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T city is An Yang's hometown, Qin Chengqian has been there no less than ten times, and each time he returned disappointed.

Recalling the moment when he just woke up and found that he was 22 years old when he opened his eyes, he almost cried with joy, thinking that this was God pitying him and giving him a chance to start again.But looking at it now, I feel that God may not be pitying him, but wants to torture him again in this way.

The first thing Qin Chengqian did after his rebirth was to search through An Yang's hometown, T City. There was no sign of An Yang anywhere. He also searched all the cities around T City, but still found nothing.

It stands to reason that, according to Qin Chengqian's connections and power, it is not difficult to find An Yang, but it is not possible. The information he can provide is too little, only name, age and general location, and there are no photos. Qin Chengqian struggled...

He hired the best portrait artist, and wanted to draw An Yang's appearance, maybe he could find An Yang with the image, he thought so.

But none of the painter's paintings could satisfy him. After thousands of revisions, the final draft was still not the person engraved in his mind.

So Qin Chengqian started to learn painting, he wanted to put An Yang on the paper with his own hands.

He traced An Yang's face over and over in his heart, drawing over and over again. At the beginning, he couldn't draw well, but when he could draw well, he found in a panic that he couldn't remember An Yang's appearance, just like reading a word It’s like suddenly not knowing the word after reading it for a long time... The more desperately you want to grasp it, the more blurred the outline in your mind, and Qin Chengqian is almost about to collapse...

Sometimes he suddenly can't distinguish between reality and fantasy, and begins to wonder if there is really a previous life, is there really such a person, maybe everything is just a dream, a dream tailor-made for him and used to torture him, From this point of view, this dream is really too successful, he really... is about to die in this dream...

After going crazy like this for nearly a year, he finally realized that if he searched like a needle in a haystack, he might not be able to find An Yang. He set his sights on a person, a businessman named Li Changlin—this person in his previous life The one who sent An Yang to him, he had already sent someone to check on the people around Li Changlin, but found no trace of An Yang, which means that Li Changlin has not established contact with An Yang so far in this life, but if this The law of development of the world remains unchanged, and everything is still running according to the trajectory of the previous life, Li Changlin will definitely meet An Yang!

A glimmer of hope rose in Qin Chengqian's heart, the last hope... ready to wait for Li Changlin to find An Yang, he would take him back to his side first!

Of course, the premise of this method is that everything develops according to the trajectory of the previous life, without the slightest deviation...

He withdrew the people under his command, stopped making them look for people in a big way, and carefully kept the world from deviating from the original development track.

Waiting is a tormenting thing. Qin Chengqian endured it for another three years, but there is one hope, and the waiting seems not so hard. In his previous life, he met An Yang when he was 28 years old. In this life, he only needs to be 28 years old. If not, his hopes are not dashed.

During the waiting period, he even began to look forward to the life after reuniting with An Yang, until he had that dream...

In a very dark ward, he saw a thin figure curled up on the hospital bed. The blurred and faded face in his mind suddenly became clear, and it perfectly coincided with the person in front of him. It was... An Yang!

Everything was too real, the person you yearned for was right in front of you, as if you could touch it with your hand, Qin Chengqian was ecstatic, he walked over, but found An Yang crying.

An Yang looked very small, like a teenager, pitifully thin, a small person, huddled himself into a ball, curled up on the bed, crying very sadly.The window of the ward was open, and the wind was blowing in, making a cold and terrifying sound.An Yang was lying on the bed shivering, looking like he was cold, but he didn't even cover him with a quilt.

Qin Chengqian tried to close the window, but his palm illusoryly brushed across the window, unable to touch anything. In this world, he was just a phantom, unable to touch the window, unable to touch An Yang's body, not even the sound he made. No one can hear... Qin Chengqian returned to An Yang's side dejectedly, stroked his face with illusory fingers, and asked gently: "Where are you? Why are you so sad..."

An Yang didn't answer his words, and was still crying big and big. After an unknown period of time, An Yang sat up, grabbed a fruit knife on the table, and slashed hard on his left wrist. ...

"No!" He screamed and rushed over to snatch the knife from An Yang's hand, but he couldn't stop him. He could only watch the glaring blood gushing out like a spring, dreaming Li originally had no color, but at that moment he suddenly saw red everywhere!

An Yang looked very tired, and lay back on the bed and closed his eyes, as if he was going to sleep.

"No! Yangyang, I beg you not to do this!" Qin Chengqian wailed helplessly, but it was of no avail.An Yang's face turned pale little by little, and gradually even his lips were as pale as paper.

"Ah—" Qin Chengqian finally couldn't bear howling like a beast...

For a long time, Qin Chengqian couldn't get out of that terrible dream. The blood in the dream and the strange wind impacted his nerves all the time, torturing his spirit day after day, making him more depressed, Cranky, like a madman.

He is increasingly inseparable from alcohol, and his addiction to cigarettes has also become very serious. The gloomy aura around him makes his subordinates who have followed him all the year round tremble with fear. He is afraid that if he says something wrong, he will be upset. If Mr. Qin loses his temper, it will really happen. kill……

There is still no news from An Yang, and there is no progress from Li Changlin...Qin Chengqian suddenly doesn't know whether his behavior of trying to keep the world running according to the original track is meaningful, maybe... maybe An Yang is dead, and he died because he didn't know. in the corner of...

He began to frequently go to the places An Yang had mentioned, paranoidly and confusedly wandering through unfamiliar streets, imagining that An Yang was hiding behind a certain light in this city, and his impetuous heart could be slightly calmed down all day long.He didn't dare to stop, once he stopped, those confused images would fill his brain and make him restless.

Finally, such crazy days ended in the fourth year of Qin Chengqian's rebirth, it was an ordinary afternoon.

Qin Chengqian drove the car to the entrance of a university campus in City B. It was the day when the school started. An Yang said that he had studied in this school.An Yang is eight years younger than Qin Chengqian, so he should be eighteen years old this year. If there are no major changes, he will come to school here in a year or two.

It's not the first time Qin Chengqian has come here, he has become accustomed to the results every time, and this time he doesn't have any hope, it's just a habitual behavior pattern, seeking a little peace of mind.

He stopped the car at the school gate, lit a cigarette, and wanted to leave here as usual, after smoking a cigarette.The smoke rose and lingered in the carriage, weaving a beautiful dream. He looked out through the smoke, and then his whole body froze as if he had been immobilized. Among the crowd coming and going, he saw a beautiful boy……

The boy's hair was neatly cut, his clothes were clean, and he was carrying a backpack neatly on his back, like an obedient high school student. The boy paused in front of the school gate, as if to identify the direction. After a while, he greeted Come here with the light...

One step, two steps... getting closer...

Qin Chengqian's heart was beating wildly, and just when he was about to lose control and wanted to open the car door to hold him in his arms, the boy turned around and went across the road.

Qin Chengqian looked at the boy's back firmly, and let out a muffled and hoarse roar from his throat. His whole body was in a twisted and torn state, as if he wanted to laugh, but he couldn't help crying...

An Yang...An Yang!

He found him!