three feet away

After returning from Yan Ruyi's dormitory, Xu Nuo has been in a closed and frozen state.She listened to the remaining two classes very carefully, and her condition was better than usual.Sitting next to her, Xiao Jing stared nervously at how she would concentrate on listening to the class as soon as the class started, and then grab the test paper and brush up the questions after class. She sighed worriedly, but she didn't dare to talk to her easily.

When Zhang Qiming came back from the playground, he found that Xu Nuo was abnormal. He winked at Xiao Jing, wanting to ask if Xu Nuo was still angry because of things in PE class, but Xiao Jing just shrugged and didn't say anything.

Several people had their own concerns until the evening self-study and get out of class. Xiao Jing followed Xu Nuo back to the dormitory. Downstairs in the dormitory, she couldn't help pulling Xu Nuo to tell her to wait until she went upstairs.

Xu Nuo obediently followed Xiao Jing's wishes and stopped, and stood indifferently at the door of the dormitory building, watching the students walking into the building either tiredly or excitedly: "What's the matter?"

Xiao Jing rubbed her hands, smiled reluctantly at Xu Nuo, showing two shallow dimples: "It's nothing, just, I always wanted to ask you, are you okay? Since the afternoon, you have been in a bad state. Dinner Didn't eat either."

"It's nothing bad." Xu Nuo replied lightly, raised his head and took a deep look at the inner playground. On the road leading to the teacher's apartment, there were only a few small lights in the flower beds, and it was dark under the huge camphor tree. can't see anything.Looking at the road, she sighed heavily: "It's nothing, I'm going back."

"Oh." Xiao Jing didn't say anything, followed behind Xu Nuo in silence, looked at her back without a trace of energy, and sighed silently.

The dormitory is very lively, several roommates are using the thermos bottle lid to make instant noodles in the instant noodle bag, the whole dormitory is filled with the smell of spicy beef noodles.Xu Nuo's right foot that had already stepped into the room retracted after seeing the group of smiling girls.She took a step back, turned around and walked to the edge of the corridor, leaning on the balcony and quietly looking in the direction of the teaching building.

The lights have been turned off, and the towering old trees in the inner playground are full of shade, and only a rough outline can be seen clearly. There is a faint smell of camphor trees in the air, and occasionally there are all kinds of soaps in the bathroom next to it. Facial cleanser smell.

The girl's apartment was laughing and joking about the day's jokes, while the boys' apartment next to the wall was full of voices shouting or singing or teasing the girls here through the wall.

There was a lot of commotion around, Xu Nuo couldn't help but frowned, she began to hate such hustle and bustle, although she would see such scenes every day, but today, it seemed to be particularly uncomfortable.

The cool breeze brought the smell of foam from the washbasin by the laundry table downstairs across her cheeks. She stared at the direction of the iron door of the dormitory on the first floor, and the corners of her eyes got wet inexplicably. In the yard, Yan Ruyi's shirt hanging on the clothesline and the fresh smell of washing powder on the flowered bed sheet in the sun.

From the afternoon to now, for seven full hours, she faced everything with a blank face, but before going to sleep, she was defeated by a gust of wind. She lowered her head, took a breath, and carefully hooked her fingertips He curled his eyes and tried to maintain his sanity in front of the people who were going back and forth between the toilet and the dormitory behind him.

Even so, she still couldn't suppress the anxiety in her heart. In the past few hours, she had turned off her mobile phone and temporarily lost contact with Yan Ruyi, but the mobile phone she turned off couldn't stop her desire to think wildly.

She was okay in class and writing questions, she could force herself to listen to the lectures and read the questions, but when the whole body relaxed, the sadness was like the gust of wind just now, blowing her through in an instant.

She stared at the big black mass on the top of the old tree, and couldn't help but wonder what Yan Ruyi had done in the past few hours, whether that person had left, and if he hadn't left, would they live together tonight? , she even began to imagine in the confusion whether they hugged, kissed, or even something more difficult for her to tell...

Although the more she thought about it, the more her heart ached, but there was nothing she could do about herself.This was the first setback they experienced after she and Yan Ruyi were together, and she was defeated the first time.

"Promise? Teacher Yan is looking for you."

The classmate in Xiao Jing's dormitory suddenly came out from the dormitory next door, holding Xiao Jing's mobile phone in her right hand, and a pickled chicken feet in her left hand, she looked at Xu Nuo strangely and continued: "Xiao Jing is taking a bath, Teacher Yan called me Helped to pick it up, saying that I have something to ask you to answer the phone."

"Thank you." Xu Nuo reluctantly licked the corners of his lips at the girl, and took the phone.

"No need." The girl stood on the promised face, stared at Xu Xu's face twice through the not-so-bright lights in the tall corridor, then waved her hand with a strange expression and left.

Yan Ruyi's name was displayed on the screen of the phone, and the time on it jumped from second to second. Xu Nuo looked up at the dark sky, held his breath, and took a deep breath before putting the phone to his ear. Said a word lightly: "Hello."

"There are still 25 minutes to turn off the lights. Come down for a while. I will wait for you at the blackboard of the life board outside the iron gate of the dormitory." Yan Ruyi said this series of words quickly, and hung up the phone without giving the promised time to respond.

Xu Nuo held up her mobile phone and glanced downstairs, it was too dark, she didn't see Yan Ruyi, she was stubborn and didn't want to go, Yan Ruyi probably didn't think there was anything wrong with her, that's why she spoke to her in such an orderly tone , didn't even give her a chance to refuse, so she hung up the phone.

After returning the mobile phone to Xiao Jing's dormitory, Xu Nuo turned around and went back to her dormitory, took out the basin and toothbrush to wash up, she deliberately slowed down the movement, she thought that after she finished washing in this way, the light might have been turned off, and then, She just didn't have to go downstairs.

The washroom has already passed the rush hour when classes are just over, and the few scattered people can't disturb her in any way. She thought that she had slowed down, but she still couldn't delay to turn off the lights.

Xiao Jing didn't come to her again to tell her that she had her phone number. When she returned to the dormitory, she couldn't help leaning back against the balcony, and unconsciously looked at the door on the first floor. She didn't know if Yan Ruyi was still there, and there were still 5 The lights are turned off in minutes.

It wasn't until she returned to the door of her dormitory that she looked towards the iron gate for the last time, and saw Yan Ruyi's blurred shadow under the big tree at the door. The light at the door was dim. If she wasn't wearing a white shirt, she probably couldn't really see it. to her.

Dingding stood there for a long time, Xu Nuo closed her eyes, a thought suddenly popped up in her mind that made her feel even more heartbroken, Yan Ruyi told her to go down so indifferently, was she in a hurry to break up with her?Her heart was throbbing and her veins popped out of her hand holding her teeth. Xu Nuo told herself fiercely in her heart that if Yan Ruyi dared to break up, she must take good care of her. She hadn't figured out how to do it yet, and she couldn't stand up anymore. She turned around and walked back to the dormitory quickly, put away the toiletries, and then ran out quickly. The head of the room reminded her to turn off the lights. Before she could answer, she hurriedly crossed paths with the students who entered the door, wearing slippers. Run downstairs.

The auntie in charge prevented her from going out, and when she was questioned which class she was in, Xu Nuo rushed down all the way angrily, her throat was dry and itchy, she opened her mouth and made a dry swallowing movement, and yelled out with difficulty : "Teacher Yan."

Yan Ruyi quickly came out from the dark side, explained briefly to the aunt in the dormitory, and Xu Nuo was released.

The two walked into the inner playground silently one after the other.

Xu Nuo followed Yan Ruyi, looked at her back, desperately controlled the sadness in his heart, bit his lip, and remained silent for a while without speaking.She was thinking about what she would do in the future if Yan Ruyi wanted to abandon her.

Yan Ruyi sat down by the flower bed downstairs where Xu Nuo had been injured, and Xu Nuo stood beside her, motionless.

After the two of them were silent for nearly a minute, Yan Ruyi raised his head slightly, reached out to hold Xu Nuo's hand, and tried to make her sit down beside her.

When Xu Nuo stubbornly shook off Yan Ruyi's hand, the dormitory building suddenly fell into darkness, the lights were turned off, the campus should be quiet, and everyone should fall into a deep sleep, instead of guarding this heartbreaking person like her Beside her, she asked Yan Ruyi coldly:

"Are you here to break up with me, Yan Ruyi? If yes, I don't agree, if not, then I'm going back to sleep. I'll talk about it later."

Xu Nuo stubbornly turned herself into an ostrich, she didn't want to listen to anything that might make her more sad and heartbroken, she couldn't break up, let alone talk about her boyfriend.

"Promise..."

As soon as Yan Ruyi's heavy and sad voice reached his ears, Xu Nuo's heart softened.She raised her head sadly, looked at the dark trees, and replied muffledly: "Huh?"

She likes Yan Ruyi so much that she almost fainted because of her random thoughts upstairs just now. She was determined not to come down to see her, but she couldn't help but put on slippers when she saw her shadow I just stumbled all the way to the end of class, but I still couldn't help but want to hug her when I heard her soft and wounded voice calling my name...

"I'm sorry." Yan Ruyi's cold fingertips touched Xu Nuo's hand hanging on the corner of her clothes again, and she apologized to her in a more pitiful voice.

Xu Nuo sighed, for some reason, she suddenly stopped being angry, she bowed her head and sat down beside Yan Ruyi, feeling so sad, she forgave Yan Ruyi so easily, she didn't even know that she and Yan Ruyi What happened to that man, but from the moment she came down to see her, those things seemed to have been forgotten by her. She forgot her heartache just now and the anxiety of this afternoon, and only remembered Yan Ruyi's voice, So wronged.

She raised her hand and wiped the corner of her eyes, Xu Nuo took a deep breath, it was dark, and none of them could see each other clearly, so even if Yan Ruyi was right in front of her, she could cry freely, as long as her voice controlled her Just don't tremble:

"You may be a poppy planted in Fengdu, dangerous, but I'm obsessed with it."

After hearing her words, Yan Ruyi let out a sad laugh, with heavy depression and sadness in that voice.

"He's my ex-boyfriend."

"I know." Xu Nuo sighed, she raised her hand and hooked her eyes without any trace, and pretended to cough twice to ensure her emotional stability: "You may not know, last time you were drunk. Calling his name."

"..."

Yan Ruyi was silent for a long time, and only after Xu Nuo let out another sigh, said: "I'm sorry."

What are you sorry for?I'm sorry that he is your boyfriend, I'm sorry that you called his name in a drunk dream, or I'm just sorry for lying to me today?Raising her head, hot tears slid down the corners of her eyes, Xu Nuo sniffed and laughed silently, the tears fell more quickly when she bent the corners of her eyes, she didn't try to hide her panic anymore, she just turned her head and looked at the face With a blurred side face, Ruyi chuckled and said:

"It's okay, although I really want to say it's okay, but I still have to say, it's okay, Yan Ruyi, because no matter how sad I am these few hours, how conflicted I am, or just received your cold call At that time, I was so afraid that you came to break up with me, but when I saw you, I found that I still like you that much."

"I'm really afraid that you left with him and don't want me anymore, Yan Ruyi, we've only been together for a month, can you...give me some more time?"

Xu Nuo knew how humble she was when she cried and said this, but compared to the loss, the heartache that such humbleness brought to her was actually much better.

Yan Ruyi's sobs burst from her throat almost the moment Xu Nuo finished speaking, she sideways hugged Xu Nuo tightly, and buried her head in the crook of her neck: "Idiot... I'm just afraid that if I don't deliberately speak in a calm voice like that, I will be sobbing." Crying on the phone... I sent him away, nothing is possible."

Strictly speaking, this was the first quarrel between Xu Nuo and Yan Ruyi, but it wasn't actually a quarrel, at most it was Yan Ruyi's emotional explanation to the silent and sad Xu Nuo.As soon as Yan Ruyi cried, the match had already been decided. Yan Ruyi won, and she won because she didn't even have to speak, promised to raise the white flag when she saw her.She felt that Yan Ruyi's sobbing words seemed to be a slap in the face, but she couldn't ruthlessly expose her, so she just sat like that, sitting quietly, as if she was Yan Ruyi's teacher, and Yan Ruyi Ruyi is her student...

That night, Xu Nuo suddenly felt that her whole life might be eaten up by this woman who had just established a relationship for a month, because she never thought that she would love her tears so much, and be so afraid of her turning around and leaving...

The two cuddled together in the dark for a long time, Xu Nuo began to yawn unconsciously, but he kept hooking Yan Ruyi's waist, as if she would run away while she was not paying attention.Yan Ruyi leaned on her shoulder and briefly told her about the day's events.

Wang Hao is Yan Ruyi's first love in college. She likes his bookish look, wearing glasses, just like the little student Huang Lei on TV back then, with delicate features and gentle features.The relationship between the two people had been developing very steadily at first, until Wang Hao’s roommates got girlfriends one after another, the topic of discussion in the boys’ dormitory changed, and it was learned that Wang Hao was the first to find a girlfriend but never had a girlfriend. After driving meat, she began to laugh at him unscrupulously, and said that if Yan Ruyi didn't want to, it was because she didn't love him enough.The young man who looked a little weak, he believed it.

Yan Ruyi was born into a scholarly family, and there are teachers and doctors in her family for generations. Although her grades were good and she skipped grades several times in a row, she went to university three years younger than many of her peers, but her family's education was deeply rooted, and she was unwilling to get along with her easily. Boyfriends had sex easily, which directly led to their constant quarrels. While Wang Hao was reluctant to let go, he was urged by his roommate to go to the hotel again and again.

Yan Ruyi likes him, but she always insists on this point and refuses to back down. She even looks forward to graduating soon, marrying him, and handing herself over to him, but they didn't persist until graduation. In the same unit, Wang Hao cheated after half a year of internship.

The breakup was very peaceful, Yan Ruyi didn't make a fuss or cry, she chose the school farthest from Wang Hao's unit among all the acceptance letters, and then came here.After graduating completely and cutting off contact, she began to slowly lick her wounds. The time she came to find Xu Nuo when she was drunk was indeed because she was sad, and her drinking capacity was small, and she was blinded after three or two beers.

Wang Hao suddenly regretted wanting to come back to Yan Ruyi, which was something Yan Ruyi had never thought about. Although she had suffered a lot during the initial period, by accident, there was another person who was particularly delicate and beautiful. The girl who remembered at a glance but had a gloomy face caught her eyeballs.But when he suddenly appeared at school and asked Yan Ruyi to pick him up, Yan Ruyi was still a little confused. When he begged Yan Ruyi for forgiveness and reunion, Yan Ruyi looked at his face that hadn't changed much at all, and couldn't help feeling sad , Her three years of youth and persistence in self-love were exchanged for the betrayal of this man who kept saying he loved her.

"When you came, the state you saw was just like this..." Yan Ruyi carefully looked at Xu Nuo's face, her voice carried a feeling of carelessness, she leaned on Xu Nuo's shoulder, breaking Xu Nuo once in a while Finger: "Promise, I never thought about reconciling with him. I admit that I was really sad at the time...I'm sorry, but I was really sad at that time."

Xu Nuo turned her head, her emotions were a little complicated, she didn't know whether it was more heartache for Yan Ruyi or more hatred for that man who didn't take responsibility and looked like a man.As long as she thinks about those past days when he quarreled with Yan Ruyi because of that kind of thing, she will itch with hatred. At that time, Yan Ruyi was only her own age and had just grown up. Are men really all animals?

Yan Ruyi felt her angry chest rising and falling violently, thinking that the more he explained, the angrier she would get, so he raised his head and hugged her sideways, shaking her slender waist, and murmured coquettishly: "Forgive me, please?"

Xu Nuo was not angry at all, she couldn't stand it when she heard these words, she held Yan Ruyi's face, kissed her lips fiercely, and when she was done, she pretended not to be angry enough, and gave Yan Ruyi an order in a calm voice : "Block him, never see him again, and, if you dare to cry for others in the future, see if I don't kiss you to death!"

Yan Ruyi listened carefully to the promised words at first, nodding her head in response to each sentence she said, but when she said the last sentence, the obviously domineering voice said such a childish sentence, which made her laugh suddenly, but At the same time, his heart ached even more for the person in front of him who was almost three years younger than him.From the very beginning, she felt that she was too sensible, and it hurts her heart to be so sensible.

She hugged Xu Nuo back, lowered her head and pressed her lips against Xu Nuo's neck, feeling the beating of the arteries on Xu Nuo's neck every time, and after a long time, she gently replied: "Okay..."