Ambiguous boundaries

When Jiang Yi saw the news, he couldn't even tell what he felt for a moment.

He has never asked Qi Zhen to be considerate of his work, because he also understands that Qi Zhen has great emotional needs, but it is impossible for him to give Qi Zhen the response he wants at any time.

Qi Zhen's love seemed to carry distrust and restrictions, and for the first time, Jiang Yi felt exhausted from this relationship.

This conversation ended with a comforting emoji from Jiang Yi, because he didn't know how to reply so as not to ignite Qi Zhen's bomb.For the next three days, he was rushing to catch up with the announcements, and his sleep time could only be made up for a while in the car when he went to the next work site.

Jiang Yi had just finished a brand live broadcast that day, and saw that Qi Key actually sent him a message, basically asking if he had forgotten the chat between the two of them that day.

He stood blankly in front of the mirror for a while, remembering that Qi Key said that many of Qi Zhen's acquired character defects were caused by him, and he realized that the younger sister was blaming him for not taking the initiative to send Qi Zhen a few days. information.

"Brother Yi, you can rest early today, and the recording of a stage blessing will be over later, just say a few words and it's ok." When Xiao Yang pushed the door and came in, he saw Jiang Yi standing alone in the mirror The front was in a daze, fingers tucked around the neckline, looking like he was about to take off the suit, but he didn't move.

"Brother Yi?"

"Oh, good." Jiang Yi came back to his senses and rearranged his clothes, "Then let's change after we finish recording."

.....

Jiang Yi had just finished recording at the door, and the first thing he did was take out his phone and send a message to Qi Zhen.

Brave Xiaojiang: Brother, what are you doing?

After thinking for a while, Jiang Yi also posted a cute emoticon package as if to ease the scene.

"Brother Yi, are you leaving?" Xiao Yang leaned forward and looked at his boss worriedly, "The schedule will not be so busy later, let's have a good sleep tonight."

Seeing Xiao Yang's head next to him, Jiang Yi came back to his senses, locked the phone screen, and nodded to her.

"Let's go."

On the way back to the apartment, Jiang Yi kept holding the phone. After the vibration, he unlocked it with some anticipation, but found that it was just a few notifications from other apps.

In the end, he didn't wait for Qi Zhen's reply when he got home, so Jiang Yi sent two more messages to Qi Zhen before taking a bath, calling his brother and wife, but he didn't believe that Qi Zhen still didn't reply.

......

Jiang Yi came out of the bathroom after blowing his head. He saw that Qi Zhen really made two video calls to himself.

In the beginning of the video, Qi Zhen’s face didn’t appear, only his rolling Adam’s apple was visible. After a while, the camera panned to his face. It felt like he had just finished taking off his makeup and washing his face. His cheeks and the ends of his hair were still intact Somewhat moist.

Qi Zhen didn't say a word, just looked at Jiang Yi directly like this, with an expression like a proud cat, like you don't communicate with me unless you scratch my chin first.

Jiang Yi said resignedly: "Is today's play over? Are you tired?"

Qi Zhen originally wanted to make some sarcastic remarks, but when he saw Jiang Yi's obvious dark circles and fatigue, his expression became unpredictable for a while.

"You haven't rested yet?"

"How can I rest well, brother." Jiang Yi rubbed his temples, "The two days when I was with you were messed up, and now I have a lot of work when I go back to work."

Qi Zhen felt guilty for a moment: "I thought you didn't want to reply to my message."

Jiang Yi took a deep breath, and didn't know what to say for a while, Qi Zhen's insecurity even felt a little childish, in his own eyes.

Seeing Jiang Yi's expression, Qi Zhen was also a little embarrassed, but as if he was still unwilling to admit that he was insecure, his hand unnaturally went around the back of his neck, his eyes were not facing the camera: "You used to be like this, or If you don't reply or make a few perfunctory sentences, who knows if you are really busy."

Jiang Yi suddenly felt that he needed to have a clear discussion with Qi Zhen on this issue, because of their personalities, their handling of feelings was very different.

He himself is a very rational person, and his emotional needs for the other half are not as strong as Qi Zhen's. In most cases, he is indeed a person who puts his career first, while Qi Zhen is different.

In Qi Zhen's emotional world, it seems that only himself is his spiritual sustenance. The attention and dependence he received in his youth came from himself, so now he still yearns for the same sense of existence from himself.

But it's very difficult, the undisclosed relationship, the profession that everyone pays attention to, the itinerary that is followed by the illegitimate paparazzi, he has no way to let Qi Zhen get everything he wants at any time with him.

"Brother." Jiang Yi said with deliberation, "Do you want to try to learn more from Lin Xiaofei and Guo Luyuan in your spare time, I mean..."

He was interrupted by Qi Zhen before he finished speaking, the man in the video narrowed his eyes dangerously, and his voice was very low: "You mean I'm very idle, and I like to cling to you when I have nothing to do?"

The atmosphere was a little frozen, and Jiang Yi suddenly didn't know whether Qi Zhen's ability to quickly understand what was said was good or not, he paused and then spoke again: "I mean, don't pay too much attention to me. body, so that if I haven’t returned, you will be very concerned.”

Qi Zhen's face darkened: "Who cares?"

Then Qi Zhen seemed to be afraid that Jiang Yi would feel that he really didn't care, and said again: "I don't need you to reply to me in seconds at any time for 24 hours, just replying two sentences a day is a burden to you?"

Jiang Yi has a headache, the conflict of long-distance relationship is difficult to reconcile: "It's okay, then treat it as if I'm just afraid that I didn't reply to you, and you care about it."

"Why should I care?" Qi Zhen raised his chin, his lips were slightly puckered, looking a little awkward and wronged.

The heater in the room made Jiang Yi a little hot. He took another sip of water before he said, "Because I feel that you are always insecure."

For the first time, he uttered three words.

"I just hate guessing." Qi Zhen stared at other places and muttered as if giving up, "That's why I want to know what brother is doing."

The meaning of this passage is to admit in a disguised form that he has no sense of security. Jiang Yi understands but feels helpless.

"But brother... the sense of security is something you give yourself." Jiang Yi leaned against the head of the bed, adjusted his sitting posture, and tried to guide Qi Zhen, "Look at me, I won't want to know what you're doing anytime. , because I know that maybe you are also busy and you have your own affairs. In fact, everyone is an independent individual with their own living space, and no one is always by their side...... ..”

When talking about this, Jiang Yi didn't notice Qi Zhen's increasingly ugly face, and when he glanced at the video halfway, the words in his mouth slowly stopped.Qi Zhen's handsome face in the line of sight has no expression at the moment, it looks colder than the cold winter outside the window, but the eyes looking at Jiang Yi are very sad.

"Brother, I've wanted to ask for a long time."

"Do you really like me?"

.......

After Qi Zhen said this, he hung up the video call, Jiang Yi was a little surprised, but it was followed by bursts of bitterness.He didn't understand why Qi Zhen would suddenly ask him like this, could he still not see his sincerity towards Qi Zhen?He just wanted Qi Zhen to try to give himself a sense of security.

It's just that before he finished his headache with Qi Zhen, the phone rang again, and it was from Chen Wan.

"Who are you calling? The line has been busy for so long?" Chen Wan's voice was a little anxious.

"...something about work." Jiang Yi's right eyelid twitched wildly, "It's so late, what's the matter?"

"Your dad had a re-examination at the company last month. It was originally an old problem of emphysema, but in the past two days he suddenly coughed up blood and had chest pains. The doctor said that the possibility of lung cancer could not be ruled out. When will you be free..."

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Jiang Yi didn't listen carefully to what was said later, he just felt that a buzzing sound was overshadowed in his head.