Drowning in a sea of ​​moonlight

This world is fake.

Whether it's people walking on the street, laughing, or the color of the sunset over the city, it's all there.

We are just "possibilities" in a story.

Never really existed.

Dazai looked at the "book" in his hand silently, closed it at once, raised his head, and looked up at the sky above his head.

After a long, long time, he lowered his head and murmured.

"It will be very hard..."

During his time, Dazai learned the truth of the world.

Inside the "book" in his hands, there are countless parallel worlds.

Each is different, but all are just unrealized "stories" in the pages of a book.

There is only one real world...in which everyone is very happy under the protection of some organization, like a funny fairy tale.

In so many possible worlds, that organization only exists in half of the worlds.

And of those worlds, only in that one did he meet that person, and his friend did not die.

...Only in that one, fairy tale.

Under the light of dusk, the red scarf wrapped around the fingertips looks like fresh blood.

He put the book in his hand on the desk, looked at the bloody sunset by the window, and smiled wryly.

...But, the present world is not like that kind of fairy tale.

"leader."

Chuya took off his hat, stood in front of him, and reported the situation expressionlessly.

The exhaustion from not sleeping for several days came to his mind, Dazai propped his chin with his hand, and thought in a daze, if Lian Chuya was so lifeless, there might be nothing in this organization except lifelessness.

"Boss? Hey, Dazai!"

The sudden cold and stern voice pulled him out of the state of trance, and the sea-blue eyes finally showed a look other than respectful, staring at him closely, just like a hunter staring at the prey that is close at hand: "Say it, you This bastard must be killed by me. Don't let me fall before then, or I won't spare you."

"Wow, what a terrible speech. The dwarf has learned to threaten me, how comforting it is?"

Dazai said, looking back blankly, "But you seem to have forgotten something. Officers threaten the leader, such things are not in line with the rules of the Mafia, Chuya."

Chu also looked at him coldly, the expression in his eyes getting colder and colder.

Dazai said softly, "Let's go out first, Chuya."

There was no response, Chuya was silent for a second, turned around abruptly, strode away, and the door closed behind him with a bang.

In the empty chief's room, Dazai fell back on the back of the chair and closed his eyes.

After some time, there was a new knock on the door, and a refreshing but timid voice said, "I'm back, Mr. Dazai..."

"..." Hearing his hesitant and quieter tone compared to [Another World], Dazai twitched the corners of his lips silently, "Come in. Welcome back, Atsu-kun."

Chuya who hates himself even more, Atsukun who lacks self-confidence even more, and Kyoka who is completely hidden in the darkness.

This is the best arrangement for them that he prepared for this world, but it is also the worst arrangement.

He single-handedly created so many misfortunes, just for that one long-cherished wish.

The plan is proceeding step by step.

To say it was hard work was hard work.Sometimes I feel that I can't hold on anymore, that kind of hard work.

Because, although fairy tales are so beautiful that people want to laugh from the bottom of their hearts.However, it is still very... people, yearning.

But it is destined to be only yearning.

... In the past, when that person was supposed to come to him in the spring, he was so nervous.

Afraid that he would come early, and afraid that he would never come.In this way, looking forward to and fearing the upcoming days.

…And then, at the end of the day when he was supposed to meet him, the moment he heard the clock strike zero, like cold water pouring down his head, Dazai realized something.

——"The book is in his hands." This incident showed a fact that he had been deliberately ignoring subconsciously before and did not want to face it, but now he had to face it.

"That organization doesn't exist in this world."

Because, in any other world, as long as they exist, the "book" will be in their hands, without exception.Thinking about it, with their strength, it would be impossible to lose the book.

At that moment, the soap-bubble fairy tale he had been deceiving himself to chase, quietly shattered.

But even so, if, at least, "that person" can be saved.

If I can, leave the only person I can keep on my own, except for that fairy tale.

Then I too can, with great willingness, dedicate this life.

He quickly wrapped the bandage on his face, adjusted the scarf in front of the mirror, then turned around and took a step, leaving the four years buried in darkness behind him.

However, in the past four years, the darkness has completely soaked into his bone marrow.

He has, can no longer stand in the sun.

There is no longer any way to stand by the important people in the sun.

When that very familiar figure pointed a gun at him, Dazai felt his eyes flicker.

Everything around him was distorted, Lupine and the gimlet wine and the music about parting in his ears seemed to be floating in mid-air, and he only heard his own voice saying,

"Put the gun away."

"No way, the opponent is the embodiment of the night of this street after all, the leader of the mafia."

Oda's extremely calm tone, every word pierced his heart.

"If this is a trap set by the mafia, it should not be done."

"It never occurred to me to set a trap for you."

I no longer know what to do or what to say, my thoughts are fragmented, only my vocal cords are vibrating mechanically, "Odasaku, listen to me, I—"

"Don't call me Odasaku."

His best friend looked at him as if he had been touched by something dirty.

"There is no reason to be called that by the enemy."

The light words fell into the air, like the blade of a guillotine falling towards him.

What followed was pain, the unbearable pain of this crumbling heart, the pain made him almost cry, everything in his vision was blurred, only the smell of blood rose from the hollow in his chest.

...ahhh.

This is of course.

I am the chief culprit who caused the separation of the Akutagawa brothers and sisters, a pure villain with so much blood on his hands, of course he will be hated by Oda.

...If it wasn't in that fairy tale, of course I would, but I wouldn't get anything.

See, your friends are wary of you.And your little friend...he never even existed.

Fairy tales are just fairy tales.

There is always nothing in your palm.

He stumbled outside Lupine,

...Really, it was hard work.I'm so tired.Already, it's too hard to hold on.

Why do I have to work so hard?

Why, you have to do this all the way until now... all this, is it actually meaningless?

... Nah, ????.Why, in this world, you are not here?

...I really want to get out of here.I really want to escape.I don't want to hear anything.I don't want to see anything anymore.

Anyway, with a few hours to go, just—

"I have been to Japan so many times, but I have never been to Yokohama."

From the other side of the alley, a voice came.

"It's pretty tall, these buildings. Shall we go to Cosmic Clock 21 tomorrow, Kaka?"

The next sound took his breath away.

"Okay."

said the man.

... What are you doing.

What, joke, how could it be,

"I see that there is also a Yokohama Park nearby. It is said that the wisteria is blooming very well now. Let's go and see it together tomorrow?"

"You two are so playful, why do I just want to lie down now."

Donna said.

"I agree with both hands! Donna, if you are lazy, you can go with the two of us. You can make up your mind at the hotel~"

Alicia said.

"Seconded."

Now said with a smile.

"As long as you don't drink my new Asti Moscato."

It's him.

Whether it's the voice, the tone, or the things he cares about...it's definitely, without a doubt, him.

Dazai wanted to ask him.

……where have you been?Why did you lose the "book"?Why come here when my plans are about to be completed?

...Why, can't, appear by my side earlier?

...If you had come earlier, wouldn't I, wouldn't have to work so hard.

He wanted to cry for a moment, then thought so, wanted to go over there, buried in that person's arms, and told him all the pain and tiredness he had suffered in these years, and then he didn't care about anything, he didn't think about anything anymore.And so, in his arms a great dream until the end of the world—

— But he won't listen.

Today he is the leader of the Mafia, the "incarnation of the night", the most hated kind of person today.

What greeted him would not be accommodating and hugging, but only the black muzzle of the gun.

At some point, his back leaned against the wall, and he slowly slid down the wall, sitting on the ground, clutching his scarf tightly with his fingers, almost tearing it off.

He won't listen.There is no reason to believe in yourself.

And, he knew from the start that he himself was the greatest threat to the world.

Except for him, no one can take the initiative to know the truth of this world.At the same time, except for him, whoever knows the truth by accident can be erased from memory.

Therefore, even if they really believed in him... getting rid of him would still be the absolute optimal solution.

Moreover, even if they exist, the meaning of his existence in this world still does not exist.

...Because, in fact, he knew.Just like Odasaku is not the Odasaku of that world, they in this world are not in the real world, are they?

What he knows, it doesn't make any sense to do so, whether it is to become the leader, or to save the world and Oda Saku, whom he has never met.

He was just being willful for a while, using his life to pursue something in this cold, corrupt and false world.

So at this point, it doesn't matter anymore.There is no need.

And, if you were stared at with disgust and said "you are hopeless", then...

...He will, want to die until he can't wait for the last step of the plan.

In that case, his life would really be meaningless at all.

…So, the plans need not change.

They will definitely protect Yokohama.If that's the case, he won't be needed.

He can, go to the most secure and happiest home.

He leaned his head against the wall behind him, closed his eyes, and listened to the familiar voice gradually move away from him until he could no longer hear it.

...The only thing I was a little bit dissatisfied with was that I didn't know what it was like to be in his arms until the end.

The temperature transmitted from the back of the head is really... so cold.

The wind is raging all around, agitating the hem of the clothes, it feels like a kite, which can fly lightly to far away places.

Everything in the field of vision is also quietly bathed in the red of the setting sun, the red Ferris wheel, the red sea, the red floor-to-ceiling glass windows, the red earth, there is a strange romance.

The last thing I saw was this view, it was really nice.

"Mr. Dazai?!"

"Man in black……--"

It's just that it's a pity that the last thing I heard was the voices of these two people who were so worried.

But anyone who saw what he was doing would have this kind of reaction.

Then there is no way.

Dazai smiled, and fell backwards, his center of gravity crossing the boundary of the rooftop.

He was carried by the wind and fell into the gentle golden-red ocean.

The support from the roof is also gone, and then gravity will accelerate his body all the way, and the air will provide a negligible resistance, which is also good, allowing him to feel the real feeling of falling.

The kiwi bird, born without wings, will feel the same way when trying to experience flying.

The sound of the wind did not abate at all. He looked at the rooftop that was gradually moving away from him, and he couldn't see the earth behind him, but he still felt at ease.

Because it will definitely catch me, and it will welcome me grandly.

Ahhh...

Really, looking forward to it.

He closed his eyes, waiting for the final epilogue.

——But the speed of his descent stabilized and slowed down, the earth and the air betrayed him, his eyes widened in surprise, the surrounding city that had begun to blur gradually became clear, and the golden red color gradually faded , he saw that after the sun sank to the distant mountains, the lights gradually came on, and only a little golden afterglow sprinkled on the earth.

Then the sound of traffic and noise in the wind and all the happy laughter and laughter hit his eardrums so vividly, and he listened to these sounds in a daze, the sounds that belonged to "life" and the sounds that belonged to "world".

He was pulled back to the world.

This world is full of noise, full of decay, but so lively enough to make people yearn for it.

——Why, he wondered in a daze, why did his ability take effect on him...

Then he remembered that the scope of action of "When breath turns into air" is any air molecule...

Including but not limited to those in direct contact with his body, offset by "disqualification".

So, even though those air molecules are no longer under his control under "No Man on Earth"...

Their kinetic energy will not disappear, and adjacent air molecules can also achieve the effect by colliding with them.

...So, his abilities can affect him...and only he can.

Isn't that too much?Dazai thought.

Then he fell into an embrace, and the hot temperature transmitted through the clothes was directly transmitted to his heart——

It turns out that it is still beating, it turns out that it has been so cold all this time,——

Like a fire, like the sun, like everything related to warmth in this world.

The culprit who pulled him back to the world looked down at him, his golden eyes seemed to melt him with concern and a little helplessness: "Are you all right? Did you accidentally fall from such a high place?" ...Wait, wait, are you really okay? Don't cry..."

Warm liquid ran down his cheeks, but he couldn't feel himself crying.

Because of the indescribable sourness coming up from the deepest part of the heart, and the warmth rushing to the limbs, it clearly fell to the ground, but it was like being in a cloud.

...Obviously, they are strangers.Yokohama is so big, and if you don't pay attention, you won't notice the people in midair.

Obviously, if it wasn't for you, no one here would be able to save me.

...So, why did you still show up?

...why are you showing up here?

Such a thought flashed through his mind, and he wanted to say it, but he was already clutching the man's sleeve and weeping uncontrollably.

"I don't want to go on like this anymore...why, you want...to hinder me..."

"Is that so, did you jump off?"

The person in front of him spoke softly and patted his back with his hand.

"I'm sorry, I did it subconsciously. But, since it's already like this, even if it's out of my own selfishness, let's rest for a while, and then consider whether to do such a thing again, okay?"

"It was going to be successful... You pay me... You pay me..."

"Well, I will compensate you."

Jin Shi said that he picked him up and walked towards the street, his smile was like the first sunshine shining through the clouds after a long rain.

"Before that, let's take a break."

He is really stupid.

When his vision was hazy and his throat was swollen and aching, Dazai curled up in his arms, thinking vaguely.

Even if it is to appease the mentally unstable, it is not acceptable to agree so easily.

You have to be responsible to me for saving me so irresponsibly.

...So, although he hasn't decided what to do next, even though he is only in his arms for a while, just for a while.

However, be prepared to be relied upon for the rest of your life.

I am irresponsible Mr. Good Old Man.

The author has something to say:

As agreed before, the leader Zai Fanwai.

The current ability is probably the only one that can have a certain effect on him, but it has no chance to be used in the main story!

This point was thought of when this article was conceived, it was really a super foul hhhhh

"Kiwi Bird Born Without Wings" is a tribute to the idea of ​​a video I once watched. The content is a small kiwi bird without wings, tied many big trees under the cliff, and then jumped down, only To experience the feeling of flying over the woods.

The "????" in the middle is "Mr. Today".The use of vague symbols is not only to show that Jae feels that it is unnecessary to mention it, after all, the object referred to by this title does not exist, but also because of a "secret about other possibilities that only he knows". Psychologically.

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!