ​​shrimp are very delicious.It should have been fried for a while, but it was still crispy.

"My mother likes cooking and studying these things"

Hirara's mother looked graceful and gentle.Whether it's a mother like that, these dishes are good, or an uncle who is going overseas, in fact, Hirao can be regarded as a young master in private.

"This must be delicious as a hamburger. Shrimp burger—"

"I'll tell my mom next time"

"Absolutely not to say"

Salads, salads, and soups are all delicious.Ever since I started living alone, Qingju is either a convenience store or eating outside. Although there is nothing inconvenient, my body is still very honest.

After finishing the meal, Hirao said as if making up his mind.

"Can you continue the topic just now?"

Qingju put down the cup in his hand and sat down.

"I don't want to sever ties with Qingju"

"Actually, didn't you just change your email address and mobile phone number?"

"Because I feel that on the day of graduation, you told me not to pester you anymore"

Qingju was stunned.How on earth would you think that way?

"You said 'goodbye' to me on graduation day, and I felt like I couldn't call you anymore"

"Why do you think so. Didn't I tell you 'goodbye'?"

"However, Kiyoi looks angry in my eyes"

That's because of embarrassment.In fact, I have already prepared what I want to say.But nothing can be said.You gave me a little bit of experience, a little bit of understanding, isn't it a little unrealistic to ask Hirara who has a communication disorder?

——So, is it really my fault?

——Then what should I do if I can’t handle it anymore.

——What happens when you can’t handle it yourself, but you can’t convey it to the other party?

While Kiyoi was thinking, Hirao spoke cautiously.

"...Well, can I ask one thing?"

"what"

"What does 'goodbye' mean?"

Not understanding what Hirao meant by asking this, Kiyoi replied directly.

"'Goodbye' is not 'goodbye'. See you tomorrow, see you next time."

"...It really is like this"

Hiroshi slumped his shoulders as if he had been hit by something.

"What else could it mean? Besides, if you don't want the other party to pester you, why would you kiss him?"

"I thought it was a farewell gift to sympathize with me..."

The unexpected answer made Qingju not know what to say.How negative is that.It is comfortable to be admired by others, but facing this man Qingju who goes beyond the rules and plays cards out of common sense, he really wants to cry.

"Who would kiss you out of sympathy!"

"Then why did you kiss me?"

"……Eh?"

Hirara looked anxiously at Kiyoi who froze for a moment.

"What, what's wrong?"

Ping Hao seemed to really not know what happened.Qingju prayed more strongly in his heart: You also work a little harder to understand me!No, I ask you to understand me!Don't ask why you kissed me.Think for yourself a little bit.Generally speaking, there is only one reason for kissing.

Pingliang is an idiot, an idiot, he just dies once.

At the same time, Qingju also wanted to scold herself.

like.I like Pingliang, so I kiss him.

Isn't that enough reason to kiss.While cursing Hirara, Kiyoi realized that he had cut off his retreat.Hirao looked at him like a loyal dog who was at a loss.

"……I want to go back"

"Eh?" Hirao's eyes widened.Qingju stood up, picked up his bag and strode towards the entrance.Pingliang quickly chased after him.Kiyoi ignored Hirara and put on his shoes, Hirara anxiously took out the key and held it in front of Kiyoi.

"A spare key here. I hope you can use it freely while I'm away"

Qing Ju stared at the key.dare not accept it.Once you accept it, you will have something to do with this disgusting and annoying freak.Qingju didn't want this.But he couldn't choose not to accept it.

"...I don't want to run into anyone else here"

This must be confirmed clearly.

"Yeah. I'll tell my mom to stop coming"

"No, I mean Xiaoshan's younger brother"

"Eh?"

"Didn't you say you might date, but still give me the backup key, isn't it weird?"

"I never said that I would date him. I have nothing with Xiaoshan."

"But didn't you say he was a nice guy?"

After talking about Qingju, I wanted to hold my head together.Wouldn't it be like he was making a fuss?Are you such a person?Qingju couldn't help frowning at words that were too embarrassing.Why did things get so troublesome, go to hell, myself.

"Xiaoshan is a good man, but I will not associate with him"

"……why?"

Hirao looked troubled.

"This kind of thing should not be said to others"

Pingliang's statement touched Kiyoi's backlash.I usually don't care about other people's love affairs.It's not because of etiquette or something, it's just because I'm not interested, but it's different in Hirara, so I asked myself.You made me realize a little bit... Even if you pray like that, it's useless to this guy.

"Who am I to you?"

"Favorite Man in the World"

The firm answer gave Kiyoju courage.

"Then, do you want to date me?"

Qingju felt his face burn.Nod your head quickly.That way I can also be honest.Qingju's heart was pounding and he waited for Pingliang's answer, but Pingliang's answer was something he never expected.

"In no mood"

Kiyoshi blinked.

"why?"

"……why?"

Hirara said 'Don't you understand? ' expression.That's what I wanted to say, you bastard!Kiyoi couldn't help but want to be angry, but in the end he held back, because Hirao stumbled and spoke again, as if he was looking for the right words.

"Because I'm a King"

"what?"

Qingju blinked faster.

"So...Qingju is like a king. I serve the king. I don't do it on purpose. I feel like I am Captain Rubber Duck...Ah, Captain Rubber Duck is a yellow toy in the shape of a duck, little one. The kind kids play in pools or bathtubs, you know?"

—I know, so what?

Ignoring Kiyoi's question, Hirao continued to explain the duck.Captain Rubber Duck used to float in the sewage, and now he is a toy full of honor as a king's toy floating in the golden river. He is very satisfied with this, Hirao said desperately.

I have no idea what he wants to say.nausea.too disgusting.

——Why do I like this guy.

Qingju, who was standing blankly in front of the door, gradually became aware of something.

80% of Pingliang is made up of negativity, and he has very stubborn and unclear rules in his heart.Qingju has always felt that he is very self-centered.Occasional self-reflection.

But in a certain sense, Hirara's "self-centeredness" even exceeds that of Kiyoju.

And he didn't notice this himself, so he didn't reflect on it at all.

It is several times worse than the easy-to-understand [self-centered].

"……enough"

Feeling some shock, Kiyoi turned his back to Hirao, who was still talking about Captain Rubber Duck, and strode away from Hirao's aunt's house.Pingliang quickly chased after him.

"I'll take you to the station"

"No need. I'm not a woman"

"Then at least take this"

Qingju looked at the key sticking out from under his eyelids.Don't take it down.Forget about this disgusting man.What kind of future do you have with this kind of guy? It's just a punishment game.There are better men in this world.Obviously know.Still received it.He fell from his palm.Unable to control.Powerless.Is this what love is like?Qingju felt a headache.

"Thank you"

A smile appeared on Hirao's face as if he felt happy from the bottom of his heart.The corners of the eyes were slightly stained with vermilion.Mingming's eyes were full of intoxication, but in the end, he didn't follow his own ideas.This is the scariest.

"Goodbye"

Qingju raised his foot, and suddenly turned around as if thinking of something.

"come back next time"

Not wanting to have such a stupid misunderstanding at the graduation ceremony again, Qingju couldn't help but say it again.Reason told himself to forget about this man quickly, but the other self completely betrayed reason.

Facing Kiyoi's additional words, Hirao stood there in a daze.

The silly look made Qingju angry, and he also felt embarrassed. Qingju walked towards the station with big strides.

"I, I will wait for you. I have been waiting for you all the time!"

Hirao's extremely excited voice came from behind, Kiyoi did not look back this time.