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The "relatives" in Jiang Baizhou's mouth refer to his father's relatives.

His mother's name is Jiang Zhu, and his father's name is Gongsun Shu. The former is the daughter of the elder of the Endless Sea God Temple, with extraordinary talents and refined looks, while the latter is a stranger from overseas, the first outsider to break into the Endless Sea.

It is said that Jiang Zhu traveled to the sea that year, and met Gongsun Shu by chance.

Gongsun Shu was born in a local prominent family, quite extraordinary, but he is not arrogant, he is a gentleman.Jiang Zhu and him had a good feeling for each other, and they made a private decision for life.But their identities are different, and they are not a good match. Jiang Zhu can't stay overseas anyway, and he can't take Gongsun Shu away—Boundless Sea has strict rules and no outsiders are allowed to set foot.

But love makes people blind, Gongsun Shu is willing to abandon everything and elope with Jiang Zhu, Jiang Zhu thinks again and again, unwilling to let down his infatuation, and decides to go against his ancestors and bring him back to the endless sea.

This is the beginning of the tragedy.

For thousands of years, no outsider has ever set foot on the Thirteen Islands of the Endless Sea.

The House of Elders believes that outsiders will bring disturbances, and the duty of the temple is to calm all disturbances and protect the peace of the endless sea in the name of the sea god.

These old stories were told to him by Jiang Baizhou's master. At that time, he and his master stood in front of Gongsun Shu's tomb.

It was a tomb of earth. The funeral customs of Endless Sea are different from those of the outside world. They don’t set up graves. They believe that only people who were born on the sea and whose remains were put into the sea after death can rest in peace. Gongsun Shu was the first to be buried in the soil. people.

The little Jiang Baizhou looked at his father's tombstone and asked ignorantly, "Why can't my father be buried at sea?"

His master said: "Outsiders cannot enter our sea, otherwise it will be bad luck."

"..."

Jiang Baizhou didn't know what "unlucky" meant. In short, the ancestral precepts are the ancestral precepts, and no one can doubt it.

As for how his father died, Jiang Baizhou didn't know until he grew up.

——Gongsun Shu died under Jiang Zhu's sword.

His master said: "Your mother is my little junior sister. I watched her grow up. She is good at everything, but she has a bad temper."

Jiang Zhu went to sea and fell in love with Gongsun Shu. When love and responsibility conflicted, she took the risk and chose the former, and brought Gongsun Shu back to the endless sea.

It stands to reason that everyone has come and the mistakes have been made, so what else can we do?

The senior brother comforted her: "If you make a mistake, you will make a mistake. Let's do well in the future. With Haimen's formation, there may not be troubles."

But Jiang Zhu couldn't listen, she was worried day and night, with infinite remorse.

She shouldn't put her hometown in danger on the spur of the moment. She is suspicious and suspects that Gongsun Shu will miss home one day and regret elope with her. If he leaves and returns to his hometown, he will reveal the secret of Endless Sea to outsiders.

She even suspected that Gongsun Shu's initial approach to her was because of evil intentions and ulterior motives.

The day-to-day suspicion ruined the original unhesitating love, Gongsun Shu was disheartened, and really had the intention of leaving.

Jiang Zhu was unwilling and did not dare to let him go, the two complained to each other and became a bitter couple.

Jiang Baizhou asked: "Is there any basis for my mother's suspicion?"

His master said: "Who knows, it's hard for outsiders to know the details of the two of them. Your mother felt ashamed, and she was ashamed to face the elders of Thirteen Islands. She only wanted to solve everything by herself, and didn't dare to mention a word. Your father was even more withdrawn. , he is an ostracized existence, he lived a torment with us, if he regrets and wants to leave, it is only natural."

Whenever he talked about these things, his master's tone was always gentle, and he stated the facts calmly and objectively, without making partial evaluations.

Like the endless sea that has bred tens of thousands of people, it is always gentle and tolerant, as if it can forgive everything.

But Jiang Zhu couldn't forgive himself.

Later, for some unknown reason, she had a conflict with Gongsun Shu, and the two couldn't settle down. Jiang Zhu drew his sword and beheaded her husband, and then committed suicide, leaving behind a six-year-old son who was brought up by her senior brother.

Jiang Baizhou never felt sad about this.

To describe his feelings for his parents in two words, that is: not familiar.

After giving birth to him, Jiang Zhu and Gongsun Shu didn't take care of him for a few days. He was raised by the elders' home.

Jiang Zhu would visit him occasionally, but every time he kept a cold face and never smiled. Jiang Baizhou didn't like her, although it wasn't too much to say that he hated her.

Gongsun Shu was not eligible to enter the Elder's House and could not see his son.

Until Jiang Baizhou learned to walk, one day, he walked out of the elders' home by himself to catch butterflies, and met Gongsun Shu on the way.

Gongsun Shu called him from a distance: "Bai Tian, ​​I am your father, do you know me?"

"..."

Jiang Baizhou looked back, he couldn't walk steadily, and he didn't learn much, so he didn't speak, just shook his head at Gongsun Shu, then ignored him, ran after the butterfly, and never looked back.

The second time I saw Gongsun Shu, Jiang Baizhou was five years old.

At this time, he was already a young adult, and his gradually developed facial features had the shadow of his mother.

That day, Gongsun Shu was sitting on a rock by the sea, looking at the sunset, and was speechless in a daze.

Jiang Baizhou heard other children say that he is a weirdo, and he watches the sunset here every day, and he doesn't know why.

Curious, Jiang Baizhou climbed onto the rock with his hands and feet and sat beside Gongsun Shu. He asked, "Why do you come here every day? Is the sun so beautiful?"

When Gongsun Shu found out it was him, he rarely smiled: "What I'm looking at is not the sun."

"Then what are you looking at?" Jiang Baizhou opened his eyes wide, desperately looking towards the end of the sea.

The sea level is vast and boundless, and there is nothing but a sunset falling into the deep sea.

Gongsun Shu pointed to the sunset and said, "I'm homesick. My hometown is in that direction."

"home."

Jiang Baizhou learned this word, but at that time he could not understand the affection contained in these two words.

He is a child who likes to pretend to be an adult, serious, serious, and straight-faced.

Gongsun Shu looked at him and smiled slightly: "You really are Jiang Zhu's son, exactly like her."

Jiang Baizhou didn't say anything.

Gongsun Shu said to himself, "When you grow up, stop imitating your mother."

Jiang Baizhou couldn't understand, and he couldn't listen patiently.He asked: "Since you are homesick, why don't you go home?"

The answer to this question was not something he could understand at the age of five. Gongsun Shu sighed softly and smiled bitterly: "I may... never go back in this life."

He touched Jiang Baizhou's head, and said in a sad tone, "Bai Zhou, you and I are together as a father and son. Daddy has something to ask. Are you willing to agree?"

"what?"

"If I die, please send my soul back to my hometown."

……

It has been 19 years so far.

Later, Jiang Zhu was buried in the deep sea, and Gongsun Shu was buried in a barren hill.

In order to fulfill his promise back then, Jiang Baizhou brought out his father's ashes.

In fact, his sympathy for Gongsun Shu is more than anything else. This sympathy has nothing to do with Gongsun Shu's other experiences, just because he died in a foreign country, and Jiang Baizhou could not forget the sunset that day.

What is the mood of a person who will never go back to his hometown?

Jiang Baizhou understood when he grew up.

He thought of himself and others, if he died overseas and never returned to the endless sea, he might live forever and never die.

He is nostalgic for the sea breeze, and wants to be an unrestrained seabird, or a wild grass rooted on the top of the mountain, facing the sun and absorbing the rain, the leaves will turn into mud and become a part of the island, rotting forever.

This is Jiang Baizhou's wish.

But it doesn't count as a wish either.

He is a person with very little personal consciousness. In other words, he doesn't care what he looks like, and he has no goals, and he doesn't want to be a certain person. Therefore, he doesn't care whether his wishes can be realized or not.

His master said it was because he hadn't encountered anything he could do nothing about.

How can an omnipotent person know what a wish is?

Jiang Baizhou disagreed with this statement, but he had no intention of arguing.

He has no desire, but has a mission.

He wants to succeed his master, ascend to the position of priest in charge of the temple, and spend his whole life protecting the peace of the Endless Sea.

The temple has strict requirements for priests.

The crowning ceremony will be held to succeed the throne, and the crown of the sea god will be conferred. Once the ceremony is completed, it means that the priest has dedicated his life to the sea god. half a step.

Jiang Baizhou could only go to sea before conferring the crown. After burying his father and solving the doubts in his heart, he can go back without any worries and become a high priest who will never die.

When telling Long Ying, Jiang Baizhou hid the background that was inconvenient to explain clearly, and roughly talked about the tragedy of his parents.

Long Ying unexpectedly asked: "Brother Zhou, if you were your mother, how would you choose?"

Jiang Baizhou was stopped by the question: "I haven't thought about it."

He didn't try to be perfunctory, and after serious consideration, he said: "It's fate that they met each other from a long distance, but when the fate is exhausted, you can't force it. If I were faced with the situation my mother was in back then, I would choose to say goodbye, and I wouldn't leave me alone." Dad took him to a place where he shouldn't go. There is always a banquet in the world, and gathering and parting are all natural things."

"..."

Long Ying lowered her head and didn't speak for a long time.

After a while, he seemed unwilling, and suddenly said to Jiang Baizhou: "Brother, you think so because you don't know what it's like to like someone, and separation is an extremely terrible thing. Just imagine, seeing you again What do you do if you don't see the person you want to see the most, aren't you sad?"

"Well, you're right." Jiang Baizhou actually agreed, but he added, "But I don't have anyone I want to see—no, you might be one."

Long Ying's heart skipped a beat: "Maybe?"

They talked in the room, the food was already cold, and half of the oil in the lotus lamp had been burned, so the light was weaker.

Ambiguity is most likely to arise under the dim light. Although Jiang Baizhou had no intention of doing so, he lifted Long Ying's heart high. He still didn't know it. He supported the case with one hand, leaned sideways to Long Ying, and said, "I'm in my hometown. I also like to be secluded, and I don’t often interact with people, and I only know you here, for me, if anyone can be called "want to see", of course it is only you."

"..."

As soon as he approached, Long Ying's back stiffened, her jaw tensed slightly, and she looked at him with an indescribable expression.

It seemed a little pitiful, and expected him to do something.Jiang Baizhou felt puzzled, but he couldn't help stretching out his hand, following some kind of silent guidance, he pressed Long Ying's shoulder.

Long Ying posted it immediately, almost sending herself into his arms.

Jiang Baizhou didn't let go or hug him, the atmosphere suddenly became a little weird.

Jiang Baizhou spoke first: "What are you doing?"

Long Ying's expression was very innocent and puzzled: "I was just about to ask, what is brother going to do? Why did you suddenly hug me in the middle of the sentence?"

"..."