Ambush from all sides

You, what should you and Xiaoguai do? ! "

"You can do whatever you want, you don't need to worry about it." Withered Leaf hugged the baby coldly, even turned her body a little, and turned away, not looking at him.Cen Jing was so angry that he gritted his teeth a little bit, and couldn't help but growl in a low voice: "Cen Farewell, why are you so obsessed?!"

After hearing this, Dead Leaf couldn't help showing a funny expression on his face: "I'm obsessed? Cen Jing, you might as well ask yourself, who is obsessed?"

"Why are you so persistent all of a sudden? Yes, we are brothers, but we haven't been in touch for more than ten years, and we are completely strangers! Why do you come out out of nowhere and say these words out of nowhere?" Withered Leaf hugged Xiao Boy, staring at him coldly, his face full of unreasonable anger: "You don't care about me leaving you before, I am very grateful, you came to tell me Xiaoguai's date of birth, I don't think so Report. If you still agree that I am your brother, that’s fine, I will try my best to be a good brother, but that’s all. My life, my people, don’t need you to make irresponsible remarks. It's my own bad luck to be with others. At that time, you are willing to help or choose to make fun of it, it's up to you. But now, what happens to me and Zhan Hao has nothing to do with you. "

Dead Leaf has said everything that needs to be said, the guilt of the past ten years, Zhan Hao's feelings for him, and his feelings for the past two years, all laid out for Cen Jing to see clearly.He doesn't have much brotherly affection for Cen Jing, let alone anything else, Dead Leaf doesn't know how Cen Jing would want to bring himself into his sphere of influence, he just finds it inexplicable and unreasonable.

My younger brother has always had a weird temper.He clearly squeezed him out like that before, but now he is vying to protect him, and he was able to smile kindly before, but in a blink of an eye, he aggressively forced him to face the so-called "reality" - but he didn't know that this "reality" was also considered by him. Countless times.Making today's decision, Dead Leaf no longer thinks about the future.He is worthless, unable to withstand Zhan Hao's offensive.He is also afraid, he is also worried, but most of the time, he chooses to believe in Zhan Hao, believe in him, and believe in everything he has.

"Go back, go back to Kaifeng. You are the only heir of the Cen family, and the next successor will naturally be among your heirs. My little boy's surname is Zhan, and he will never be surnamed Cen." Withered Leaf moved the carriage expressionlessly. The curtain was lifted, her eyes were cold, she didn't look at Cen Jing.Cen Jing's whole body was icy cold from what he said, and his whole chest felt a heavy stagnation, as he breathed...slowly his throat was paralyzed.

He doesn't know where some obsessions come from, such as his second brother who is as cold as a rock.When I was a child, I saw this little brother was unhappy all day, thin, and didn't say a word, just staring at the big brother.He tried to cling to his little brother, but the young Cen Bie always avoided him and only got close to his big brother.If the eldest brother smiled at him, he would laugh foolishly for a long time, and then follow behind the eldest brother persistently.

Later, the young Cen Jing slowly discovered that...the elder brother doted on him even more.

So he got the weapon.

Stealing the younger brother’s snacks, snatching his pillow, pretending to be sick to attract the elder brother’s attention, deliberately provoking him, and then pretending to be pitiful... At first, Cen Jing didn’t think about how to hurt Cen Bie, but just hoped that he would spend more time. Just look at yourself, don't always look at Big Brother.But children are clumsy and careless after all, all kinds of unreasonable troubles, provocations and provocations by all means, in the end they only get deeper hatred and alienation.

When the eight-year-old Cen Jing saw his little brother sobbing and wiping tears while walking outside in anger, he realized that he seemed to have done something wrong.

I felt a little regretful and wanted to change my ways, but what followed was the death of my eldest brother and the sudden abandonment.

My brother must have hated him to death, that's why he left him alone.Cen Jing remembered that he was in a daze at that time, and the rain dripped from the dilapidated roof, wetting his face little by little.He saw Cen Bie hesitate at the door for a long time, and finally ran into the rain curtain cruelly.He wanted to stop his elder brother and tell him not to leave, but he promised his elder brother that he would take good care of him.Although he is still young now, he will slowly grow up and become as gentle and capable as a big brother, making him enough to admire and depend on.

But Cen don't go away. Eleven years later, when he saw his long-lost little brother again, Cen Jing realized that he had missed so many things about his brother in the years.All kinds of rumors, news that is difficult to distinguish between true and false, incidents that have been cut from the beginning to the end, and piecemeal deduction, cannot be assembled into a complete Cen Farewell.His face was covered with a mask of dead leaves, his face that had been choked with sobs and tears was completely expressionless, and even the eyes that looked at him lost the original hatred.

The past is irreparable, and the memory cannot be traced back. His second brother seems to have completely abandoned the past, just like leaving him in the rain that day.

But now, in this slowly moving carriage, looking at the cold face of the dead leaves, Cen Jing only thinks of the past, the similar atmosphere, the familiar rigidity, and the same cold face.This made him feel cold in his heart.

A long time ago, he tried his best to snatch everything that belonged to Cen Bie, and successfully made him stare at him fiercely.

After a long time, he planned everything, arranged everything, took all the things he took away, and even more things than that, and wanted to stuff them back to Cenbie, but the other party looked away indifferently, saying that I don't want it anymore.

What was taken away by him has been given by another person; what was hurt by him has been repaired by the other party.Now, my elder brother is with that person, likes him, relies on him, trusts him, and even gave birth to him.Cen Jing couldn't help thinking, if I had been earlier, or if I had been less willful when I was young, would things have been different?

There are some things that I can't think about, and when I think about it, I regret it and my heart hurts.My second elder brother is right across the street, with his eyes, his expression, and the baby in his arms who is very similar to that person... Tell him that things will not be different, because there are no ifs in the world.

"...You will have your own children, and one of them will be the next heir of the Cen family. My surname is still Cen, but I am no longer from the Cen family. But if you want, I will still be your second brother. If you don't If you want, we will have nothing to do with each other."

Looking at the dead leaf with an indifferent and calm face, Cen Jing just wanted to laugh at himself for a while.When I was young, I was too stupid and ruined my brotherhood. When I grew up, I couldn't think about it too much, and I was still stuck in the mistakes of the past and couldn't wake up. I didn't know that the other party had already gone far, far away when I was obsessed.

Is he smart?Why does the eldest brother favor him, and what is there to favor him?Eldest brother is really confused, why is the future of the Cen family in his hands?Isn't the eldest brother good at calculating? Why didn't he calculate that he has no heirs?

Cen Jing leaned against the wall of the carriage, couldn't help raising his head and laughing silently.Yes, he has no heirs, he has calculated... He is destined to have no sons and no daughters, and the Cen family is in his hands, and it will be utterly endless.Big Brother shouldn't let him be the heir, he should choose Cen Bie.The second brother has Xiaoguai, Xiaoguai is like his other father, and when he grows up, he will be able to manage the Cen family in a decent way—but the elder brother has pushed him to be the successor.

The ghost fox clan will eventually be extinct.

"I won't have an heir, I've counted it." Cen Jing smiled coolly, the corners of his mouth curled up reluctantly, looking extremely mocking: "Brother counts the sky, the earth, the fate, the current situation, but he can't count himself. I won't have an heir, no. I can't meet that person, without that person... I can't get it, and I will never get it!" Cen Jing was a little emotional Now, the louder and louder the words, the more incoherent the words: "You have Zhan Hao, what do I have! You have a son, what do I have! I used to have a big brother, I snatched him, but he died! You all thought I was Winner, but now you see, from the age of eight to now, I have nothing! What I want, I will never have, and it will never be mine!"

He gnashed his teeth and roared, his green eyes gradually glowed with excitement, and his voice began to hoarse.Withered Ye hugged Xiaoguai tightly, staring at him quietly, with no waves in his eyes.Facing such a violent younger brother, it is obvious that the other party is stronger than himself, from martial arts to those treacherous eyes... But Dead Leaf's power comes from nowhere, but he just feels not afraid, not at all.He seems to know a certain mechanism, as long as he finds it correctly and presses it, Cen Jing will calm down.

"We will meet." At that moment, Dead Leaf didn't know what he was talking about, he just hugged his gentle and weak son, opened and closed his lips quietly, and said slowly: " What you can't get is not yours. You can't fight for other people's things, and if you fight for them, they will stay for a long time. Your things will be waiting for you, and others can't grab them. You can't rush, you want wait."

Saying that, Dead Leaf raised her eyes, and stared fixedly at Cen Jing's green eyes, her eyes were clear and cold.His broken, mask-covered face looks like a demon at this time, and his long and narrow eyes seem to have practiced pupil art, quiet, but extremely deceptive.

"...Wait for him to come to you by himself."

eleven

When the dead leaves returned to Changzhou, it was already a quarter to three in the afternoon.Zhan Hao asked Ji Tang to pick him up at the door, the curtain of the carriage was pulled back, and there were only dead leaves holding the child inside, and Cen already disappeared.

"He's gone back, and I think he'll come back when Xiaoguai is one year old." The two brothers do have some similarities, such as awkwardness.But Cen Jing is a little better than him, so he should be able to think about it.Ji Tang blankly accepted the gift that Lu Fang asked Dead Leaf to bring home, and then followed him into the door.Withered Ye hugged Xiaoguai and hurried all the way to the lobby, from a distance one could see Zhan Hao sitting in the lobby with a faint smile on his face.Holding Xiaoguai in his arms, his steps couldn't help but become faster.However, when he reached the entrance of the lobby, he realized that there were still a few guests sitting opposite Zhan Hao.One is Di Deqing, and the other is actually Yan Heng!Withered Ye was taken aback, and couldn't help but paused, and stood at the door in a daze.

Zhan Hao was chatting and laughing with Di Deqing at first, when he suddenly saw him from the corner of his eye, they all turned to look over at the same time, and saw Dead Ye holding a little baby, looking at them with stiff eyes, with a fixed expression on his face. The look of eager anticipation.

"...You guys are busy." He hurriedly said this, lowered his head and walked quickly through the lobby to the middle hall.Seeing the disappointment in his eyes and feeling bad in his heart, Zhan Hao said "excuse me" and hurriedly chased after him.The few people left behind looked at each other, still guessing in their hearts.

Withered Ye walked into the room without saying a word, and Zhan Hao followed, took his shoulders into his arms, hugged him tightly, and softly comforted him: "What's the matter, did you see that Yan Heng was not happy?" gone?"

Withered Ye was holding the little guy in his arms, feeling a little dull for a while, and her voice was low and gloomy: "Don't you hate him, why do you still do business with him?"

"Boss Di told me not to be too extreme in doing things. When it's time to let go, I still have to give their family a way out." Zhan Hao buried his face in his neck and sniffed carefully, while explaining to him in a low voice: "Don't worry. , He doesn’t dare to think about me anymore. Even if he does, you don’t have to worry, your man won’t be pried away. "

Hearing his low and firm assurance, Dead Leaf muffled her mouth and nose, stopped talking, and just leaned her face on his shoulder.The two hugged quietly for a while, Zhan Hao let go of him a little, and reached out to touch his lower abdomen: "I was not here last night, did you apply the medicine properly?" Seeing Xiaoguai couldn't help shrinking, she replied in a muffled voice: "Yes, wipe it, don't touch it..."

Zhan Hao smiled and kissed his face, then stretched out his hand to touch Xiaoguai's tender face: "How about Xiaoguai, is there any obedient? Ah, yesterday Liu Yan helped the little guy find a nanny, she is quite young, the daughter of that family Just weaned, how do you feel?"

"It's fine if you decide not to, and ask me." Withered Leaf glared at him, then put Xiaoguai into his arms, and said a little tiredly: "After wandering in the carriage for several hours, I'm exhausted, I want to sleep With that said, he walked to the bed and lazily began to undress.Zhan Hao watched him take off his cotton-padded jacket with a smile, and said, "Then I'll take Xiao Guai to the lobby? If they ask, can I say you gave birth?"

"Tell me!" Withered Leaf gave him a funny look: "Anyway, no one will believe you if you tell me."

Zhan Hao said yes, and walked out with his son in his arms.When he walked to the door, he suddenly remembered something, stood on the threshold and turned to look at him, and asked with a smile: "Your brother...is he gone?" At these words, the movement of the body paused, and then he nestled into the mattress in silence.He turned sideways under the quilt, with half of his face pressed against the pillow, his eyes raised and tugged at Zhan Hao, and he said angrily, "Zhan Hao, is there anything in this world that you don't know?" Meaning Said that since you know, don't pretend here.

Zhan Hao smiled with narrowed eyes, raised his chin and said, "I don't know anything that has nothing to do with you." After speaking, he walked away with a smile in his arms.The dead leaves nestled in the thick quilt, squinting their eyes and silently pursing their lips and smiling.With a familiar smell lingering at the tip of his nose, he rubbed the ball vigorously under the blanket, then closed his eyes and fell into a deep sleep.

Cen Jing left, and left when he arrived in Suzhou on the way.When Dead Leaf said that sentence, his whole expression and movements expressed a resistance of disbelief.But the elder brother in front of him is so different from before, as if reborn, calm and indifferent, peaceful and determined.The growing vitality in him, he even held a small new life in his arms... If someone had described this scene to Dead Leaf two years ago, he would have thought it ridiculous.

But reality has developed like this.

Dead Leaf sat across from him, looking at him quietly and calmly, as if asking——what are you afraid of.

Why keep looking back, why you refuse to go forward, what are you afraid of, what is ahead.

At that moment, Cen Jing almost blurted out...not what is in front, but what is behind.You are behind, I keep looking back, it is you.But the clear and indifferent eyes of the dead leaves in front of him made him a little dazed again—is the second brother behind?He was obviously not there, he had already gone far away.What I have been looking back at is only the little brother Cen Bie who was wiping tears while walking more than ten years ago, and it is only the imagination and obsession that have always existed in my heart.

The second brother was not behind, and the one who was thrown far away was himself.

This discovery made it difficult for Cen Jing to breathe for a moment, the pain and oppression in his chest... The pain of seeing the truth made him uncomfortable, but it also made him sober.He kept trying to pull the dead leaves to his side, but the other side kept pushing him away with backhands.He is not his own, so he can't fight for it.

The sense of sobriety after the pain made people feel very at ease, just like being awakened from a dream. Although it was painful, he saw a clear path.There is a saying that is to be brave after knowing shame, which should be very suitable for Cen Jing at this time.The difference between him and Cen Bie is that after Cen Bie realized his mistake, he would complain and despise himself disheartened, but Cen Bie was different.He will feel angry, angry at his mistakes, angry at his incompetence and wrong judgment.

So he left, after staring at the dead leaves for a long time, a cool smile suddenly appeared on Cen Jing's face.

"Can I still see you later?"

"If you still treat me as an older brother, I will naturally welcome you."

Hearing the meaning behind his words, Cen Jing twitched the corner of his mouth mockingly, then stood up and jumped out of the carriage without looking back.

Dead Leaf doesn't know if Cen Jing will come to see him, it is impossible for him to take the initiative to visit Kaifeng, if he can't think about it, the two of them probably will never meet again.

If that's the case... Dead Leaf thought about it, and found that she wasn't very melancholy, nor did she feel much regret.He used to be brooding over his brother's preference, but after meeting Zhan Hao, this thought gradually faded or even disappeared.Although Cen Jing is his only relative, there will always be someone who leaves in his life.After they have walked with themselves for a while, they will fade out of their own world for various reasons.There will always be a lonely road, which must be endured alone.

Just like now, although Zhan Hao is with him, Dead Leaf still believes that at some point in the future, he will leave her due to some force majeure reasons, such as death.However, it is also possible that he left Zhanhao first.

Sooner or later, not now, but in the future.

The temperature at night is still cold. Although winter has passed, spring has not yet arrived... The long days in between are unspeakable snowmelt seasons.

After eating and taking a bath, Dead Leaf sat in the porch with Xiaoguai in her arms, her upper body leaning against the pillar, not wanting to move.Although he had told Zhan Hao that he would practice kung fu as soon as he could move, but these days he was always around Xiaoguai.The baby is delicate and cute. When I didn’t have a nanny before, it was always the little girl or him who was feeding me. Sometimes when I spit up milk or hiccupped, I was the one who hugged and took care of me.I don't know if it's the parent-child relationship or what, Xiaoguai is also very obedient around him, he doesn't even groan, and just dozes off obediently while being hugged by his father.

The new young wet nurse just fed him, and now he fell asleep again, and the little mouth was still sipping and sipping in the dream.Withered Ye lowered her head and looked at him with a slight smile, never getting tired of watching him.The little guy has long eyelashes, and he always pouts slightly when he sleeps, so he can't help but touch it.Sometimes when the teasing is too much, the little guy will rub against his body when he wakes up, and then he will suck his fingers for a while.Even if there is no liquid sucked out, it can be sucked with relish.

Withered Leaf reached out to caress the little guy's face, and after a while touched his head through the warm plush hat.Xiaoguai is a baby with double hair spin. I heard that such a child is smart.Dead Leaf doesn't really care about this, the little boy is like Zhan Hao, he doesn't need to worry about any looks or talent.On the other hand, those two hairs are twisted against each other, so the hair in the middle is squeezed and stood up, no matter how you comb it, it will not be smooth.Every time I look at the dead leaves, I feel awkward in my heart, and I can't help touching and pressing them. Later, Zhan Hao asked someone to make a hat to cover Xiaoguai's head, anyway, the weather is cold.

In his arms, Xiaoguai squinted his eyes and fell asleep. After a while, his hands felt a little sore from holding the dead leaves, so he changed his position and prepared to take him into the room.But as soon as he picked him up and stood up, the little guy hiccupped and spit out a little milk.Dead Leaf was a little helpless, so she had no choice but to stand still, took out a small milk towel specially used for wiping milk to help him wipe off the milk stains, and then kept stroking his back, finally letting out all the gas in the little guy's stomach.

Walking slowly towards the door and reaching the steps, Dead Leaf involuntarily glanced at the middle hall.Zhan Hao was there talking to Uncle Zhong before, so he wondered if he was done with his work now.In the dark night, the cold wind was blowing slowly in the courtyard, and the dead leaves saw that on the other side of the central hall, Zhan Hao and Nie Qi were standing face to face, two people who were exactly the same, their expressions were indifferent, not tight Talking slowly.

Withered Leaf's heart tightened, thinking of Nie Qi's deadline in a few days, she couldn't help but hugged the little guy and walked there a few steps.

Getting closer, Dead Leaf could clearly see the expression on Zhan Hao's face, which was calm and somewhat melancholy.He frowned and lowered his eyes, he seemed to disapprove of Nie Qi's words, but he had to agree.Nie Qi curled his lips and smiled quietly, his eyes were so gentle that he looked at his son who was exactly like him, with a calm demeanor.The father and son stood silently for a while, Nie Qi reached out and patted Zhan Hao's shoulder, then turned around and walked towards the lobby in a leisurely manner.

Dead Leaf's eyes widened, and her heart suddenly became tense.He carried Xiaoguai and walked quickly to the middle hall, and walked behind Zhan Hao.Hearing his footsteps, Zhan Hao slowly turned his face away, the expression on his face was calm but a little helpless.

"Where is he going, Dad? Isn't it the second year of junior high school today? Why is he still..." Withered Ye couldn't help being a little anxious, lowered her voice, and couldn't stop looking at Nie Qi.Zhan Hao gently reached out to hold him, and pulled him back: "It's okay, don't worry, he will come back."

Dead Leaf was anxious and worried, and wanted to say something, but didn't know how to organize the words.After being dragged into the yard by Zhan Hao, he still couldn't help but look back frequently... Nie Qi had already walked out the door, and the door was slowly closed.The cold night wind was blowing quietly, Zhan Hao held his shoulders tightly, and hugged him to his side, with his face drooping and his eyes gloomy and dull.

"It's okay... I'll be back."

He murmured such a sentence in a low voice, he didn't know whether to say it to the dead leaves or to himself.Father will come back because mother is here.He went out, not to do other things, but to prepare a coffin for himself.However, even knowing this, Zhan Hao still felt gloomy in his heart, as if he was pressed by something in his heart, and he couldn't breathe freely.

He always thought that he should not have much affection for Nie Qi, his father who had no real communication with him.But now, watching him slowly go to death, watching him prepare for his own funeral, I still feel melancholy and gloomy in my heart.

They were going to go the same way, but he escaped; they both had loved ones, but their mother died early.

Nie Qi was always alone.

Zhan Hao thought of last year...ah no, it was the year before last.In the early winter of last year, he said to himself, what is so hard in life, it is just loneliness.He also said, you still have hope, if you have to persevere, it is possible if you persevere.

But Nie Qi had already lost any possibility.

For a moment, the emotions in his heart couldn't be expressed, Zhan Hao could only hug his lover tightly, hugged his children... relying on them, hoping to calm down a little bit.It's a different feeling as a father than as a son.There is always a layer of immersive emotion between having memories and having experiences.

He's a father now, so there are some things he understands.

The lake in the back mountain began to thaw.

In the morning, he was supposed to take Fang Qiu to dig a hole in the ice for fishing, but Zhan Hao pressed the ice surface and said that he might not be able to stand up if he walked in, so the hole-drilling fishing turned into ice fishing.Fang Qiu was hugged by the dead leaves and stood by the lake, his face was buried in his clothes, and he whispered that Grandpa Nie brought me to dig a hole last year, where did Grandpa Nie go?

Zhan Hao pinched his cheek, smiled lightly, and didn't speak.Withered leaves hugged Fang Qiu tightly, feeling heavy in her heart, not knowing what to do.

Fang Qiu didn't know Nie Qi's fate, but only knew that Grandpa Nie was as gentle and caring as his father, and liked to be with Grandpa Nie.Death is still too far away for him, Fang Qiu is too young, Zhan Hao doesn't know if he can bear such a thing.

You can only hide it from day to day.

The dead leaves are also restless these few days, hugging Xiaoguai, there is no smile on her face.Zhan Hao is a little bit better, sometimes when he eats, he will go out of his mind while eating, and he can still pinch his nose with a smile and twist him back.Withered Ye rubbed his nose and looked at him gloomily, looking at his exactly the same eyebrows and eyes as Nie Qi, his eyes like a deep pool, thinking about the upcoming fifth day in his heart, he couldn't help but feel sad...why Nie Qi I didn't run away, so time kept passing.

How can time not stop at the most perfect time.

So worried that on the fifth day of the lunar new year, Nie Qi didn't show up for the whole day.

Zhan Hao continued to deal with some matters one after another with a calm face, reading some newspapers.Withered Ye was always worried, sitting in the room, or wandering in the yard, always felt uneasy, couldn't help holding Xiaoguai to the door of the study to see him.Seeing Zhan Hao's silence in the room, he wanted to ask something, but he didn't go in after all, but stood hesitantly at the door, hesitating to speak.Zhan Hao looked up and saw him, a soothing and gentle smile slowly appeared on his calm face, the two looked at each other quietly for a while, then Zhan Hao lowered his head again.

This day is cloudy.

The little girls felt a little weird to some extent, because the always sticky young master and young lady fell silent in a rare way.The expressions and eyes are extremely restrained, and occasionally they look at each other, as if a thousand words are in their hearts, their eyes are entangled in the air for a while, and then they quietly separate.Both Min Wei and Ji Tang felt strange, but they didn't seem to be quarreling and angry, it seemed... It was because of other people's affairs.

Fang Qiu also felt that something was wrong, he was still depressed when eating at night, muttering while eating, saying that Daddy and Daddy were not happy at all.After thinking of something for a while, he turned his small face to look at Zhan Hao, and asked in a muffled voice, "Daddy, where is Grandpa Nie? I haven't seen him for a few days, and he said he would make a pony for me. "

Zhan Hao touched his round head with a smile, and said in a low voice, "After dinner, Daddy will take you to him, okay?"

Fang Qiu blinked, and obediently replied "Yes", and then began to chop the rice quickly.When the people at the table heard this, their eyes darkened for a moment, and they instantly understood the reason for Nie Qi's departure.The dining room suddenly became quiet, only Fang Qiu was munching on the rice, and the chopsticks knocked on the edge of the bowl, making a slight "cracking" sound.

At the same time, Nie Qi was standing next to his wife's tombstone, wrapping a delicate bamboo wind chime around a low-hanging peach branch.

The night wind is blowing coolly on the treetops, the wind chimes are ringing lightly, and the clouds in the dark blue night sky are wispy, and the moon cannot be seen.Nie Qi quietly leveled the ground around the tomb. Behind him, in a big pit more than half a foot deep, lay a coffin made of new wood.

There was a pile of soil beside the pit, and the hem of his clothes was dirty and covered with mud.

Slowly sitting down on the muddy floor in front of the tomb, Nie Qi didn't bother to care if he would be covered in dirt.Anyway, it's going to be buried in the soil soon, and when the coffin decays, it will still melt into the mud, it's the same.

Leaning against the tombstone, Nie Qi took a breath, then raised his head, staring blankly at the hazy night sky.

60 years, I think about it now, but it's just a snap of the fingers.From birth to the last moment, I sorted out my memory and found that the ones I remember most deeply are just those few people. The mission, fate, plan, and scheming before the age of 30 are all lost now.The image that keeps flashing in my mind is just the timid and grateful eyes of my lover in the drizzle when we first met.

Mulian is much younger than him.When we first met, he was already 29, and the little girl was only fifteen.A little bit older, he dared not even speak loudly to his mother, but in the end he was able to leave his hometown for him.

Thinking of how she ran all over the Central Plains to find him after giving birth to Zhan Hao... Such a timid woman, thin and confused, did not know how much she had to go through to find him.

I don't know how she died in a foreign land.

Many things will only be realized after the past, but this mistake may just be a joke deliberately made by God on him.He left because he wanted to stay together for a long time, but in the end he didn't find a way to break his fate, and instead lost the person he wanted to stay with.Looking back on his whole life, the time of real happiness was only a little over a year - such a short one year made him think about the remaining 30 years over and over again.

Zhan Hao is like him.Back then when he lived in that small house with Mu Lian, he often went to tease the little girl, make her laugh, make her angry, and then make her happy again.Although Mu Lian was timid, she was really stubborn in her temper, and it was difficult to coax her anger.But most of the time, she blushed from being teased, looked at him with shyness and sweetness in her eyes, murmured "I don't care about you" with her mouth coquettishly, turned around twistingly, and then Stealing eyes turned to look at him.

If possible, if there is an opportunity, he also wants to hold his sweetheart in the palm of his hand like a son treats his daughter-in-law, love her well, take good care of her, and promise her his whole life.Let her be hurt when she is sick, coaxed when she is unhappy, and happy every day...but he chose the wrong one after all.

If you don't expect so much, just stay together for these 30 years, even if Mu Lian wants to send herself to the earth today, she probably won't have so many regrets.It's just that love always makes people greedy, and 30 years is not enough, how can it be enough... I looked at the pot before eating the bowl, and even the bowl was broken after all.

Do you regret it?

If you ask Nie Qi this question that Zhan Hao asked himself, he will definitely answer...regret.

In his life, in this whole life, the most important thing that cannot be ignored is the word "regret" that weighs on Mu Lian.

After leaning against the tombstone for more than half an hour, it was almost midnight.Nie Qi took out a light yellow pony made of reeds from his bosom, raised his eyes, and saw the direction of the city gate, Zhan Hao was holding Fang Qiu, with one arm around Xiao Guai's withered leaves, and he was quietly facing Come here.

The night was too dark, Nie Qi couldn't see their expressions clearly, only knew that they were his son and daughter-in-law.The two walked side by side, one was a little taller, both held the child in their arms, and their walking pace was surprisingly consistent.Fang Qiu was wrapped in a thick little cloak, hugged his father's neck tightly, looked around in the dark uneasily, pouted his mouth and murmured, "Why did Grandpa Nie come to such a dark place... ..."

Zhan Hao smiled lightly, stretched out his hand to touch his little face that was blown cold by the night wind, and asked in a low voice, "Is Fang Qiu afraid of the dark?"

"Well," the child buried his face in his father's neck and muttered in a low voice, "there are ghosts outside at night."

Zhan Hao blinked his eyes lightly, stretched out his hand to support the child's buttocks.Withered Ye tightly hugged the little girl who was still sleeping deeply, her eyes were downcast and she didn't speak.Zhan Hao's hands were tightly wrapped around his shoulders, the feeling of solidity and reliability, the feeling of clinging to each other... Thinking of the tomb of her mother-in-law Mu Lian standing not far in front, and Nie Qi quietly waiting for death, the dead leaves I couldn't help feeling sad for a while.

"Father... is he over there?" It was too dark to see over there, and did not dare to look over there, Dead Ye lowered his eyes and asked this question in a depressed manner.Zhan Hao quietly looked at Nie Qi from a distance while walking, and said in a deep voice, "Yes, he is looking at us."

The icy night wind blew past, and Dead Leaf's body and mind shuddered, and she couldn't help but hug Xiaoguai a little tighter.At the foot of the mountain not far away, there was a crisp sound of bamboo wind chimes, clear and bright, like the sound of spring rain hitting the water.

This reminded him of the water drops falling from the stalactites on the top of the cave when Lin Zhihuan was trapped in the cave a long time ago.

That was the first time he met Nie Qi. At that time, he mistook him for Zhan Hao.It wasn't until Nie Qi pulled him to the ground after escaping from the mouth of the spring that he could clearly see the person in front of him.This elder with a warm and tender smile like the scorching sun in autumn, the father of his lover, the man who has been bound by fate... is about to die.

When he saw Nie Qi sitting lazily on the ground with a reed pony in his hand beside the tombstone, the dead leaves choked his throat, and he couldn't help feeling sad.Zhan Hao let go of his shoulders, walked forward quietly with Fang Qiu in his arms, knelt down in front of Nie Qi, and said in a low voice, "...we are here."

Nie Qi touched Fang Qiu's face with a smile, and said, "Why is there such a big battle, didn't you ask you to come alone?"

"Fang Qiu misses you, saying that you still owe him a pony." Zhan Hao put Fang Qiu down and let him nestle into Nie Qi's arms with his little mouth pouted, complaining softly : "Grandpa Nie, it's so late, why are you running so far, Fang Qiu has been looking for you for a long time, it's dark, scared..."

Nie Qi put his arms around him, smiled and kissed the child gently on the face: "What are you afraid of, don't be afraid. Come on, grandpa promised your pony. Grandpa has traveled many places to find reeds." Now, Nie Qi will drag