The white clothes of the mountains and rivers are still as old as before

Bai Yi pushed open the door and saw Zhou Zishu sitting at the table, drinking by himself. He greeted Bai Yi when he came in.

"Old Bai, come and sit down. I have something to ask you."

Bai Yi was a little tired, too many things happened that night, Zhou Zishu unexpectedly met Ye Baiyi, then he had to pass, and it was time to confess to him.

"What do you want to ask?" Bai Yi took a seat opposite him, poured himself a glass of wine, held it in his hand, but had no intention of drinking it.

"I want to ask Senior Ye what is your relationship with you, your past, are you hiding something from me by interrupting him several times?" Zhou Zishu raised his head and met his eyes directly. He was very concerned about Ye Baiyi's unspoken words, and he didn't want Baiyi to hide it from him.

Bai Yi took a deep breath, exhaled it slowly, remained silent for a long time, put down his wine glass, and then slowly said: "It's a long story."

"I told you earlier that I was the last divine weapon forged by Father Rong. It was Father Rong...forged for him...he was my first master, and also my... master and father's Elder..." Bai Yi didn't intend to hide any more, and frankly put his past in front of Zhou Zishu, immersed in the memories, and narrated the past events that were dusty in his memory.

"I am the spiritual consciousness that was produced when they were in the best relationship. I thought that they would be together for a long time, only each other, and I would be their only sustenance, but Rong Father's wood is still there for the so-called kindness. Marrying her, getting married and having children, having Rong Xuan, Uncle Ye was proud all his life, and Rong's father never heard a word of liking from him until his death, so the two of them just missed it in this life." Although Bai Yi spoke vaguely, Zhou Zi With Shu's intelligence, he naturally heard some old love stories.

"Perhaps it was because Uncle Ye Aiwu and Wu accepted him as his personal disciple and taught him carefully but ignored me, so Rong Xuan and I never got along with each other since we were young, but he treated me very well and was accommodating and tolerant everywhere, but until later when he was young After learning to be a teacher, he didn't ask me if I would like to, but begged Uncle Ye to let me form a bond with him and be his sword spirit. Only then did I know that he is a martial arts fanatic! He has never regarded me as a brother! Companion! It's just a It was just a rare divine weapon in my hand, so I fell out with him, and found a secluded place in Changming Mountain, and devoted myself to retreat, out of sight, out of mind..."

"I thought Uncle Ye could understand me, but what I thought was that when I woke up again, I was already in the Four Seasons Villa. I don't know what his old man thought, but he entrusted me to Rong Xuan's all kinds of obsessions without agreeing to him. I gave it to Qin Huaizhang..." Although Bai Yi wanted to confess, he also blurred this bad memory for him.

"Because of this, your master and I had a long time of temper tantrums at the beginning. Later, when we learned that he was on good terms with Rong Xuan, we didn't want to see him again, so we found Zhong Lingyuxiuzhi in the back of the villa. After many years of seclusion, I just missed those years when Rong Xuan was in the rivers and lakes."

At this point, he couldn't help laughing out loud, laughing at himself for his self-willedness and stubbornness back then, as well as his own cowardice for avoiding.

"How did Rong Xuan go down the mountain, and what happened after going down the mountain, I don't know, but Wen Kexing should have told you all about it, and by the time I left the customs, things had developed to the point of irreversibility , although I resent Rong Xuan, but I can't just watch him being besieged by the world, so I rushed to Qingya Mountain first, Qin Huaizhang, but it was too late, and when I arrived, I just saw him slay himself in front of the cliff monument , and those who surrounded and killed him were still complacent, clamoring to kill the devil, I hated it so much, I just...killed them all..." I don't know why Bai Yi felt a little guilty when he said this.

Zhou Zishu also paused for the hand holding the wine glass, put down the wine glass directly, propped the table, and said suddenly: "It turns out that what Old Wen said, those who besieged Senior Rong Xuan after he committed suicide and died were all They all died in Qingya Mountain! Did you kill them all?"

"Yes... I was young and frivolous, and I did a lot of stupid things, but I don't regret it, those people deserve to die..." Bai Yi seemed to be caught in that bloody memory, his eyes were faintly red, and his expression was as cold as With a bloodthirsty sharp knife, Zhou Zishu saw that something was wrong with him, pulled his hand, and cried out worriedly: "Old Bai! Old Bai, it's all over..."

With such a paw, he pulled the white clothes out of his memories, closed his eyes and took a deep breath, opened them, and his pupils regained their clarity.

"Back then, my cultivation base was still shallow and my foundation was not stable. After I buried Rong Xuan's body, I was seriously injured and passed out. I don't know the personnel. It was Qin Huaizhang who arrived in time and brought me back to the Four Seasons Villa. If I remember correctly, you seem That’s when I worshiped under him.”

"I remember, when I first started, Master did not see him for a while, and his expression was hurried and tired." The cause and effect of this was connected, and it also solved the problem that Zhou Zishu was ignored by the master when he first entered the school. Be careful.

"That's because I was almost possessed."

"Enchanted?" Zhou Zishu widened his eyes in shock.

"All things have spirits, and human beings are the primates of all things. I have committed a heinous crime for no reason. Naturally, I have to pay the price... I can't get rid of my hostility, I am haunted by demons, and I almost self-destruct..." Yao recalled the recklessness and self-willedness at the beginning.Regardless of the consequences.Bai Yi was still laughing at himself.

"Then what happened afterwards?" Zhou Zishu asked.

"Later, it was thanks to your master, who worked so hard to take care of me, that I was rescued from hanging by a thread. I devoted myself to self-cultivation and honed my mind in the spiritual cave behind the waterfall where I don't want to return. That's why you The reason why I have never seen me in the Four Seasons Villa for many years." Because he always hides in the mountains and rivers, hides in the courtyard, watching these energetic young boys from afar, proud and timid, unwilling to show up in front of others, and blend in .

"After this incident, I owe Qin Huaizhang a lot, but...but I don't want to bow my head to admit my mistake to him...I was really self-willed before...until he...succumbed to a serious illness and died young... I never said sorry to him, never...called him master..." Thinking of Qin Huaizhang's untimely death, thinking of his unreasonable troubles in those years, thinking of everything he owed Qin Huaizhang, Bai Yi couldn't help reddening his eyes and choked up his sobs Speak out, but refuse to shed a tear.

"Master...Master, he never blamed you. Before he died, he asked me to take good care of the white sword." Thinking of his master, Zhou Zishu's eyes turned red.

"Yes, he still missed me before he died, but I am ashamed of his entrustment, I am ashamed of him, I am ashamed of Four Seasons Villa, and I am even more ashamed of you." The tears shed fell back into her eyes, and she calmed down a little before speaking intermittently.

"Back then, Uncle Ye was afraid that I would not obey his discipline, so he lured Qin Huaizhang to sign a master-servant contract with me, so that he could encourage him, but he never forced me to do anything until his death... There is a sword, and when he passed away suddenly, I also Suffering great trauma, weak consciousness, sealed in the sword and unable to break free, I can only watch helplessly as a young you propping up the Four Seasons Villa alone...watching you lead the elite of the villa to Jinzhou...watching..." At this point, he couldn't continue, the overwhelming self-blame and powerlessness crushed his spine, he fell on the table, his shoulders trembled uncontrollably, and his whole body was on the verge of falling.

Zhou Zishu barely digested the huge information in his words, and seeing him so sad, he got up and walked around to his side, holding his shoulders, wanting to say a few words of comfort, but he didn't know where to start.

Bai Yi raised his head, looked at him with red eyes, looked at the young man he had grown up with since he was a child, watched him grow from a worry-free child to a young farm owner, and then moved to Jinzhou to build a skylight.Ten years of ups and downs in the sea of ​​blood, ten years of loneliness and helplessness, he can only watch his fellow disciples wither in front of his eyes because of being mired in power desire, even Zhou Zishu feels ashamed of Qin Huaizhang's teaching, and the sect's inheritance is almost ruined In his hands, if he doesn't want to live in the world, Bai Yi is even worse, even more ashamed, more regretful, and more desperate.

"Until...until you gave yourself the punishment of Qiqiao Sanqiu nails and drove the first nail, I was finally able to break free from the sword...but it was too late, I couldn't do anything, I couldn't even I can't even tell you to live a good life, so I don't want to live anymore..."

He buried his face in Zhou Zishu's arms, he just wanted to find a temporary support, a place where he could rest for a while, he was too tired to live, his whole life was full of accidents, the ups and downs of the world for decades finally Also just getting nowhere.

"So what did you do to make Senior Ye furious." Zhou Zishu suddenly had a bad feeling, hesitantly touched the hair crown tied up in white, and murmured.

"I know I can't persuade you to live a good life, and I don't want to watch you destroy yourself, so I made a life-and-death contract with you to share some of your pain." He couldn't hide it, and Bai Yi didn't want to hide it from him, Tonight, he has revealed his most incompetent past in front of Zhou Zishu, and he doesn't care about these trivial things that are insignificant to him.

"Life and death contract? What is that?" The amount of information tonight is really too much, and Zhou Zishu still has not recovered.

"The famous sword has a spirit, and the famous sword protector. Once this contract is signed, you will be my master forever. Things are like the master, and I will become more and more like you. People are with the sword, and the soul of the dead is gone. I said I will always be with you, life or death, I will be with you."

"You're crazy!" Zhou Zishu finally clarified what happened tonight, pushed away the white clothes and pressed his shoulders, and said in amazement: "How can you tie your life to me?"

With red eyes under the white clothes, he laughed out loud.

"I think Wen Kexing should also advise you to live for two more years. You didn't agree, did you?"

Zhou Zishu's hand on his shoulder lost his strength and slipped down. Yes, even with his pride, he couldn't listen to Lao Wen's persuasion that he might as well live for two more years, so how could he not do anything to others and persuade Bai Yigou to live?

Bai Yi took his slipped hands and folded them in his palms, and said earnestly, "I know what I'm doing, and I also know what you want to do. I hope you can understand me just like I understand you."

Zhou Zi squatted in front of him slowly, supported his knees, his almond eyes were wide open, his expression was at a loss, and he mumbled, "But Lao Bai, I can't afford your life, you could have lived forever If you are alive, why do you want to take this road of no return with me!"

There are too many burdens on him, Four Seasons Villa, the leader of Tianchuang, how many lives and responsibilities are on his shoulders, carrying the burden for thirteen years, he thought that he had finally broken free from the cage, and could be free and unrestrained for himself Live once, but now Bai Yi tells him that he still has a life that should be immortal, how can he afford it?

That's why Bai Yi had lied to him before. If it hadn't been for what happened today, he thought he could have lied to Zhou Zishu for a long time, but after all, paper can't hold fire.

"Zishu..." He raised his hand and gently stroked the broken hair on Zhou Zishu's forehead, and said softly: "Don't have any burdens, it's not your responsibility, it's the path I chose, I owe it I owed too many debts that I couldn’t pay back, and I failed too many people who expected me. Evergreen… It’s just a curse abandoned by time. The road to eternal life is lonely. To be able to accompany you to the world, even if you die in the end, it is worth it."

"Is it really worth it?" Zhou Zishu's eyes sparkled sporadically.

"Because it's you, it's worth it."

Among the people he has seen for so many years, only this young man in front of him is genuine, he treats him as a "person" and as a friend, and treats him sincerely.

Ye Baiyi raised him, hoping that he could help the world, become a fairy protecting one side, and give him too many responsibilities and expectations that he could not afford.

Rong Xuan wanted to form a bond with him, but he wanted to add to his dream of being a martial idiot who respects the world as a martial artist, just like adding wings to a tiger.

Although Qin Huaizhang was his generation, but because of his willfulness and stubbornness, he treated him like a nephew, patiently persuaded him, and indulged him everywhere, but for the sake of the peace of the villa, he could not allow him to go around the world in an open and honest manner.

After all...every man is innocent, but pregnant is guilty...Qin Huaizhang can't afford to gamble on the foundation of the Four Seasons Villa.

Only this young man in front of him, only this master who is regarded as his junior, when we first met.Just say "you call me master, I feel uncomfortable, from now on I will call you Laobai, and you can call me Zishu."

The sound of "Old Bai" broke the human sword barrier between them, and also broke the shackles that had trapped him in Bai Yi's heart for many years. At that moment, he felt that he was a human being!He can have companions, friends, and visit the world.

It was also the man in front of him who said to him that everyone is innocent, and so is Huaibi. He can walk in the sun and walk into the crowd openly, because he is innocent, so why hide for the greed of the world? !

Although he is a sword spirit, he wants to be a human being, alive, with emotions, emotions, joys, anger, sorrows, and birth, old age, sickness, and death... a human being.

For this reason, he did not hesitate to give up his freedom and cut off his own life path...

"It's you, take me to the world for a walk..."

The author has something to say:

This is the story of Lao Bai. I don’t know if I have told this story clearly. In fact, there are still some blanks and brushstrokes. I haven’t thought about it clearly and will be filled in later.But it’s basically like this. As I said before, Lao Bai has been missing and guilty all the time. As a hacker cheat, he is really useless and useless. He can’t catch up with anything. It's too late...

In my understanding, Ah Xu wants to live a good life because of his concern, and this concern, whether it is Lao Wen or Cheng Ling, has kept Ah Xu.He is always warming others, and I also hope that someone can understand him, hug him, and tell him that you have worked hard for so many years, don't be afraid of me, I will accompany you no matter what you do...

(That... Is there any analysis of Lao Bai's mental journey in the comment area? I need some inspiration, and my hair is going to be bald.)