black abyss

When Bai Nian entered the visiting cell, Chiwai didn't follow him in. He became a little strangely shy, and even showed the emotion of being embarrassed to follow in.

Bai Nian really didn't think too much about Chiwai, he just came to fulfill his duties as a son, and before going out, he only agreed to let him follow after seeing Chiwai's ridiculous and pitiful appearance.

Seeing him swaying at the door, he pointed to a chair and told him to sit and wait, but ignored him.

Bai Nian swiped his card to open the visiting room, and there were already people waiting inside.

The visiting room of the Black Tower is even comfortably decorated, equipped with a sofa, coffee table and TV broadcasting equipment.

When Bai Nian opened the door, the man inside was standing in front of a mobile billboard, looking at the advertisement seriously.

After hearing the movement, he turned around, looked at Bai Nian, and said quietly, "Here we are."

Bai Nian doesn't look like his father, let alone this man in his fifties, his temples are already gray, his body is dull, and his eyes are full of listless life.

He doesn't look like a middle-aged sentinel in his 50s, he looks like an elderly person waiting for death to come.

He was aging faster than he had known in the past year, and he was more vicissitudes than when he came to visit last year.

Bai Nian went to sit on the sofa inside the house, and there were a lot of exquisite fruits and snacks on the coffee table in front of him.

Bai Nian poured himself a glass of white water, and asked politely: "Your mental state is not very good, didn't they arrange a doctor for you?" Let his biological father live well in the black tower.

Bai Nian's father moved in front of the billboard, and he turned his head to watch the TV program that was broadcasting the news.

On the TV news, the head of the sentry tower and the mayor of Lille were celebrating the birthday together at the meeting, and made a series of official speeches about the birthday, which will be better in the future.

Bai Nian's father watched the TV and said slowly, "The outside world has changed a lot.

A lot of new policies..." He seemed to seldom talk to people, stuck in mid-air without finishing a sentence, and seemed to be unable to find new adjectives.

"Very bad."

White supplement.

It is difficult for people in it to feel the change like a frog boiled in warm water. At first, it was the extension of the sentry’s service age in Heiyuan; The amendments to the new regulations for the management of stable drugs this year.

After Bai Nian refused from the main sentry tower to allow him to enter the sentinel's spiritual sea and incorporate the method of spiritual treatment into the routine treatment method, he suspected that the high-level officials of the sentinel were hostile to the sentinel.

Bai Nian couldn't believe it, one of them taught him, and he called her teacher.

In the first half of his life, he was used to being defiant for more than 20 years, and he respected only one teacher.

He couldn't believe that someone he respected would disregard the life and death of a group because of personal feelings.

Bai Nian took a sip of water in silence, staring at the source of the badness in the house with a dull expression.

His father walked over slowly, like a dead tree drooping its branches.

Bai Nian's father stood beside the sofa and did not sit down.

He used to sit for a long time a day, and now there is really no need to sit down.

"I have been thinking for the first half of the year whether our Sentinel is a flawed product created by God.

Born to be recycled. "

Holding the water glass, Bai Nian clicked his tongue in boredom in his heart with a blank expression, thinking in his heart—here he came, and sure enough he came again.

Life in the Black Tower is boring, and every sentinel locked inside has his own belief.

It is hoped that after death God can forgive their sins in life.

Bai Nian's father, after learning that Bai Nian had committed a crime and went to a special court five years ago, began to have faith.

When Bai Nian came to see him that year, he stared at Bai Nian with a pair of gray eyes, and then told Bai Nian that he began to pray day and night now, begging God to put all the punishment on himself, not on his descendants.

Bai Nian rolled his eyes when he heard that, but thinking of the long life in Heita, it was not easy to mock his father's new beliefs.

Bai Nian doesn't talk to each other.

His father stood on the sofa with his hands behind his back, and his expression became a little erratic: "I always suddenly think of some past events recently."

Bai Nian first glanced at the hand on his wrist, and then looked up at the visitation countdown timer on the wall.

Because he really didn't care much about his father's past, he thought a little wildly that Chiwai should sit outside obediently at this moment and not run around.

"I was a bit unruly when I was young, because I needed to go out for surveys all year round, and I rarely went home."

Father spoke in a long tone.

"I did a lot of things that I'm sorry for your mother."

said father.

Bai Nian couldn't help interrupting the other party: "I think you should kill her the most sorry thing for her."

Bai Nian's sharp words made his father silent for a long time, and he looked even older.

Bai Nian was impatient, he didn't know why the sentinels in this world were so fragile.

It’s fine if it’s someone else, he sneered twice and turned his head before he could leave, but he is visiting relatives now, so he could only coax him patiently: “Of course it’s not your fault, that’s what happens when a sentinel loses control of his mind, and he can’t control himself.”

Bainian's father's gray-black eyes stared at Bainian's face. His face was not old, but his expression was slumped, and he looked a little old spiritually.

"I'll beg your mother's forgiveness when I go home, and she always forgives me."

Bai Nian's father recalled.

Bai Nian let out a blank expression.

Bai Nian's father seemed to have remembered something, his face was filled with anger, and his voice was a little higher: "I always forgot before, because I needed to take medicine, I was always in a daze, and I didn't remember anything."

Bai Nian was silent.

"Because I read the news some time ago that the number of registered marriages of Sentinels is very small, and even if there are, it is a combination of Sentinels and Sentinels."

Bai Nian nodded: "So what?" His father recalled, "But at that time, the most common family composition was Sentinel and Guide.

There is an obvious attraction between sentries and guides. "

Bai Nian frowned, and sneered: "Is this the reason why you married my mother who is an ordinary person, and then went out to steal food?" After a sudden realization, he reached out and wiped his face, suddenly let out a chuckle, and then laughed wantonly.

Bai Nian was taken aback by his father in this state. He had been visiting his father in the Black Tower for so many years, and he had only seen his father in despair. He had never seen him so emotionally fluctuating.

"You really look like your mother, Bai Nian."

Bai Nian's father said, paused and added, "Your mother is also very similar to her mother."

Bai Nian looked at the man in front of him suspiciously, as if looking at an unfamiliar stranger.

Bai Nian's father had a strange look on his face. For more than [-] years, he firmly believed that his wife loved and admired him. Even though he hurt her because of his loss of mental control in the end, the other party even touched his face and told him before he died: "This it's not your fault."

What a gentle and kind woman.

He was surveying in other places, couldn't bear the loneliness and had an affair.

He loves his wife, and is afraid that his wife will leave him because of his infidelity to the marriage. After returning home, he knelt on the ground and begged for forgiveness.

His wife would always forgive him. He always thought that his wife loved him too much.

Even after giving birth to his son, he was willing to find a woman for him.

The only requirement is - "Bai Qilin, she is a guide.

You know what a mind bond is, she'll make you comfortable and get you off those crap stability drugs that are addictive. "

Bai Qilin always thought that his wife loved him so that he would marry him; that he would forgive himself for the mistakes he made repeatedly during marriage; After I hurt her because of losing control of my mind, I looked at myself tenderly and said - "It's not your fault" one second before the consciousness dissipated.

Bai Qilin stared at Bai Nian's face that was very similar to his wife's: "She just wanted to have a 'mentally abnormal' child with a sentinel."

Bai Nian raised his eyebrows.

Bai Qilin wiped his face, his gray-black eyeballs were bloodshot, and the expression on his face even became a little ferocious.

He has been imprisoned in the Black Tower for more than 20 years, atones for his sins every day like an ascetic monk, and the dead told him that it was not his fault before he died, and it did not reduce his sense of guilt in the slightest.

He was overwhelmed with guilt every day. He killed the woman who loved him the most in the world, his wife, and the mother of his child.

Bai Qilin suddenly burst out laughing: "She just wants to use me to study whether her so-called 'spiritual combination method' has any effect on stabilizing the sentinel's spirit."

Bai Qilin wiped his eyes, turned his head to look at the person who was speaking on the TV news: "Is it worthwhile to use my life's happiness and life to do this research?" Bai Nian was noncommittal.

However, Bai Qilin's mood was very unstable. After turning his head, he couldn't help sobbing even in front of his own son.

—The mentally fragile Sentinel.

Bai Nian thought of it again.

Because 30 years later, I suddenly realized that my wife, who I thought loved me, didn't love me much and collapsed.

Bai Nian felt that this matter was absurd and ridiculous.

He raised his eyes and glanced at the clock on the wall, thinking that if his father was still in such an unstable mood, he might need to end today's parent-child time early.

Bai Qilin didn't speak, so Bai Nian was so bored that he thought about what he said for a while, and then politely asked his father who was still immersed in the sad atmosphere very inappropriately: "Spiritual union method? Can you explain it specifically?" Bai Qilin At this moment, the image of his father who was struggling to maintain his head collapsed. He turned his head and looked at Bai Nian in disbelief: "You are exactly like her."

He seemed to be accusing a dead man across time and space.

Bai Nian frowned and thought that Bai Qilin must have taken less medication recently, and he rarely consulted a doctor for mental health evaluation.

Bai Nian thought with some displeasure—the money was paid every year.

Bai Nian calmly explained with a deep voice: "You know that I worked in the main outpost five years ago, and I also tried a new treatment method to help the sentinel heal."

Bai Nian stretched out a finger and pointed to his head, "Let my mental body enter the sentry's brain, and in the mental image of the other party, provide spiritual counseling for the trauma the other party has suffered."

Bai Qilin's eyes were very red and bloodshot. After wandering his eyes for a while, he seemed to have regained some sanity slightly. He stared at Bai Nian and let out a long breath.

Some memories seemed to flash back in his mind following Bai Nian's questioning.

His young wife, holding a notebook in her hand, explained to herself in her shocked expression—"It is mentioned in the notebook that the 'psychopath' is the evolution of human beings, but why are the two evolutions so different? ?In the Lille Mental Hospital, these evolutionists will always unconsciously line up in twos. Through experimental observation and comparison, the physical evolutionists who have begun to develop musculoskeletal bodies are often accompanied by a thin and calm spiritual evolution By.

Does this mean that the combination of the two is the final form of human evolution. "

The young Bai Qilin didn't quite understand these things. He was a physical sentinel. He acted like a baby to his wife cautiously with a confused face: "Honey, I don't quite understand. What does this mean?" Because I made a mistake just now, His tone and expression seemed very flattering.

The young wife took the letter and tapped it twice on her palm. Bai Qilin couldn't see his wife's face clearly in his memory, but could only hear her say: "According to the information we have, analyzing this passage, it may be It is because the evolution of the sentinel is not perfect, and the evolution of the guide is not perfect enough, so the sentinel loses control of his mind and the guide is physically weak.

To change this method, the guide may need to enter the brain of the sentry, and of course the sentry can enter the brain of the guide. "

The wife paused, and analyzed very rationally, "But the sentinel's mental fluctuations are very large, and riots may occur when they don't enter the guide's brain. This is very dangerous for both, so the former is more reliable.

They perform spiritual fusion in the spiritual sea, and the sentinel's mental fluctuations may stabilize. "

The young wife's face seemed to be covered with a cloud of white mist, and she moved, as if looking in his direction: "Of course, this is not necessary.

According to the handbook, if the sentinel had contact with the guide for a long time, it might be better for his mental stability. "

In the eyes of the young Bai Qilin, this meant that his wife took the initiative to let him find other women because she loved him too much, in order to protect herself from the torture of mental violence.

The young self was very moved, hugged his wife for a while, and said hoarsely, "I'm sorry wife, you are so kind."

His wife touched his head, a very gentle touch.

Bai Qilin recalled that his thoughts were broken here, he looked at Bai Nian, and simply explained the spiritual combination in his memory.

"What letter?" Bai Nian quickly mentioned the key words.

Bai Qilin shook his head: "I don't know where your mother got this letter from."

"Lille Mental Hospital is written in the handbook?" Bai Nian asked again.

Bai Qilin nodded.

Bai Nian let out an oh, he largely suspected that this might be the letter left by Aiwen, but why did it end up in his mother's hands, and why he never saw it?Bai Nian raised his hand and looked at his watch. There was still more than half an hour before the visiting time. He felt that he must be impatient to wait outside, so he thought about leaving early today.

Then you can take the puppy to a birthday festival.

Bai Nian got up and said goodbye: "I will come to see you again at this time next year, take care of your health."

Bai Nian stood up from the sofa and walked towards the door. Bai Qilin followed him two steps, watching Bai Nian's back quietly when he opened the application and left.

The elevator opposite the gate began to hum, and soon a staff member would come up and take Bai Qinian back to his own room.

"You..." Bai Qilin said hesitantly.

Bai Nian who was standing by the door turned around, and Bai Qilin became in a trance for a moment. Bai Nian's facial features were very similar to his wife's, delicate and indifferent.

Bai Qilin usually felt like a dead tree when he was visiting. He was like Sisyphus who pushed the stone in Greek mythology, and he was always suffering from his own endless punishment.

Today's emotions are much richer than in the past ten years, although the new emotions make him look like he may lose control and collapse at any time.

In Bai Nian's expression, he seemed to see his wife's face covered by a cloud of white mist in his memory, and he whispered to this face: "You said your mother, every time she said forgive me Did you really forgive me?" Bai Qilin asked almost pleadingly, "Does she really love me?" Bai Nian looked indifferent, and when the elevator stopped and the elevator door opened, he replied casually: " Won't.

Who would forgive and still love a man who cheated repeatedly? "The pleading on Bai Qilin's face collapsed inch by inch, and he stepped forward to walk in front of Bai Nian.

The buzzer of the sentry tower alarm suddenly rang piercingly, Bai Nian frowned, and then thought of Chiwai who was left outside the door, his face darkened, he opened the door and walked out without looking back.