Peacock

I let Hai Zhan throw me in Star Bay.

Originally, he was still a little worried, but when I got out of the car, I looked hesitant to speak.I patted the instrument on the front of his car, and reminded him that if he wastes electricity, he will have to push the motorcycle up the mountain, so he went down the steps, and without saying anything, he rode the bike up the mountain.

I don't know why I'm here, it's obviously not the season to meet the fluorescent sea, but the fact is that from the moment I got on the plane in Newark, I never thought about "what should I do?" "Are.

After walking back and forth along the shore a few times, I finally fell back on the fine sand.The tide was rising and falling by my ear, and then I picked up the phone and sent this voice message to Tang Ling, and followed up with a yellow accent very heartlessly: "Does it sound like you are breathing on my shoulder before orgasm?"

It's a shame that I can still say these words in this situation.

In fact, I thought Tang Ling went home and went to sleep, thinking that no matter how bad it was, there was still a chance to withdraw it, but I didn't expect him to reply with four words very quickly: "Like yourself".

"Importing" was blinking on and off over there, but in the end there was no further message.

I held my mobile phone in a daze, and many things flashed through my mind for a while, and I didn't notice that the raindrops just fell on the ground.

I recorded the sound of rain again, and I said, God is crying bitterly because you have encountered the truth.

"Baima is not under God's control." Tangling turned on the microphone and said to me, I think he must know where I am, "What are you running around, go to the hotel and find a room to stay."

His tone was a little heavy, I don't know if it was because of fatigue or irritability.But I have seen Tangling angry before, so I know I have to listen to him, or I will die a miserable death.

The gauze on the back of my head was almost soaked by the torrential rain. I pulled the collar of the hospital gown to the top of my head with common sense, thinking that I had to find a place to take shelter, and the nearby hotel I knew was the one with the swimming pool. I had no choice but to run up the mountain with my legs down.

Pool hotels always give people a feeling of confusion.

This impression is not only due to the weird aquarium-style decoration, even the people who work here are distracted in their positions like walking corpses who have smoked opium.

When I broke in with careless hands, no one even cast a curious look. It may be that Peacock Mountain has not been visited for too long after the temple was abandoned, and everyone felt tired in all aspects.

Only then did I realize that even without considering the dimension of belief, what Haizhan did had a positive impact on Baima.

The receptionist was smoking a cigarette while watching a TV show. Standing at the front desk, I could see grayish-white smoke rising from behind the desk. Soon the smoke alarm at the top corner beeped, but no one paid any attention to it.

At first, I wanted to listen to Tang Ling's words thoroughly and find a room to stay, but then I changed my mind, didn't I just come here to avoid the rain, I felt that I had already slept enough in the clinic.And I have to mention that I actually still have the idea of ​​buying a house.

No one cared, so I sat down on the rotten sofa in the back hall, and those old sponges swallowed me in one gulp, like a swamp.

The silent TV on the wall is showing the foreign daughter-in-law and the local man.

I suddenly remembered that Tang Ling told me that he watched this when he was a child.

Thousands of episodes have been filmed for a TV series, and he doesn't know which ones he has watched.In the past, when I wanted to understand Tang Ling, I was as clueless as I was now looking at the foreign daughter-in-law and the local man.

During the commercial, I got up and wanted to go to the vending machine to buy water. While walking, I fumbled for broken bills in my pocket, and almost bumped into the aquarium used as a partition.

The swimming pool is lifeless, but the swimming pool in the swimming pool is not. In the half-wall-high water tank, there are a few bright goldfish, whose long tails are like peacock feathers, flitting over algae and neon .

In a trance, I seemed to see a whole piece of white filling the back of the water, but when I raised my eyes subconsciously, I saw Tang Ling.

There is an aquarium half the height of the wall between us, and those few goldfish cut Tang Ling's indifferent gaze like a stream of fire.

It seems that I rarely catch Tang Ling's eyes so carefully and for a long time, and most of the time, I move away with confusion or anxiety.

"Tangling..."

Tang Ling walked towards me, the folded umbrella in her hand was still dripping water onto the mirror tiles.When he saw the wet hospital gown on my body, he frowned anxiously, didn't say anything, just grabbed my wrist and pulled me out.

"doing what?"

"Aren't you afraid of infection?"

I struggled back: "There is no water, really, the clothes are wet to cover the wound."

Hiding behind Tang Ling, I hugged his waist from behind and squeezed my head out of his arms: "You actually came here? What are you doing here?"

Tang Ling didn't say anything, I asked with a smile, "Afraid I'll jump into the sea?"

Tang Ling tore me away from him like a sticker, leaned over and bought water from the vending machine.Seeing that he was about to reach out and press the button of the pirated Hedy, I immediately said first: "I drink this too".

Bang Bang dropped two "Seven Jubilees", and the cans were still slightly frozen when I took them out of the storage tank.

Tang Ling looked at the continuous rain outside the window, and went to the front desk to open a room without thinking too much.

When the receptionist got his ID card, it was like a withdrawal reaction after hallucinations. He raised his eyes several times, and finally looked at him with a weird look for a long time, which made me feel very uncomfortable. The hand holding Tangling was tight and tight.

Tang Ling didn't care, and he didn't seem to care either. He took the room card, turned around and left.

Although I think there are definitely no more than three of the dozens of rooms in the swimming pool hotel, but it is a coincidence that we got the room card of the last room, which is at the end of the corridor on the second floor.

We tacitly didn't talk about confusing topics, and I also learned Tang Ling's ability to be silent. I just dragged him to the bed and lay down, holding his hand without saying a word, and then looked at the fish-shaped The lights cast slow-moving fish shadows on the ceiling.

But Tang Ling just looked at the calendar on the front wall.

I turned to face him, "What are you thinking?"

"This is like a K room outside the school. I always wondered if everyone would go there to sing in their lives." Tang Ling said slowly, "Just now I suddenly felt that the time was wrong."

I couldn't bear to ask one by one, and Tang Ling said that he was expelled from school four years ago today.

In fact, not so much emotion.Tang Ling is not a fragile person, and he remembers this day clearly not because of resentment, but on that day he suddenly realized the confusion that he had accumulated for 19 years, so the impression was so deep.

"I don't need to do everything I did before, but I used to live to get those things, and suddenly everything was interrupted, so what else can I do in the future." Tang Ling said calmly, "It seems like a long time. I've been thinking about these things all the time."

Only now have I slowly begun to realize where Tangling's "we are different" is reflected. The most obvious one is: Tangling's dream was crushed, and she couldn't grasp it if she wanted to; My dream was thrown away by myself, because I wanted to escape and couldn't escape.

In fact, it stands to reason that I should be the kind of person he hates the most, the kind of ignorant waste.

After hesitating for a long time, I held his hand and asked, "Did you really do something unforgivably wrong four years ago?"

In fact, this question is meaningless, the facts are there, Tang Ling has been in prison, he deserves to be questioned by others all his life, and he deserves to be rejected by others all his life.But I don’t believe it, I always judge people with my own eyes, I think if there is really something unspeakable hidden behind it, everyone can continue to choose not to believe it, but I can’t, the only person in this world who advertises the supremacy of love is I can’t .

Tang Ling looked at me quietly, with a lot of complicated eyes, and finally he just said, no.

As if my heart had been twisted, I tried my best to smile and kissed the corner of Tang Ling's lips.Just looking into his wet eyes like that made me cry again, and I repeated uneasily, "That's good."

Tang Ling lowered her eyes slightly, and squeezed my fingertips, "Yu Zhen, please make a wish for me."

The light color on his iris was completely obliterated by blue: "It doesn't matter if it's too much."

I don't know why he said this all of a sudden, but I found out later that it was his 23rd birthday that day.

What wish?In what capacity should I stand to make a wish for him?I don't know, I almost instinctively moved closer to him, then silently opened a can of pirated [-]-Up, and pulled off the aluminum tab.

"Then marry me." I trembled, "Marry me."

I was confused by this sticky relationship, and I had no confidence at all. After lifting the pull ring, I just focused on adjusting my breathing, but in the end I still cried.

In fact, I just want to tell him that no matter what, I will definitely be by his side in the future, no matter whether he will let go of my hand or not, but when it reaches my throat, it ferments into such ignorant words, which are so absurd and a little ridiculous.

I buried my head lower and lower, and slowly I fell into the crook of Tang Ling's hand, smelling the smell of turpentine that had faded to the point of dissipating, and I became more and more sad. Obviously when I met him for the first time, The smell is still soaked in the fabric.

Holding the pull ring, I firmly grasped his lapel, "It's a very vulgar idea. But I have been thinking that it would be great if I could have a house for two people, preferably a basement, and a A big skylight, an old stereo system. Old songs in Cantonese or English are played, and then we lie like this all day long, you watch the sky change from light purple to deep blue, fiery red to pitch black, and I look at you. The bed must be messy, maybe poker and Monopoly are thrown around, as well as the peeled shrimp shells in the Shacha noodles, the condoms that have been torn but not used in time. The glass is not one-way, and people passing by can still see us make love."

It would be nice to be born with Tang Ling, even if they couldn't be together when they were young, at least they should have the same long life experience.When I was 19 years old, I was selfish and casual, so when I met 19-year-old Tang Ling, I would definitely tell him that it’s okay to be not so kind, and it’s okay to not live for anything, but three years later, when I go to Bai Ma must read a lot of books. When you check out at the Blue Lotus Bookstore, let the cashier boy pay for you. Anyway, he will give you all his money, and he will also pack it up and give it to you.You are his first love, that's why he is so willing to do it. If you change someone else, you won't get this kind of treatment. It's a better prize than winning the lottery, so don't give it up for nothing.

Then I hugged Tangling and cried, stuffing familiar words into unfamiliar sentences indiscriminately, and I said, truth, I am called truth, so what I say is truth.You are the most beautiful in the world, with a beautiful face and a beautiful heart.

"Let's go, we don't want any more. Don't worry about those ignorant eyes, and don't be obsessed with the past." I looked into his eyes, "Tangling, let's go to Peacock Mountain together."