Bamboo Horse Warm Flower

A week later, Mr. Mu called me to the office.

It was raining and there was no one else in the office. Mr. Mu went to the water dispenser to make a cup of tea. I stared at the familiar old-fashioned teacup. During that monthly exam, when I called Wen Xiaohua desperately in the office, This teacup is also faithfully placed in its old place.

"Wei Tian, ​​you have always been the most reassuring thing in our class. If it wasn't necessary, I wouldn't have called you here." Elder Mu sat down and sighed, motioning for me to sit down too, "Today we will talk Don't worry, nothing else, just sit down."

I sat down by the window, the breath of rain was afraid of hitting my cheeks, it was cold.

"Live like Wen Fan, I know it's very attractive," Elder Mu said slowly, looking out the window, "You can do whatever you want, you can do whatever you want, you have a lot of time to squander, and you can live as you want , who wouldn't want to do this... But after all, we are not the same kind of person as him, do you understand what I mean?"

I understand, teacher, I have always understood, but why...

"Wei Tian, ​​ask yourself, do you really like his way of life? Skipping classes, playing basketball, raising spiders... what else, do you really like it, and are you really suitable? Being unruly is uncontrollable. Envy, but some people are more suitable to live down-to-earth, this is also a very beautiful attitude towards life, people like Wen Fan, you and me, we all just look at it as a landscape..."

Mr. Mu's voice was interspersed with the pattering rain, and there was a bit of Zen in my ears for no reason, but my eyes drifted out of the window.

Wen Xiaohua was standing in front of the list downstairs, and he has been there since I entered the office.The rain drenched his whole body into a circle.

This is the first time in my life, I didn't have the first time to look at the list.Seeing Wen Xiaohua standing there drenched in the rain, and seeing the ranking between us revealing our true colors, I couldn't be more sad.Why do you try so hard to hold on, but often fail to hold on?

Leaving Elder Mu's office, I went to the bulletin board, and Wen Xiaohua, who was silent in the heavy rain, turned her head and saw me.

"It's okay, you fell asleep," he said with a smile, "You can still take the first place next time."

"I know you asked Mr. Mu to ask for my test papers to read, and you should know that even if I answered all the questions that were delayed by sleep, I would not be able to enter the top five." I said, "This is me, if you don't work harder , not spending more time than you, more energy, at the real level."

Wen Xiaohua opened her mouth to say something, but I interrupted him: "Wen Fan, let's not deceive ourselves, I am different from you, I am not a genius like you at all."

"Why not? I think you are, Wei Tian, ​​you are the first person to beat me..."

"That time was just a fluke, it was your own carelessness that caused me..."

"I don't care how you win, you are the genius I think you are if you win me!" Wen Xiaohua didn't know how to be self-willed, and she didn't allow me to interject at all, "If you are different from me, why do you always know that I am in my heart? What do you think? Why do you like to read the same manga as I do, like the Eighth Prince I raised, and the Zong Sijun I raised? And this pair of glasses, no one has liked the things I bought since I was a child, only you are willing to buy them every day wear it!"

It rained heavily, and he was blurred in my eyes. "That's because you like it," I said, "but what I like will you like?"

"Why not? You like Marvel superheroes, I've made up all the movies, and you like playing ping pong, so I'll learn ping pong—"

"I like boys, do you like them too?"

Wen Xiaohua looked at me dumbly.

As soon as I said it, I regretted it. It’s not like me to be emotional. I clearly wanted to leave him with a Wei Tian who was labeled "the best friend in the world". When he recalled, he would say "Although we are together It's been a semester, but the tacit understanding is like being together for many years" Wei Tian's...

I turned around quickly and left, afraid that he would stop me suddenly, but luckily he didn't.The sound of the heavy rain gradually obliterated the breath behind me, I closed my eyes and thought that this is it, this kind of sudden confession is not even a confession, but also my last confession to myself in the past nine years.

Now that things have happened, I am so envious of Ma Mian, who can stay by his side with pure friendship, and will always be Young Master Wen's brainless fan.

I'm sorry, Wen Xiaohua, I didn't want to tell you, I didn't want to make you feel sick.But if you're really going to be disgusted, if it's going to drive us all apart, it's better to tell you now than to tell you when you're in a relationship, married, and a family.

I'm too afraid to keep contacting you and keep coming back to see you. I don't have the confidence to keep you from knowing for the rest of my life, because even if you fall in love, get married, or start a family, I won't fall in love, get married, or start a family. One day you will know everything.

But really, if only you didn't feel sick.

***

On the day of the holiday, the basketball team decided to have a dinner party. I excused my family business and did not attend.In the afternoon, my parents left, and there were only bare furniture in the house. The photos were removed, the computer was packed, everything that could be taken away was taken away, and what could not be taken away had to be left to others.I looked up at the quiet ceiling, feeling empty and quiet in my heart.

I didn't go with my parents. I was on vacation and said I wanted to go back to grandma's house, and my parents agreed.

The train time is at three o'clock in the afternoon, put on the backpack, stand in the entrance, take a last look at the familiar living room, and close the door.As soon as the door was closed, there was the sound of rain outside. Fortunately, unlike Wen Xiaohua, I always remember to bring an umbrella.

I ordered fried rice at the restaurant downstairs, and while I was eating, I looked at the menu on the table. I suddenly remembered that Wen Xiaohua's parents seemed to have flown to Melbourne again the day before yesterday.

"Boss," I turned around holding up the menu and asked, "Do you deliver food?"

I stuffed the takeaway order under Wen Xiaohua's door. I squatted down and looked at the bottom of the door with a little light, and I didn't know what kind of chaos the room was like. It was only after the black paint was black that I found this takeout order.I thought with a smile as I hung my umbrella on the handle of his door.

Don't get caught in the rain, you are no longer the indestructible body of King Kong when you were a child.

***

It's only an hour's drive from the city to the county where grandma lives.There is nothing more stuffy than sitting alone on a train, soaked all over the body, the rain splashed on the window, I watched the scenery outside the window slowly transition from the bustling city to the green wheat fields, as if nine years were passing by fast fall back.It's a pity that I can't follow them back.

Sitting across from me was a couple of college students. The boy and the girl occasionally laughed and laughed, and the intimacy was palpable. The girl was a bit shy after all, and suddenly elbowed the boy: "Hey, your phone is ringing!"

The boy turned his head and looked beside him: "It's not mine."

The girl suddenly looked at me, and kindly reminded: "Student, is your phone ringing?"

Only then did I realize that this was clearly my phone ringing, and I said "thank you" and quickly turned over my backpack.

Obviously I shouldn't expect it, but I seem to have a hunch that this will be the call I shouldn't expect.

My mother always said that I didn't clean up. Every time she said that, I would think that's because you haven't seen Wen Xiaohua, he would have lost himself, if Mom Wen took him out on a trip, he wouldn't have put him on the plug In the bag, he can show up at the lost and found every minute, but now he has to admit that his mother’s judgment about her son is always correct. The things in the backpack seem to be under the spell of copying, becoming more and more complicated. , the phone was pressed inside, the more flustered I was, the more I couldn't find it.

The mobile phone has been ringing alone for a long time. Before I got out of the phone, it suddenly sounded a beep beep warning that the battery is low. The screen was turned on, but the phone was forced to shut down at this time because it ran out of power.

I put down my phone and leaned back in vain.

I don't even know if this call is from Wen Xiaohua.

There is a roll of notebooks under the phone, which is the ugly pen holder I rolled out of transparent tape.

I pulled out the pen holder, carefully removed the adhesive tape in circles, and opened the first page of the notebook. On it were Wen Xiaohua's problem-solving steps specially written for me. The most elite ants crawl out.

Turning to the back of the notebook, on the last page, there are still a few lines of ants crawling in fine print:

Wei Tian, ​​I'm sorry for saying those stupid things to you in the office at that time, and I'm sorry for being your classmate who has been ignoring your existence!I hope you don't blame me, because this time I really try my best to be friends with you!If you forgive me, please fill in your contact information!

These are mine:

Name: Wen Fan

Mobile/WeChat ID: 13XXXXXXXX1

Address: 7-18, Unit 1, Ganyuan County, Xiahua Garden

□□: 47XXXXXX1

from Wen Fan who wants to be friends with you

...like a squirrel eager to offer its treasure.

I closed my notebook with red eyes.

***

When I got off the train, there was a refreshing wind blowing in my face. The last time I came to grandma’s house was New Year’s Eve last year. I came and went in a hurry and didn’t take a good look at the appearance of my hometown. Now that I walk out of the train station, I feel that this town will always be the same, with a large area of ​​empty The fields, mountains, forests, and buildings are all scattered among them, and the orange sunset seems to be not in the sky, but can be reached by crossing the ridges of the fields and over the hills.

The sky in the small town seems to be short, and you can touch it on tiptoe.

There is still a long distance from the train station to grandma’s house. I waited for the bus by the side of the road, but no bus came after waiting for 10 to [-] minutes. Seeing that it was still early, I decided to walk.When I was a child, I used to walk back to my grandmother's house from the station, pretending that I lived in ancient times and was a wandering bard.At that time, the little friends who played together and wandered together don't know where they are now.

I spent a carefree childhood with my grandma. When my parents took me to the city, I was still reluctant in every possible way, but I didn't expect to meet Wen Xiaohua in the city.

There are large wheat fields on both sides of the road. Occasionally, a middle school student rides a bicycle "creaking" on the road that is not smooth. I look at the back of the boy on the bike, and a boy on the bike turns back to me and responds to his companion. The voice turned away.If I met my former playmate now, I probably wouldn't recognize me.When they were still playing in the fields, I was in a big city hundreds of kilometers away, silently following a brat named Wen Xiaohua, who was so angry that I couldn’t eat or sleep, and I had to worry about him in my dreams at night Attacked with his caterpillars, but smug about talking to him.

She was never carefree again, and her mood became a coin with Wen Xiaohua's head engraved on it, with happiness on the front and worries on the back.

Thinking about it carefully, what Yuan Dong said is true, there are other possibilities in life, but other classmates are always just classmates, they can be classmates with ordinary relationships, or classmates with better relationships, but I have never Treat them as "friends" and never think of putting them in the same position as Wen Xiaohua.Is this a pity, or happiness?

When I was in elementary school, some classmates asked me to go skating after school, but I would rather go to the park to watch Wen Xiaohua catch bugs with dirty hands, slide down from the tree and sit on a firm buttock. My classmates asked me to go to the star's autograph session, but I always thought it would be more interesting to watch Wen Xiaohua secretly teach herself three-step layups and hit myself in the face with a basketball, so I also refused.

The olive branches that I have inadvertently squandered over the years are enough to build a bird's nest.Fortunately, I still sympathize with Wen Xiaohua, in fact, I am the one who needs to be sympathized.

The rays of the sun shone on a large pool of water by the side of the road, sparkling, and it was not far to reach grandma's house. At this moment, I heard someone shouting something in front of me.A little girl with shofar braids climbed up from the shoulder of the road, raised her hands high and waved vigorously in my direction, crying for help.

***

A child is drowning.When I rushed over, I saw "Gulu" bubbling on the pool, and then I saw the water moving, but no one was there.Before I could make a detour, I dropped my backpack and slid down the steep slope from the shoulder of the road. With my buttocks of mud and my hand grinding the bleeding hole on the stone, I stepped into the pool to save people.

Fortunately, the bubbling place is not far away, the pool is not too deep, and my water quality is just enough to fish people out.The boy was fine, he choked on a few sips of water to catch his breath, and looked at the sky with a dazed expression.

The girl went to call the adults, and I was dragged by the parents to say thank you. I could have retired, but unfortunately I was too anxious when I entered the water, and I forgot to take off my glasses. When I got out of the water, I couldn't find them .I searched all over the place for a long time, and when the two children went home with their parents, I was still looking desperately.

It was getting late, I looked at my hands that were as dirty as Wen Xiaohua mixed in the mud, and looked up at the hazy sunset in the sky, no matter how unwilling I was, I had no choice but to give up.

A person was walking on the road covered in water, without his glasses, he could only walk slowly. For a while, Wen Xiaohua’s words, “Be careful with your step”, “Be careful with the steps”, “The last three steps, three, two, one” were all in my ears. ".

I stopped, looked at the road pit in front of my toes, went around and continued walking tiredly.

My hands were still dirty and sticky. I saved Wen Xiaohua like this when I was a child, but the heartless Wen Xiaohua Guduo didn't remember anything.When Wen Xiaohua was taken out of the stinking mud pit, Huaguduo's whole body was covered in stinky mud, and only a pair of eyeballs rolled around on a face darker than a coal miner's, as if she was still immersed in the surrounding environment. In the wonderful round of bicycles flying out that day, the world was spinning.

Although Wen Xiaohua has been used to picking mud since he was a child, that time was really the smelliest time in his history, not one of them, the flies were buzzing all over his forehead, I couldn't drive them away even if I picked up a branch.Wen Xiaohua also felt that she was too stinky to bear anymore, her little nose was wrinkled all the time, every time I waved a branch above his head, he would squat down, and the swarm of flies would also squat down, and when he stood up, the swarm of flies would follow suit. Running around desperately in the mud, the swarm of flies followed suit. To put it bluntly, he was a walking poop that day.

Secretly said, in order to punish him for not remembering me that day, I punished him to do a lot of squats.

Even the crab corps, who were used to his muddy body, flinched. They stood on it from a distance and yelled, and no one dared to come down to help.It was just me, who was kicked upside down by the stinky mud on Wen Xiaohua's face and pulled him out of the quagmire. After Wen Xiaohua came out, he sat down on the rock, swinging his short arms like a windmill, trying to shake off all the mud on his hands. In the end, it was all thrown on me, and it was all like this. I still held his hand that seemed to be holding shit, and lifted him out of the mud floor by foot.When I got home I had flies flying around my head too.

But Wen Xiaohua doesn't remember me. In his panicked and chaotic memory, the one who rescued him from the quagmire was probably the crab army who never left him.But I don't blame him, I don't want him to return my favor, I just want to be friends with him.

It's a bit late, but I've finally made friends with you.

Thinking about it, I suddenly regretted it, no matter what, I shouldn’t leave without saying goodbye, at least write a letter, tell him other feelings besides liking him, like thank you for your local tyrant laser gold frame, thank you for your mensaoji Lao Zi frame, thank you for pushing me to watch the bird's nest, thank you for watching the stars with me, thank you for playing table tennis with me, thank you for teaching me how to play basketball, thank you for taking me to skip classes, go to school with me, and leave school together... Now I want to come , Those dreams that I wanted to accomplish with you when I was a child have all been accomplished together.

Walking up to the stone bridge ahead, a pair of female high school students came across the bridge. I was covered in water and smelled of the rotten pool, so I quickened my pace, not wanting them to notice me.When passing by, I suddenly saw one of the girls pointing at the road at the end of the bridge, and whispered to his companion in surprise, "Look, does it look like Rukawa Kaede?"

The three words were like Pavlov's order, and I stopped reflexively.Hearing Ruchuanfeng's name, the image of Wen Xiaohua wearing a counterfeit team uniform, sitting under the basketball hoop on that sunny afternoon, patiently waiting for me with her knees in her mind appeared hopelessly.

I couldn't help but turn around, and when I turned around, I saw the figure standing on the other side of the stone bridge, wearing the red and black Xiangbei team uniform.

I never told Wen Xiaohua that when I took off my glasses and couldn't see his face clearly, that was the moment in his life when he was most like Rukawa Kaede, the same tall, thin and fair, the same thin and bright eyes, and the same Delicate and soft bangs.However, I can’t see clearly, and I also know that it’s not Rukawa Kaede who came out of the comics, nor is it some stranger who looks like Rukawa Kaede, but I have observed it for nine years, and I don’t know if it can enter ten years Wen Xiaohua from Daguan.

At this moment, I believe so, but I can't believe my eyes.

Wen Xiaohua came from the other side of the bridge, silently took off her coat, and put it clumsily on my shoulders which were shivering from the cold.

I don't know if he came to see him off, or if he came here with other intentions, I was stunned for a long time before saying: "...Why are you here?"

"I figured it out, you are the person I'm looking for." Wen Xiaohua said.

"But I'm not a genius, I'm not a genius at all..." Seeing him now, I seem to be the only one who can say this.

Wen Xiaohua frowned, and said in a low voice, "Stop talking."

"I said it the other day," I pursed my lips, "Not only am I not a genius, but I'm still someone who likes boys..."

Those two words were not spoken, but were interrupted by Wen Xiaohua:

"If you say that, then I'm not a genius either. If I were a genius, I'd probably never be defeated by you, and there's no reason to be defeated by you. And..." He raised his eyes, "Wei Tian, ​​I think of you gone."

I looked at him bewilderedly.

"I went to dinner with the basketball team," Wen Xiaohua said, "I have never gone out with them before. I didn't know that Xu Hanwen's drinking capacity is so bad. After a few drinks, he began to report his bank card password." I can't even stop it..." He spoke slowly, as if he was telling a suspenseful story that went through many obstacles, twists and turns, and finally reached a happy ending, his squirrel-like eyes were wet Looking at me intently, "He told me everything about the movie you told him that day."

I didn't expect Teacher Xu's mouth to be so unreliable. I was extremely embarrassed. Even if Wen Xiaohua knew everything, it didn't mean he remembered everything.I shook my head: "Thank you, but you don't have to comfort me, I know it's impossible for you to remember me."

How is it possible to remember?It's impossible to recall things that never happened to you just because you're a genius.

"I didn't comfort you," Wen Xiaohua's face was swollen with grievances, "I really remember..."

I took a deep breath: "At that time, I borrowed books for you, and you rented them to others for a dollar to earn extra money, do you remember?"

Wen Xiaohua looked bewildered.

"I helped you take care of the eggs, and they all turned into crocodile eggs when they hatched, do you remember? I carried you up a tree to catch unicorns, and you threw a worm to me, do you remember? You drank bastard soup, and I went all the way I'm afraid that you won't want to jump off the bridge if you follow me, these...do you remember all of this?"

He was speechless, and I knew that I shouldn't embarrass him. These things to him are like buying a pack of spicy sticks and drinking a can of beverage on the way from school. It is normal not to remember the sand that has been recorded.

But every word I have ever said to you is a precious treasure in my not-so-large memory bank.

"...but I remember you kicking me out of the mud."

Wen Xiaohua suddenly whispered, I raised my head and looked at him in disbelief.

"I always remember the boy who saved me," Wen Xiaohua took my hand, "but our faces were covered in mud at that time, and I couldn't remember his face. But I remember that day he was wearing a shirt with anime printed on it. The light blue T-shirt of the avatar, the T-shirt is also full of mud, I was afraid of admitting my mistake, so I picked it up on his clothes, that avatar...is Luffy, right?"

My eyes widened suddenly, this was a detail I had never told Xu Hanwen, and Wen Xiaohua, who was carried out of the mud puddle that day, really licked my chest like a lick of oil.

"Is that you, Wei Tian?" Wen Xiaohua asked me softly.

The light blue Luffy T-shirt, even I can hardly remember myself!It has been nine years, so many "evil spirits" Wei Xiaotian who have been stubbornly unyielding and never retreating, one of them was actually seen by Wen Xiaohua!

"I'm sorry, Wei Tian, ​​it took me a long time to figure it out. I like being with you not because you are a genius like me. I don't care what your IQ is or what your EQ is. I don't care how you rank in the exam. I just like playing table tennis and basketball with you, chatting about comics with you, and going home with you after school. I also gave Zhang Long their birthday presents, but giving them gifts will not As nervous as giving you a gift, I also talked about comics with Ma Mian, but talking about comics with others will not be as happy as talking with you, I even feel... There is no need to do anything, even if I sit with you and don’t talk, I'll be very happy too." Wen Xiaohua lowered her voice as she spoke, and looked at me tentatively from behind her bangs, "Does that count...I like...boys too?"

The wind on the bridge was so loud that I thought I was hallucinating. I didn't wear glasses, and I couldn't see the barrage on Wen Xiaohua's face. Does this guy know what he's talking about? ! "But, didn't you specially collect the love letters written by girls?"

"I have collected it..." Wen Xiaohua said dejectedly with drooping shoulders, "Because I have never received a love letter. This is the first time that someone other than Zhang Long and the others, who spent such a short time with me, said that she likes it." Mine. I just... feel very happy. When I met Wang Xuerui, I wanted to thank her face to face. When I fled back from Qingtan No. [-] Middle School, she still borrowed money from me..."

So you just want to cherish this hard-won love?

Looking over Wen Xiaohua's shoulders, it seemed as if the rain was over for a moment. I saw the reeds under the bridge rippling in layers in the wind, and it looked like a golden lake in the sunset. I have never seen such a beautiful scenery until now. , and because Wen Xiaohua hasn't received a clear answer from me, she seems to be standing in a rainy day and can't see anything.

I had a lot of things I wanted to say, but I didn't know where to start. I opened my mouth, thinking to forget it, then mustered up the greatest courage in my life, stepped forward, and hugged Wen Xiaohua!

Like slamming into a fluffy sun that just fell from the sky.

I hugged so hard, even the naughty Wen Xiaohua Guduo who was so stubborn when I was a child who refused to stop for a moment, must be pressed flat on the ground by the strongman Wei Xiaotian at this moment, stretched my legs, raised my little face and gave up struggling. .

Wen Xiaohua poked her neck, and carefully asked: "So this hug is what I think it means?"

I nodded again and again, so choked up that I couldn't speak, it was too embarrassing!But really, thank you for always remembering me back then!There is no overnight worry in the world with Wen Xiaohua, I put my arms around his back, and I couldn't help laughing amid Wen Xiaohua's philosophical thinking of "So we are a couple of gays now", Wen Xiaohua He poked his neck and wanted to look at me again, with an innocent expression of "what, I'm serious".

I took a long breath, let go of Wen Xiaohua solemnly, and pressed his shoulders vigorously with both hands. Wen Xiaohua was pressed straight by me, and her eyes were watery.

"Wen Xiaohua, listen to me..."

"Wen Xiaohua? What..."

I coughed: "I accept your apology, and I agree to make friends with you. Here is my contact information: My name is Wei Tian, ​​my mobile phone number is 140XXXXXXXX2, and my address is 7-18, Unit 1, Ganyuan County, Xiahua Garden , the □□ number is 23XXXXXXX8, and the WeChat ID is the phone number..."

Although you already know this, I think it is necessary to make a formal self-introduction.

After Wen Xiaohua listened, he looked left and right. There was no one else on the bridge, so he asked in a low voice with some concern: "Is Wen Xiaohua a nickname?"

"From today onwards."

"This nickname is a bit of a mouthful," Wen Xiaohua rolled her eyes, "Why don't you call me Wen Xiaoshu?"

I smiled and said nothing, and dragged him down the stone bridge, not because I didn't want to change it, I've called him this name for nine years, I'm afraid I can't change it, I can only wrong you, classmate Wen Xiaohua.

Please don’t worry about these details, because I still have a lot of things to tell you, about moving, about transferring schools, about my decision to apply for the Department of A University just now...

There are too many things to say, but this time, there is enough time for me to say it.

Above, from not only Wei Tian who wants to be friends with you.

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