winter silence

Why does he like Zhang Wei, Xu Cen'an once asked himself, in some embarrassing and helpless moments.

In fact, when he was a child, Zhang Wei had many ideas, he could play and make trouble, and he was also protected by his younger siblings. He looked like a big brother.

Xu Cen'an once hid upstairs to watch the children playing together in the yard. It was impossible not to envy him. His eyes followed Zhang Wei like everyone else, and what he thought in his heart was, how much he would do if he could protect me too. good.

He is not completely restricted in his freedom, but he is not allowed to mix in the games of children.Mrs. Xu didn't want an illegitimate child to show up and make her a joke.

That day, when Zhang Wei fell on him, Xu Cen'an was actually a little happy, and never blamed Zhang Wei afterwards.At that moment, the time was mottled on their faces, and he felt a little sense of accomplishment and being needed.

He caught Zhang Wei, and he can protect others, this realization made little Xu Cen'an happy for a long time.Even if he fell to the ground and hit his head, even if he was locked up afterwards.

If he had never met Zhang Wei again, perhaps Zhang Wei would always be just a symbol in his heart.

He was very grateful to Zhang Wei who caught him at the corner that day.

You will protect me too, just like I expected when I was a child.

They did have some intimate moments.Not the euphoria or the ecstasy, but the small, even insignificant details.Every night when he woke up from a nightmare, Zhang Wei would pat him unconsciously, and then gently hold him in his arms.Every time he stretched out his hand from under the quilt, Zhang Wei would hand over the tie, and then bent down to look at him intently.

His panic, his hope, seemed to be answered, but unfortunately it was just an illusion.In fact, the life of being fostered is no different from his life in Xu's family, it is a kind of decent indifference.

He also wants to act like a baby and get what he wants, and he also wants to ask casually without any psychological burden.Zhang Wei later hugged him and explained that as long as Xu Cen'an mentioned something to him, he would stand up for him.

It's boring.He doesn't have backbone either, he just doesn't like to make demands.If you ask for it, you will give it, but no one will take the initiative to ask you.Just because they are not cared about and cared about makes people feel that they are a burden.

Fortunately, on that birthday, Zhang Wei did not come back to accompany him, and did not respond to him.Otherwise, he might fall into the sweet illusion and say something beyond the rules, which would make him as ridiculous as a clown.

The moment he stood in front of Xu Keyu, Xu Cen'an suddenly didn't want anything anymore.

really tired.

If they like each other, why bring themselves?

This day he saw Zhang Wei again, after a year and a half, what was he thinking at that time.

This person is still dazzling from the beginning to the end, making people's eyes follow involuntarily.

But he quickly looked away.Xiao wondered what would happen to things that did not belong to him, he knew very well.

For example, he once wanted to get his father's care and lost his freedom and hearing.Later, he shouldn't have gone to Xiao to think that he would get a response from Zhang Wei, because his dignity was long gone.

On this day, Xu Zhiye asked Xu Cen'an to send off two friends, and it was already late at night after they were delivered.Xu Cen'an was walking in the quiet neighborhood, wanting to walk slowly for a while before making plans.

After meeting that day, he and Xu Zhiye exchanged contact information.Xu Cen'an would chat with Xu Zhiye about Mr. Xu's physical condition and mood, and Xu Zhiye also went back to accompany his grandfather for dinner every few days.

He knew what Mr. Xu meant, but his character was not as obedient as he showed, he was not so sensible, he was not so good.What's more, Young Master Xu is very kind and pure, and deserves better.

Xu Cen'an learned from Mr. Xu that Young Master Xu's father passed away very early, and his mother remarried and left Xu Zhiye, who had just passed his tenth birthday, to Xu Jin. Check back.

Xu Cen'an can understand why Xu Zhiye doesn't want to fall in love, but he himself is broken, how can he mend the bitterness of others.

After walking a few steps, there was a car following him step by step, without honking the horn, he followed silently, and turned on the light for him, illuminating the empty boulevard.

His shadow is stretched long, false, and pretending to be tall.Xu Cen'an knew that this man had been following him since he left the house.

Xu Cen'an stopped, not knowing what he was thinking.The car also stopped on the side, with the window down, it was Zhang Wei, who smiled at him cautiously, "An'an, it's so late, the temperature has cooled, and it's not easy to take a taxi, let me see you off."

Xu Cen'an turned to him, tilted his head and asked, "What did you say?"

The expressions of the people in the car froze for a moment, as if they had been stabbed.Zhang Wei came down, quickly approached Xu Cen'an, and put a suit jacket on him.Xu Cen'an didn't refuse, didn't get angry, didn't criticize, but just looked at Zhang Wei quietly and suspiciously.

Zhang Wei supported Xu Cen'an's shoulders with both hands, bent over and asked him seriously, "An'an, let me see you off, okay? It's too late, it's not safe for you to walk alone."

Xu Cen'an felt Zhang Wei's breath on his face, his eyes drooped, and he asked politely and distantly, "Mr. Zhang, is there a problem with my liquidated damages?"

Zhang Wei replied eagerly, "No, An An. I really miss you, and I want to apologize to you." Zhang Wei didn't want to hear Xu Cen'an talk to him so indifferently.In the Xu family before, Xu Cen'an treated him as a stranger, and he didn't want to experience the pain of being a stranger again.

Xu Cen'an raised his eyes and looked at Zhang Wei, "Why do you have to apologize. You don't owe me anything, what is our relationship, we agreed at the beginning. When the time is up, I should leave. Are you worrying about me leaving without permission? ?”

Xu Cen'an was really puzzled, he didn't understand why Zhang Wei made such a move, pretended so carefully, and was so wronged and sad.

Zhang Wei refused to accept that the relationship between them was pure support. He tried to prove that their relationship was not that, and said, "But, but you didn't ask for money, and you like..."

Xu Cen'an didn't let him say the rest, and interrupted him, "What I asked for was only used to pay the liquidated damages, and it ended up in your pocket. But it was written in black and white on the contract. I am unable to continue working due to my own reasons and deserve to be paid."

Xu Cen'an seemed to be afraid that Zhang Wei would expose his previous cheap and unbearable thoughts, and added, "You are not obliged to give me anything other than money, for example, you are not obliged to give me care."

"No, it's not an obligation." Zhang Wei would rather Xu Cen'an get angry at him, vent his dissatisfaction with him, it's too uncomfortable, why is it like this.He said again and again, "I, I remembered, I was the one who caused you to hit your head, and it was I who lied, which caused you to be suspected. It was my fault."

Xu Cen'an shook his head, "You don't need to apologize. This is my family affair, and it's the original sin I've carried since I was born. It's wrong to destroy other people's families or relationships."

"I shouldn't destroy your relationship with Xu Keyu." Xu Cen'an gently pushed away Zhang Wei's hand on his shoulder, and added in his heart, if you like him, you should chase him openly.

His mother is a mistress for others, and he is a little lover for others, just like the reproduction of tragedy.

Fortunately, he cannot have children.

Tragedy ends with itself.

He actually wanted to ask his mother why he chose such a path at that time, and whether he would regret it.

It's a pity he didn't have this opportunity.

"An'an, I like you. I'm just, I'm a jerk, I..."

The indistinct voice chased after him, and he couldn't hear clearly, but it didn't matter.He didn't want to stumble again, he was already in a mess.