[Attack on Titan] Attack on the World 365 Days Tour

Dead branches and fallen leaves in the woods in late autumn.

I manipulated the three-dimensional mobile device to shuttle through the mountainous area lined with trees.

"Idiot! Adjust direction!"

He sternly reprimanded me from behind, and I was stunned for a moment, forgetting how to maintain my balance for a moment, and bumped into the horizontal branch in front of me.

I hung on the branch blankly, listening to the scolding sound that was getting closer.

"Hey! What's your state?"

The branch was chopped off by Levi with a knife, and I fell into the soft dead leaves under my feet, motionless.

"Get up for me, don't be lazy!"

Levi grabbed my collar and lifted me out of the dead leaves, I looked up and stared at him blankly.

Perhaps surprised by my too empty eyes, he gradually let go of the hand holding my neckline, and I fell back into the dead branches and leaves.

Fragments of that day came to mind again.

The scene where Mikasa and I were hugging by the cafeteria was caught by Levi.

"What are you doing here?!"

I still remember the way he frowned that day.

I don't know what incisive reason I made up in my head at the time, but Levi actually believed it.

"Hey, I have nothing to do with Mikasa! Don't be angry!"

During the training that day, I was tortured by him to the point of embarrassment.

"Who would be angry because of this kind of thing?" He put the machete back into the scabbard, and said casually: "What happens to you and her has nothing to do with me."

My heart immediately turned half cold, and I smiled awkwardly.

I'm really... getting carried away.

Why, with this face exactly the same as Allen's?

"Sir, may I ask you a question?"

Even if I get carried away, I still hope that the person in front of me will have some special feelings for me.

"Am I special in the eyes of the captain?"

He paused for a moment while arranging the scarf, then raised his head and looked at me expressionlessly.

I clutched my cuffs like a young girl in spring, nervously waiting for his answer, my face was slightly hot.Looking back on this move a long time later, I really wish I could come back and kill myself.

"Special?" He narrowed his eyes, as if mocking me. "You are quite special, and the expectations of your superiors make me feel that you are special."

What does it mean?

I didn't think through his words for a long time.

"If it wasn't for orders from above, do you think I'd be wasting my time on idiots like you?" he added. "Why do you think you are special in my heart? What is special about you to me?"

"..." I was speechless.

Then he gave a few more examples of how stupid I was, and I listened in silence.Oh, it turns out that in his heart I am a lazy, timid, cowardly, dissolute, arrogant fool.

"You're not Allen." He made another last stab.

The smirk on my face couldn't hold anymore.

Oh, because I'm not Ellen.

So even if I have the same face as him, even if I am also called the hope of human counterattack, he will not think that I am special, because I am not Allen.

Levi only has Alan Yeager in his heart, and I'm just a burden handed over to him by the superiors.

So in the end, I didn't even have the qualifications to be passionate.

Shame and resentment came together in my heart.At that moment, I wished that it would be great if Alan had never appeared in this world!

And I was defeated by this horrible idea.

Who can I blame if I can't win the heart of the person I love?

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Without warning, raindrops fell from the sky.

The cold autumn rain dripped on my face, making me sober.

"Get up." Levi put on the cloak and mounted the horse without thinking about this brief sentence.

I stood up with difficulty and followed Levi.

Even though we rushed to the small cave as fast as possible, we were still wet.

Levi lit the fire skillfully, took off his coat and put it on the wooden frame, and when he took off his scarf, I clearly saw the scar on his neck.

"Tsk, take off your clothes and dry them before you wear them." He pointed at my wet top and frowned.

I slowly took off my coat and looked at the other party with resentful eyes.

Depressed, really depressed!

Even though he said such hurtful things to me that day, but now, as if nothing happened, he still turns on the old mother attribute to me, and he has to take care of everything.

I really don't know if he's just pretending or just not taking it seriously.

It's just that his phrase "You are not Allen" is so unforgettable to me.

"Are you asking around about the scar on my neck?" He narrowed his small dead fish eyes.

I really can't hide anything from him...

"I'm not interested anymore."

Turning my face away, I replied duplicity. In fact, I still really hope that he can continue this topic.

Probably because he realized that I was still in an awkward posture, Levi opened his mouth for the first time: "This scar was cut by Mikasa."

……

"Fuck, your grandma is a bear!"

My eyes widened involuntarily, and I spoke in dialect. "how so?!"

Levi didn't answer me again, but narrowed his eyes and turned his gaze to the outside of the cave.

He gently stroked the scar on his neck, his eyes dim.

The icy rain outside the cave bounced silver flowers on the gravel, and a gust of cold air forced into the cave, making people shiver uncontrollably.

It dawned on me in an instant, but the suffocating pain that followed made me unable to ask any more questions.I just looked at him, at his shadowed side, so distressed that I could hear the sound of bleeding.

too frightening.

I just can't imagine what an unbearable past it would be for Levi who loves Alan so much.

The author has something to say:

I'm sorry this chapter has dragged on for so long, and then... I'm going to start abusing it!