My nemesis turned on me

He Junfeng spent the whole summer vacation in school. Apart from painting, he usually worked as an assistant to various professors. When he really didn't want to paint, he slept all day and all night.

The rest of the time, he is like an ascetic monk. He gets up at 10:30 in the morning, draws until the afternoon after cleaning up, then continues to clean up and eat, then paints again, and goes to bed at [-]:[-] at night.

The whole person is as regular as a robot, afraid that if he makes a wrong step, it will lead to irreparable mistakes.

He Junfeng came out of the community and went straight to the convenience store. He took a lot of yogurt from the refrigerator, and then looked at the beer next to him, as if it was a lifetime away.

He couldn't help stretching out his hand to get the beer, but he suddenly realized that he clenched his fist and said in his heart that he must never buy it!He is a disciplined person!A man who can control himself!

After coming out of the convenience store, He Junfeng walked to the road with his bag in his hand, and a few people he knew in the department walked towards him, and they yelled at He Junfeng to say hello.

He Junfeng responded one by one.

One of them looked at He Junfeng's convenience bag and laughed: "Huh? He Junfeng bought so much beer in the middle of the day? Are you planning to get drunk?"

He Junfeng: "??????"

He Junfeng covered his face and returned to the residence, then put all the beers into the refrigerator one by one, and then sat in front of the refrigerator and sighed.

In the past, he would never make such a mistake, he would not be unable to control himself to buy beer, why did he become like this after being with Luo Xing.

He Junfeng sighed until he was exhausted physically and mentally, is it really good to live as he pleases like this?

For some reason, He Junfeng missed Luo Xing very much at this moment.

He took out his phone and started looking at Luo Xing's photos.

Since Luo Xing left that day, he blocked himself on WeChat, and called and scolded himself, and then blocked the phone call.

He never spoke to Luo Xing again, but the less he saw each other, the more he missed Luo Xing.

Luo Xing left him only photos. At that time, he was smiling brightly and carefree. I don't know how it is now?

A free and unrestrained person like him certainly wouldn't work too hard, but he had to struggle uncontrollably.

He Junfeng scrubbed the phone interface, feeling more and more blocked.

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It is an unwritten rule for them to have a party every year at the beginning of the school year. The day before class, they will use the class fee to book a banquet and have a big meal to signify the beginning of a new semester.

Their department doesn't know what's wrong with Feng Shui, as long as there are more men than women on their drawing boards, people who don't know it think they are engineering classes.

There are a total of 32 people in the painting class. I booked a large box that can accommodate 35 people in a nearby hotel and ordered a lot of dishes.

When He Junfeng arrived, many people had already arrived.

In fact, He Junfeng didn't participate in previous years, but this year he really wanted to participate, just because he might meet Luo Xing here.

The two of you should at least speak clearly, and if you can't speak clearly, you should get together and break up easily.

He Junfeng thought to himself, today is just to speak clearly, absolutely don't think too much, and control yourself.

He sat down, looked at his phone, and waited for Luo Xing to appear.

Everyone in the class was surprised when they saw He Junfeng. He Junfeng rarely participated in group activities like theirs, and even if he did, he would only pay for it and would not come.

I don't know why I can't think about it this year.

Just as they were wondering, the food started to be served, and Luo Xing and Yu Sheng also came late, just in time to push the door open.

I don't know if it's because of He Junfeng's lack of popularity or what, there are 32 seats, but there is no one around him.

Yu Sheng acted like he didn't know anything, pulled Luo Xing over, and then sat on He Junfeng's left.

Luo Xing looked at the vacant seat, and then looked elsewhere, he was about to ask someone to change seats, but the banquet had already started to change glasses.

"Sit down." Yu Sheng also turned his head and called him, "What are you staring at?"

Luo Xing groaned, and sat on He Junfeng's right. He took a glass and poured himself some wine.

He Junfeng lowered his head, the moment Luo Xing came in, he saw it, and his heart jumped quickly.

When Luo Xing sat next to He Junfeng, when the smell unique to Luo Xing mixed with paint came, all He Junfeng's thoughts disappeared immediately, and all self-discipline and calmness flew to Java again.

He secretly went to see Luo Xing, saw his slender fingers pinching the wine glass, drinking every sip, couldn't help feeling sad, and quickly reminded: "You drink less."

Luo Xing rolled his eyes at him, "None of your business."

He Junfeng sighed, thinking it's okay, the dog is still willing to talk to him.

"I??????"

Luo Xing got angry, "Don't talk to me!"

Yu Sheng also heard Luo Xing's low drink, and couldn't help coughing, "What are you doing? You're getting hot again?"

Luo Xing didn't reply, he put down his wine glass with a snap, turned his head and left.

Yu Sheng was also anxious, "Why are you going?"

"Toilet!" Luo Xing replied angrily, then quickly walked out with his pockets in his pocket.

He Junfeng glanced at Yu Shengye, and quickly stood up to follow.

Yu Sheng also raised his eyelids, "Where are you going?"

He Junfeng rubbed his nose, "Bathroom."

Walking out of the corridor, He Junfeng immediately saw Luo Xing squatting in the corner smoking with his head down. He didn't know when he learned to smoke. He was holding a freshly lit cigarette, frowning, and puffing away with indifference.

Seeing him like this, He Junfeng's mind was buzzing. He suddenly felt that he had made a big mistake before. Everything, everything he said and did to Luo Xing were all wrong.

At first, he thought that Luo Xing was a free-spirited person who could kiss and do those things with him without any hesitation. He thought it was just desire, but when he saw Luo Xing's current appearance, He Junfeng knew that Luo Xing loved him. It's not just those desires, it's mixed with feelings, feelings stronger than yourself.

His lips trembled, and his eye sockets were sore and sore. He hadn't felt this feeling of crying for many years, and he was so sad that he could hardly breathe.

Seeing Luo Xing's eyes were washed away by despair and pain, without the dazzling light before, the haze was everywhere, and his expression was sickly, as if he was seriously ill and lifeless, He Junfeng only felt that his heart was being beaten. The sharp knife cut slowly, and the pain was so painful that he could hardly stand up.

"Luo Xing?????" He Junfeng murmured, he stretched out his hand, trying to grab Luo Xing.

Luo Xing was taken aback, he didn't expect He Junfeng to follow him, he didn't even think about it, he turned his head and left without even looking at He Junfeng.

He Junfeng followed, but because his limbs were weak, he didn't catch up, and Luo Xing was no longer visible after turning a corner.

After a while, He Junfeng supported the wall and stabilized his body. He searched all over this floor, but he didn't see Luo Xing. Finally, he found the box, and Luo Xing was not there.

He Junfeng knew that Luo Xing was avoiding him, and he didn't want to see him.

Helpless, He Junfeng had no choice but to go back.

After leaving the hotel, He Junfeng saw that the time was only past eight o'clock. He walked around aimlessly, thinking about the past and the future.

His originally repressed heart and emotions became agitated the moment he saw Luo Xing.

If you choose between suppressing your emotions, becoming rational and restraining, and living as you please with Luo Xing, you can choose one.

He thought, the current him will definitely choose to do whatever he wants, and be with Luo Xing.

When he returned to the community, He Junfeng quickened his pace. He wanted to tell Zhang Yuan quickly, and then go to Luo Xing.

Thinking about it, a smile appeared on his face unconsciously.

When he walked downstairs, he paused, and saw a figure smoking a cigarette leaning against the door of the unit on the first floor. There were already several cigarette butts on the ground, and it seemed that he had been waiting for a long time.

"He Junfeng, I want to talk to you."

The man turned his head, and the face hidden in the darkness gradually became clear.

He Junfeng was taken aback, "Yu Sheng?"

Yu Sheng also threw away the cigarette, stomped it out and said, "Choose a place, I have something to tell you."

He Junfeng guessed in an instant that Yu Sheng also came to talk to him about Luo Xing. He thought for a while, "Go to the pavilion at the back."

The two walked towards the gazebo one after the other, the dim light of the street lamps was even more gloomy, and the atmosphere was terrifyingly silent.

Yu Sheng also walked to the gazebo first, sat down, and started smoking again.

The street lights from outside shone in, and could only shine on his legs, and his upper body was still hidden in the darkness.

He Junfeng also walked over in silence. He was sitting opposite Yu Shengye, and the light from behind leaked in and cast down from behind him.

Yu Sheng also watched and couldn't help laughing.

He Junfeng didn't ask him why he was smiling, he just asked: "You know?"

"Luo Xing told me everything."

"Then what do you want to say?" He Junfeng tried hard to see Yu Shengye's face clearly, but it was too dark for him to see clearly.

Yu Sheng also paused for a while, and said lightly: "I want to ask what you think? What do you want? Do you love him?"

He Junfeng was silent for a long time, he didn't like to tell others about himself, even Zhang Yuan rarely said anything, but to Yu Shengye, he chose to speak out on his own initiative.

"I like Luo Xing, I have desires for him, I am full of thoughts about him, I am very concerned about his every move, I may not have noticed it myself in the past??????"

Yu Sheng also heard this, and said: "Luo Xing used to be heterosexual, but after meeting you, he became able to be with a man, probably if it wasn't for you."

Hearing Yu Shengye's trembling voice, as if suppressing something, He Junfeng suddenly remembered something, and asked, "Do you love him?"

Yu Sheng also spit out a smoke ring: "I'm invincible and I have a few bad hobbies. I love the kind that as long as he is happy, he can be with me even if he is not with me."

After hearing this, He Junfeng didn't feel any jealousy or anger. He paused and said calmly, "I'm sorry??????"

Yu Sheng also knew what He Junfeng meant by apologizing to himself. He smiled and said: "I can completely understand what you did. Even if everyone is an adult, only the body is mature, and the mind is still a child. I don't hate it." You, I even admire you, but it doesn’t mean that what you did is not wrong. You really hurt too many people, thinking that what you do is always right, and you don’t care about others at all. The person you hurt the most is not Luo Xing, He is a fool, and he will realize how much he loves you later."

He Junfeng was taken aback: "I thought you were a more frivolous person."

Yu Sheng was also happy, "You are right, I am very frivolous, completely opposite to you."

He Junfeng raised the corner of his mouth. He watched Yu Sheng finish smoking a cigarette, and suddenly said: "I?????? I consider myself a mature person. I think I am 20 years old. I have met a lot of people and done a lot. I thought I was very rational, but in the end I was just a wobbly young man. I was in pain and confused, struggling in the mud, avoiding things, having fun with Luo Xing, and getting close to him. This was my desire. It’s my originally repressed nature. But I’m not shirking responsibility, it’s just that I haven’t matured enough to be rational enough to make every step of myself correct. When I rely on instinct to get close to Luo Xing, I become the person I hate the most. I didn't even realize that I had long since become the person I hated the most, but what made me most dissatisfied was that I didn't regret giving up rationality at all and chose to follow my heart."

With that said, He Junfeng raised his head, as if relieved.

In the long, long years, when he asked himself to be rational unreasonably, and in those days when he wanted to say that he was in love but couldn't, the string that was tightly stretched in his heart that accompanied He Junfeng for 20 years, was in his heart. His faint words finally relaxed, and finally shattered and disappeared.

When he looked at Yu Shengye again, He Junfeng saw his expression clearly, sad and relieved, which made He Junfeng even more regretful.

Yu Sheng also asked, "So what are you going to do?"

He Junfeng smiled and looked directly at Yu Shengye: "I love Luo Xing."