peach scandal

The road is made by people.No matter how difficult the road is, people always walk.If you are destined not to have it, you must learn to throw it away first.Otherwise, it will be discarded.Discarding and being discarded is a vicious cycle of reciprocating cycles.It seems like a paradox.As Fang Sike walked, he showed an expression of not knowing whether to cry or laugh.

People are used to looking for, then pursuing the things they like, and then wanting to have them.However, some things are destined to pass by.Crying, laughing, making noise, but I can't get it.Yes, when we are no longer children, we should understand that there are things in the world that cannot be touched, no matter how hard we try.

Imagination is better than reality, because it is a world drawn by wishful thinking.

Fang Sike left step by step, she did not see Xin Yixiao who was lying on the hospital bed behind her.Xin Yixiao watched the familiar figure go away without blinking. Under that overly calm expression, there was an undercurrent of injury.

Not all efforts can get the desired results, and you can see a beautiful future without looking forward to it.

Fang Sike's hand was held by Yu Keqing, there was no sympathy or pride in her eyes, she just held Fang Sike's hand before she was about to fall down.

"I'll help you back to the ward." Yu Keqing's tone was gentle and his attitude was measured.Fang Si couldn't think of any reason to refuse, not to mention she knew that at this moment, no matter who extended her hand, she would not refuse.

Because, she was really tired, so tired that she didn't want to think or ask questions.

"Thank you." Fang Sike's feelings for Yu Keqing no longer appeared, and the person who had been on her mind for many years was just a familiar stranger in her eyes at the moment.After finishing speaking, she leaned her body slightly on Yu Keqing's body.

Xin Yixiao's ward.

After Xin Yi was too tired from novels and wanted to rest, Shui Yixue looked at Xin Yixiao hesitantly, and then left silently.Then, after she left, Sikong Qing walked into the ward.

There was a quiet silence in the room.

Sikong Qing's expression was very strange at the moment, her eyes fell on Xin Yi's face on the hospital bed, as if she wanted to see something.

"You've been looking at me for a long time, what are you looking at?" Xin Yixiao interrupted Sikong Qing's gaze.

"I was wondering what kind of person you are." Sikong Qing said quietly, walked to the hospital bed, pulled a stool and sat down.

"Sikong Qing, I remember that you and I have always talked very simply. Today, what are you talking about?" Xin Yixiao frowned.

"In my memory, Xin Yixiao is not a scheming person..." Si Kongqing's eyes swept over Xin Yixiao's face, and he paused slightly. "However, what I see now is completely different from what I knew in the past."

"Sikong Qing, what exactly do you want to say?" Xin Yixiao interrupted Sikong Qing's words that wanted to continue, and said.

"You really don't know what I want to say?" Sikong Qing's expression turned cold, she pushed the blue eye frame on the bridge of her nose, and asked in a loud voice.

"Sikong..."

"At this point, you still refuse to tell the truth?" Sikong Qing stood up, and the bench was pushed aside by her.

"I..." Xin Yixiao's face changed slightly, she looked at the door of the ward with a hesitant expression.

"Don't worry, there's no one outside. When I came, I hung a sign saying I was resting at the door, and I locked the door of the ward." Seeing Xin Yixiao's hesitation, Sikong Qing said.

"Sikong, what exactly do you know?" Xin Yixiao lowered his head and asked after a moment of silence.

"You don't have amnesia. Also, did you ask me to find my aunt just to expose what happened back then in front of Fang Sike?" Sikong Qing took a deep look at Xin Yixiao, with a hint of helplessness in his tone.

"You... know." Xin Yixiao raised his head abruptly, with a little more panic in his expression.

"Is that Fang Si worth it for you? For her, you can hurt your mother? For her, you can hurt yourself?" Sikong Qing grabbed Xin Yixiao's shoulders angrily, and stuck his fingers tightly into hers. on the shoulders.

"I, it's for myself. It's not about Fang Sike's business." Xin Yixiao didn't avoid Sikong Qing's glaring gaze, but met her gaze. "Mother's illness is a heart disease. In this way, Fang Si can forgive her, and her heart disease will no longer occur. I am not hurting her, but helping her."

"Okay, then you say that you are helping your aunt, and I will believe it. So, what about yourself? Don't tell me that you don't know that you have a shadow of what happened back then. You forced yourself to unravel the past. Do you want you to continue That kind of unconscious self-harm back then!" Sikong Qing's voice was as cold as the winter wind.

"Self-mutilation?" Xin Yixiao was taken aback for a moment, then laughed. "What do you think self-mutilation means to me compared to losing Fang Sike?"

Xin Yixiao smiled very gently, but it happened that such a smile made Sikong Qing's anger fade away suddenly.Sikong Qing had never seen such a sad smile on Xin Yixiao's face, that smile was more heartbreaking than crying.

Sikong Qing's grip on Xin Yixiao's shoulder loosened, and the strength of her body seemed to be emptied in an instant.

"You, you have always known that you have a problem with self-harm. In the past, you pretended not to know after waking up to reassure us?" Sikong Qing shook his head, seemingly in disbelief.

"Yeah, I know. I just know, so I've been in pain all the time. But, this is my own business. I'm fine with it alone. Why let you suffer together. So, when you think I don't know, I Just make mistakes and make mistakes. This way you feel good, and I don't have to bother to explain it. I think this misunderstanding is good." Xin Yi said with a small smile.

Sikong Qing was completely stunned, Xin Yixiao in her eyes should be carefree, happy and ignorant of the world, but... Obviously, Xin Yixiao is completely different than what they imagined.

"Do you know why I moved out of the house? Because, so that you don't have to worry about my affairs all the time. Out of sight, out of mind, I always think this sentence is right. Moreover, since I started writing novels, my illness It's indeed a lot better." Xin Yixiao continued. "I'm actually very grateful to you, Sikong, if it wasn't for you, my mother wouldn't let me move out."

"We all misunderstood you. You are much stronger than we imagined." Sikong Qing sighed long.

"Strong?" Xin Yixiao shook her head, said with a wry smile: "Sikong, you are wrong. I am actually very cowardly. After I knew that my mother caused Fang Sike's family tragedy, I really wanted to hide the truth. Don't tell her for the rest of your life."

"However, you chose to speak out... You did it for Fang Sike and no longer be bound by the past." Sikong Qing sighed.

"I'm not that great. As I said, I'm for myself." Xin Yixiao shook his head.

"For yourself? Xiaoxiao, you are doing it for her, do you think I'm stupid?" Sikong Qing said.

"Forget it, I don't want to say this. Since you know, can you keep it a secret for me? I don't want Fang Sike to know that I told her about it on purpose." Xin Yixiao asked seriously.

"You...well, I don't know. But, are you sure you don't regret it? I saw Yu Keqing holding Fang Sike's hand and walked out of the elevator. If you do this, you won't be afraid that Fang Sike will be caught by Yu Keqing. Can you snatch it away?" Si Kongqing could not agree with Xin Yixiao's actions at all.

"Yu Keqing?" Xin Yixiao's eyes darkened, she clenched her fists and remained silent.

"Do you really want to give up on Fang Sike? Do you know that after you told her about the past, is there any possibility for you to continue? Besides, you were as close as Shui Yixue in the ward just now." , you don't want to push Fang Sike to Yu Keqing, do you?" Si Kongqing didn't understand Xin Yixiao's approach.

"Do you think my choice is easy? There are too many things involved between us. I want to give her and me some time to digest our past. I will not give up. But, not now." Xin Yixiao raised her head and said to Sikong Qing.

"You want her to forget the past before accepting you?" Si Kongqing somewhat understood what Xin Yixiao meant.

"Well. I hope she can accept all of me. I won't be involved in the past, my past and her past." Xin Yixiao nodded affirmatively. "Besides, my current strength is not enough to protect her. I want to find her when I have enough strength. Wait until I get stronger, wait for me..."

"What if, I mean if, you lost her because of this? As far as I know, Yu Keqing treats her very well." Sikong Qing just wanted to sigh at Xin Yixiao's foolishness.

"If..." Xin Yixiao's eyes flashed with pain, she took a deep breath and said, "If she accepts Yu Keqing, then I will bless her. As long as she is happy, it doesn't matter what I do. "

"How about you, it doesn't matter?"

"My liking is not because I don't want to be together again. Rather, as long as she is happy." Xin Yixiao met Sikong Qing's gaze and said firmly.

Sikong Qing wanted to sigh again, this was the day she had grown up and sighed the most.

"Then let me tell you something that can make you happier." Sikong Qing took out a stack of reports from behind and handed it to Xin Yixiao.

"this is?"

Xin Yi looked puzzled.Her eyes got heavier and heavier, and when she finished, she almost jumped out of bed.

The report is about Fang Sike's condition.Her illness is actually similar to Xin Yixiao's. It is a mental illness that causes acquired functional impairment, and her condition tends to worsen.If things go on like this for a long time, the medical certificate says that it is very likely that he will continue to fall into a coma and cannot wake up.

"Yu Wei gave this to me. If it wasn't for this, do you think I can arrange for Fang Sike to come to your ward at a suitable time? It was Yu Wei's cooperation. She said that if you can solve Fang Sike's heart disease , then she is sure that her disease can be cured. After all, the treatment of heart disease needs to solve the problem fundamentally," Sikong Qing said slowly.

"What about now?" Xin Yixiao asked nervously.

"I just came here from Yu Wei. She has seen Fang Sike's situation, and she should be able to develop in a good way. The treatment lasts for one to two years, and she should be able to recover. She, thank me. However, I think this thank you should be telling you." Sikong Qing said.

"No wonder I saw her pass out twice. I thought she was too tired, so there were other reasons." Xin Yixiao recalled the first time she saw Fang Sike.

"I'm not worried about Fang Sike, I'm just worried about you. Little..."

"Are you afraid that I will harm myself again?" Xin Yixiao shook his head and smiled wryly: "I won't. I said that the past is past. I will make myself stronger until I can protect her."

Sikong Qing left, and Xin Yixiao was lying on the hospital bed alone, tightly holding the necklace that Fang Sike tore off from his neck.

"Sike, wait for me, okay? Wait for me to grow up, wait for me to protect you, wait for me..."

Xin Yixiao put the pendant of the ring to her lips and said softly.

A drop of warm water slipped from the corner of the eye, dripped on the white sheet, and turned into a white flower.

Waiting is a kind of expectation.

Waiting is a kind of speechlessness.

Wait, you wait for me, okay?

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The author has something to say: the essay is about to be concluded, and whenever it is about to end, there is always a bit of reluctance.

Perhaps, after doing one thing for a long time, feelings will develop unconsciously.

Thank you to those children's shoes who have always supported me and read the article, thank you.