Cheating, but not quite

Seeing Han stared at him blankly.

Mu Tinglan glanced at Xie Qi in surprise, Xie Qi got up and pulled her out of the door, turned her head and said to Jian Han: "You two are chatting, I will go out with Mu Mu to eat something delicious. After consulting for so long, don't It exhausted my Mu Mu."

As soon as she closed the door, she rushed towards Cang Xingyi without seeing Han, hugged him tightly, and said in a trembling voice, "You scared me to death. Senior sister told me that your situation is very dangerous, I thought I would never see you again. "

Cang Xingyi also hugged him back, with a smile in his voice: "What are you talking about? How could I be willing to leave you?"

"Actually, I did think that if I just disappeared, you wouldn't have to be in a dilemma between me and the enemy, and you might even breathe a sigh of relief... But I'm not reconciled after all, and I always take chances, just in case you Do you still have a little affection for me? Wouldn’t it be a loss for me to just give up like this?”

What he said made Jian Han couldn't help but laugh out loud: "It's a shame that you still have the mind to care about every detail. But it's also fortunate that you are back, otherwise you will lose as much love as I gave to Bian Qiu. It's a shame." Nothing to lose."

"That's right," Cang Xingyi said with a smile, "so don't worry about me. You should believe how much I love you. With my attachment to you, no matter what happens... Even if I die, I will crawl from hell See you back."

"Pfft, although...it's the second grader's fault. Don't you feel ashamed to say such a thing." Jian Han buried his face in his neck, and took a deep breath of his lover's breath.

After a while, he suddenly said, "Honey, I have a question for you."

Cang Xingyi: "Well, tell me?"

"I can understand that Cang Xingyi pretended to be you and climbed into my bed before, because he wanted to monopolize the wedding night." Jian Han said, "But now you are pretending to be Cang Xingyi to coax me, what are you doing?"

As soon as he finished speaking, he felt the young man in his arms stiffen slightly.

"Oh, I can't hide it from you." Bian Qiu smiled wryly, "Xie Qi told me that Cang Xingyi might disappear, if I am worried that you will miss Cang Xingyi in the future and feel sad, I can try pretending to be Cang Xingyi to comfort you , let me practice first...how did you find out?"

"There is a difference between the smell of perfume and the smell of pheromone, what's more, I have been carefully identifying the smell of this perfume and the real pheromone for so long." Jian Han said sullenly, "I still remember you once The perfume is called Luvihill, and it smells exactly the same as the pheromone of Cang Xingyi. If you can fool me like this, I, my lover, will be a bit of a failure."

Bian Qiu gently pushed him away, looked at him tenderly, and smoothed his messy hair at the sideburns.

"Mu Tinglan told me about the treatment plan, which is to integrate all personalities into one. I don't know what the last remaining personality will be like." Jian Han lowered his eyes, "In that case, are you Is it going to disappear? Or is there a part of you in the person who stays, is it you or is it not you?...Sorry, I don’t know what I should do.”

"If you want to ask for my opinion, then I can share with you some of my own views on this matter." Bian Qiu stroked his cheek and said softly, "Actually, after learning about the relationship between myself and Cang Xingyi After the relationship, I gradually had the memory of Cang Xingyi. At first, it was only the memory of when he dominated the body that I could share with me, and then I gradually recalled more, including some things he had deliberately made me forget, and his Memories of being with you."

"As the memory gradually recovered, I felt more and more that it wasn't that I was Cang Xingyi, but that Cang Xingyi was actually me."

Seeing Han looked at him blankly.

"That's right. I don't know if you have such an observation. You may find that everyone behaves differently when facing different people." Bian Qiu said slowly, "Maybe the same person, Will be frank and willful in front of relatives, warm and friendly in front of friends, shy or cold in front of strangers. In order to adapt to different social relationships, people will adjust their performance and present different images in front of different people. It's a natural thing."

"And Cang Xingyi in front of you is a 'frontier enmity'. Or should I say, I am in front of you, and what I hope to be seen by you is what I am now."

"'Cang Xingyi' and I are not two completely different independent people. We have the same memory, the same way of thinking, and the same admiration for you. Everyone wants their own image in front of their lovers I hate him because I want you to only remember the way I am in front of you, the side of a beautiful lover who best fits your ideal, but he is hypocritical and fragile, and should be thrown out of your sight Partly. His hatred for me is because of his low self-esteem, he is jealous that I have the perfect appearance you prefer, but the real himself is not like this. "

"You love me, of course I am very happy. You also love him at the same time, and I will not feel dissatisfied with it. I should even say that I am very glad. You love me and work hard for you. I am very happy. At the same time, I I am even more glad that you also love my sensitivity hidden behind you, my fragility, all my jealousy, inferiority, and ugly shortcomings. This makes me feel safe, knowing that I am completely loved by you, and will not be because of these flaws Losing you."

"The person you see from now on will still be me. He has all my memories and all my emotions. When you touch him, you touch me, and when you talk to him, you whisper to me." Bian Qiu said to Jian Han with a smile , "I have not disappeared, and I will not disappear. Just as I love you forever."

Seeing Han staring at him blankly, he silently squeezed his hand tightly.

"This is what I want to say." After Bian Qiu finished speaking, he paused for a moment, and he seemed to feel something, and then said to Bu Hanhan, "The other guy seems to have some thoughts about this, you have to listen to what he wants to say. What did you say?"

Seeing Han agrees in a low voice: "Yeah."

Bian Qiu gently closed his eyes, and after a while, when he opened them again, those emerald eyes were filled with smiles.

"I'm so happy. It turns out that you have given me as much love as you have given him." Cang Xingyi said with a smile.

Seeing Han smelled the scent of thorn pheromone that matched him perfectly, and what was in front of him now was the real Cang Xingyi.

"The existence of a lot of personalities is still waiting for me to suppress, so I can only make a long story short." Cang Xingyi hugged him for a while, but his eyes were gentle like water, "I know what you are worried about. You are worried that after the treatment of personality integration , the reappearing Cang Xingyi is already a brand new person, not the me you know, right?"

Bu Jianhan responded with a dull voice: "It really will be like, I'm married, but not completely married."

"No, the things you worry about will never happen." Cang Xingyi said.

"The composition of a person is his body, his past, present, and future. The past is a person's memory, the present is every choice he makes, and the future is every moment pointed to by his current choices. A possible path.” His voice was so gentle that water dripped out, soothing the anxiety and uneasiness of seeing Han, “This person Cang Xingyi, his memory is full of memories related to you, and his present is related to you. The choice you made together, and his future is the rest of his life that will be with you."

"I admire your works, I understand your life, and I have tried my best to figure out your thoughts. No one knows everything about you better than me. My love and pursuit of you have shaped a large part of my life, so even if I forget Everything else is no longer what it is now, and I will never forget you."

"As long as you are here, as long as I still remember you and love you, I will always be me, always the same."

"Conversely, no matter what I become, because I will always be me, so my love for you will not change."

These words were so affectionate that Jian Han couldn't help but feel sore eyes when he heard them.Resisting the urge to cry, he smiled, held Cang Xingyi's face, and kissed his lover's soft lips.

"Okay, I believe you." With tears in his eyes, Jian Han said with a smile, "After this treatment, no matter what you become, no matter how much you remember about me, I will never give up. I will stay with you until you get better and remember all the things and feelings between us."

"If this time, you forget that we were in love once, you don't need to exhaust your efforts to pursue me. This time, I will be by your side and tell you over and over again that I love you too."