three feet away

When I woke up, I don't know how much time had passed, the sound of the ticking wiper rubbing was circling in my ears, the warm wind was blowing from the front, brushing against my cheeks and ears, Xu Nuo curled up in the small space and was unwilling to open his eyes and move.

"Is it there?"

Raising his hand and rubbing his eyes, Xu Nuo opened his lips that were a little dry from the air conditioner, and his voice was a little hoarse.

There was no response from her side, she blinked slowly and turned her head to look at the driver's seat, but she didn't see anyone.

Xu Nuo turned his head in doubt, his hazy vision became brighter, and the light outside the car window was extremely bright, which was very different from the gloom in the city center.Yan Ruyi stood on the phone about one meter away from the driver's seat, his head and shoulders were covered with a vast expanse of white snow, promised to sit up straight, turned his head to look at the front windshield of the car in doubt, and rubbed it again in disbelief. Rubbing my eyes, large flakes of snow fell on every corner of the windshield, and then fell to the lower edge of the glass under the fiddle of the wiper, where nearly five centimeters of snow foam had accumulated.

It's snowing?

Xu Nuo stretched out her hand excitedly, her palm pressed against the glass, the cold touch collided with the warmth of her fingertips, she couldn't help shivering, but unconsciously raised the corners of her lips and smiled stand up.

"Are you awake?"

The driver's door was opened, Yan Ruyi patted the snow on his shoulder, stepped in sideways, and brought a gust of chilling snow wind.

"It actually snowed."

When Xu Nuo saw her coming in, the corners of her lips raised slightly, and the next second, she looked at Yan Ruyi's face, the sadness that had not completely receded in her eyes, she moved the corners of her lips, fell silent for a moment, and reached out to help her He flicked off all the white snow from the hair on the top of his head, and slid his fingertips to her ear and brushed her cold red ears lightly. She must have stood outside for a long time, that's why so many snowflakes fell on her shoulders: "Is there a problem?"

"Yeah." Yan Ruyi cleared his throat, put the phone beside him, and said softly while pulling the seat belt on his side: "My brother called and asked some questions. Xiaobao was arguing at home to find I."

Xu Nuo lowered her eyebrows, since the last time she came out again, Yan Ruyi has been away from home for a long time, adults are fine, children can't hide their emotions, there must have been a few riots.

"Then... shall we go back?"

Yan Ruyi didn't speak, and pressed his cold palm on Xu Nuo's hand. Xu Nuo raised his head and looked at her face.

Seeing her looking up, Yan Ru smiled softly at her, probably because she was afraid that her hands would be too cold, so she quickly removed the hand that was sticking to Xu Nuo and put it back on the steering wheel, but kept her eyes on Xu Nuo: "One There are fathers, grandparents, and you, only me."

Xu Nuo looked at her, a little touched, and didn't know what to say.

"Actually... I only have you..."

Xu Nuo didn't quite understand the meaning of Yan Ruyi's words: "What?"

Yan Ruyi smiled slightly: "It's hard to come out of the closet. Some things can't be perfect. I don't want to be a rebellious daughter, but I'm selfish after all. I don't want to let myself down. I want to do it for you and for the rest of my time Responsible."

"..." Her throat was stiff, and she promised not to ask Yan Ruyi any more. She didn't want to influence Yan Ruyi's thoughts, whether it was filial piety or disobedience, but she was willing to accept any choice she made, because she knew that, In any case, it is impossible for them to separate due to the pressure from their parents, relatives, friends and society. She is willing to accompany her to bear the pressure and responsibility that they should bear when they love each other, and to be her most solid and solid backing by her side.

Moved to the side of the driver's seat, Xu Nuo smiled at Yan Ruyi, stretched out his hand to pick up a strand of hair from her ear, and rubbed it gently between her fingers for a long time, then suddenly poked his head, and whispered softly in Yan Ruyi's ear: "Love!" It's hard, and I'm by your side."

The hot air in her throat was in her ears, Yan Ruyi shrank her neck instinctively, her cheeks inadvertently came into intimate contact with Xu Nuo's warm lips, she raised her hand to touch the piece of skin that had been kissed lightly, and said softly Smiling, the watery light and shadow in his eyes: "I know."

"where are we going?"

The car restarted, Xu Nuo straightened his body and sat down on the passenger seat, and looked around. Apart from the mountains covered in silver, there was only a snow-covered road in front of him.

The scene in front of Xu Nuo's eyes slid through Xu Nuo's eyes, and it somewhat overlapped with the vague scene in her memory. She felt that this road was very familiar, but she couldn't remember when she passed by here.

"We'll be there soon." Yan Ruyi didn't answer her question directly, but put it off.

"I seem to have been here before." Xu Nuo turned sideways, half lying on the car window and looking out the window, the car seemed to be going uphill all the time, Yan Ruyi was driving more and more slowly, and the snow was getting bigger and bigger , the trees in the forest beside the road can no longer see their original colors clearly, replaced by silver light.

"Have we been walking for a long time? But it's only past twelve o'clock now."

After asking and answering himself, Xu Nuo lowered the car window a few centimeters, and stuck his finger out the window to welcome the snowflakes.The snowflakes fell on her palm and she led them into the car.

He lowered his head and searched left and right in front of him, and found a fallen hair from the side of his body. Xu Nuo buried his head in carefully fiddled with the snowflakes in his palm, carefully watching their shapes.

"I heard that there are nearly forty shapes of snowflakes. Guess how many I have in my hand?"

Yan Ruyi looked at the way ahead, but didn't answer her question, and she didn't care at all, just silently counting the different shapes by herself.

"It also snows in Paris. Winter in France is very cold. It is as humid as Chengdu but the temperature seems to be lower than in Chengdu. I am very afraid of the cold. When winter comes, I don't want to go out."

The speed of the car slowed down a bit, Yan Ru turned her head to glance at Xu Nuo quickly, she lowered her head, her long hair covered her face, only the slightly curled eyelashes above her straight nose could be seen flickering.

"Do you like France?" Turning around, Yan Ruyi asked her.

"Not to mention liking."

Xu Nuo replied without thinking, the snow flakes in her palm melted into a small mist, she rubbed her hands together, and looked sideways at Yan Ruyi:

"I've always felt that I'm a little cold in any relationship, and I rarely find what I like."

"France is very good, has a very rich ancient culture, there are special sentimental old object stores, there are patches of sycamores and camphor trees, but I don't like its summer, and I'm not keen to touch the shade through the trees there. sunshine. Do you know why?"

"why?"

"Because you're not there, idiot."

Xu Nuo smiled, and briskly answered Yan Ruyi's question, closed the car window, tilted his head at Yan Ruyi and blinked wildly: "Do you feel more and more that I can talk about love?"

Yan Ruyi pursed the corners of her lips, and did not speak for a long while. Xu Nuo stared at her for a long time, and suddenly realized that such a conversation might make her sad. She sighed, and turned on the radio switch, just as she was about to explain that she had no other intentions. .I heard Yan Ruyi's deep voice slipping into my ear sockets accompanied by the warm singing from the stereo:

"When the weather gets warmer, let's go to France?" The car slowed down, Yan Ruyi turned the steering wheel and looked out the window, preparing to stop.

"To France?"

The car stopped and the handbrake was pulled on. Yan Ruyi unfastened his seat belt, turned his head to look at Xu Nuo's face, raised his eyebrows and nodded, and answered solemnly:

"Well, go and look at the romantic people, look at the sycamores and camphor trees, look at the shops that sell old things, and see... what kind of environment is it to make the person I love so eloquent A little love story..."

At first, he thought that his words made Yan Ruyi unhappy, but he didn't expect to be arranged by the words in a blink of an eye, Xu Nuo pursed his mouth, feeling like a dumb man eating coptis.She suddenly remembered what Bao Lan said. She said that the woman named Lin Xi was a goblin. Sure enough, women who have been around goblins for a long time are not simple. It made me worry about it blindly.

Scratching the cotton cap on top of his head, Xu Nuo pulled the corners of his mouth in embarrassment: "Uh, hehe, how could..."

Yan Ruyi pursed her lips slightly, not knowing whether to do so.Reaching out to help her straighten her coat, she turned off the engine and got out of the car: "Here we are, come down."

"arrive?"

Obediently, she got out of the car, and the snow wind blowing from the pavement instantly blew Xu Nuo through. She instinctively pulled down the brim of her hat to cover her ears. She stood by the car door and looked around.

"what..."

Looking from the open-air parking lot full of private cars to a row of two-story buildings not far away, Xu Nuo squinted his eyes.

"No wonder I feel that the scene is a bit familiar along the way. It turns out that you brought me here."

Yan Ruyi walked around the front of the car and walked to her, handing her a glove: "Remember?"

"Yeah." Xu Nuo nodded, took a look at the glove, put it on his right hand naturally, then watched Yan Ruyi put his left hand on, and then, the two of them naturally and tacitly put the hand without the glove into the coat In the pocket, they looked at each other and smiled.

Xu Nuo turned sideways, walked around to Yan Ruyi's left, took her hand and walked towards the mountain gate: "However, with so many private cars, there should be a lot of tourists. It's already faster, can we still find a place to live?"

"Well, I reserved a room a few days ago. I originally planned to come here to celebrate the New Year when I came back from your house. I didn't expect..." Yan Ruyi took a deep breath, and blinked at the white mist floating in front of her eyes. : "However, it's good to come now. It is said that it snowed yesterday, so it stopped for a few hours."

It took the two of them nearly an hour and 10 minutes to arrive at the inn that Yan Ruyi had said was reserved.

Xu Nuo stood at the door of the shop, looking at the familiar wooden house, his eyes suddenly turned red.For seven years, the last time I came here was the summer seven years ago.

Nothing has changed. Standing at the door, through the curtain, you can see the dimly lit corridor. At the end of the corridor is the room they used to live together. Outside the room, in front of the old mill, the waterwheel has not changed. The snow stopped turning, and it was still being washed slowly by the mountain spring, making a creaking sound.

The right hand hanging by her side was clenched tightly, promising to measure the bones, looking at Yan Ruyi's face, the wind and snow had not stopped, her head and shoulders were covered with white snow, and the wet mist left after the snowflakes melted At the tip of her eyebrows, both of them were a little embarrassed, but her smile was as clear and gentle as an angel.

"Come up."

Holding Xu Nuo's hand, Yan Ruyi led her up the steps of the wooden house, stretched out his hand, and was about to lift the curtain.

The hearty voice of a middle-aged woman talking to someone came from inside the house. Xu Nuo trembled while holding Yan Ruyi's hand. She was so familiar. Although she only stayed for one night, that night was too unforgettable. The memory of that firefly scene was even more given to her by Yan Ruyi, the coming-of-age ceremony...

Sniffing, Xu Nuo raised his head, Yan Ruyi was walking on the steps in front of her, with his head slightly raised, Xu Nuo looked at her back, and suddenly wanted to cry bitterly.

Sensing her emotional change, Yan Ruyi turned around to face her, looked down at the flushed eyes, said nothing, just took his right hand out of his coat pocket, and tapped her eye sockets with his warm fingertips.

The temperature of Yan Ruyi's fingertips melted the tears in Xu Nuo's eyes. She grinned hard at her. She wanted to smile, but she only uttered three pitiful syllables like the cry of a lost cub: "Teacher Yan. ..”

The hand being held was leisurely grasped, Xu Nuo looked at Yan Ruyi slightly raised his head and closed his eyes, tears streaming down his face in an instant...