I really don't like you anymore

Cousin lived in Xi Xinghai's place for more than half a month. After half a month, grandma's treatment plan was roughly determined, and they decided to go home to recuperate. For follow-up treatment, they can go to the hospital in the provincial capital.

After living with them for a long time, Xi Xinghai was really reluctant to part with them.

Although my cousin was away most of the time, my grandmother only stayed here for one night and stayed in the hospital.

But after all, there are some traces of other people in the house - you can see familiar people when you open your eyes, you can eat hot meals after get off work, and more importantly, the cook will not only turn a blind eye to him, but also Cheers to him, and smiles at him.

A child who has experienced warmth and loss is more unable to resist even a little care than a child who has not experienced warmth. He hardly spends much time in developing a certain degree of psychological dependence on the person who cooks for him.

Although he knows that this kind of dependence is unhealthy, when placed on an adult man in his 20s, this kind of dependence is even more weird and almost pathological.

But he can't control it.

From the age of 14 to 24, he can count on one hand the attachment objects around him that can make him feel dependent. Grandma, cousin, Yan Feihang... Among these people, except for his cousin, no one has responded to him.

So, even if he doesn't cook, even if he just talks to him, Xi Xinghai wants his cousin to stay, stay here, stay for a few more days, and then accompany him... But he couldn't find a suitable reason,— —The orchard is inseparable from people. My uncle and aunt are both getting old, their ears are hard of hearing, and their knees are not working well. If my cousin doesn’t go back, the fruit will be ripe and rotten on the tree.

People in their 20s can't just take care of themselves.

Xi Xinghai said goodbye to them sensibly, and asked his cousin to send him the address of the Taobao store, but he couldn't see anyone. He wanted to taste the fruit his cousin had grown by himself, which was also the fruit from his mother's hometown.

Cousin laughed, "It's not easy to want to eat, I will send it to you when I get back, pomegranate, persimmon, grapefruit and apple, I will keep you eating enough!"

Xi Xinghai was not polite to him either, "Okay, then I'll just wait!"

Cousin's fruit arrived three days later, all kinds of fruits were packed separately, and there are three big boxes together, and there are three big boxes of love!

When he received the call from the courier and rushed to sign for the delivery, Xi Xinghai's jaw almost dropped from shock.

How could he digest so much love by himself?

In line with the basic principle that being alone is worse than being happy with others, Xi Xinghai divided half of the love sent by his cousin to his colleagues, and picked out some loves with better looks, and sent them to Yan Feihang before get off work. past.

It has been more than half a month since the accident that day.

For more than half a month, Yan Feihang has been treating him lukewarmly - Xi Xinghai showed his kindness to him, but he didn't refuse, and Xi Xinghai didn't come to him, and he didn't respond at all.The relationship that was so easy to warm seemed to have encountered the cold air from Siberia, and it dropped to zero in an instant. Even though Xi Xinghai had already made mental preparations, he couldn't help but feel a little bit disappointed.

The office area, which had been busy all day, became noisy. Colleagues were getting ready to leave work in twos and threes. Xi Xinghai held a box of fruit and knocked on the door of Yan Feihang's office.

Yan Feihang was busy with his head down, and his big hands with well-articulated bones were typing on the keyboard, making crackling noises. He took a moment to glance at Xi Xinghai, then quickly lowered his head, "Just put the things down, you can get off work first."

Xi Xinghai is going to get off work, but not now.

He put the box of fruit on the coffee table in Yan Feihang's office, and then he walked to Yan Feihang's desk, "Are you hungry? I'll pick a grapefruit for you..."

Before he finished speaking, Yan Feihang interrupted him, "I'm not hungry. You go."

Xi Xinghai: ...

He didn't know that Yan Feihang was full of torture just looking at him.

I don't know when, a little monster with teeth and claws appeared in Yan Feihang's heart out of thin air. As time went by, this little monster grew slowly and gradually turned into a big monster like a prehistoric giant.The presence of the big monster is so strong that it cannot be ignored. Just looking at Xi Xinghai's figure and listening to Xi Xinghai's voice, the big monster is so excited that it barks its teeth and claws, roars and wants to break free from the cage. , Throwing the person under him.

As for what to do after being under the body, the big monster hasn't figured it out yet.However, even so, Yan Feihang had to use all his strength to restrain that prehistoric giant beast in a cage specially made for it.

... Yan Feihang wants Xi Xinghai to go, the farther the better, it is best not to appear in front of him again, not to drive himself crazy, and not to make himself lose control.

He doesn't like feeling out of control.

Xi Xinghai refused to leave, "Well, that..."

The sea monster named Siren started his singing again, but Yan Feihang's ship didn't want to hit the rocks yet.He hurriedly stopped his words, and gave orders again concisely, "Go!"

Xi Xinghai couldn't help it, "Okay, okay, then don't be too busy, pay attention to your body."

Yan Feihang lowered his head and didn't even look at him, "Understood, hurry up!"

Xi Xinghai curled his lips, and walked away step by step.

Yan Feihang breathed a sigh of relief, his straight shoulders visibly relaxed.

At 07:30, Jiang Ai brought him a box of takeaway. Yan Feihang quickly finished his meal and continued to work. He had to keep himself very busy, very busy, in order to control his thoughts and not drift in the wrong direction .

At 10:30, today's work, tomorrow's work, and the work confirmed in the next three working days are all in the state of being completed and waiting to be delivered. Looking at the empty computer desktop, Yan Feihang suddenly fell into a state of bewilderment and bewilderment.

What to do next?

Do you eat?Can't eat.

sleeping?can't sleep.

Fitness?It can be considered.By the way, it consumes energy that has nowhere to vent.

……

Yan Feihang got up to get off work and stopped by the gym. There was a knock on the door of the office. Jiang Ai pushed the door open and came in. "Boss, have you read the cooperation plan with XX Video? We are waiting for your reply over there."

Yan Feihang nodded, "Look, I'm about to tell you—"

Before finishing speaking, the phone rang, Yan Feihang pointed to a document on the corner of the table, and said to Jiang Ai: "This is it, take it yourself."

Jiang Ai nodded, "OK."

Yan Feihang picked up the phone and walked aside, "Hello?"

The call was from Ling Ruili.

Ling Ruili seemed to be playing somewhere. The moment the phone was connected, the deafening music came from the receiver.

Ling Ruili yelled into the phone, her voice could be heard clearly several meters away.

Ling Ruili seemed to have drunk too much, and her voice was drunk, she said: "Hang, my sister just met a little Ling, she is very beautiful and cute, are you coming to meet her?"

Yan Feihang didn't speak, he fell into deep thought at this moment.

He thought that Ling Ruili's life seemed to be another life that he had never experienced before.

Her energy is always strong, her mood is always excited, and there are all kinds of people around her, coming and going... She is like Xi Xinghai of another gender, living a wonderful and eye-catching life.

He is not himself, he is different from himself, he is a tightrope walker, immersed and enjoying the adrenaline rush, thrilling and exciting feeling when walking on the tightrope.

But I am different, I... will not deliberately pursue that kind of life, even if that kind of life attracts me very, very much.

Yan Feihang pursed his lips.

Ling Ruili didn't receive a reply, so she said hello to the phone a few times, and Xiao Ling also came from the other end of the phone, shouting excitedly: "Tell brother! I'm very good at breathing!"

Ling Ruili said: "He is very good at breathing!"

A vein twitched on Yan Feihang's forehead.

Although Ling Ruili's life is very exciting and rich, there are always endless boredom and endless fun.

But when people reach a certain age, they will spontaneously form certain living habits, slowly weave their own life barrier, and isolate everything that is not suitable, should not appear, and unsafe from the barrier.

What time to get up, what time to eat, what to do after get off work, what to do on rest days, what not to touch, what must be done...all form a norm, written in the heart, engraved in the brain.

Therefore, although Ling Ruili's life is very exciting and rich, there are always endless boredom and endless fun, but that is not what he needs.

It seems that Xi Xinghai is very good to him, Xi Xinghai is very good, very good, he is very attractive to himself, very attractive to himself, his voice, his figure, his smile when he is happy, his shoulders hanging down when he is disappointed... ...all good, but that's not what he needs.

He needs safety, he needs control, he doesn't need danger, he doesn't need to be out of control all the time.