Peacock

I fell into a deep sleep as soon as I lay down on the table during the lunch break. I almost forgot that I had to do part-time psychological counseling.

Chen Xing should really give me more salary.

Seeing that the time was one past ten, I immediately got up from the desk. When I passed the glass in the corridor, I saw that my face still had red marks from buttons, which was really embarrassing.

When I opened the curtain and came in, I could smell the strong smell of freshener. I thought to myself that the cleaning aunt finally remembered that there is a toilet here, and I don't know when she will give me back the pants.

"truth."

I was taken aback, and when I turned around, I saw Pu Wei's towering figure, like a spirit behind his back. Really, I realized that he always seemed to like to observe me unilaterally from this angle of peeping from behind. The first time I ran into him on my way home, it scared the hell out of me.

"Can you come to the front and talk again in the future." I said helplessly, "It's scary."

Pu Wei smiled shyly, walked to the balcony with me, and then told me some trivial things.

One of the incidents made me feel uncomfortable to say anything. Pu Wei’s parents wanted to spend the whole family’s efforts to send his good-for-nothing brother to study abroad. This morning, they talked to him about the negotiation result of “or give up painting”.Other than that, it's nothing more than the sentimentality that everyone will have in adolescence. I don't even think there is any need to explain it. I just prevaricate a few words, but I didn't expect the big tall man in front of me to suddenly look grateful and say thank you. I.

"What is there to thank..." I really deserve it.

For some reason, Pu Wei's emotions became more and more turbulent, and he suddenly cried hard in front of me, which made me freeze for a moment.

He wiped his eyes tremblingly with the back of his hand: "Truth, I don't want to go out to study anymore. Now I just think it's good to stay in Baima and stay with you."

"what are you saying……?"

After being silent for a while, Pu Wei finally said, "...can I not do it?"

This rhetoric is really old-fashioned, and I belatedly looked at him dullly.

"You know it clearly." Pu Wei's eyes were bubbling with innocence, "I like you."

Honestly, I'm kind of sick of it.

I'm not a teacher yet, but I'm already so obsessed with the teacher-student relationship. It always makes people think that when you treat him with dedication, something is fermenting in his mind.

I don't know what to say, but looking at his face is completely difficult.

Pu Wei rushed over and grabbed my arm: "Truth, what do you mean by not talking? Is it my fault?"

I took a half step back, tempted to say yes.

Tang Ling always said that I must be easily deceived, but now I fully understand that I can't leave with anyone.

I tried my best to calm down: "Don't you like girls...the kind of loli with big breasts, I read the comics you draw, and those collections, aren't they all girls?"

"...I don't know, the truth." Pu Wei was a little incoherent, "Am I gay? But if that object is you, I don't think it matters. Among so many people, you are only good to me, and no one Treating me so well...you even, even make me feel like we are the hero and heroine of my manga."

Fuck off you diva.My scalp is numb: "how can I treat you well?"

"You'll peel me oranges, you'll listen to me, and you'll tell me a lot about your thoughts, which are always kind of weird...you never do that to anyone." He just looked at me, "never That's what people do to me."

"Pu Wei, listen to me." I said, "whatever you think, but don't waste time on me, I'm just a rotten person, a moth who lives a life, and a man. You are so small, so good Prepare for the exam, and I won’t think so when I go to a big city to study... Besides, I have someone I like, and I just want to be with him.”

"Then does the person you like like you?" He actually became a little urgent, "If you don't get anything in return, you won't be able to bear it. You are not this kind of person."

On the verge of getting angry, I raised my voice unconsciously: "You know me well?"

He seemed to be unable to grasp the point: "I know exactly what kind of person you are."

"You buy sandwiches at the bakery downstairs on Mondays and Wednesdays, and you are used to taking out the lettuce inside. When you go back to your home after work, you like to take a detour by the river, and every time it rains, you will pick stones by the river and go back. You used to scold your host family on your social accounts, hate the double bass, want to sing but always say you have no talent." Pu Wei calmly said, "You have long scars on your hands and a small birthmark on the back of your neck, you are lying Or when you try to be brave, you always tear your nails... like now."

I let go of my hand reflexively.

Pu Wei suddenly approached me a few steps, his tall body completely covered the light coming in, and the dim shadow completely enveloped me like this.

When he clasped his shoulders, I suddenly felt that his expression became a little strange.

"Here it is. I see it, I see it all."

He held me with one hand, took out the phone with the other, and clicked on a video in front of me. Almost at that moment, my groaning came out of the loudspeaker.

The screen was shaking, and it was me looking up in a daze. This overlooking angle made me coincidentally meet the camera. I opened my mouth to breathe, very embarrassed, like a fish facing slaughter.

The video ended abruptly in less than a minute, and the camera began to shake anxiously at the end, and finally turned completely into darkness.

I suddenly realized what the patter that Tangling and I heard that day was.

It turned out to be the sound of the phone falling to the ground.

"Are you trying to threaten me with the video?" I found it a little funny, "You think I'm afraid of what others will think of me?"

Hurt emotions and weird self-satisfaction completely blended in Pu Wei's facial features, and he said seriously: "Truth, why do you think of me so much?"

"I don't want to hurt you, I just want to be with you, why are you so repulsive?" Pu Wei frowned, "I have learned about this group, most of you can handle relationships casually, can't you? Give me a little time, teach me, and I can do well too. It’s better than others.”

It's hard for me to come up with the proper decency: "Don't fucking disgust me."

Pulling away Pu Wei's hand vigorously, I said in a deep voice, "You go out from here now, I don't hear anything."

Pu Wei just stood silently under the flickering incandescent lamp, without moving a step, nor moved his eyes an inch, time seemed to stop flowing.

I tried to see something in his eyes, but I felt that there was too much mixed in it and it became obscure.The animal instinct gave me a chill down my spine, and I subconsciously turned around and wanted to leave, but was pulled by Pu Wei's arm and fell to the ground.

A large piece of black ink melted before my eyes, and after a while, stars flashed. It took me a long time to slowly open my eyes, but suddenly I met Pu Wei's manic eyes.

"Why don't you give me a chance in everything?! They are like this, why even you are like this?" Pu Wei kept repeating, "Everyone can look at me like garbage, I have long been used to it, but You can't, you are the only one in this world who can't!"

I don't know if I was in a daze, but I couldn't react quickly, and I witnessed the whole process of him reaching out and tearing my short sleeves.

I really feel that Pu Wei is confused by his self-esteem, and it is definitely not a rational decision to rape a boy.

The irrational ones may have to include me at this moment, and in this situation, I was so angry that I said things like "do you fucking know where to fuck a boy?"

My hands were strangled so that I couldn't move, and my consciousness gradually returned. I had no choice but to soften my words and tried to call his name a few times to arouse his conscience.

However, Pu Wei was silent, and only used the strength brought by his body to press me firmly on the floor tiles. I frantically struggled to pat his hand nailed to my shoulder blades, even so hard that my brain started to lack oxygen.

My wrist fled away as if I was bowing back. At that moment, I thought I had a chance to fight back, but he suddenly stood up straight, grabbed my hair and hit my head against the mirror, and then lost consciousness for a short time. In a blur, I was thrown back to the ground again.

With trembling hands, Pu Wei took out his mobile phone and started to record, with tears streaming down his face in a complex pattern. He repeated "I don't want to" over and over again, but pressed his dirty shoe upper against my bare chest.

Maybe he didn't want to use force at the beginning, but my attempt to escape was too obvious, so I had to let him increase the force again and again, and finally I was so painful that I couldn't breathe.

My ribcage may have deformed briefly, and I could even feel my heart beating carelessly against the sole of his shoe.

I yelled, what the hell are you crazy about, do you know what you're doing.

The back of my head gradually felt hot and humid, but I had no time to think about it. I just reached out to touch the dagger in my trouser pocket. Although I have carried it with me since I was in middle school, I never thought that one day it would really be useful. Useful.

I was quickly alerted to my small movements, I only tried my best to press the blade of the saber as quickly as possible, but at this moment Pu Wei slapped me, and the tip of the knife was tilted to the side of my face.

I have never been slapped so hard before, flying stars flying around in front of my eyes, and the smell of rust soon overflowed between my teeth.

He seemed to want to snatch the saber from my hand, he pressed the back of the saber and turned the sharp point back, the cold light flashed above my eyeballs, I even felt that just the slight tremor caused by clenching my molars could make the saber The sphere is scratched.

The aggressive heart that had been away for a long time ran back in a panic. At this moment, all I could think about was: I have to kill this person in front of me, at least I can’t make him feel better, he is the one who made me so embarrassed.I even really feel that it doesn't matter if I lose my life because of wanting him to die today.

Exhausted, I retracted my hands slightly, and turned my face in time, the blade only cut my cheekbone.He lost his strength for a while, and his body fell forward. At this time, I stabbed forward with the general knife, and my vision began to shrink involuntarily because of nervousness. In the end, I only got that one blade.

Seeing that the blade was about to poke at the pulsating skin around his neck, my eyes turned red as if I had seen blood.However, the knife was not sent into the body of the person in front of me as I thought, and I suddenly felt light—Pu Wei fell from my body to the ground on one side.

In a trance, I only felt myself being pulled up. When I looked up, I saw the familiar tall and thin back, and saw the light-colored hair tail floating with my breathing.

My eyes felt aching, and I wanted to call out Tang Ling, but was restrained by the inexplicable negative pressure in my throat.

With trembling hands, I subconsciously clenched the handle of the knife, stumbled, and wanted to pass Tangling to continue this unfinished atrocity, but he raised his hand and knocked the knife away.

The short knife hit the ground with a dull sound, and for a while, I only experienced the emotion of being at a loss.

I can't understand it, and I can't understand it. At this moment, should Tang Ling abide by his moral standards that he doesn't know the source of?

Even if I was treated like this.Even if I don't do it, I will be the only one who gets hurt.

The moment Pu Wei saw Tang Ling, he seemed to be completely enraged, and quickly reached out to grab the knife on the ground, almost touching it, but Tang Ling kicked the knife out of the door frame.

Clutching my arm, Tang Ling dragged me back wordlessly, and stepped on Pu Wei's outstretched palm with her thick-soled boot.

The scene of Tangling fighting in front of me was so unreal, it was almost a silent movie, I couldn't hear anything, I could only see his vigorous movements and bulging veins.There wasn't even any expression on his face, and his eyes were extremely calm, as if he had never been the kind of character who would be controlled by emotions.

He hit hard, I really think he was beating Pu Wei to death, Pu Wei started from the counterattack and howling, and finally just fell to the ground weakly and breathing rapidly.

There were mottled bloodstains on the floor tiles for a week. I don't know who the owner of those traces is, mine, Pu Wei's, or Tang Ling's?

Finally Tangling turned around, her eyes didn't fall on me, but she hugged me tightly and tightly in her arms.

Inexplicably, I felt as if I had been suffering from sleepwalking. It was Tang Ling who broke through my heavy hallucinations again and again, and it was this moment that I heard the voice of the world again. I heard his beating heartbeat, chaotic, dull and restless.

At that time, I thought Tangling really hated me.