Too much

Qi Jingchen's eyes are fierce and full of predatoryness, but they are not the fierce way of staring at the young man, but rather like the instinctive reaction of marking the territory subconsciously triggered by animals when they are threatened.

Shen Zeming only dared to take a look, then quickly turned his head away.

He was startled by this realization, and his resistance was much weaker.Qi Jingchen's whole body was pressed down, he was so strong that he couldn't move. If it wasn't for his broken left hand, Shen Zeming suspected that Qi Jingchen might go too far.

Qi Jingchen got closer and closer, he fixed his eyes on Shen Zeming, the desire for aggression in his eyes was naked and intense, his hot and rapid breathing hit his face, Shen Zeming couldn't help but his scalp was numb, his body was trembling uncontrollably, his lips were infinitely close At that time, Shen Zeming's mind went blank, and he could smell Qi Jingchen's unique faint mint smell.

Shen Zeming closed his eyes subconsciously, and could not help bending his knees against Qi Jingchen's lower abdomen, preventing him from taking a step closer.

For maybe more than ten seconds, Qi Jingchen didn't make any other movements, just kept the posture of leaning over to kiss, and looked at Shen Zeming quietly.

After about a second or two, Qi Jingchen's eyes regained clarity, he let go of his hands and took half a step back.

Shen Zeming heaved a sigh of relief, gasped heavily and pressed down on Qi Jingchen's wrist which was covered with red marks.After a while, he raised his head to look at Qi Jingchen.

Qi Jingchen looked down at his hands, and after a while raised his hands to touch his lips, looking very confused, as if he didn't know what he was doing.

Shen Zeming was stunned for a moment, and when he came back to meet Qi Jingchen's gaze, he couldn't help leaning back, his back firmly pressed against the wall, and looking straight ahead vigilantly.

Qi Jingchen's eyes dimmed for a moment, he stood there stiffly, clenched the hand hanging by his side, looked at Shen Zeming calmly, his voice was faint, no emotion could be heard.

He said, "Are you afraid of me?"

Shen Zeming didn't answer, Qi Jingchen had no expression on his face, but inexplicably, he still felt that Qi Jingchen was lost and injured, like a big dog curled up on a street corner and abandoned for no reason.

Shen Zeming suddenly felt uncomfortable. After a moment of silence, he relaxed his shoulders slightly, no longer clinging to the wall, and said softly: "I am not afraid of you. You kissed me suddenly, I...I am not used to it .”

Qi Jingchen didn't speak, he lowered his eyes, looked at Shen Zeming's toes that were close together for a while, then took another step back in silence.

The sun fell completely below the horizon, and the sky was about to get dark, and the dim yellow light cast by the street lamps cut a line obliquely in the alley.

Qi Jingchen stood on this boundary line between light and dark, with his hands hanging loosely by his side, the tail of light sweeping over the tip of his nose, dividing half of the bright and half of the dark area.Half of his face was hidden in the shadows, looking a little lonely for no reason.

Shen Zeming clutched the corner of his clothes, took a step forward and grabbed Qi Jingchen's wrist, and opened his mouth to argue: "I'm really not afraid of you, it's just us...we are all men, you are like me, I—" At this time, Qi Jingchen glanced at him suddenly, covered his mouth with his hand, and said in a low voice, "I'm sorry."

Shen Zeming stopped moving.

The night market in the distance is noisy, the streets are crowded with people, and the only few bars are open to welcome guests at any time.The evening wind mixed with water vapor slipped past between them, whirling in strands.

I don't know how long it took, Qi Jingchen turned his head, and the hand covering Shen Zeming's lips unconsciously tightened, and his voice was rustling: "They divorced when I was three or four years old."

Shen Zeming was stunned for two seconds, before realizing the meaning behind Qi Jingchen's words.

"Have you ever been to an amusement park?" After Qi Jingchen finished speaking, he leaned relaxedly against the wall behind him, with his hands in his trouser pockets, his eyes were unfocused somewhere, as if he had fallen into a memory.

Shen Zeming did not answer, but listened quietly.

"When I was young, Shengjuan...my mother often took me there on my birthday. Children, who doesn't like amusement parks, especially birthdays."

"But she didn't take me to play."

Speaking of this, Qi Jingchen frowned lightly, "There are a lot of items in the amusement park, and children love to play, so my mother is still willing to play with me patiently."

"At three o'clock, she bought me marshmallows and popcorn, and said that my mother was going to the toilet, and asked me to wait here obediently. I agreed. The amusement park will close at five or six in the afternoon, but I waited until 06 :30, she didn't even come back to look for me."

"I just sat on the road alone and watched the sky get darker. The amusement park was built in the suburbs, and when it got dark, there were almost no people around, so it was desolate."

Qi Jingchen laughed at himself, and continued: "I'm quite scared, but I don't dare to run around, for fear that my mother won't find me when she comes back. But I was sleepy and tired, so I accidentally fell asleep."

"Later my mother..." He paused for a second or two, and changed her name, "Sheng Juan finally came, she woke me up, she smiled brightly, she said, 'A Chen, this is the one who was abandoned Taste, that's what your dad did to mom'."

Shen Zeming was speechless.

Qi Jingchen lowered his voice and continued: "For my birthday next year, she didn't take me to the amusement park. We went on a trip, and when we got back on the plane, she left first and left me alone at the airport."

"It was okay this time. The staff at the airport called her for me. She came back to pick me up soon, blamed herself in front of the staff, and cried and said she would never do it again."

"But on the second birthday, she—" "It's all over."

Hearing this, Shen Zeming finally couldn't hold back and cut off Qi Jingchen's words. He covered Qi Jingchen's mouth with his foot and said softly, "I will spend every birthday with you from now on."

Qi Jingchen looked at him for a while, then suddenly grabbed his hand and held it in his palm, and asked, "Then will you abandon me?"

"No." Shen Zeming shook his head, his eyes were firm, "I will not abandon you."

Maybe it was not enough, Shen Zeming added another deadline, "Forever."

For a moment, Qi Jingchen's eyes were dark, filled with emotions that Shen Zeming couldn't understand. After a pause, he said, "I don't believe it. We are just friends. You will get married and have children in the future."

"One day, you will not want me."

When he said this, Qi Jingchen retreated into the darkness, his eyes showed a rare fragility, but his voice was very stubborn, as if Shen Zeming would not want him in the next second.

Shen Zeming's heart suddenly surged, his heart seemed to be pinched, and his chest felt sore.He moved his lips and said in a low voice, "I won't want you."

Qi Jingchen just looked at him and didn't speak. After a while, he held Shen Zeming a little harder, and asked in a bad tone: "What kind of girl are you going to marry in the future?"

Shen Zeming was stunned.

To be honest, he never thought carefully about whether he liked boys or girls.If he had imagined in the orphanage a long time ago, he would probably find an ordinary girl, have two children, and live his life in a normal way.

But... Qi Jingchen suddenly reached out to touch his cheek at this time, Shen Zeming came back to his senses, looked away, and replied: "I don't know."

Qi Jingchen's face became ugly, he frowned and stared fiercely at Shen Zeming for a while, and for some reason, he turned his head and sighed.

About three seconds later, he cupped Shen Zeming's face and said, "You can't marry anyone."

Then Qi Jingchen grabbed his hand and pressed it on his heart, his eyes were dark, "Because I'm here, I seem to like you a little bit."

"So, Shen Zeming, do you want to consider liking me?"