Leader Zai Fengping was killed

"Mr. Ranpo told me something."

What's the matter?

I think that Mr. Ranpo will not tell Dazai about my second life with a new account. So, is it a related topic about how I died in my previous life?

"What did Mr. Ranpo say?" As if sensing my thoughts, Dazai asked with a smile, "Want to guess?"

"No." After repeated failures to break free from the load, I simply ignored the Dazai on my body and concentrated on eating the food that was actually not much left, "I'm not interested in men."

"Oh, so ruthless!" Dazai accused me in a weeping voice, "You asked me why I was honest before! It's too cold to say I'm not interested in a blink of an eye!"

Oh.

Yes.

This is the familiar feeling.

Although it is also unethical and weird, Dazai is acceptable, and Mr. Mori is... tsk.

"Are you going to cry? If you cry, please tell me in advance!"

"Why do you say that?"

"Because that way I can turn around and watch you cry before you start crying"

"Ah, it's so annoying, Dazai-kun!"

"Hey, I think Dazai-kun is cute!"

"I'm ready to start crying"

Wow.

I quickly turned to look at Dazai.

Dazai hummed hypocritically.

It's so perfunctory!

Didn't shed any tears, bad review

As if receiving my accusing gaze, Dazai stopped his perfunctory performance.

"Why did you choose such a way of death in the end?" His voice was very low, "Obviously what I pursue is a "refreshing, clear and energetic suicide", and the way of death like jumping off a building is not clear and unclear at all! "

"Hey... Mr. Ranpo told you?" Why did you mention this suddenly?

Having said that, even if you know how I died...it's not enough to come here and "be honest" with me.

"Yeah, I couldn't think of it at all before Mr. Ranpo opened his mouth." Dazai paused, "Now I will not choose this method of suicide no matter what!"

"Because you're not seriously committing suicide right now."

When I was 14, I really wanted to die.At that time, however, all suicide attempts were stopped by Mr. Mori.

After joining the port mafia, although I still don't feel the meaning of being alive.However, thinking about being exposed to violence and death may in turn find a reason to live.In addition, Yuzhong can also play, and then there is Oda Saku who can barely add Ango, so I stick to it.

After Odasaku died... promised Odasaku to be the one who saved people, left the port mafia and joined the Armed Detective Agency, and no longer really wanted to commit suicide.

I know.

Because I have seen everything, whether it is memory or emotion, I have experienced it completely with the help of "books".

"Ah... yes, because you have seen it in the "book". Dazai smiled erratically, and suddenly changed the topic, "I really admire you." "

"Why did you say that all of a sudden?" I was a little surprised.

If it was because I successfully changed the fate of Odasaku's death, so that Odasaku could live in the sun and write novels freely, Dazai would have known this long ago.If it was because of this admiration, I wouldn't talk about it now.

"I didn't realize it before... No, it should be said that I didn't think about it carefully."

Dazai looked at me with a complicated expression.

"It's a good thing you can bear it... After knowing what Oda Saku means to us, you can still resist touching him."

That's what I was talking about.

I can't help it, even in a more desperate situation than this, I can't bear it, at least I didn't behave too badly...Compared with what I want to do, this small price is nothing Woolen cloth?

Tiny as dust.

"I can hold it back. If it were you, I would definitely be able to hold it back." I really feel ashamed of Dazai's "admiration".

"That's right." Dazai sighed, "So once you succeed, you won't be able to keep going."

"Is this something that can't be helped?" I couldn't help laughing, "Besides, the situation at that time... I don't know what this world is like, but I can no longer live in that world."

Because the existence of the "book" cannot be known by a third person, after telling Atsushi and Akutagawa, I can only die for the stability of the world!

"Ah, it's actually quite good! Not only did you let go of your responsibilities, but you also embraced the death you dreamed of, and gained eternal peace." So don't have a deep expression, it looks so strange.

"... Does it hurt?"

After a while, Dazai asked me such a question in a very soft voice.

"Huh?" Wow, what's the matter with this "I've never experienced this kind of suicide method, how does it feel?" "It's okay, just for a moment, and the pain will soon disappear."

"I'm not asking that."

Amidst the clamor of laughter, Dazai came closer to me, staring at me with his kite-colored eyes that seemed not so cold under the warm light.

"Is it that painful? Even dare to try the death method of "jumping off a building"...In that world, is it really that painful to live as the leader of the port mafia? "

Ah...that's what I asked.

"Although I'm not serious about committing suicide now. However, recently I only dare to try some less painful suicide methods... like the painful death method that I used to play when I was 14 years old, I can't do it anymore. tried."

Because of "that level of" suicide method, has the physical pain caused by it surpassed the mental pain we are suffering now?

So, now that I don't even dare to commit suicide, could it be that...

Am I living so happily?

No, I deny it in my heart, just because I agreed to Mr. Mori's request "don't commit suicide".

"So, you who really jumped from the top floor of the port mafia building, what kind of pain did you endure until the time when the plan succeeded?"

Dazai looked at me.

But it doesn't look like you're really asking me.

He seemed to be talking to himself.

Imagine, if it was me, I got the "book" and knew the future where Oda Saku would die, how I would work hard to change this future, and how painful it would be during the planning period.

I waited patiently for Dazai's answer.

Maybe it's because I'm also curious about how my self in another world would respond to the same situation as me.

If it's Dazai... If it's the "I" of this world, can you think of a better way?

Can a path to the happy ending be found?

"It must be very painful." In the end, Dazai just sighed, "Just thinking about it makes me feel so painful that I wish I could die."

Well……

A little bit disappointed.

"However," I tried to save the overly heavy atmosphere between me and Dazai, "although the process was not good, the final outcome is not bad at all."

"..." Dazai was silent.

He didn't say a word, just looked at me with eyes that shone with light.

I know what he's thinking.

In fact, this is what I have been struggling with.

"Dazai! Why are you two still in the corner!" Kunikida-kun rushed over aggressively, pulling me up with one hand and Dazai with the other, "Hurry up, I'll be waiting for you!"

"Ya Kunikida-kun" Dazai twisted desperately like a mackerel caught by his body, "What are you doing, let go, let go!"

"Mr. Kunikida? You don't have to be so enthusiastic about me." Dazai is fine, why am I also arrested?

hello?

Does anyone here remember my identity as the "Boss of the Port Mafia"?

Can you give the port mafia from another world a little bit of respect and treat me as seriously as Mr. Mori?

"By the way, Kunikida-kun, what are you looking for from us!" Dazai complained unhappily, "Obviously I have a good chat with Dazai-kun, but Kunikida-kun is too annoying to interrupt us all of a sudden."

"Speaking of which, what does "just wait for us" mean? "I followed Dazai's words and asked.

"Don't sing and talk in my ear!" Kunikida-kun clasped my wrists and Dazai's together with his right hand, and pushed his glasses with his free left hand, "Okay, it's here."

Although I don't know how many geese are fighting, Kunikida-kun, who is obviously much stronger than me and Dazai, threw us into the members of the Armed Detective Agency with a wave of his hand.

Oh, actually, I'm the only one outsider Dazai who was originally a member of the Armed Detective Agency.

"I want to play "Truth or Dare"! Naomi leaned on Tanizaki's shoulder, holding Tanizaki's arm, "Well, Naomi wants to hear the truth from my brother, but if it's a big adventure, it seems to be great!"Ah Zhimei thought”

"Naomi..." Tanizaki glanced weakly at the others, and then at Naomi, "Well, I really don't need to say it!"

"Yeah, you're shy." Naomi smiled and tapped Tanizaki's face a few times, "You're shy, Naomi also likes it."

"Sorry, I made you laugh." Kunikida-kun suddenly looked ashamed for some reason, and apologized to me ashamedly.

"Oh, it's nothing, since it's "I", I definitely don't care about these things! Dazai said while pulling me to sit in the crowd, "Hurry up and start!"How to play? "

"Sorry, I don't want to participate in the team building of the Armed Detective Agency."

I wanted to get up and leave, but Dazai grabbed me tightly.

I don't know if it's my delusion but I feel Dazai wants to persecute me.

"Don't meet outside, Dazai-kun, why don't you play with everyone?"

Dazai had a cute smile on his face.

Alright, now I know it's not an illusion, Dazai really wants to persecute me.

"I don't even know how to play, but you are so enthusiastic?" Are you not afraid of being persecuted, Mr. Dazai?

"Yeah, I've always been very enthusiastic, everyone at the Armed Detective Agency welcomes Dazai-kun too."

Does this mean that the rest of the Armed Detective Agency will help you too?

"Not always."

Others don't tell me, if Naomi had the opportunity to choose someone else's truth or a big risk, she would definitely choose Tanizaki instead of me!

The author has something to say: Chief Mao Mao: Here is a scratching post for you.

Butei Maomao: Here is a ball of yarn.

After exchanging gifts, the two cats got together to lick each other's fur...

Although we will still punch each other when we meet in the future, but now we stick together to comfort each other and applaud

Kunikida: Dazai who sings and harmonizes x2 is too difficult for me who is Dazai ptsd!

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