three feet away

On the day I left Chengdu, the weather was not so good. The heavy rain suddenly hit the city where Xu Xu had been bred for almost 21 years at noon. Xu Nuo sat on the balcony of the dormitory for nearly an hour, just watching the rain pull the strings. I fell downstairs, my heart was like the weather, I was so stuffy that I couldn't breathe.

She felt that she was a fish in a fishpond experiencing a heavy rain. There was no oxygen in the water. She desperately wanted to surface to breathe, but the raindrops fell from a height of [-] meters, and every drop hit her face, which made her painful. If you want to be willful, just bid farewell to this world.

The crown of the tall Metasequoia tree outside the dormitory trembled in the torrential rain and wind, and the outstretched branches swayed towards the balcony. The thin and seemingly delicate leaves were blown by the wind and almost fell off. Xu Nuo stood up and walked to the corner of the balcony. The steam from the pavement wet her forehead and long hair blown by the wind. She pursed her lips and stretched out her hand, letting the heavy rain soak her arm, and the rain slid down her arm to her armpit, wet Her pure white pinched waist shirt.

The wind blows the leaves and slides back and forth in her palm. In the moist and gentle touch, she suddenly thinks of September [-], when she was in a sunny afternoon, the mottled light spots under the metasequoia tree Falling on her desk, the brilliant sunlight dazzled her eyes, and the soft and steady voice of that person attracted her attention as soon as it hit her ears. Added a touch of pure white.She also remembered that when she saw the big fireflies on Tiantai Mountain, she couldn't restrain her heart and asked a woman if she could be with her for the rest of her life. At that time, the answer she got was yes... She still remembered that in the inn under the mill waterwheel, the woman was so thoughtful and meticulous that she saw her ID card first, and then emotionally gave her the most beautiful adult gift in the world.At that time, she thought she was the luckiest person in the world.

Until later, that woman disappeared...

"What are you thinking?" Zhang Qing's voice came from behind.

Xu Nuo lowered his eyebrows and blinked, retracted his stiff hands and turned around, looked at the two huge suitcases still open in the middle of the aisle, and shook his head: "It's nothing, I was just thinking, will the flight be safe under such heavy rain? will be delayed."

"Don't worry, I've seen the weather forecast, it's just heavy rain, no thunder, and the rain will stop around three o'clock. There won't be any delay."

"Oh." Xu Nuo sighed softly, bent down, picked up the bench and walked into the dormitory, put it in front of his desk and sat down, and said quietly: "Don't look, I don't have many things, I have enough."

"Okay. Then I'll rest for a while, and the teacher should tell me to leave later."

Zhang Qing replied while pressing the suitcase to close the lock. She helped Xu Nuo organize the suitcase three times, counting each item on the checklist, lest she forget something, worried like someone who was about to leave Not the promise, but her.

The two of them seemed to have made an agreement in advance, and neither of them spoke again. The dormitory suddenly became quiet, and only the sound of pattering rain on the balcony could be heard.

A few minutes later, Zhang Qingxian couldn't bear such silence. She got up, pulled her stool and moved towards Xu Nuo, straightened her legs and shook her heels on the ground, and asked tentatively: "Betrayal, you really, who?" Haven't you been notified?"

Xu Nuo glanced at Zhang Qing with side eyebrows, did not speak, and only gave her an affirmative answer with his eyes.

"Oh..." Zhang Qing was a little disappointed, and sighed a long time: "Don't you regret it at all?"

"Choose to stay in Chengdu, do you regret it? Will you regret it?" Xu Nuo didn't answer her question, but asked a rhetorical question.

Zhang Qing was stunned for a moment, then shook his head firmly: "I don't regret it, and I won't regret it."

The mobile phone on the desk vibrated, Xu Nuo picked it up and glanced at the text message announcing the collection, then raised his eyebrows to look at Zhang Qing, nodded, and said softly "Yeah." After that, he didn't speak again.

Zhang Qing opened his mouth, hesitated for a moment, reached out and patted Xu Nuo's shoulder: "Sometimes I feel that you are indifferent as if you have no heart, and she really cares about you. But every time you are silent, it makes me feel that you might That's right. Promise, eating and living together for two years, according to our relationship, we should be considered very close to each other, but sometimes, I always feel as if I never knew you. "

Xu Nuo smiled, stood up, looked at Zhang Qing sincerely for two seconds, then took two steps forward, bent over and hugged her, and when she backed away, she said to her seriously: "You have always been my friend."

I don't know if it was because of Xu Nuo's unwillingness to get close to people for a long time, or because of the sincere hug and short but sincere sentence she gave, Zhang Qing suddenly felt a little sore, she didn't ask any more questions, and shook hands. He clenched his fists, thumped Xu Nuo's shoulder lightly, turned around and took the umbrella from the desk, and generously pulled up a suitcase and said, "Let's go, I'll take you to the airport."

Accompanied by Zhang Qing, Xu Nuo followed the lead teacher and two other students to complete the check-in procedures.It was still early before the boarding time, and there was a lot of time for them to say goodbye. Xu Nuo sat in the lobby and quietly looked at the students a few meters away who said goodbye to their parents, relatives and friends with red eyes, expressionless.

Zhang Qing sat next to her, lowered her head and played a boring game on her mobile phone without saying a word. After arriving at the airport, she became silent uncharacteristically. She didn't say a word to Xu Nuo, but followed her all the way. Boarding pass and check-in.She didn't ask Xu Nuo why her family didn't come to see her off, because in the past two years, she hadn't heard anything about her family or friends from Xu Nuo's mouth. Just know what you want and fight for that goal.The only vague story she knew about her high school was the few words Zhou Qingming said to Huang Siying when she lost control of her emotions after she broke up with Zhou Qingming.She could feel that there might be a heart-wrenching secret behind the promised silence, but no matter how careless she was, she also knew that she could not ask.Because some people are not born as hedgehogs. The thorns on their bodies are armors for self-protection that life forces them to grow. No one can easily let them open the door of their hearts, and those who open the door will inevitably, It has become the existence that chokes their soft palates, for example, the one that Zhou Qingming said is hidden in her heart that she has never heard her mention, the high school teacher.

There was still an hour and a half before take-off, and the teacher who led the team began to gather people to prepare for the security check. Hearing the voice, Xu Nuo raised his head and stood up. He hooked the corners of his lips towards Zhang Qing, walked silently to a place less than three meters away from the teacher and waited.

Zhang Qing sat in the original position, her nose felt a little sore, the more Xu Nuo kept silent, the more uncomfortable she felt. For some reason, after Xu Nuo and Zhou Qingming broke up for a period of time, she had some righteous dislike for her actions, but when When Xu Nuo became more and more silent, she felt that she was so stubborn and pitiful.

Finally, the two students finished their final farewell, and walked towards the leader teacher step by step, Xu Nuo then raised his hand, waved to Zhang Qing, and then turned around and walked quickly to the security checkpoint.

"Promise!"

Zhang Qing suddenly called Xu Nuo's name loudly when it was about to be Xu Nuo's turn in the queue. Xu Nuo turned around and looked at Zhang Qing.

Zhang Qing excitedly pointed to a place on the right, Xu Nuo looked in the direction she pointed, and looked at a tall shadow from a distance, she was standing about ten meters away from Xu Nuo, looking at him for a moment .

Xu Nuo lowered her head, and when the classmates behind her asked her to say goodbye to her friend, she clenched her fists tightly, suppressing the sourness in her eyes, and shook her head.He turned around silently, facing the passage ahead.

The classmate looked at her inexplicably, exchanged glances with the person behind him, and said nothing.He only looked back at the person who watched them leave.

Until the last two people were left in front of her, Xu Nuo still froze and didn't turn her head to look behind her. She knew that Zhou Qingming was looking at her, but she couldn't respond to her, even if it was just a look, she knew she was cruel. But she is also weak. In such a parting scene, she is afraid that she will make a mistake again.

When Zhou Qingming forcibly pulled her out of the queue, she seemed to have exhausted all her strength. Under her slender fingers, there was a force that Xu Nuo could not resist. She was forced to step on the same rhythm as Zhou Qingming's hurried steps. Following her, she staggered out of the crowd. She smelled the mixed smell of cigarettes and wine that Zhou Qingming couldn't cover up, and also smelled the thicker and pungent perfume smell. These three different smells mixed together, It infects her eyes, impacts her nerves, and makes her heart ache so much that it seems to be pulled together.

"Are you afraid of me like this? Are you afraid that I will hinder you? Or are you afraid that I will haunt you?"

Finally, Zhou Qingming let go of her hand, turned around and hugged her chest to face her, under the huge sunglasses on the bridge of her nose, unconcealable tears rolled down her cheeks, wet her and said After finishing the sentence, he pursed his lips tightly.

"..." Xu Nuo couldn't answer her question, she didn't know what to do to reduce the damage, so she could only remain silent.

"Why don't you talk? Answer me!" Zhou Qingming growled with suppressed emotions. She came in the rain, and her curly hair was partially stuck together. She looked a bit embarrassed but made people feel distressed.

The outstretched hand stopped in mid-air for two seconds and then drooped weakly. Xu Nuo lowered his head and looked at Zhou Qingming's clenched hands with damp eyes.She took a deep breath, looked up at Zhou Qingming, her heart ached to the point of being almost numb.

Zhou Qingming was wearing sunglasses, Xu Nuo could still see the bewitching makeup on her face clearly, tears gathered on her lips, making her bright red lipstick even more dazzling.She opened her mouth, wanting to say hello and goodbye in a generous manner, but before she could speak, there was already a very fast palm wind blowing by her ear, followed by a slippery fingertip on the edge of her fingertips. A less noticeable tingling sensation across the cheeks.

Xu Nuo instinctively tilted her head slightly, and whispered her name: "Qingming..."

Zhou Qingming took off his sunglasses, and stood straight in front of Xu Nuo, his eyes were watery but filled with hatred that could not be ignored.

Xu Nuo couldn't remember exactly how long it had been since they met each other. It was the first time they met since the time they broke up in the hotel. She guessed that she knew about her flight from Zhang Qing, but she never thought about it. However, she will come to see her side.

Zhou Qingming was so skinny that she almost lost her shape. Her cheekbones were now high with a little baby fat. She had an indescribably cold and aloof look.Zhou Qingming like this made her heart ache, but she could regret it, but she couldn't even ask a question.

"Sorry, I left in a hurry, so I didn't inform you..."

When Xu Nuo said the lame excuse, Zhou Qingming stared at her face and suddenly smiled, tears slid down her face with thick but delicate makeup, gathered into drops under her chin, and then connected into a string come down.

"Qingming..."

Xu Nuo looked at her face, couldn't help it anymore, covered his eyes, tears gushed out, and said in a hoarse and trembling voice: "Qingming, I'm sorry."

The moment Zhou Qingming saw Xun Nuo's tears, she threw herself into her arms, hugged her tightly, and desperately shook her head on her shoulder to reject her apology:

"You don't owe me anything, really, promise, I forgot, you don't owe me anything anymore. Don't you cry, don't apologize... I just hit you and you got punished, so, You don't owe me anything anymore."

"You don't owe me anything anymore..."

"You go..."

Until she got on the plane, Xu Nuo still couldn't forget what Zhou Qingming said repeatedly in her ear. She knew that Zhou Qingming wanted to make her feel relieved. Even though they had broken up for a long time, when she faced this moment, she thought she could When she was a little more relaxed, she found out that what she owed was what she owed. She hurt a true and pure girl, and she couldn't make up for it anymore. What does it mean, Zhou Qingming is leaving, she is leaving, not just simply going to another country like herself, but, she still exists in this world where she used to get along with her, but she will As if she has never been here before, she will not leave any traces for herself, just like a meteor gliding across the sky, after she burns hard, even the ashes disappear...