clear moonlight

"I'm sorry." After a long time, Lu Ci replied softly.He leaned down, helped Shen Zitong up, looked into his eyes and repeated, "I'm sorry, Tongtong."

I really want to live for myself once.

The unexpected ringtone of the mobile phone broke the stalemate between the two. Shen Zitong picked up the phone and heard the nurse on the other end of the receiver saying that Shen Mingxi had fallen asleep, so he specially called to tell the two of them to go home early and not to waste time here .Shen Zitong thanked the older nurse, hung up the phone and said to Lu Ci, "Let's find a place to chat."

"Okay." While Shen Zitong was answering the phone, Lu Ci also clicked on the notification bar of his mobile phone.

He scanned Chen Qianxia's message of "need to go home urgently" and understood that it was an excuse for the other party to leave early so that he and the Shen brothers could be alone, nodded to Shen Zitong and said, "Let's go."

Lu Ci led Shen Zitong into a small coffee shop he saw on the road when he came here.Perhaps in order to allow patients to have a good rest, the location of this nursing home is located in a suburb with a more beautiful environment and a quieter environment, which means that there are few complete leisure and entertainment facilities nearby.Lin Luoyang obviously took this into consideration when planning, and set up several places in the nursing home for people to chat and relax.Although the area is small, it still provides a place for people like the two of them to go.

Lu Ci hurriedly glanced at the menu, and glanced at Shen Zitong who was sitting across from him from time to time.The other party just lowered his head and fiddled with the phone without looking at him.Lu Ci sighed in his heart, ordered a cup of hot cocoa for Shen Zitong, and pointed to a random waiter on the menu to deal with the waiter who was temporarily called by Lin Luoyang to start work early, and was polite to the little girl who was not tall smiled.

"Thank you." When the hot cocoa was served, Shen Zitong nodded, and finally made a sound, but he didn't know whether he was thanking Lu Ci or the waiter who brought the drink.Seeing that Lu Ci didn't respond, just staring at him, Shen Zitong added, "Thank you brother."

"Thank you for what I did." Lu Ci picked up his cup and took a sip.Both of them knew that it didn't matter how things tasted, and the reason they were sitting here was not because of the two white porcelain cups in front of them.

It was Shen Zitong who wanted an explanation from Lu Ci, or hoped that Lu Ci could give him an explanation.

"Tongtong." Lu Ci put down the cup, rubbed his fingers unconsciously on the outside of the cup, and opened his mouth after deliberation, "I plan to be with Chen Qianxia. I know this may not be easy for you... , but this time I'm serious. If you're unhappy, just mention it. I promised that my elder brother will take good care of you, so naturally I won't break my promise."

As Lu Ci spoke, he was also observing Shen Zitong's expression.There is not much abnormality in the other party's expression yet, but Lu Ci knows that Shen Zitong himself is not a person who particularly likes to show his emotions.What's more, he has always had a good temper, and all his petty tempers are basically directed at Shen Mingxi and Lu Ci. Since Shen Mingxi fell ill, Shen Zitong has become more sensible, and put away the remaining willfulness.

"Brother." Just as Lu Ci thought, Shen Zitong didn't lose his temper, but raised his head and asked unhurriedly, "Is there anything different about Chen Qianxia? What do you like about him?"

After getting along for many years, Lu Ci naturally understood the implication of Shen Zi's fairy tales.Before Chen Qianxia, ​​Lu Ci also had relationships with various men, but the duration of those contacts was not too long. After several experiences, they naturally parted ways after both of them got tired of it.Shen Zitong knew all about Lu Ci's past events, and never took them to heart.After all, Lu Ci has a lot of things to deal with every day, and he has to allocate energy to take care of the burden that shouldn't be on him. It is a normal need to relax with people who are close to his eyes and relieve pressure. He has no reason to always Momentarily occupying Lu Ci, not to mention those who are by Lu Ci's side will not last long.

"I also felt the difference in Chen Qianxia after I met him." Lu Ci smiled at Shen Zitong, but his nose was a little sore, "In the beginning, I really noticed this person because you accidentally mentioned it. Seeing that he looks good at the reception, I thought...you know me. In the end, this kid was so stubborn that I got annoyed, so I took the initiative to distance myself from him."

"Later, I really couldn't avoid it, and to remind myself, I told him about my eldest brother. Thinking about it, he should give up. After all, in his eyes, I am cold and difficult to get along with. Still carrying irreparable mistakes."

As Lu Ci spoke, he also laughed.In all fairness, he is indeed very beautiful and attractive, otherwise there wouldn't be so many Yingying Yanyan who took the initiative to come over.But now, the smile on Lu Ci's face is not attractive.He just felt that at least he shouldn't lose his composure when facing Shen Zitong. It was enough to cry once in the hospital before, but crying again now seems to be deliberately sympathizing with the person in front of him.

"Besides, Chen Qianxia made me understand some things." Lu Ci picked up the cup and took a sip. They talked for too long, and the coffee had already gone cold. "For example, someone is actually willing to continue my sadness and depression. , and other messy negative energies. In the past, I always thought that I had done a lot of mistakes, and naturally I was not qualified to stop and rest. .”

"But after he appeared, I realized that I can also live under the warm sun."

Now the frowning person is replaced by Shen Zitong.

In all honesty, he couldn't hate Lu Ci for coming, and he knew that he had no reason to resent him.From childhood to adulthood, the two of them had quarreled and quarreled, but Lu Ci had always been on his side, and he was used to taking a step back to take care of his unrelated younger brother.As for Shen Mingxi's matter, it was an accident after all.

No one should take responsibility for unforeseen events, and Shen Mingxi didn't want to see Shen Zitong and Lu Ci separate because of this incident.

What's more, during the days when Shen Mingxi's accident just happened, he was locked at home and deprived of the opportunity to visit him.At that time, it was Lu Ci who stood up to withstand the pressure. He was the one who guarded Shen Mingxi all the time, and later tried every means to take him outside to take care of him, so Shen Zitong was able to gradually get close to his elder brother.

Lu Ci was not wrong, and he didn't need to admit his mistakes to anyone.If he insisted on saying sorry to others, then the person who apologized should not be Shen Zitong.

"Brother, I..." Shen Zitong stood up hesitantly, sat next to Lu Ci, looked at the person beside him with steam on his clothes, and didn't know what to say, "I know that you have been very nervous recently. Hard work, actually..."

Shen Zitong stared at the slightly thinner man in front of him, and the worried but extremely firm expression on his face, suddenly remembered a long time ago, after Shen Mingxi's accident, Lu Ci also had such an expression, again and again Visiting Shen's house finally made her mother relax, and took away herself who was forcibly locked at home and confined.

Thinking about it now, Shen Zitong can't even remember when it happened, maybe it was summer, maybe it was autumn.In short, on a day when the continuous rain finally stopped, Shen Zitong was dragged by Lu Ci, and left the old house where he spent his childhood and youth, and moved into a new home carefully decorated by Lu Ci.

Shen Zitong's last days in the old house were not easy. He wanted to go to the hospital to take care of Shen Mingxi, but his freedom of movement was restricted.The father visited the hospital during the day, but was stopped outside the house by the domineering mother at night.

No one can say a word for Shen Zitong.His mobile phone, computer, and identity documents were all confiscated, and even wanting to contact Lu Ci quietly to inquire about news became a luxury.About a week later, Shen Zitong, whose activities were limited to one bedroom, began to be unable to eat, and lost his appetite for all food.The hut has no windows, and Shen Zitong can only rely on the wall clock on the wall to distinguish day from night, but when night falls, he tosses and turns in bed, unable to fall asleep. Even when he falls asleep, he feels restless and wakes up intermittently.Thinking about it now, maybe it was because his condition was so bad at that time that Lu Ci was able to persuade his mother to take him to move out of the old residence.

"It's okay, don't be afraid, I'm here." Lu Ci's voice sounded in Shen Zitong's ear, late at night after moving.

At that time, besides being busy with his own affairs, Lu Ci had to go to the hospital almost every week, and had to drive nearly half of the city to appease his parents at home. He was often busy until the early hours of the morning before turning off his computer.

Then he would rub his eyes, stand up and make himself a cup of coffee, and share a bed with Shen Zitong.Because the latter half of the night was when Shen Zitong was not sleeping well, Lu Ci needed to be by Shen Zitong's side all the time to calm his emotions and let him know that he was not alone.

"Don't worry, Tongtong, I'm here, but if you miss this exam, you probably won't get another chance like this again." It was still Lu Ci's voice, and the man stuffed it into his hand when he spoke. A bag containing breakfast at just the right temperature.

Shen Mingxi's illness can't be cured at all. Most of the time, he can only take some medicines whose names ordinary people can't understand, or lie in bed to pass the time.But every time there is even a little accident, it is enough to make people worry.Perhaps considering that Shen Zitong was preparing for the exam, Lu Ci took the initiative to conceal the news of the hospitalization according to Shen Mingxi's wishes.However, Shen Zitong bumped into Lu Ci at the door of the inpatient department that day.It may be a coincidence arranged by the examination room that allowed Shen Zitong to take the exam near the hospital; or it may be that the unique telepathy between brothers made Shen Zitong rush over unconsciously, in short, they failed to hide what happened that time.But Lu Ci, who hadn't slept all night, quickly calmed down all Shen Zitong's uneasiness and panic, coaxed him back to the examination room, and even remembered to take the initiative to prepare Shen Zitong's breakfast that suits his appetite.

……

While sitting in the coffee shop, Shen Zitong recalled many, many things, and Lu Ci has always been steadfast and reliable among them.He has put in a lot of energy to take care of everyone, and he will always remember to turn his eyes to himself and say the sentence that Shen Zitong has heard many times, but every time he hears it, he feels at ease, "It's okay, Tongtong, I exist".

"Brother, I..." Shen Zitong withdrew from the memories, but his thoughts were already taken away by various things that happened in the past, and the questions that were not considered strong were lost to memories one after another.He didn't know what to say, so he could only stay close to Lu Ci's arms without looking up at him, hoping to cover up the loss and sadness on his face.

He didn't want to say it, so Lu Ci naturally wouldn't ask any more.Shen Zitong was about to bury his head to hide, when he felt Lu Ci reach out and stroke his hair, and gently pull him up to face him.

"It's okay." Lu Ci said softly, not caring about the gazes of the people nearby, and slowly bent down, resting his forehead on Shen Zitong's, comforting him softly.

Just like they did when they were kids.Whenever Lu Ci was unhappy, Shen Mingxi would hug him and use this gesture to comfort Lu Ci.Later, Lu Ci followed that man's example and calmed Shen Zitong's emotions in this way during the days when Shen Zitong often suffered from insomnia.

Lu Ci didn't notice that there was also a gaze on the two of them in the black car not far away.

Shen Zitong was naturally familiar with this movement, knowing that it was a sign of comfort and reconciliation between the two, so he put his arms around Lu Ci's neck and replied with a low "hmm".