three feet away

Xu Nuo was woken up by the crisp bird chirping in the back mountain. She didn't have the habit of staying in bed, and her biological clock was well adjusted by the school, but she woke up late today.

"Good morning, Yan Ruyi." Before she opened her eyes, she found Yan Ruyi's hand under the quilt, hooked her slender and soft fingers, and hummed in a daze.

"morning."

Yan Ruyi's soft and gentle voice reached his ears, Xu Nuo stretched out his hand and rubbed his eyes, then opened his eyes and looked at Yan Ruyi, Yan Ruyi was lying on his side, facing her, he must have been awake for a long time, his eyes were clear and there was no residue A trace of sleepiness: "Have you been awake for a long time?"

"En." Yan Ruyi responded, and stretched out her lotus arms from the quilt to under Xu Nuo's pillow, grabbed Xu Nuo's neck, and gently leaned forward to kiss the corner of Xu Nuo's brow.

Xu Nuo closed his eyes, couldn't help but bend the corners of his lips in the trance of sleepiness, and hooked Yan Ruyi's waist with his hands. The next moment, the two of them were naked against each other. When she was in the body, she was startled, and her drowsiness suddenly disappeared. She stared at Yan Ruyi with wide eyes, and the corners of her lips trembled unconsciously:

"Then... that... Yan Ruyi... last night I..."

After quickly going through everything that happened last night in her mind, Xu Nuo unconsciously let go of the right hand hooking Yan Ruyi's waist, tremblingly lowered her head to look at her fingers, how she wished that everything was just a It was a winding dream, but the dark red blood on her fingertips was so dazzling and real, she sniffed, leaned forward and hugged Yan Ruyi tightly, whispering in her ear: "Yan Ruyi, I will grow up soon ..."

Yan Ruyi patted her on the back and laughed softly: "24 hours a day, neither more nor less than anyone else."

Xu Nuo twisted his body awkwardly, not embarrassed to look at Yan Ruyi's face: "Anyway, I will grow up soon."

"What about when you grow up?"

Xu Nuo was shy for a long time, his head was moving around in Yan Ruyi's neck, and he said awkwardly: "When I grow up, I will bring you here to watch fireflies, okay?"

Yan Ruyi gently rubbed her soft hair, lowered her eyebrows and kissed the top of her head, and replied with a smile: "Okay."

While Yan Ruyi was washing up, Xu Nuo received a call from Xu's mother.On the phone, Xu's mother spoke with Xu Nuo in a rare calm voice, asking her where she was in a questioning tone.

When Xu Nuo answered, he hesitated a bit, which made Xu's mother even more annoyed.On the other end of the phone, her voice raised a little: "Your father went to find a friend yesterday, and he can arrange for you to enter No. [-] Middle School."

"Mom, I've said it before," Xu Nuo frowned, and glanced sideways at the bathroom. The bathroom door was closed, and the sound of Yan Ruyi's washing water could be vaguely heard. Wrapped in a bathrobe, she got out of bed and walked to the window, pressing The voice said, "I don't want to transfer schools."

"It doesn't matter what you say this time, your dad has already contacted you, promise, you are not young..."

Xu Nuo was annoyed, a little impatient, she didn't know what was going on, why she was suddenly forced to transfer, she couldn't possibly leave her current school, Yan Ruyi was here, she didn't know what the school would do to her, let alone what to do if she left Now, what kind of scene will Yan Ruyi face when she enters the classroom of Class [-] again? Yan Ruyi has suffered so many grievances, how could she just walk away irresponsibly like this?

"Then you can drop out of school for me, I won't go to school anymore."

When Xu Nuo said this, Yan Ruyi just came out of the bathroom. Hearing Xu Nuo's words, she frowned, went straight to the bed and sat down, staring at Xu Nuo's back in a daze.

"Promise that you are an adult and have the ability to distinguish right from wrong. Is your father asking for good words to find someone for himself?"

"Heh," Xu Nuo sneered, "Isn't it for face? If he really cares, can I be here today?"

After a moment of silence on the phone, Mother Xu let out a heavy sigh: "Promise... your father still loves you, but he is not good at..."

"You're not good at expressing, are you?" Before Xu's mother could finish speaking, Xu Nuo had already overtaken the conversation. She couldn't control her emotions. It didn't matter if she didn't mention these things, but every time she mentioned them, she felt that she was superfluous and ridiculous. .

"……Yes."

"I remember that every time he mentioned Xu Yan before, he was very proud..."

"Nuo Nuo..." Just as Xu Yan's name popped out of Xu Nuo's mouth, Xu's mother's voice choked up: "Xu Yan... is a child after all..."

Xu Nuo closed her eyes, her eyebrows hurt a little, they always say that Xu Yan is still a child, yes, a dead person, the age is fixed there, he will always be a little radish, but she is becoming more and more unpopular .

"The palms and backs of the hands are full of meat... He loves both you and Xu Yan..."

"How can you say such a thing?!" Xu Nuo was out of breath, and punched heavily on the window lattice.

"Sometimes I really can't understand, Mom, when you said lightly that I was the same as Xu Yan, did you feel guilty?! He is a child, heh, yes, then do you remember that you have a daughter? , she is only now?!"

His voice became choked, Xu Nuo raised his head, took a deep breath, held back his tears and smiled wryly: "Even the dog in the backyard knows that I am not from this family... What else can I say... Are the palms and backs all fleshy?" ?”

Raising his hand, Xu Nuo looked at his palm and then at the back of his hand in his blurred vision, and murmured:

"If the palms and the backs of the hands are full of flesh, then tell me that family planning was so strict back then, why would there be Xu Yan? If I were like him, why, they would blame me for Xu Yan's death... "

Xu Nuo almost uttered the last sentence with a growl. This sentence has been suppressed in her heart for four years. For the whole four years, she didn't understand why she had become an unforgivable thing in their eyes. sinner.She really didn't allow Yan to go into the water at the beginning, but explaining it will always be so pale in front of people who don't believe in you from the bottom of their hearts...

"In those 12 years, Xu Yan was your God, everything to him. He never expected me to add luster to his face one day. What's the matter now? It's his group of colleagues and friends who love to compare and influence Has the kid in the family gone to high school and his only queen is hanging out at some unknown crappy school poking him where it hurts?"

When Yan Ruyi hugged the promise from behind, Xu's mother was crying on the phone. She cried very depressed, her voice was very low, but it was as if she was cutting the promised flesh with a knife. She knew that she What she said today hurt the heart of the only person in the so-called family who really cared about her, but in the past four years, no one knew how she changed herself from a cheerful little girl to the one who later owned everything. In people's eyes, she is so indifferent that unless Zhang Qiming clings to her, she will be a weirdo who won't say a word to anyone for a whole week.

In the past four years, she faced Xu Yan's self-blame after his death, and even accepted the accusations from those so-called close relatives. Yes, everyone felt that Xu Yan's death had nothing to do with her, because she always acted so disgusting. Xu Yan.

She would yank Xu Yan's ear because he snatched away the cicada she finally caught, she would fight him when he mischievously burned her only old, worthless doll with a lighter, and she would fight him when there were no adults around. Time to retaliate, every time he was beaten, he would cry loudly, causing himself a meal of eyes, abuse, and even vines. Everyone thought she hated him, so Xu Yan's death, as it should be, was caused by her.

That person couldn't kill himself to avenge his only beloved child, so he chose to use words and cold violence to punish the person who killed his son. This punishment lasted for nearly four years...

Listening to Xu's mother crying, Xu Nuo couldn't help the tears pouring down. She kept taking deep breaths, hoping that she wouldn't behave too badly in front of Yan Ruyi, but when Yan Ruyi hugged her one by one, all the grievances in her heart burst Come up, so that she can no longer suppress it like before: "I won't transfer to another school. I will help him earn the face he needs. Just treat it as a reward for the little energy he was forced to spend on me for so many years." ..."

A phone call, like a violent storm, drenched Xu Nuo's joyful heart, and his eyes, which had only cried last night, were soaked in tears for a long time early in the morning, red and swollen.She was embarrassed to face Yan Ruyi, and after hanging up the phone, she came out of Yan Ruyi's arms shyly and turned to go to the bathroom.

Yan Ruyi grabbed her wrist from behind, and slightly tried not to let her go. She turned her back to Yan Ruyi, forced a smile, lowered her head, looked at her toes, tears fell on her toes, cold .

"I'm fine. Yan Ruyi, I want to wash my face."

Yan Ruyi didn't speak, she only heard her sigh softly, and then she was dragged into the bathroom by Yan Ruyi.

The towel soaked in mountain spring water was cold, and it was very comfortable to stick to her eyes. Xu Nuo let out a sigh of relief, and she tilted her head slightly, deliberately trying to empty her mind, but Xu's mother's mournful cries were endless, and she bit her teeth a little irritably. He pursed his lips, stomped his feet and began to sigh anxiously.

At first, Yan Ruyi followed her wishes, but after seeing some strange red liquid oozing from the corners of her lips, she hurriedly pulled her out of the bathroom, and told her to loosen her teeth in a calm voice.

A promise of a deeper sense of guilt could hardly breathe, she kept stomping her feet and jumping impatiently in place, as if only in this way could the mournful cry stop for a moment.

"Yan Ruyi," she looked at Yan Ruyi miserably, and asked her, "Am I bad?"

Yan Ruyi shook her head and hugged her distressedly: "I know you are very sad."

Her heart was like being scratched by a cat. The pain was not severe, but it made Xu Nuo unable to live in peace. She hated hearing Xu's mother cry. Whenever she cried, Xu Nuo would become extremely irritable and couldn't wait to be relieved.

"She can only cry, only cry."

"When I fought with Xu Yan, the person beat me and she cried. When that person quarreled with her, she cried. When Xu Yan died, she cried. Now, she can only cry... She can't do anything, she can only cry..."

"She is obviously a cultured woman. She is not a housewife who can only rely on men. She has a decent job of her own, but she has always shown that she cannot control her own destiny. That person is patriarchal. I know she also She loves me, but she doesn't seem to have said anything to him in person. She said that the palms and backs of her hands are full of flesh, I believe, but that sentence only exists in front of her... I love her tears, but I hate her more Weakness, Yan Ruyi, do you understand that feeling?"

"I understand, be good, don't think about it anymore." Yan Ruyi put his arms around her, carefully wiped the blood from the corner of Xu Nuo's lips where she bit her, and held her face to force her to look at him.

"Don't transfer if you don't want to transfer, huh? Relax, I believe in you, you are a rare piece of gold, you will shine wherever you are..."

Xu Nuo's mood finally stabilized, she looked into Yan Ruyi's eyes, and asked her: "Really?"

"En." Yan Ruyi nodded firmly, "You never know how good you are, have you forgotten? I once said that you are my favorite student."

Yan Ruyi's simple but affectionate words warmed Xu Nuo's heart, and she looked at Yan Ruyi with some embarrassment: "It's not as good as you said..."

Yan Ruyi held her face and looked at her seriously: "Xu Nuo, look into my eyes."

Xu Nuo was suddenly asked to look at her seriously, still a little embarrassed, but still obedient and did not turn his head to look to the side.

Wiping the corners of Xu Nuo's eyes with her thumb, the moisture from the corners of Xu Nuo's eyes was not completely blown away by the wind. Yan Ruding looked at her firmly, and said softly: "Xu Nuo, I want you to remember that no matter what others say or think, you are the one in my heart." The best, the most irreplaceable one."

Xu Nuo stared blankly at Yan Ruyi, feeling that there was something in Yan Ruyi's words.

"Remember?"

When Yan Ru asked her again and again, she nodded dumbly.

Seeing her nodding, Yan Ruyi showed a gratified smile on her face, she hooked Xu Nuo and leaned into her arms, the two hugged for a long time, Xu Nuo heard her faint sigh:

"Don't transfer if you don't want to transfer. No matter how good the temporary place is, it's not necessarily a good thing, and it's not necessarily a bad thing to stay. But promise, you must read the book, and you must read it well."

"Promise, the teacher hopes that you can grow up. You have to understand that there are some things that no one can help you, just like...some people, it is impossible to stay with you all the time. You have to make yourself excellent and strong, so strong that those who used to And everything that may appear in the future can no longer hurt you...Only in that way, those who love you can rest assured to let you fly."

Later, on a certain afternoon when Yan Ruyi was frantically searched all over the school, Xu Nuo thought, maybe at that time, Yan Ruyi decided to leave after returning from Tiantai Mountain...