Ambiguous boundaries

A week after Jiang Yi officially resumed work, the public opinion is still fermenting, basically as long as he shows up, people around him will cast ambiguous and gossip eyes.

No matter what he does, someone will seem to accidentally get around to the topic of him and Qi Zhen.Jiang Yi always laughed and refused to respond positively, but he was tired of the gossip of these people in the circle.

.......

"Brother Yi, should I send you home or the company now?"

Xiao Yang turned her head and looked at Jiang Yi's expression, which was obviously much better than before, and the guilt in her heart dissipated a little. She originally thought that if she didn't tell Qi Zhen about these things, the two of them might not quarrel because of it, but Jiang Yi didn't. I don't care, saying that the conflict will always be there, but it just broke out in advance.

"Go back to the company, I haven't finalized the direction of the song yet." Jiang Yi glanced at the time on his phone, it was not yet 07:30.

Nearly half a year has passed since the last album, except for some previous brand activities and filming, he has been busy preparing for the new album song planning for the [-]th anniversary of his debut.

After the romance was blown up, he thought his career would plummet, but in fact it was not the Waterloo he imagined.It may be that he has really debuted for too long and his career transition is not bad, so even though he is not very old now, most people can still accept his love.It's just that for many Du Weimeng girls, the one who can't accept being in love is Qi Zhen.

Of course, it is also possible that for many people, he and Qi Zhen have already broken up, so it is not a big problem.

After sitting in the recording studio, he began to prepare to write the first song and lyrics.Because he was born in a nurturing department, the album for the [-]th anniversary of his debut will have themes related to his youth, the confusion of adolescence, feelings, growth, and bonds, all of which he wants to write into the song.

Jiang Yi is a person who is very dedicated and efficient in doing things. Once he starts, he will not do other things in the middle. By the time the phone rings, it will be three hours later.

He made a video call to his family as usual, and the only person who answered was Jiang Zhi. Chen Wan was still reluctant to show up, but compared to those harsh words and endless surveillance in the past, Chen Wan is much better now.

"How's the test result today, Dad?"

"It's pretty stable, and it hasn't continued to deteriorate." Jiang Zhi rubbed his chest, "Aren't you busy recently?"

"Fortunately, there are many activities at the end of the year."

In the video, Jiang Zhi glanced to the side, and asked in a sneaky voice, "You and Qi Zhen...really separated?"

Jiang Yi was stunned for a moment and didn't speak immediately, Jiang Zhi continued to ask: "Is it because of us? It wasn't your mother who told me, but I just checked my phone and sent me a push today, saying that Qi Zhen replied on Weibo or something."

"Yeah." Jiang Yi wasn't too emotional when talking about this topic, "It's not you, it's because there are many problems between me and him that haven't been resolved."

"Xiao Yi." Jiang Zhi coughed twice, then spoke after a while, "Last time I wanted to ask, you said you would help you find a friend related to this hospital, isn't it Qi Zhen...?"

Before Jiang Yi could speak, he was interrupted again.

"Qi Zhen came to see me that day, and I saw that the doctor looked very familiar with him, and I heard them chatting a lot about other things, and I felt that we had a lot of friends. And the girl who came to help me transfer that day also looked like Qi Zhen. Yes, like his relatives." Jiang Zhi took a sip of water, "So it's him?"

"Yes... Is Mom there?" Jiang Yi said in a quiet voice, a little cautiously. He was worried that Chen Wan would drag Jiang Zhi to another hospital after hearing this.

"Your mother just went out to fetch hot water, so I asked." Jiang Zhi glanced out, "Your mother has a stubborn temper, you know that she has searched a lot of homosexual things recently, and she seems to be trying accept."

"In the past, even if you were, she would correct you for the sake of face and her own thoughts, but now everyone knows, what can she do, hey, mentality can only be adjusted by herself."

Jiang Yi lowered his head and didn't say a word. He couldn't change his sexual orientation. Who can control his heart?But his parents are not wrong either, whether it is outdated concepts or feudal ideas, to put it bluntly, everyone is an independent individual, and he has no reason to let his parents accept him naturally.

He still felt guilty and sorry in his heart, but this time it was no longer because he was gay, but because he had learned to accept and tolerate himself unconditionally for his parents.

When he came home at night, he lay down in bed, brushed 71's super chat for a while as usual, and said that the master still had to live on the food produced by cp fans during the breakup, which was indeed quite funny.

But Jiang Yi doesn't plan to go after Qi Zhen right now, his career and family have just gotten back on track after the incident broke out, and Qi Zhen is also filming in closed mode, he doesn't want to disturb him in this situation.

Looking at the cp fans who are worried about Zhongzhong every day in Chaohua, he is worried that he will really finish with Qi Zhen this time. After all, he is not confident that after abandoning Qi Zhen twice, he will still let people stay where they are and wait. .

.......

The atmosphere in Chaohua was bad, and he couldn't fall asleep. When he was staring at the ceiling in a daze, he suddenly remembered the long and painful days after Chen Wan saw him and Qi Zhen kissing.

When Jiang Yi went home that night, his heart was beating like a drum, and he was so nervous that he couldn't even make up words.When she first got home, Chen Wan didn't see anything wrong. After eating, Chen Wan came to his room, and the storm finally came.

At first, Chen Wan just closed the door and calmly questioned him about his views on Qi Zhen. Jiang Yi lowered his head and didn't speak. He couldn't argue with the facts that Chen Wan himself saw.

"Didn't you say that Qi Zhen is your best friend in the team? Didn't you still say that he is your younger brother?" Chen Wan said to herself, "You treat your friends like this, your younger brother? Doing this kind of thing with him .....thing?"

Jiang Yi sat at the desk, tightly clenched his trousers, as if trying to rip the fabric to pieces.

"What is the relationship between you two? How long have you maintained this relationship?" Chen Wan's voice became more and more excited, "Jiang Yi, do you know that he is a man, he is your teammate, and he is almost two years younger than you brother!"

"I'm asking you something!" Seeing Jiang Yi's unresponsive appearance, Chen Wan couldn't help but stepped forward and pushed him hard, the nausea and anger in her heart were about to overwhelm her rationality, "Who started it first! What? relation!"

"...Me." Jiang Yi's voice was almost inaudible. He didn't want Chen Wan to trouble Qi Zhen. It didn't matter who started it first. There is a blame.

The moment Chen Wan heard him say this, her eyes turned red, and tears flowed down her face: "You like him? Did you start first?"

Jiang Yi didn't know what kind of feelings he had for Qi Zhen, it was vague, but also seemed to be moved by his heart.

He hung his head and said nothing, but Chen Wan suddenly rushed to him and knelt down, shaking her body: "Is it because the company makes you live together every day? Is it because there are almost no opposite sexes of the same age around you?"

Chen Wan wiped away her tears, and said to herself: "If we knew you would become like this, we shouldn't have sent you to be some kind of star...you spend every day with a bunch of men in adolescence, if there is no problem, there will be problems .”

"Do you like him?" Chen Wan grabbed him suddenly as if remembering something.

Jiang Yi was so pulled that he almost bumped into the bed cabinet. Facing this sharp question, he couldn't lie. During this time, he had been thinking over and over about his liking for Qi Zhen, but he couldn't come up with a result.To Qi Zhen, he seems to have a youthful heartbeat, but also seems to have fallen into a misunderstanding due to long-term intimacy.

"I...don't know." Jiang Yi honestly expressed his thoughts.

Chen Wan breathed a sigh of relief after hearing this, and loosened Jiang Yi's hand a little: "You don't like it, you're just an adolescent curiosity."

Later, Chen Wan said in a more affirmative tone: "This is called homosexual attachment."

This is the first time Jiang Yi came into contact with the four words of same-sex attachment. After searching a lot of explanations about this word, he finally dared to put a chapter on the confused relationship between him and Qi Zhen who was in adolescence.

Chen Wan would crazily brainwash him every day that he didn't like Qi Zhen, it was only because of the teenager's curiosity-seeking psychology and getting used to Qi Zhen's dependence on him that led to the current situation.

In addition, Chen Wan will also tell him what is "righteous way" and what is "heterogeneous".They will also say that they don't want to be great, but they hope to have a happy family.He will also tell him what is good for him, he will become a big star in the future, it is impossible not to care about the disgusting and repulsive eyes of others.

But the most important thing is Chen Wan's phrase "birth is more important than everything".

During Chen Wan's months of brainwashing, Jiang Yi could no longer face the intimacy with Qi Zhen calmly.Their every move is like eating the forbidden fruit of adolescence, with sin.

I don’t know when Cui Li found out that he and Qi Zhen were too close. On the night when the Galaxy anniversary concert ended, Cui Li called him to a room alone, saying that because of his long-term daily routine with the filming team, he and Qi Zhen He had noticed about Qi Zhen a long time ago, but he kept silent because of the preparation for the anniversary plan.

Jiang Yi still remembers what Cui Li said to him: "About two years younger is nothing in other places, but in the men's team, a few months younger is a big gap in everyone's eyes."

"Qi Zhen sticks to you, but you should be more sensible than him."

"You guys deserve to be the hottest boy group, the hottest star. Have you ever thought about it, if the affair between you and Qi Zhen is discovered, what will you give in exchange? What will your other teammates and brothers do?"

"Jiang Yi, are you planning to gamble the future of your group for Qi Zhen?"

He stood there silently.

However, both Chen Wan's and Cui Li's words seem to tell him that this abnormal relationship between you and Qi Zhen is completely wrong.

During that time, Qi Zhen seemed to have noticed something was wrong with him, but he also seemed to think that Jiang Yi also liked him, so he was eager to express his heart.So on the night when Jiang Yi came out of the room, Qi Zhen chose to confess.

Jiang Yi has always set a bottom line for himself before, that is to not let Qi Zhen say that he likes it, because saying that he likes it means the beginning of a relationship. If he is not clear-headed and accepts it, they may really start dating. .

When Jiang Yi refused, Qi Zhen's expression was still a little dazed, as if he couldn't figure out why this happened.

Looking at Qi Zhen's 186 tall body at that time, and his body with obvious oppression when he pressed himself against the wall, he was a little reluctant to speak when the words came to his lips.

But he is the elder, and he has to make the end of everything himself.

"It's wrong for us to be like this, brother. You don't necessarily like me. It may be just a long-term dependence. Don’t focus on me anymore.”

Listening to Jiang Yi's words, Qi Zhen seemed to feel a little absurd, and when he raised his head, his eyes were full of shock: "So brother thinks that I treat you like this only because of loneliness and dependence?"

"...Yes, you just regard me as a spiritual sustenance, but in fact, this is not called liking." Jiang Yi said somewhat obscurely.

"But I want to be close to you, I want to touch you, I want to kiss you. What does this have to do with spiritual sustenance and dependence? I just like you, Jiang Yi." Qi Zhen looked at Jiang Yi puzzled, his handsome face had faded The youthful appearance of some teenagers gradually became tougher.

Facing Qi Zhen's confession, no matter how tempted he is, Jiang Yi has learned to suppress it.

"But all of this is wrong. We are idols, and idols just can't fall in love. And I don't like you either. I only see you as a younger brother, a good brother."

"Doing this with you is just because I'm used to pampering you. When you kiss me, I don't feel anything at all, and I still think it's weird."

"It's because you rely on me too much, Qi Zhen, it seems that I'm the only one in your world."

Qi Zhen's hurt eyes are still vivid in his memory, and he still remembers that Qi Zhen punched him very hard on the side wall.While he was speaking vicious words, when he raised his head to look at himself, there were only tears of grievance in his eyes.

"I just think that someone will treat me unconditionally just because he likes me too."

"But it turns out that I'm just being self-indulgent."

"My sister is right. I, like my mother, are born unloved."

Later, Jiang Yi and Qi Zhen were almost like passers-by. As soon as the contract with the company expired, he signed with other companies according to Chen Wan's words.

It's just that in the year after that, he was watched by Chen Wan all the time. As long as there was someone of the same sex who was a little closer to him, Chen Wan would leave work and come to him to be vigilant that this person was not like him. that kind of relationship.

In the past five years, occasionally he would dream about Qi Zhen in his dreams, most of the time it was about their time as trainees.

It's just that every time the screen turns, it will return to the moment when he left Qi Zhen - he looked sad like an abandoned stray dog, and then cried and called him brother.