elopement alone

So in everyone's eyes, I and Si Yuchen are a couple?

Chen Ningshu fell asleep in a daze, and soon began to dream.

Jing Jing in the dream was kissing Liu Zehan, opened the door by herself, Jing Jing started to take off Liu Zehan's clothes as if no one else was there, Chen Ningshu rushed out of the door angrily, and met Si Yuchen not long after walking out of the community, Si Yuchen asked himself, "Do you need help?"

Chen Ningshu ignored Si Yuchen and walked straight to the opposite side of the road. Si Yuchen caught up and said persistently, "Isn't it just being dumped? What's the big deal? I was also dumped!"

Chen Ningshu still ignored Si Yuchen's advice, and was about to run.

The wrist was scratched and hurt, and she was forced to stop, Si Yuchen's lips covered her.

Chen Ningshu pushed Si Yuchen away, "What are you doing!"

"Anyway, we are all broken in love, why not fall in love?"

"ill."

"I like you." Si Yuchen stared into Chen Ningshu's eyes.

But in just a second, the face looking at him affectionately became quiet.

Jing Jing said, "I like you, Chen Ningshu, give me a chance. If I treat you badly, can you leave me again?"

Chen Ningshu woke up with a start. A lock of hair was wet with sweat on his forehead. He took out a tissue and wiped it off.

He raised his head and met Cen Ying's gaze, "Are you okay? Have you had a nightmare?"

"Well, it's okay, I'm awake."

"For the girl from before?"

"Yes. Fortunately, we have already broken up." Chen Ningshu's eyes darkened.

"If...she asks you to make up? Will you agree?"

"No." Chen Ningshu shook his head.

"I don't want to be in a relationship with a woman anymore, I'm not gay."

"Oh? Are you sure?"

Chen Ningshu really wanted to say "I'm sure", but those three words seemed to be stuck in his throat, and he couldn't make a sound.

After a while, she looked at Si Yuchen, who was covered with a denim jacket and fell asleep.

"Let me drive, you have been driving for a while."

Cen Ying smiled, "No, I often drive around. I must have more experience than you. I can't get tired after driving for a few hours. You can go to sleep."

"I can't sleep anymore," Chen Ningshu hesitated for a while, "May I ask, do you have a girlfriend?"

"Want to introduce me?" Cen Ying showed a bright smile in the rearview mirror.

"Uh, no, just...just ask."

"I like a person. That person is quite similar to your ex-girlfriend. He is also a playboy. He still fools around with a girlfriend, but I am not her girlfriend. I am the one who fools around with her."

Cen Ying laughed at herself after speaking, "Do you think I'm not a good guy?"

Chen Ning looked at Cen Ying in surprise, momentarily at a loss for words.

There was some helplessness in Cen Ying's tone, "If you like someone, how can you just let them go?"

"So...you are mistress?" Chen Ningshu was a little hesitant, but still mustered up the courage to ask her.

"Well, but we've lost touch. Ever since she dumped me."

"I'm sorry, I didn't intend to inquire about your sadness."

"It's okay, anyway, I've seen it, it's mine, it's always mine, it's not mine, and I can't force it."

After listening to Cen Ying's words, Chen Ningshu thought about himself and An Jing again. Sure enough, he was not as open-minded as Cen Ying. The wrong relationship seemed to be forced by himself.

An Jing said that she liked herself, but she didn't say that she only liked herself.

It seems that there is a reason that cannot be explained, but in love, there is no reason at all.

After all, in a quiet world, it should be easy to like someone.

Unlike myself, when you fall in love, it's hard to get out.

That's why it's so embarrassing.

Chen Ningshu looked at the speeding cars coming from the opposite direction outside the window and the endless fields on the side of the road. If life is a journey, is quietness his own passerby or his end?

This love is a war with no winners. The reason why I lost so embarrassingly is not because I was quiet and half-hearted, but because I mistakenly regarded love as the whole of life and lost my self-dignity. No matter the ending No matter what, it is a sad thing for the parties involved.

When was the last time you were this sad?

When I was in high school, I found out that my best friend and boyfriend were having an affair behind my back?

I just remember being so sad at that time that I felt that the whole world had betrayed me, and I finally fell in love with someone again, and I ended up being betrayed like this again.

Happy people have their own happiness, and unhappy people always have their own misfortune.

Should I do a self-examination and examine why my love always fails like this.

Chen Ningshu pinched the bridge of his nose, and changed to a song that was so old that he had forgotten the date. The singer had passed away, but this song remained in Chen Ningshu's playlist.

"It's clearly a movie of three people, but I still can't have a name."

The single was playing in a loop, and Chen Ningshu couldn't stop crying.

Perhaps, what I miss is not only the lost feelings, but also the irrecoverable time.

I think of Jing Jing saying Wong Kar Wai's classic lines to herself for the first time, thinking of Jing Jing hugging herself and saying "I like you" to herself, and thinking of Jing Jing crying and begging herself not to leave.

So did I fall in love with An Jing, or did I fall in love with myself in this relationship?

In the past few days, I have always forced myself not to think about quietness, and always reminded myself to forget those things, but when the relationship reached the peak of collapse, it was still so vulnerable.

That well-used saying goes like this: Many things that we thought we would never forget are forgotten in our obsession.

I don't know when I will be able to practice to this level.

When missing someone becomes a habit, how long will it take to completely recover from the wounded heart.

The tears became more and more unstoppable, and drops fell to the corners of his mouth, the bitter taste seemed to be mocking himself as an idiot who was stupid enough to do so.

Finally, Chen Ningshu covered his mouth with both hands, and burst into tears.

But the female voice in the earplugs continued, stinging my heart every sentence.

The song has come to an end, and it is the truth that Chen Ningshu is most afraid of hearing.

"It turns out that fate is used to explain that you suddenly don't love me."

But An Jing, in fact, you never loved me at all, did you?

When can we stop having nightmares of quiet existence, and maybe when can we start this journey of life again.

Cen Ying glanced at the rearview mirror inadvertently at a turn, and had a panoramic view of Chen Ningshu's appearance.

There was a self-deprecating smile on the corner of Cen Ying's mouth, only young people would be so desperate for love, she has already passed the age of believing in love.

She didn't bother Chen Ningshu, didn't even hand out a tissue, and continued to concentrate on driving.

Because she thought, it still depends on Chen Ningshu to get out of it by herself, no one can accompany her to get out of the pain of broken love.

When Chen Ningshu's tears gradually stopped, he took out a tissue and wiped it off, looking at the red eyes on the phone screen.

What a worthless Chen Ningshu.

Maybe it's really a response to Liu Xueying's sentence "I would rather go to the same destination by different routes".

No matter what he and An Jing have experienced, they will eventually end up breaking up.

Life isn't Run Lola Run, where you try seven different experiences.

There is no time machine of "Doraemon", and going back to the past is simply whimsical.

When there is no way out, it is when the light of hope is ushered in. Looking forward, the scenery ahead must be more beautiful than here.

airport.

An Jing printed out the boarding pass, and Liu Zehan waved to her, gesturing for her to go over.

"The direct flight takes a long time, and the food on the plane is also terrible. Let's eat some first." Liu Zehan took the boarding pass in Jing Jing's hand, and helped Jing Jing straighten the hair scattered around her ears.

"Okay." Quietly nodded, Ren Liu Zehan held her hand and walked to the restaurant one after the other.

Liu Zehan stared at Jing Jing, "Jing, I ask you something, you must answer me honestly."

"Just ask."

"This time we reconcile, what kind of mentality do you have?"

She froze, the question was too sudden, especially at the airport where the journey was about to start.

"Do you think it's appropriate to ask this question now?" Quiet paused, but still put on a standard smile.

"I thought, if you love me, you should tell me firmly at any time: I will love you as always." Liu Zehan sighed for a long time, touched Jing Jing's right hand on the table, "So , can you answer me now?"

"Do you want my answer, or the answer you want to hear?"

"Is there any difference?" Liu Zehan looked into quiet eyes, the table less than one meter wide looked like a twelve-lane road, Liu Zehan seemed to have never seen such quietness.

Can no longer perceive the quiet mind.

Some are unfamiliar, some are familiar, and some are unpredictable.

This feels terrible.