warm pulse

Qin Chengqian's mind went blank for a moment...

If An Yang asked "Why did you kiss me", how should he answer?

For a moment, he resolutely thought, why not tell him everything!Tell him everything if he asks!Tell him your love and longing, suffering and waiting, present a complete heart, dedicate it to him, and accept his judgment, whether it is punishment or redemption...

But soon this thought was replaced by another thought - no!An Yang is so timid, this will scare him!So he began to regret his abruptness again... His consciousness seemed to be pulled repeatedly in the void by two invisible hands, and he had never hesitated more than now.

An Yang stopped crying in a daze, stretched out his hand to touch the cheek that was still warm, his eyes gradually showed confusion...

Qin Chengqian's heart beat like a drum, as if what An Yang was about to say was his verdict.

An Yang's heart was also tense, that kiss was like the first ray of wind in spring, light as a dream, only the swaying branches knew it had come, and it was a light secret to everything else in the world...An Yang Yang quietly put away this secret and hid it in his heart. He didn't know what this kiss represented, was it the intimacy between relatives?Is it the pity of the strong for the weak?Or something else that he didn't dare to think about...

He didn't have the courage to search, didn't dare to ask for an answer, desire and greed took root quietly in his heart at some point, once the answer was not what he wanted, all illusions would be shattered...

Don't ask, don't be curious, you can wait a little longer for the beauty in front of you.

An Yang didn't say anything, he was as calm as if nothing had happened... Qin Chengqian couldn't guess what An Yang was thinking, and wondered if it was a veiled rejection.

In the following period of time, the two of them tacitly didn't mention that kiss again, as if they wanted to forget it deliberately.

Qin Chengqian still takes care of and cares about An Yang's life every day. The days seem to be the same as before, but in some places, they seem to be different from before...

In the past, Qin Chengqian would naturally fasten An Yang's seat belt, tidy up his clothes, and rub his head... But now, these small gestures of intimacy have almost disappeared, and An Yang can clearly feel that Qin Chengqian is maintaining a restrained manner. , as if avoiding something.

An Yang felt depressed. He felt that Qin Chengqian was avoiding suspicion. That kiss was probably the uncontrollable pity that the strong faced the weak when they were young. However, it was wrong and inappropriate, so Qin Chengqian now uses this kind of indifferent attitude to tell him, Don't get me wrong, don't be sentimental...

One afternoon a few days later, An Yang came out of school and found that the person who came to pick him up was not Qin Chengqian. The driver said that there were guests at home, and Mr. Qin couldn't get away, so he sent him to pick him up.

The weather is a bit cloudy, like it's going to snow, An Yang hasn't seen snow yet, he looks out the window and thinks, if it really snows, it would be great, even if there is one thing to be happy about today...

When they arrived at the villa, a strange black car drove out of the gate and passed them. The window of the car was half open, and a young man with a dignified temperament was smoking a cigarette leisurely in the back seat.An Yang had never seen this person before, but after just one glance, he knew that they were Qin Chengqian's friends. They had the same aura, proud and arrogant, and they were signs of coming from the same world.

An Yang felt a sense of loss for no reason... Such a shining person deserves to be Qin Chengqian's friend!And he is nothing but an ugly speck of dust.

Qin Chengqian seemed to feel sorry for not being able to pick up An Yang, and kept picking up food for him. An Yang had no appetite, but the bowl was full of food stuffed by Qin Chengqian, so he had to chew and swallow slowly.

At the dinner table, An Yang knew that the person who just arrived was called Chen Kaiyuan, who was the child of Qin Chengqian who grew up together.

He thought for a while, and asked if this Chen Kaiyuan was the friend in City S that Qin Chengqian mentioned before. I came to ask him for help, tomorrow he will go to City S again, this time he may stay longer than last time...

An Yang's hand holding the chopsticks tightened unconsciously, and the vague sadness and desolation in his heart finally gathered into an entity that cannot be ignored, which made him a little unbearable... He put down the bowl and chopsticks and said that he was full, and got up to leave , but before he could take a step, someone grabbed his wrist.

"Why are you unhappy?" Qin Chengqian asked.

"No." An Yang denied it, while pulling out his grasped wrist, but the big hand that imprisoned him also increased his strength... An Yang turned his head to look, and bumped into Qin Chengqian with a smile on his face. s face……

"What are you laughing at?" For some reason, An Yang suddenly became a little angry.

Qin Chengqian seemed to be in a good mood. He thought that An Yang's refusal to talk about that kiss was an expression of rejection, so he has always been restrained and cautious recently, not daring to go beyond the rules, and only played the role of the elder brother peacefully. Until today Seeing this man secretly poking and sulking because he didn't go to pick him up, Qin Chengqian suddenly thought of a new possibility... When he saw An Yang's reaction when he learned that he was going to S City, this guess became more firm.

Qin Chengqian suppressed his smile and asked, "Then why are you unhappy?"

"I'm not unhappy!" An Yang was still stubborn.

"really?"

"real!"

"Then sit down and eat with me."

"I'm full! I don't..." Before he could finish speaking, Qin Chengqian pushed him back into the seat involuntarily...

"Birthday is like growing a year older. Eat well and don't be self-willed."

These words were like a silencer bomb, which made An Yang dumb for several seconds. After a while, he asked in a daze, "How do you know that today is my birthday?"

"Is there anything that can hide it from me?" Qin Chengqian said in a natural tone, and then pointed to the dining table, "I cooked all the dishes on this table, don't you want to save face and eat more?"

At this time, An Yang couldn't care about Chen Kaiyuan and Zhang Kaiyuan. His mind was full of shock. On the table were several common Chinese home-cooked dishes, such as boiled chicken, steamed sea bass, yam pork ribs, boiled cabbage heart... all without exception. It's what he likes to eat.

An Yang's eyes widened, and he asked in disbelief, "You did it all?"

"Well," Qin Chengqian asked someone to put the cake on, and added, "I also made this one, try it and see if you like it."

An Yang wanted to cry again, he hadn't celebrated his birthday for a long time... When I was a child, I lived in the country with my grandmother. Although life was hard and tight, my grandmother always remembered to cook him a bowl of wonton noodles on his birthday every year. His happiness ended when he was 12 years old. His grandmother passed away that year, and no one remembered his birthday since then...