Drowning in a sea of ​​moonlight

Today is a happy day. A colleague with whom I only met once came to visit me.

I feel honored and feel that the world is really full of love and hope.

It was team member B who came. He already knew that I was going to be transferred, although he was afraid to come because of Dazai's great reputation.

But I heard that I was going to be discharged from the hospital soon, and I didn't even have the chance to see him soon, so I came here anyway, with blessings from team member A by the way.

...Okay, everyone has come to see me, and I can't call him player B anymore.

In fact, his name is Fujii, and now he moved a little horse and sat beside my bed, looking a little embarrassed: "...Actually, I know, we are not that familiar, I am here to visit you, you It's kind of weird too."

I shook my head: "No, Mr. Fujii. I think, just because we met by chance, I am more grateful that you still want to visit me."

"...What a good boy with a kind heart." Fujii said——

I thought in a daze that he was actually about the same age as me—"Actually, I used to have a younger brother... If he was still alive, he should be about the same age as you are now. You are really similar to him .”

To build a good relationship with these mafia people, talking about war is the most effective way.

Although it will involve other people's sad things when talking about it, but sometimes, share these sad things with others.

And if you can resonate, you can actually eliminate your dissatisfaction with fate and the negative emotions that come with it to a certain extent.Because you will find that everyone is the same.

So I don't care.

But what I didn't expect was that just my present existence itself could bring him sadness.

"I'm so sorry." I whispered.

"It's okay! It's not about you." Fujii waved his hands at this time, and smiled reluctantly, "...so, when I look at you now, I always want to care. I know Generally, I probably don’t want you to know this, but I actually want to tell you that I am so close to you, and I am not malicious to you. If you don’t find it strange, can you allow me to treat you like a younger brother in the future? What do you think?"

I was silent for a second, and looked at him with a smile: "To be honest, Mr. Fujii. I have been in the orphanage for so long, and now the only director who is willing to treat me well has passed away.

So no matter what the reason is, if someone is willing to treat me with kindness, I am already very content.

So don't worry, I'd love to. "

Like a wilting plant that was suddenly watered, he cheered up: "Thank you, today! Or Ah Wang? Can I call you that?"

"No problem." I agreed.

After Fujii happily chatted with me for a while, I felt a little exhausted, so I lay back down.

There are still some side effects of the healing ability. When I recovered, the pain was much stronger than normal, and it was even more exhausting to fight against it these days.

Fujii looked at me with an ugly face, and lowered his voice: "...I didn't intend to ask before, but I still couldn't help it. I heard that the adult did the injury on your body?"

I was a little confused, and felt that the world was not so full of love and hope.

But I still said: "It's okay, I'm almost healed. It's better not to ask this kind of question."

After hearing this, Fujii sighed as if giving up. "...Okay then. It's true that I know, but it's useless. It's just that you need to pay more attention."

He was gone shortly after that, and I was playing with the orange he had slipped me, looking at the ceiling above my head.

The conversation with Fujii is sincere, although it is combined with my false identity background.But other than that, the gist is the same as I really think.

But I did use it to achieve what I wanted.

Half an hour ago

Chat room "brain is empty" (3 people)

An offering to nothingness: ...that's all.

The Secret History: ...What a difficult thorn in the side.

When breath becomes air: seconded.

An offering to nothingness: So at present, it seems that his personality is extreme and world-weary, and he also has bad tastes. He usually doesn't take a second look at things that he is not interested in.

Secret History: The need to control seems to be a little bit.

When breath turns into air: ...so it's a silly and sweet script with contrasts, right?I know.

The so-called contrast is silly, white and sweet, which refers to the complicated character design.

Probably, the fate is very miserable, I have tasted the warmth and coldness of the world, but I am still stupid and sweet, and the more frustrated I am, the more courageous I am, that kind.

After all, pure stupidity and sweetness are not interesting to people, and people with different appearances will probably make Osamu Dazai very disgusted.

So we can only go by contrast.Instead of taking the silly, white and sweet route of getting more and more frustrated and courageous, but also to ensure the correct three views and words that are consistent with my previous behavior.

Either take the route of a disillusioned teenager, or follow the route of a kind-hearted autistic teenager.

The former would only call into question my background, while the latter would make my already daunting task twice as difficult.

Only this kind of personality can not only make him interested in me, but also subtly instill in him my three views that are too decent.

Secret History: Now, come on.

An offering to nothingness: you come on.

When breath turns to air: ...no way.

When breath turns into air: I can only sacrifice my life to accompany a gentleman.

I rubbed the orange for a while, peeled it and ate it, and buttoned the right sleeve of my only shirt with my fingers carelessly.

—Hope someone over there with the bug is okay with what I just said.

The author has something to say:

Today, the attributes of the good camp are also fully exposed.

For him, he is really satisfied as long as it is kind - the premise is that it is really kind hhh, in fact, it is quite harsh.

But in fact, he has no mercy towards people with evil attributes, just like the kind of crazy and sassy monster with a full-scale poisonous tongue. Although he doesn't realize it, he thinks he is simple and upright.

Facing Dazai, the bottom line didn't know where it fell.

This is also one of the most essential differences between him and Oda Saku: If it weren't for Tsushima, there should be no tolerance for people like Dazai today.

Speaking of the team members, I have arranged certain contrasting attributes. For example, Donna looks like a very violent and indifferent upright girl, but she is actually a salty fish. It’s just that when the friends are hurt, they will enter the runaway mode;

At first glance, Alisha seems to have a Gogol-like acting personality, and she is a bit funny, but she is actually a gentle and virtuous little angel! ! (My Favorites!!)

Foreshadowing: After listening to Fujii's questioning today, I feel that the whole person is a bit bad, because he saw something.

Anyway, it will be recycled soon, hehe.