Ambiguous boundaries

Jiang Yi stood there dumbfounded, with a thorn stuck in his throat, his mouth opened and he didn't know how to speak.

Qi Zhen glanced at him, with a calm expression on his face, then walked up to Chen Wan and said politely: "Hello, Auntie, I heard that Uncle is ill, so I came here to visit."

Chen Wan didn't look directly at Qi Zhen, Jiang Yi saw that her breathing was a little short, and her already haggard face seemed to be unable to hold on in the next second.

"I am interested." Chen Wan nodded but was not enthusiastic, then looked at Jiang Yi, "I have something to tell you, come with me."

Before entering the room, Jiang Yi was already prepared to be scolded.It's just that after entering, Chen Wan didn't speak for a long time.

"mom......"

Jiang Yi looked at Chen Wan's somewhat thin body from behind, feeling guilty.

"Isn't he filming? Why did he come?" Chen Wan took a deep breath and restrained her emotions, "I don't think ordinary colleagues can do this."

"Because you were nice to him before, so..." Jiang Yi raised one hand and pressed his face wearily, "He just wanted to see Dad."

Chen Wan seemed to remember something, and endured it again and again: "I believe you for the time being, not because I really believe it, but because I don't have the energy to doubt and question now."

Jiang Yi saw that Chen Wan's hands were trembling a little, and when he spoke again, his voice was trembling: "I can't watch you again like before, I just want my son to go the right way, is it difficult? "

"..." Jiang Yi stood on the spot silently, he knew that Chen Wan's mental condition was not good now, both Jiang Zhi and his affairs were like a heavy hammer hitting her.

"Mom, go and rest first."

After sending Chen Wan back to the room, Jiang Yi went to find Qi Zhen.He saw Qi Zhen wearing a sweater and hat, leaning on the seat outside the ward playing with his mobile phone alone, the light from the mobile phone screen reflected on his face, making him look lonely.

"Qi Zhen."

The moment Qi Zhen looked up at Jiang Yi, Jiang Yi felt that he couldn't read his eyes at the moment.

"I went to see my uncle." Qi Zhen pulled off his sweater and hat as he walked, showing deep distressed and tired eyes, "He coughed really badly, and he kept complaining of chest pains."

Jiang Yi didn't know what Jiang Zhi would say to Qi Zhen: "Did he say anything?"

"No, just say that it's nice to see me, and that I didn't expect me to come here specially."

Jiang Yi nodded, but he didn't feel like he had escaped.

"Brother." Qi Zhen continued to speak after a while, but the question he asked made Jiang Yi's heart sink suddenly, "Why are you considered an ordinary colleague?"

"If you don't want to come out, then come out. It doesn't matter if you stay underground for the rest of your life. I already figured it out." Qi Zhen's voice sounded tired, "But why am I not even a friend in front of them, but just an ordinary colleague?"

"That's because they all knew about it." Jiang Yi interrupted Qi Zhen's words, and gave up speaking normally, "Everyone knew about our relationship back then."

Now it was Qi Zhen's turn that his pupils suddenly dilated, and he froze in place in shock: "What do you mean...?"

Jiang Yi gave up completely: "On the night of rehearsal in the practice room, my mother came to the company to bring us food, do you remember? I kissed you in the utility room...she saw it all."

He remembered that during the intermission of rehearsal, Qi Zhen pressed himself against the wall like a puppy while rubbing against him while repeatedly crushing on his lips.At that time, he still resisted a little, because the door was ajar, and then he began to enjoy it obediently, until he saw Chen Wan passing by through the crack of the door, and her eyes suddenly glanced over inadvertently. Forget—that look filled with panic, fear and disbelief.

Jiang Yi immediately pushed Qi Zhen away, saying that he was going to the bathroom, and there was no sign of Chen Wan outside when he went out.It's just that after returning home from practice that night, what greeted him was Chen Wan roaring and crying like crazy.

No parent is born to accept that their son is gay, or they find out by breaking through the intimate scene by themselves.And the son's homosexual partner is not only his friend, teammate, but also his younger brother whom he often mentions to be clingy to him, and a child he also likes very much.

Qi Zhen didn't speak anymore, everything seemed to be traceable.Jiang Yi didn't plan to continue telling Qi Zhen how Chen Wan treated him and why he left, because these had nothing to do with Qi Zhen, and they had no contact at that time.

"But, why didn't you tell me anything?" Qi Zhen covered his eyes, and his tone was full of exhaustion, "Brother, this is the first time I feel so tired after walking in this relationship."

The air seemed to be still. Jiang Yi stood still and didn't speak immediately, only feeling a pain in his chest.

"You know my dad's current illness, I really can't help it..."

Qi Zhen interrupted him: "You really don't understand, brother."

Jiang Yi didn't understand the meaning of Qi Zhen's words. He felt that Qi Zhen was just blaming himself for not explaining these things clearly from the beginning, but from his point of view, he had no way to reconcile family and love. Wan's tough attitude is still about Jiang Zhi's illness, how could he not lie to come out for Qi Zhen?

After leaving these words, Qi Zhen went back to the hotel to rest on his own, Jiang Yi wanted to explain again, but he opened his mouth and didn't know what to say.All the lies were told by him, no matter how well-founded they are, they are all deceptions in Qi Zhen's eyes.

It's just that he didn't expect that this was the last calm night before the storm.

When Jiang Yi woke up the next morning, all he saw were countless missed calls and messages on his phone, so many that he was about to blow up his phone.

Almost instantly, his eyelids began to jump wildly, and the bad feeling gradually spread.

He opened WeChat, and there were overwhelming messages asking him if the hot search was true.Jiang Yi opened up the hot search almost tremblingly, and the first thing that came into view was #琼镇江逊恋情#, followed by #琼镇江逸吻吻#, and the entire real-time square was filled with people. With question marks on the screen, swear words, and some shocking blessings, Weibo was almost paralyzed.

The first video lined up on the square was the kiss he and Qi Zhen had on the first snowy night. He never thought that it would be so dark at three or four in the morning, the crew had rested and the paparazzi were squatting.

Rence's phone call came again, Jiang Yi's mind was in a mess and he didn't dare to answer it, even his palms started to sweat.

"Jiang Yi——!" Chen Wan pushed the door open almost violently, and Jiang Yi saw her tears streaming down the moment she rushed in, "You can tell me what is on the hot search list. What!"

Jiang Yi lowered his head and said nothing, his nails were almost digging into his flesh.

"What the hell did I do wrong? Your father is like this, and you still want to torture me?" Chen Wan collapsed as if she was about to fall to the ground in the next second, "How long have you lied to me?"

"No, we really only got in touch with each other." Jiang Yi found it difficult to even open his mouth.

"Get together only if we have a relationship? Why must it be a man? Why is it him again?" Chen Wan rushed forward and grabbed Jiang Yi's shoulder, so hard that he felt that his shoulder blade was hurting, "What I told you, You forgot? You are wrong—”

Chen Wan's tears kept falling like a dam burst.

In the quiet room, only the vibrating sound of the mobile phone and Chen Wan's sobbing could be heard, Jiang Yi stared at the floor and couldn't say anything.

......

After a while, Chen Wan seemed to be tired from crying, and when she slid on the ground and spoke again, her voice was still a little trembling, but she couldn't refuse a little more: "I won't let your dad look at the phone recently, I hope you understand what to do. How to do it."

When Jiang Yi went to the Qi Zhen Hotel to find him, Qi Zhen had just gotten up from the bed not long ago, and he was a little pleasantly surprised when he opened the door and saw him coming.

It's just that he is not in the mood right now, Jiang Yi walked in with a chill, and took off the wrapped scarf: "We were photographed."

Qi Zhen's surprise gradually disappeared on his face: "What do you mean..."

"On the night of the first snowfall, I was photographed and posted on the hot search." Jiang Yi looked at one place in a daze, "What should I do now, my mother has seen it, and everyone knows it,"

Although Qi Zhen was a little surprised, he didn't think it was a big deal: "Then make it public, bro."

Jiang Yi looked at Qi Zhen, and finally felt a little unbearable: "Have you ever thought about my family?"

Now it's Qi Zhen's turn to frown: "Are you scared and unwilling to come out with your family?"

It's not that Jiang Yi is unwilling, he never thought that he would come out to Chen Wan again with this attitude, at this time, it is impossible for him to be so selfish to bring another blow to this precarious family for the sake of love: "You know my mother's attitude, and my father now..."

Qi Zhen quickly interrupted Jiang Yi this time: "So, you want to break up?"

There seems to be a fuse hidden in the quiet space, and the atmosphere will be ignited at any time until it explodes.Jiang Yi was dumbfounded for a moment, and when he raised his head, he only saw the moisture in Qi Zhen's eyes.

"I'm so tired, brother, I'm really tired."

"I'm always moving towards you, and you're always pulling back. We have too many problems."

"You don't seem to like me at all, you're just messing with the inertia I'm used to? You coax me, send me a message, and I'll be happy for a long time, and then feel that I still have a sense of existence with you, immediately You can post it as if nothing happened, so I look like a dog in your eyes, right?"

"You don't even have to lose your bones, you just need to hook your fingers."

Jiang Yi's heart ached, as if blocked by a stone, and it was difficult to breathe.He wanted to say no, but he asked himself, when was he not relying on Qi Zhen's unreasonable preference and being confident?

"You're rational, you're independent, but what does that have to do with telling me what's going on in your family? You don't tell me, just because you never see me as a future family member, a family member you can rely on. I am in your Here, whether it's family or career, whoever comes first is above me."

"No...brother." Jiang Yi wanted to explain that he liked Qi Zhen, but he really didn't want to bother him, but he forgot that his lover can help share the burden and be his backing.

"Coming out, family, future, everything we can solve together." Qi Zhen's tears kept flowing, every drop seemed to hit Jiang Yi's heart, he wiped his face indiscriminately, " But I have never felt that you will never choose me after we are here."

"How to solve it? How do you want to solve my house now?" Jiang Yi felt that the atmosphere was suffocating him, and his brain was so painful that he was about to explode.

..........

The phone in his pocket was vibrating all the time, Jiang Yi took it out and answered it, the current atmosphere made it difficult for him to continue communicating, but after answering it, he accidentally pressed the speaker, and Rence's anxious voice came from the receiver.

"Why the fuck did Jiang Yi get photographed? Didn't you still ask me to help you find someone to suppress the news? Aren't you afraid of coming out in public? How dare you kiss outside—"

Jiang Yi hung up the phone in a panic and raised his head to look at Qi Zhen. Sure enough, his tears stopped, but his eyes were full of shock and grievance.Everything can be traced to Qi Zhen.

"I'm just afraid that my family will find out." Jiang Yi stepped forward and anxiously grabbed Qi Zhen's wrist.

Qi Zhen opened Jiang Yi's fingers, the sadness in his eyes had been replaced by a lack of warmth, his face was as cold as a millennium's ice, he opened his mouth as if giving up, but Jiang Yi heard relief.

"Let me tell you for you."

"Break up, Jiang Yi."