Drowning in a sea of ​​moonlight

The cherry blossoms all over the mountain are dotted on the branches, and when the wind blows, they are like clouds and rain.

He was lying on the ground with a piece of grass in his mouth, pillowed by the lazy sunshine, and closed his eyes.

——Although he ran out with great effort, as long as the locator in the blood vessel was not taken out, he was still a monkey running in the palms of those people.

Of course, it is impossible to really hope that it will succeed, it is nothing more than adding a little bit of trouble to those old guys.

Besides, the neighborhood is so barren anyway, it is even less likely that there will be any kind-hearted people passing by. They don't have to rush to look for them, and they can play for a while.

But in fact, the outside and the inside are, in the final analysis, just a matter of size.There is no difference.There is nothing you can do yourself.

Anyway... the world is nothing but a big cage.

No matter how hard you try, it's impossible to escape.

If there is really something like a god, then he is probably looking at this place and laughing now.

He looked at the golden sunlight above his head, closed his eyes again, and sighed.

...However, even if you can't escape.

But how gentle the wind is.How soft the sun is.

How beautiful the sound of cherry blossoms falling.

It makes people... nostalgic.

"人の世のものとは见へぬ桜の花."

(everyone is bustling)

The cherry blossoms fade away silently

Relatively only an instant. )

A strange, soft voice sounded like a stream flowing.

He sat up suddenly, and saw a pair of black eyes that were as light as water.

The sun around is quiet, and the wind is flowing slightly, as if it is some kind of reunion melody, so soft and unknown.

Boom.Boom.Boom.

He heard his own heartbeat very clearly.

The flowers and plants swayed quietly, and the corners of his and her clothes swayed gently in the wind. Their gaze seemed to last for centuries.

Until the wind was tired and the sun dimmed, they still stared at each other.

——At that moment he realized that his heart was no longer his own.

The girl smiled embarrassedly: "Excuse me for interrupting. I accidentally got lost and came here. May I ask you?"

"... Tsushima."

He heard his own voice say.

"My name is Tsushima."

"Oh, I miss you so much. It really feels like a century ago."

He said.

The child in front of him said: "Well, when you first met, you became jealous of others, and finally your hard work paid off?"

"...It's too much, how can you say that—" He covered his heart, "It was clearly love at first sight. It's fate, Mr. Kalanish, God destined us to be together—"

"...Well," Kalanish said, "From a metaphysical point of view, it is true that your love may not have been determined by your free will. So maybe it can be called a marriage arranged by fate?"

He was silent for a while, looked at the child's clear face, those cold and straightforward golden eyes, squeezed his fists, and asked very sincerely: "Mr. Kalanish, who did you learn from when you talk like this?" ?”

"...Why are you angry?"

Kalanish's eyes widened, "But you said it yourself, fate decided it for you—well, I'm not joking, it just looks like you're not in a good mood, so I'll slap you and make a fuss. You If you don’t want to talk about it, it’s okay.”

He smiled and touched the child's head, "Thank you for having such a heart. It will indeed be uncomfortable, but if I don't tell them about my thoughts and memories, no one will know about them. So , although it doesn’t make any sense, but I still want to convey it to someone.”

"After all I am... so in love with them."

Maybe it was really fate. When he got a loved one, he was doomed to lose one.

One day after Xiu Zhi was born, he realized that he had lost the first person he loved forever.

It wasn't her anymore, just a shell of her.

And she's nowhere in this world anymore.

As Xiu Zhi grew up little by little, his eyebrows and eyes gradually became like her, until her shadow was everywhere, his previous determination became more and more shaken.

——But no, my love must be buried deep in my heart, and it is best to forget even myself.

That way this overly smart kid won't see through, and no one else will see through.

Then, the "freedom" that he has never obtained may give him at least one chance to pursue it with all his strength, even if there may be nothing at the end——

"Father."

The 13-year-old Xiuzhi said that when he raised his eyes, there was nothing in the iris-colored pupils that only resembled him.

He stopped as before, didn't look back, just waited for the next step with a cold face.

"Mother's health has deteriorated. The doctor was afraid to come and report to you, so I came. You don't have to worry, I have nothing else to do.

Then I take my leave. "

After finishing speaking, Xiu Zhi bowed his head and saluted, then walked away without looking back.

He stood quietly on the spot, the sky was getting dark, the bamboo shadows turned to the porch, the chill invaded along the steps, the drizzle hit the eaves with rustling, and then gradually poured down until there was only the sound of rain between the sky and the earth.

That was a child who was too sensitive and gentle, and he probably already realized that he didn't want to see him.

Probably thought he hated him for his mother's death.Just let him think that way, that's fine.

How he wanted to go over, hug that little body, and say "I love you" to him.

The child has never heard this sentence from his father, and he still doesn't know how he is loved.

...But the plan that has been carefully prepared over the years is finally approaching maturity.No matter how much he wanted to do that, he couldn't give up all his efforts.

I at least want that child to have that possibility of being "free".

As for her...

...Actually, it doesn't matter what the body is like.It wasn't her after all.

He had said goodbye to the people he loved the most, while that still meant something.A long, long 13 years ago.

And, in fact, he knew that this was the family.No, the authorities arranged a marriage for him.

A woman who is knowledgeable but innocent, has no background, and is gentle and kind enough.It is the best to control, and it is also the type he will like.

If it succeeds, love can be used to make him unable to think of leaving, and if he wants to escape, it can also become his burden to the greatest extent.If it doesn't work, just find someone else to come.

After all, no matter how coincidental, there must be someone guarding the vicinity, and it is impossible to let her come here.

He knew that she was really lost, and she didn't appear in front of him on purpose, but without the acquiescence of those people, this love would not have been possible at all.

But he never regretted it.

No, how could I regret it? It is better to say that meeting her is already the greatest happiness in this life.

He walked towards the room where she was, pushed the door open, sat by her bed, tied her loose black hair behind her ears, and kissed her last on the brow.

Then reached out and unplugged her ventilator.

The misty rain curtain dispersed, and the moonlight spilled into the window lattice.In a daze, he seemed to see the person he had been thinking about standing in front of him, smiling, and reaching out to him.

--wait for me.he thinks.

I'm going to see you right away.

The author has something to say:

Um.The beautiful love and young cards of the parents' generation.

Arecurringtheme: Ruthless, Zai Dad.

There are too many details that echo the previous story. For example, what Tsushima saw and thought at the beginning is almost the same as that of Reverse [-], and the feeling of heartbeat is similar to that of Reverse [-] (the sound of his own heartbeat). The "that's not him/her" that my insane lover thinks is the same as that of Zai when Fang? When you meet him/her, you should be grateful for this fate/it is the greatest happiness in this world.”

In addition, there is the "possibility" mentioned when I first met Jae today, and the phrase "I love you" he said for Tsushima.

Also cue two literary works, "He has already said goodbye...while there is still meaning", and the phantom of seeing the dead in a trance. "The Long Farewell" and "Jiangchengzi.Yimao's Night Dreams on the [-]th Day of the First Lunar New Year.

The haiku quoted is by Toshizo Hijikata.

When I met my wife for the first time, Tsushima was so amazed that I don’t even remember anything other than my name is Tsushima hahhh

Zai bowed his head to his father.hiss.Fragrant.

(The future Dazheng pa will probably have this feeling, wait for me to find inspiration hhhh)

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!