under the tower

Walking out of the investigation department, Ji Xi seemed calm, but her heart was trembling.

At that moment, he didn't care about his own discomfort, all he could think about was that Yan Yi had also experienced such a bitter thing back then.

He vaguely remembered one time when the man came home with a very bad face, he asked Yanyi for a long time but he refused to say anything, now thinking about it, it was the time when they were planning to join the army.

At that time, in order to find someone for him, Yan Yi endured so much, but he never told himself.

Ji Xi closed her eyes in pain.

The fierce quarrel yesterday echoed in my ears every word.

No wonder he said that he hated or even hated the army, and torturing the soldiers under him in this inhumane way was a decision that only a cold-blooded person could make.

Ji Xi's heart was full of dull pain, complex and sour emotions filled his chest.

That kind of pain even surpassed his own physical discomfort.

He was standing at the crossroads where people came and went in Wanshen District, the eighth central district was bustling like brocade, but under the scorching sun, his whole body was icy cold, like falling into a cold cellar, and the transparent water droplets on his face dripped down his chin and onto the ground.

sorry……

I really never thought about letting you go through such a terrible thing...

But the more he thought about it, the more he couldn't say Ji Xi's words of persuasion stuck in his throat.

For some reason, Ji Xi wandered around in confusion, and unknowingly walked into the sick area again.

The poorest part of the base is still exactly the same as when he first came here, with tangled wires, dirty yellow buildings covered with cracks, rough dirt roads on the ground, and a disgusting stench from sewers that have been clogged all year round. Black rats are running around in it. In a lively place, some people are shouting and selling self-produced and self-selling small items, and the selling is mixed with the noisy human voice.

There is a never-ending vitality in the dirty air.

Over time, those ragged and skinny people are working tirelessly to live, like wheat ears in spring, crop after crop.

Ji Xi was like a returnee who lost his hometown, walking slowly step by step, with a dazed and helpless expression.

Dressed in a soaked military uniform and in a mess, he still looked out of place.

Ji Xi walked to the gate of Yan's family while wandering.

He felt empty, but uncontrollably began to tense and fear.

Ji Xi covered her face.

He stood there like a log, hesitated for a long time, and knocked on the door lightly.

This place, which he regarded as his "home" for a long time in the past, did not open the door to him again.

Ji Xi's eyes blurred, and she knocked on the door again.

The solid iron door remained motionless, ruthlessly rejecting him.

Ji Xi felt her heart was being twisted together.

He didn't know what to do with himself, he wanted to talk to Yan Yi, but he didn't even know where he was.

Perhaps as he himself said, he was already impatient and planned to leave completely.

If this is the case, the world is so big, Ji Xi will never even think about contacting him in this life.

Just like two dust particles, how lucky is it to meet together?

Just thinking about it like this, Ji Xi felt chills all over his body and couldn't breathe uncomfortably.

What did he do...

Ji Xi slumped to the ground weakly, hugged her knees, and leaned against the rusted iron gate in a ball.

There was a rustling sound coming from the distance in the corridor, and whenever the sound of footsteps approached, Ji Xi would always look up with anticipation, and then shrink back in disappointment.

The sky outside was gradually getting dark, the magnificent sunset glow on the horizon gradually faded, the shadows were stretched, and the old corridors became darker and darker without light.

Ji Xi remained motionless, but the chaotic thoughts flickered uncontrollably in his mind.

At a certain moment, he suddenly thought.

There is no eternally stable state in this world. The joys and sorrows of the world always ebb and flow like the tides. The stable and comfortable happiness he once thought he could have is just a flash in the pan in the huge torrent of time and space.

Nothing lasts forever.

But maybe from now on, he will stand on the tower and enjoy the boundless loneliness forever.

But Yan Yi's appearance is just like a dazzling shooting star in the night, passing by in a flash.

But if a person only lives in the dark and has never seen the light, then he may still be able to live happily in bitterness, but when he has been under the truly gorgeous and diverse warm sun, experienced the colorful world, ten feet soft Red, who would want to live forever in the dark and lonely night?

This person, he not only left, but also took away all the light in his life.

From then on, wherever time goes, there is no difference between living and eternal sleep, all laughter has nothing to do with him, and the whole world is only left with endless gloom.

At that moment, he suddenly realized that he had already fallen in love with him.

This is the love he devoted his whole life to, and he can take out his bloody heart to prove his love.

No one had taught him that a man's heart could beat for another man only.

He is willing to love him purely, sacrifice everything about himself, give up his power and status, abandon the burdens given by the world, promise all the future in his life, give every present, every minute and every second, and only hope that he will live a long and healthy life and be happy .

But it was too late.

it's dark.

Ji Xi stood up slowly from where she was, and walked away from the damp old corridor step by step.

Under the night, the dim street lights in the sick wood area illuminate the dirty alleys, Ji Xi walked out all the way, but he didn't know where he should go.

The whole diseased wood area was still bustling with people, Ji Xi walked all the way to the farmer's market following the voices of people.

This is one of the busiest places in the diseased wood area. The vegetable stalls have been closed, but a huge signboard next door stands out in the dark.

On the plastic ceiling, there are four big fluorescent characters written - "Frequently come to the restaurant".

Looking at those four words, Ji Xi suddenly had a thought.

It was meal time, and there were crowds of people at the entrance of the restaurant. Ji Xi walked over and lifted the plastic curtain full of grease.

The entire canteen was filled with residents who were eating at the appointed time. There were glass cabinets by the wall, and there were trays of freshly baked meals in them.

Ji Xi was in a daze, he still remembered that when Yan Yi brought him here for the first time, he saw everything as if he had discovered a new continent.

He still clearly remembered that at that time, the two of them only had a total of [-] points in savings, but they ate more than [-] points for a meal, which was really a luxury for them at that time Behavior.

Later, their situation gradually improved. By now, the balance in Ji Xi's account may have been too much to use up. He didn't pay attention to that number anymore. In fact, he never paid attention to that number.

But he didn't become much happier because of it.

Ji Xi's footsteps stopped on the spot, and was immediately staggered by the crowd rushing in from behind.

"Kid, get out of the way!" the man spat.

Ji Xi was pushed forward by the crowd and bumped into the person in front, her head may have touched the bone of the other's back, causing some pain.

He clutched his forehead, hissed, and subconsciously apologized: "I'm sorry."

The person he hit didn't move, and didn't respond.

The next second, Ji Xi raised his head and was completely stunned.

I saw Yan holding an empty black plastic dinner plate in one hand, with a cold face.

His hair seemed to have been shaved, and it was cut very short, leaving only a round head, which made the face with sharp edges and superior features more and more extraordinarily handsome.

Ji Xi was completely stunned, he stood on the spot, with hot eyes, staring straight at Yan Yi.

At that moment, it seemed that he could only hear the noisy drumming in his chest.

The time was stretched, but in fact it was very short, Ji Xi didn't even have time to do anything or think about anything, he opened his mouth, but he didn't have time to speak.

Yan Yi glanced at him indifferently, as if seeing a stranger, he walked away without any response.

Instinctively, Ji Xi stretched out his hand, grabbing the corner of his clothes tightly.

"Yanyi..." Ji Xi whispered.

Yan Yi indifferently twitched his clothes, but did not get rid of them. He stopped and said expressionlessly, "What's the matter?"

There was no trace of emotion in his tone, as if he really didn't care about himself anymore.

In front of everyone, Ji Xi knew that he didn't want to get entangled with him at all, and he didn't want to make the trouble worse, but Ji Xi didn't care about these things, and grabbed the piece of clothing like a life-saving straw, refusing to let go no matter what.

"I..." He stammered, staring sadly at the man's indifferent face.

He has so much to say.

I'm wrong.

I regret.

Please, don't leave me.

I can not live without you.

But when he got to his mouth, he realized how pale his words were, and how powerless his so-called apology and retention were in Yan Yi's cold and unwavering eyes.

Yan Yi frowned, impatiently waiting: "What are you going to say?"

"I..." Ji Xi's eyes were red, but she said, "...I'll treat you to a meal."

He bent the corners of his lips as if laughing and crying, although he was smiling, his expression was extremely ugly: "You used to cook so many meals for me, now you are leaving, just treat it as my thank you, and let me... Please have a meal."

At first, you brought me here.

This place... is the beginning and the end.

Yan Yi looked at him silently, neither agreed nor refused.

Ji Xi looked at him eagerly, and said in a begging voice: "Yanyi... Please, after today, you can go wherever you want, do whatever you want, and if you don't want to see me, then I won't pester you anymore , I will never bother you again..."

He just felt that every word and every sentence he said was like a blunt knife cutting his own heart, that feeling was really sore and painful.

But he also knew that Yan Yi was really bored with him and hated him extremely.

"……OK?"

Yan looked at him for a moment, then handed the empty plate in his hand to Ji Xi.

"Remember what you said." He said coldly.