Peacock

The first night I met Tang Ling, I wanted to sleep with him.

Sure enough, fickleness is in nature.But on this second night, I just wanted to sleep next to him and do nothing.If he can't sleep, I'm also happy to suffer from my tuberculosis.

I hugged him tighter again, feeling a brief pause in his shallow breathing.

In the end Tangling still wouldn't let me stay.In fact, I also know that we are indeed not familiar enough to sleep in each other's arms.

The rain in Baima seems to never stop, and it's so damn lukewarm that one can't even bring up the courage to borrow an umbrella.

I made a detour back to Blue Lotus before going home.

The warm lights in front of the store were on and off, but the door was still wide open, and Lao Xu was sitting inside and dozing off.

The TV on the high place seems to be playing some kind of film, the sound is very low, and the color tone in the short-focus lens is very eerie.

I seldom feel guilty, but I still feel a little bit sorry to see that Mr. Xu is going to clean up the mess for me who is running around.

I didn't bother him, I just took out a light bulb, and I was going to step on the flower stand to let the current veteran retire.

When I stretched out my hand, the moth fog on it dissipated. I was not frightened by the disgusting insects, but I was almost fell off the shelf by Lao Xu's dream talk.

"Don't cry, baby girl."

It may also be because of coming from another place, such a title is extremely tender and numb to me.The goosebumps invaded me in an instant, and I evilly began to wonder if Lao Xu had that kind of girl friend, right?I always think it can't be my daughter, because occasionally I can eavesdrop on Lao Xu answering the phone, and I can know what his wife and children say to him. , the relationship is not very good at first glance.

After changing the light bulb, I wiped the dust on my trousers, tiptoed into the bookstore, and stuck it on the wooden cabinet in front of Lao Xu, trying to find out if there was anything to say, but what greeted me was "Yu Zhen" ".

How could it be "in the truth"?

Looking up and meeting Lao Xu's gaze, I sighed and waved my hands: "Old Xu, I didn't expect you to look at me like this. We are not suitable, and I don't like people calling me nannie... You should find someone else."

Old Xu stared at me in bewilderment as if he had just woken up and heard the bad news.

I can understand his mood at this moment: "Actually, the main reason is that I have someone I like... Well, if I haven't caught up with him after a while, I'm willing to stay in Baima and give us another chance. "

"...Have you been drinking?" Old Xu frowned, "What bullshit are you talking about?"

After the confrontation, I realized that the "囡囡" really referred to his daughter.

I was puzzled and asked, "You miss your wife and children so much, why don't you go back to work on the other side... You can't make a fortune driving a blue lotus."

No loss is the limit.

Old Xu looked wise and foolish, but he was unwilling to say more, and only said: "Distance creates beauty."

Be careful that your wife runs away with others.I wonder.

I lay down on the cash register and said as if thinking of something: "Old Xu, I have found something I want to do."

Lao Xu put down the book in his hand, and asked me very cooperatively: "What is it?"

"I go to Erjiu Studio to be a model from Monday to Friday, and the teacher there also told me that I can learn to paint when I have free time."

"Do you want to learn to draw?"

I shook my hands and said with a smile: "It's been almost two years since my left hand retired, and I need to let my right hand learn something."

Old Xu looked at the scar on my arm, which was long and narrow like a wedge: "Good thing."

"There is one more person I want to help." I said, "Old Xu, I want to help him."

Old Xu looked back at me seriously.

"I think he is so hypocritical. Everything about him is fake, his smile is fake, and if he doesn't care about anything, it must be fake, but others believe everything he shows. He must be very contradictory, and he has successfully convinced others He wants what they believe, but he is misunderstood no matter what, how can anyone be happy when misunderstood? I want to expose him and let him live in the real world, but I can't find evidence, even see Unclear."

Old Xu is used to my incoherence: "What are you going to do?"

My head is empty, I can't answer, maybe I can't do anything, and what I have learned before seems to be useless.

Old Xu didn't ask any more questions, but just turned up the volume of the TV.He always plays the role of a patient listener in my stories, and he will not presumptuously give life advice for an ordinary middle-aged man.

Sitting on the new batch of books, I stared at the TV set high above me with wandering eyes.

After a long while, I spoke again: "What is this?"

"The movie my wife used to like very much." Old Xu paused, "I want to see what kind of things she likes."

I think Lao Xu's words are very strange. Shouldn't this kind of thing be done when you are in love?

Old Xu said that the rope that keeps a marriage together is responsibility, not love. After sharing the same bed for a long week, I want to strangle each other to death several times.

I don't understand.Not yet.I just think that maybe the straight-line distance from Baima to the long strait on the other side makes Lao Xu the lucky one who can remember.

The people on TV were speaking Cantonese, and I could only stare at the subtitles, and the traditional Chinese subtitles made me dizzy.

Thanks to Philadelphia American Mom, I recognized the woman on it as Li Jiaxin.

It was my last home before entering school. My father is Mexican and my mother is from Hong Kong. It is a chimeric family, each with their own children, and I am a stubborn Chinese who came here temporarily. There are pure American blood in this family. Just the golden retriever in the front yard.

The American mother often tells some secret history of wealthy families at the dinner table. Li Jiaxin’s great achievements have been mentioned many times by her, but at that time, my impression of her was just the immortal female star deceived by full silicone in the advertisement.

Seeing her shaking her hands and smoking a cigarette on the screen now, I am a little bit delusional.I didn't expect it to be so beautiful.

His demeanor reminded me of Tang Ling inexplicably.I am so guilty.

Lao Xu told me that the man next to her was Liming.I don't know, I don't know much about domestic stars.

I still don't understand why Lao Xu had the patience to explain to me tonight, until he elicited the sentence "Do you think I look like him".

"No." I said firmly.In my limited range of metaphors, the one who most resembles Lao Xu is the one who plays Wolf Warrior.

Liming sat on the bus and spoke a monologue. He said that even if you are a killer, you will still have elementary school classmates.

I was a little dazed.

Where there are any special solitary animals, a person who has lived alone will definitely leave traces.

In the end, I still didn't accompany Lao Xu to watch the movie he used to love his wife. On the way home, I leaned under a street lamp and took out Tang Ling's business card from my pocket, which I walked by from the studio, and called him.

He didn't speak when he picked it up. I knew it was an unfamiliar number for him, so I made up the self-introduction that was missing when we first met.

I also repeated my name to the truth three times.

He still called me Little Shami, I regretted it to death, if I had known it would be so difficult to hear him call my name once, I should not have said that I was from Shaolin Temple.

But he didn't ask or question, obviously it doesn't matter if I'm a monk or not, it's just that he wants to use this somewhat rare title.

After hemming and hawing for a long time, I finally choked out a sentence: "I hope you will be interested in me one day.".

Tang Ling asked: "Whether you are interested or not is very important?"

I yelled "It doesn't matter to me whether it's important or not" and hung up the phone quickly.

If Tang Ling starts to be interested in me sometime, I will have a bargaining chip to exchange with him, so I can threaten him to exchange one of my past for one of yours.

I want to ask about Tangling's past, whether it was peaceful or chaotic.I'm not curious about the true or false, nor do I care about the rumors, I just want to find the answer to what I can do in it.

I don't care whether he has a beautiful past or not, I just want to try my best to help him walk into a slightly less sad future, even if this companionship is destined to be short-lived.

I really look forward to this day coming sooner.