under the tower

At night, Ji Xi and Yan went to bed early.

Since the last time, Ji Xi has completely abandoned the sofa in the living room, and insists on squeezing into a narrow bed with Yan Yi every night.Now that the weather is cold, he has even more reason to sleep next to Yan Yi every day.

The sick wood area has long been abandoned by the base. There is no heating, and the house is old, so it gets colder at night. It is the level where Ji Xi would shiver uncontrollably even if he was wrapped in a big quilt.

In fact, Ji Xi's physical condition has never been very good. It seems that even the average body temperature is one or two degrees lower than Yan Yi's. In winter, his hands and feet are even colder, but Yan Yi's quilt is always warm, and it is very comfortable to lie in.

They fell asleep quickly.

However, perhaps because what happened in Mingyue District during the day reminded him of the incident at the circus, Ji Xi began to dream uneasy.

In the dream, the soft body of a young man with an unfamiliar face coiled around him like a snake. Ji Xi seemed to have returned to that night again. He wanted to push away the person on his body, but instead let himself fit closer to him , they seemed to be trapped in a narrow space with nowhere to escape, the more he wanted to escape, the more he couldn't escape.

The air is hot, breathing is difficult, and the body is almost melting due to the high heat.

No, no, let me go.

So uncomfortable, so hot, I feel like I'm going to explode.

The round eyes like a deer stared at him all the time, those innocent and pure eyes were like a pool of smashed lake water, rippling with beautiful waves.

Give me.Give me.

The fiery red mouth opened and closed, but Ji Xi couldn't hear what he was saying.However, there is a voice in my heart that has been calling, getting louder and faster, and finally gradually maintaining the same frequency as the violent heartbeat.

Yan Yi was woken up by Ji Xi.

When they fell asleep, the two of them were still lying side by side, but now Ji Xi's whole body was completely hung on his body, like a vine clinging to him.He was probably dreaming. In his sleep, Ji Xi was still frowning tightly, his chest was violently heaving up and down, and his legs were wrapped around Yanyi's waist, moving unconsciously.

Yan Yi was so annoyed by Ji Xi rubbing back and forth like this, he tried to pull the person on him away, but this guy usually looked weak, but now he was holding on to him tightly, and he refused to let go .

In the darkness, Yan Yi couldn't bear to push Ji Xi hard: "Wake up."

Ji Xi's whole body seemed to be picked up from the water, he suddenly opened his eyes, and his heart seemed to stop beating for a second.

Suddenly falling back from the dream to reality, he still hadn't realized it, and was in a daze.He opened his mouth, eyes half closed: "...I..."

That strong fiery impulse exploded in his consciousness, and Ji Xi rubbed it twice subconsciously.

This feeling of being unable to get up and down is really uncomfortable, Ji Xi is inexperienced, so he hummed a few times with a hoarse voice.

Yan Yi backed away from the bed, and said awkwardly: "You... go to the bathroom to do it yourself."

"...Uh...um..." Ji Xi's whole brain was on fire, he obediently responded, but he didn't really know what Yan Yi said at all.

In his life, Yan Yi never thought that one day he would encounter such a difficult situation.

Fortunately, Ji Xi didn't completely lose consciousness. He rolled on the bed with a painful expression, then crawled out of the quilt unsteadily, groped for the bathroom with his eyes closed, and closed the door.

The world is quiet.

But Yanyi didn't feel relieved because of this, any male creature can feel this kind of anxiety.

He closed his eyes, took a few deep breaths, and tried to clear his mind.

Not long after, Ji Xi finally came out of the bathroom, and Yan Yi was lying upright on the edge of the bed, like a corpse that had been completely frozen.

After venting, the whole person was very tired, Ji Xi lay back on the quilt, and continued to sleep in a daze.

The next day, Ji Xi almost had a splitting headache when she woke up.

His hair was sleeping like a bird's nest, and he sat up with his head propped up, feeling like he had died ten thousand times in his heart.

He is not awake at night, but it doesn't mean he doesn't remember. In fact, what he did last night, the scenes are like a movie, clearly engraved in the depths of his consciousness, and played back and forth before his eyes. Stop lingering his already very fragile mind.

So embarrassing... this is too embarrassing...

Ji Xi was speechless, he covered his face and covered himself with a quilt like an ostrich, his heart was completely broken.

Fortunately, Yanyi has already got up to make breakfast, otherwise he really doesn't know how to face him.

How could he do such a thing!how come!

Ji Xi wondered if there was something wrong with the medicine given to him by the Lu family. Otherwise, he had been abstinent for 20 years, why would this dormant volcano suddenly erupt?

After that incident that year, Ji Xi had a strong sense of nausea towards the people around him for a long time, which probably belonged to a kind of conditioned reaction, and he couldn't control it anyway.

He is completely indifferent to the matter of "sex", even to the point of indifference, because the shadow of that incident is too deep for him.

The people around me, and the friends I thought I had, turned out to have other purposes, and the resulting desire in my body just reminded him of the fact of being deceived over and over again, showing my stupidity and ignorance.

This kind of thing is too stupid, the young and ignorant Ji Xi has been thinking so firmly for a long time - others can't do it, others surrender to their desires, but he can't.

He will not.

Why can't he?

Ji Xi pulled her hair, she was dumbfounded.

As soon as Yan came in, he saw Ji Xi buried himself in the bed with a look of lovelessness.

"Wake up and eat." He said, his tone seemed the same as before.

Ji Xi plucked up great courage, lifted a corner of the quilt, revealing two eyes, Yan looked at him with a wry smile.

"Oh." Ji Xi muffledly agreed, but still lay motionless under the blanket.

Yan Yi looked at him: "Then you got up?"

Ji Xi pursed her lips: "Then you go out first."

Yan Yi really left the room: "Okay." He urged, "I'll wait for you, hurry up."

Like a tortoise whose shell has been peeled off, Ji Xi crawled out tremblingly, and put on her clothes by herself.

When eating breakfast, Yan Yi behaved very calm and normal, what to do, Ji Xi still didn't dare to look directly at Yan Yi.

In this state, during breakfast, Ji Xi dropped his chopsticks twice, and he felt that his hands were not his own anymore.

Yan Yi sighed, bent down to pick up the chopsticks for him under the table, and brought them to the sink to wash.

The man's calm voice came from the kitchen: "What's the matter, you won't even eat after a night?"

Ji Xi's body was stiff, like a primary school student being criticized, she sat motionless in her seat.

As soon as Yan came back, he put the cleaned chopsticks on his night, and said calmly in the tone of someone who came over——

"When you're older, it's normal for boys to have this kind of thing happen."

Ji Xi's ears were red, and the blood all over his body rushed to the top of his head.

He raised his head and looked at Yan Yi, but Yan Yi was the same as before, it seemed that what happened last night was really just an innocuous episode that had no effect on him at all.

It was obvious that Ji Xi cared too much.

Seeing Yan Yi's completely unmoved expression and reticent appearance, Ji Xi suddenly had a sudden thought in his heart.

In the past, Ji Xi had seen all kinds of men and women. In front of their emotions, they either burst into tears, or shook their heads and begged for mercy.

However, at this moment, he suddenly wanted to know what this man named Yan Yi looked like when he was burning with desire.

Would he also have such crazy, fiery, irresistible desires that make people red-eyed and fierce?

Dark and turbulent thoughts grew wildly in his heart.

Ji Xi stared blankly at Yan, her Adam's apple rolled up and down.

"What's the matter?" Yan Yi shook his hand in front of him, "Why are you in a daze?"

"It's nothing." Ji Xi blinked a few times, then lowered her head and took a bite of the bun.