secret movie

This is the second time Duan Shu heard this sentence.

Looking at this increasingly familiar face, long and distant memories flooded into my mind like a tide.

Three years ago, in Director Lin's studio, he was invited to audition. He said it was an audition, but in fact the starring role was almost confirmed to be him. That day passed more to act for those who were competing for other roles.

Director Lin and a group of main creators sat on the sidelines with serious expressions, watching the performance of the actors. The person sitting in the farthest corner should have been inconspicuous, but he always attracted the attention of everyone present.

Yao Xiaoxiao followed him and whispered, "I searched for the screenwriter teacher's works after breakfast that day. I actually watched his last movie. It was very good. I didn't expect him to be so handsome."

The crew always likes to refer to people with a little bit of status as teachers, photography teachers, and lighting teachers, which sounds very respectful and avoids the embarrassment of remembering wrong names.

Duan Shu listened to her whispered gossip, smiled, and turned to meet that person's eyes.

At this moment, the actors in the center of the room had just finished their performance, watching Director Lin's reaction anxiously, while Director Lin lowered his head to discuss something with the producer beside him.

The room was noisy and filled with the voices of different people. In this noisy atmosphere, the person sitting in the corner raised his eyebrows and smiled at Duan Shu.

"Long time no see, Teacher Duan."

At that time, I thought about it. It was less than a month since the encounter in the hotel restaurant. During this period, he and Director Lin talked about this new film in preparation, finalized the details of the contract, and finished reading the script. It didn’t take long. .

But out of politeness, he still responded with a smile: "Long time no see."

When the other party heard the words, there seemed to be a fleeting disappointment in his eyes. Duan Shu still didn't understand the origin of that emotion, and was quickly distracted by the busy schedule of that day. The details are thrown into the depths of memory.

Now he remembered that a long time ago, when Duan Shu was not yet famous and could appear in public undisguisedly, he always liked to go to a cafe with the back next to the inland river, because it was between the city and the city. Between the hustle and bustle of nature and the tranquility of nature, there is the richest and most distant sound.

He loves the sound, and he likes to order a soft and fragrant muffin stacked with rich ice cream and luscious strawberries.

In the winter when everything is withered, the river freezes, covered with snowflakes that fell last night, and the world is white, which is a very beautiful scenery. Guests who come to the cafe like to take pictures on the ice.

Duan Shu seems to be gentle and easy-going, so there will always be people who ask him for help, including some of the opposite sex who want to strike up a conversation.

Those days of lazing around in cafes may seem repetitive, but one day is special.

After taking photos of a pair of girls who came together, he returned to the room from the cold wind, and heard the guest sitting next door talking about himself.

One of them was a silly layman, but he knew Duan Shu, who was unknown at the time, and wanted to invite him to act in a movie.

The other person is the most common kind of egomaniac in the film and television industry, who seems to know all the actors and stars from the first to the eighteenth, and immediately agrees, as if he knows Duan Shu better than Duan Shu himself.

While Duan Shu was astonished, he found it interesting. He turned his eyes and quietly looked at the layman who was being fooled.

With his outstanding looks, slouchy jacket, and expensive watch, he looks like a deceitful rich second generation who accidentally fell into the trap of a big-mouthed producer.

Duan Shu didn't want to pay attention to it at first, because he couldn't predict how this stranger, whom he met by chance, would react when he knew that the actor he liked was by his side.Anyway, he doesn't know the producer at all, and it won't be long before the rich second generation will know that this is just a lie.

But Duan Shu heard the other party's eager voice, and he was so eager to show his weakness.

——"If he can play the male lead, I can accept the script changes, and I can also sign with others."

It turns out that the rich second generation is a screenwriter.

For the screenwriter, the story written by himself is like his own child, but the other party is willing to give up these rights just to invite an unknown actor.

It was difficult for Duan Shu to describe his feelings at that moment. He saw a strong light in that person's eyes.

So he spoke out of nowhere.

And then, he saw the other party's scorching gaze, like a long-lasting fire, which was the strangest thing he couldn't resist.

It was the first time Duan Shu left. He left the familiar cafe and never went there again.

Perhaps it was because he realized that he, who won the best newcomer award, would start to be noticed, and he could no longer casually appear in cafes frequented by industry insiders.

Perhaps it was because he was afraid of chasing his gaze so intently.

Is he worth chasing like that?

Duan Shu didn't know the answer, but his childhood, which had long been buried in the dust, seemed to be whispering to him through his subconscious.

He is often punished because he has been doing wrong and is always unsatisfactory.

How can such a person deserve to be loved by others?

Duan Shu quickly forgot about the rich second generation who didn't know his name. The other party was just a stranger he met by chance, not even a colleague at work, so he would not be recorded in that cold file.

When he met that person again, he knew that the other person was a hot new screenwriter with a nice pseudonym, Xia Xun.

Xia Xun, who appeared as a colleague, was of course included in that file, but there was very little description under his name, not because there was nothing to say, but because Shi Shu had a very close relationship with him at that time.

They met because they were also dissatisfied with Director Lin's old works, and they often communicated during the preparation of the new film, always discussing the stories in the script and fictional characters... Gradually, they found that they had many similarities with each other.

The actions of characters in fictional scripts often reflect the author's own intentions. When talking about stories, they are often talking about each other's lives outside the story.

Director Lin's favorite script is a light-hearted and humorous road movie, filled with a lot of dialogue and unexpected plot twists, which has the temperament of a European literary film.

After the audition, there were lively and polite greetings everywhere in the room. Xia Xun walked up to him and asked him how he felt after reading the script.

Duan Shu thought for a while, and replied: "It seems that Director Lin was deeply impressed by the failure last time, and he still wants to make a really good-looking road movie."

Xia Xun smiled: "When he said he wanted this book, I thought so too."

"This book is very good." After laughing, Duan Shu answered his question seriously, "I like this story very much."

"Really?" Xia Xun still had a smile in his deep eyes, but his tone was equally serious, "Compared to the script that won you the Best Newcomer Award?"

It was "White Forest" written and directed by Lu Mingye, and it was also the opportunity for Duan Shu to become a professional actor.

But after "Halftime Murder", which left a classic detective image on the big screen, was born, few people will mention that relatively small debut to Duan Shu, because it is not considered in terms of box office and artistic achievements. protrude.

But Xia Xun was exceptionally sharp.

Duan Shu thought for a while, and said without hesitation: "Tied for first place."

In "Day Forest", he is an ordinary person who is trapped in the predicament of life and is gradually going to destruction.

In this untitled new film, he gradually reconciles with his past during the long journey.

Those are two completely different lives, wrapped in an exquisitely woven plot, both inexplicably attract Duan Shu, making it difficult for him to tell who is better.

After hearing this answer, Xia Xun didn't speak any more, and Yao Xiaoxiao, who was listening carefully to their conversation, didn't even protest. This sentence will not offend Lu Mingye, nor will it offend Xia Xun.

But it wasn't until a few months later that Duan Shu realized that the problem wasn't just about the script.

The production team finished the preliminary preparations, and the official shooting will start soon. Since there are a lot of exterior scenes in the script, the shooting time this time is very long, almost two months, including several shooting locations.

The entire crew had to face each other day and night in a near-closed manner for two months. During the intense and busy filming work on weekdays, it was inevitable that many personal relationships developed.

Who is in love with whom, who is cheating on whom, the well-informed Yao Xiaoxiao often shares these gossips with Duan Shu in private, and Duan Shu often laughs it off, but he never thought that one day he would become the center of gossip.

That day in the nanny's car, Yao Xiaoxiao hesitated to speak, but Duan Shu took the initiative to ask her what happened.

"Brother Duan, you and..." Yao Xiaoxiao's expression was tangled, but finally he mustered up his courage and said, "Do you know that Teacher Xia likes you?"

After being stunned for a moment, Duan Shu asked back, "Why do you ask that?"

"Everyone is spreading the word about it. It seems that Director Lin's assistant slipped his tongue two days ago, saying that Teacher Xia wrote the script for you, plus some of his performance on weekdays... I'm afraid that the news will spread. There will be bad voices afterwards, after all, you are the same sex."

Yao Xiaoxiao said vigorously: "I know you may not care, and I don't want to interfere with your private life, but, as a friend, I always feel..."

"You don't seem to know that Teacher Xia likes you."

So Duan Shu was silent for a long time, then nodded slightly, indicating that he had heard.

He really didn't know about it.

Because he doesn't know what liking is.

Duan Shu suddenly began to recall.

Xia Xun is always very rude when speaking, and even Director Lin can't escape his harsh criticism. He doesn't seem to care about the so-called personal connections, nor does he care about the prospects for development in the circle.

But only when dealing with Duan Shu, his attitude is special.

The pre-written script sometimes needs to be modified according to the actual situation. Sometimes director Lin will have a whim, and sometimes individual actors will try to euphemistically add some roles to themselves. Most of these requests are not kept by Xia Xun. Rejected sympathetically, and only approved some really necessary revisions.

Duan Shu's habit is never to make suggestions on the script, but Xia Xun often asks him what he thinks about the next scene, if there is anything he wants to modify, and sometimes he will even take the initiative to pick on the script he wrote. Suggest ideas for improvement.

He seemed to be trying to activate something.

The strict and ruthless Xia Xun, as the screenwriter of the team, dared to refuse many inexplicable revision requests, so he had a lot of free time.

In the busy studio, Xia Xun is like an outsider, often holding a notebook and writing something in an inconspicuous corner.

Director Lin was full of curiosity about his behavior, and wanted to know if he was writing a script. If it was suitable, he could pre-determine it, so as not to worry about not having a good story after the filming was finished.

But Xia Xun always made him feel bad, and made the crew members who got along well with each other burst into laughter.

In the corner with his back to the crowd, when it was Duan Shu's turn to rest, he occasionally asked Xia Xun curiously what he was doing, and the other party would tell him the answer frankly.

"Recording the inspiration for a story."

"What kind of story is it?" Duan Shu's curiosity was measured, "If you can tell it."

He remembered Xia Xun smiled at that moment: "As long as you ask, I will tell you."

"This is a story about alternatives."

"alternatives?"

"When people meet, they will come first and then come first. When that important position is occupied, the latecomers can only look at the sea and sigh. Sometimes they will even be used by the loved ones, suffering and suffering, but they are unwilling to escape."

"Sounds like a sad story."

"Well, but not necessarily, I haven't figured out the final outcome yet." Xia Xun watched him, "Some latecomers will become birds in the cage, and some latecomers will become winners."

It was a prophecy carved long ago.

While Duan Shu recalled, the bystander Yao Xiaoxiao was also trying to summarize his feelings.

"Ms. Xia seems to be here for you." She said, "Compared with you, everything else is not important to him."

It turned out that this is like.

Yao Xiaoxiao still wanted to ask further, she wanted to know if her boss had the same feelings for that straightforward and enthusiastic screenwriter, so that she could prepare for the public opinion in advance, but from Duan Shu's expression, she realized that Even Duan Shu himself didn't know the answer.

So she withdrew those unspoken questions, and whispered: "Brother Duan, no matter what you think, I will stand by your side. If you want to fall in love, whether you want to hide it or make it public, there is a corresponding answer." Way, if you don't like Teacher Xia, I will also clear up the rumors for you."

Duan Shu stays away from the crowd, and never enjoys the attention and fame that young actors are accustomed to. He does not come to film for money. Yao Xiaoxiao often secretly wonders what his boss likes.

If he really has someone he likes, no matter what the identity or gender of the other person is, Yao Xiaoxiao thinks that is a good thing.

In the assistant's very considerate words, Duan Shu relaxed a little, but he couldn't make a choice immediately.

When he saw Xia Xun the next day, he subconsciously dodged his eyes, and the latter soon noticed the clue.

"Sorry, this matter should have been kept secret, did it bother you?"

He took the initiative to find Duan Shu to apologize.

"It's okay." Duan Shu asked him, "So... is this script really written for me?"

"Yeah." Xia Xun responded quickly, "If Director Lin didn't choose you later, I will take back the script."

Duan Shu couldn't help laughing: "This will violate the contract."

"that's not important."

So what matters?

A flash of light flashed in his mind, and Duan Shu suddenly asked him, "Why did you choose this pseudonym?"

Xia Xun is still honest: "That is a very distant story."

"How far away?"

"At that time, because I didn't know what to do in the future and felt depressed, I would go racing in the suburbs with my friends."

Hearing him describe himself like this, Duan Shu couldn't help laughing, and then the picture of the lightning speed appeared in front of his eyes.

"My parents arranged for me a path that I didn't believe in. I didn't want to go, and I didn't know what I liked." There was self-mockery in his voice, "Young people who are about to graduate are always confused, and they have Infinite energy to unleash."

"After riding the car for dinner and drinking, I can no longer ride a bike after drinking. In the city late at night, the shopping malls are closed. I don't want to go to nightclubs and Internet cafes, only the movie theater is left."

Hearing these three words, Duan Shu seemed to have anticipated the story he was about to tell.

"I chose a movie that opened the fastest. When I bought the ticket, I didn't even read the title. I just wanted to find something to divert my attention."

"There were very few people in the movie theater late at night, and I became the only audience who booked the show. If I didn't come, maybe they didn't plan to show that movie at all."

Duan Shu listened quietly, and the rope of fate was quietly entangled and approached.

"It was a very sad movie." Xia Xun recalled, "The hero in the story is always shrouded in sudden accidents one after another. He wants to break free, but he will fall into the abyss of despair, and finally completely Towards destruction."

"It's very literary and heavy, and the leading actor is a newcomer who has never heard of it. At that time, I thought that the box office of this movie must not be good, so the movie theater also put it in a perfunctory way, and no one will watch it. late at night."

"But I saw it, on that summer night." Xia Xun whispered, "I remember that the weather was very hot, and the air-conditioning was very low in the movie theater. I sat alone in the auditorium and looked at the big screen. Often there is only the male protagonist on the screen.”

"The surroundings are very quiet, as quiet as if there are only two of us left in this world."

Following his voice, Duan Shu also walked into that late-night movie theater as if he was there, saw the younger and more youthful Xia Xun in the auditorium, and also saw the same young self on the big screen.

"He looked sad and I couldn't help but think that."

"He shouldn't be so sad."

It was Duan Shu's favorite script, and it was also the role he devoted himself to the most.

But he never thought that this little-known movie would bring him such a persistent audience.

Xia Xun.

Since that summer, I have been looking for it.

After a moment of silence, in this delicate atmosphere, Duan Shu should have asked the other party's real name logically, as if facing the real other party without those artificial froth.

But he didn't.

He didn't seem ready to be so close to another person.

What Xia Xun likes is the one he saw on the big screen, and now he sees the actor Duan Shu who is gentle and elegant in front of others, but he knows nothing about the pale and boring Duan Shu in real life.

He loves a vision.

And Xia Xun, who is knowledgeable, talented and has a great personality, really attracts Duan Shu. He has an unruly and free atmosphere, something that Duan Shu has never had.

They are all attracted by each other's appearance, just like countless pieces of love that sprouted during the filming of the crew, mostly because of the extremely close space and limited interpersonal relationship. When they leave the set and return to a wide enough world, such feelings are very fast will disappear without a trace.

This is just a spark destined to be fleeting.

So Duan Shu didn't ask Xia Xun's real name, didn't try to find out his real appearance, and at the same time hid himself.

"Thank you for liking the movie I'm in." He was as honest as ever, "but maybe I don't deserve that liking."

He will not lie because he is not allowed to lie, and this deep-rooted demand seems to have existed in his mind a long time ago, becoming an irresistible subconscious.

Xia Xun didn't seem surprised by his rather tactful refusal. He shook his head disapprovingly, and said in a low voice, "You will change your mind."

After that day, Xia Xun's persistence exceeded Duan Shu's expectations.

He still didn't hide his affection for Duan Shu, but he gave it a more legitimate-sounding cloak: he is a fan of Duan Shu, and he entered this industry because of Duan Shu.

Entering the industry for idols is nothing new. The high-cold screenwriter favored by the director has already given such a conclusion, and the relationship between the two seems to be one-sided admiration, and it is difficult for onlookers to gossip.

Xia Xun has a well-measured sense of proportion, which seems to be an act of crossing the line, but also stepping on the line of ordinary friends, and has a humor that makes people laugh, making it difficult for people to refuse, so unconsciously In the meantime, I gradually got closer to him.

Duan Shu sometimes asked Yao Xiaoxiao to help him order desserts. After Xia Xun bumped into him twice, Xia Xun looked at the delicate and elegant desserts in front of him and asked him, "Do you like sweets very much?"

Duan Shu nodded, and a day later, Yao Xiaoxiao brought a box over with a strange expression on his face.

"what is this?"

"You'll know it when you see it." Yao Xiaoxiao said while laughing, "Although it's impolite to say so, it's really ugly."

Duan Shu opened the beautiful packaging box, and saw a brown-black...cake, probably a cake, because it exuded a sweet smell, but it was shaped like a meteorite that had just hit a planet, which was daunting.

There is also a message card on the box with a line of beautiful words written on it.

[Test it to see if the shape affects appetite. ]

Duan Shu couldn't help but laugh.

Later he knew that it was Xia Xun's first attempt at making desserts.

Ugly, but not bad taste.

Xia Xun was only willing to share with him the idea of ​​the next script, which was gradually summarized as idol exclusive benefits by other crew members enviously. Director Lin always urged Duan Shu to pry Xia Xun's script out, and he really wanted to hear it. .

Because Xia Xun is very talented in storytelling, every time he gets stuck at a turning point that makes people itch, but he has to see each other next time. Over time, Duan Shu has successfully cultivated the habit of staying with him.

Like that folk tale called One Thousand and One Nights, in which he is the lost king.

From movies to scripts, and then gradually extended to the daily trivialities, Xia Xun's existence penetrated into his life like air.

At first Duan Shu thought that after the filming ended, he would lose contact with Xia Xun soon, but the fact was completely opposite.

On the night of the finale banquet, Duan Shu did not drink as usual, and many people knew this, so they did not come to persuade him.

Xia Xun didn't drink either. His image in the crew has always been maverick, so no one forced him.

The creators were sitting at a table, Director Lin was already flushed from drinking, and everyone at the table was talking drunk, Duan Shu turned his face to the side, and curiously asked the people around him: "Are you allergic to alcohol?"

"No." Xia Xun shook his head, "You will know later."

A few hours later, the excitement dissipated, everyone staggered out of the hotel with their shoulders crossed, and Duan Shu was the last one.

Then he saw in the dense night, a very bright heavy-duty car parked in front of the hotel, the body was slanted, Xia Xun stepped on the ground with one foot, took off his helmet to look at him.

Duan Shu's eyes were completely attracted, he was stunned for a moment, and he asked: "This car is very handsome, is it expensive?"

"So you would ask such a question." Xia Xun smiled, "Want to go for a drive together?"

It was difficult for him to refuse this very tempting invitation.

In the howling wind of the night in the city, Duan Shu sat on the back seat of the locomotive, as if returning to the night he had never witnessed with his own eyes. The young and confused Xia Xun and his friends finished the car, and then walked into That doomed movie theater.

The distance between him and Xia Xun was so close that he could hear the clear heartbeat amidst the noise.

Xia Xun's voice drifted past his ears: "Why do you never drink?"

The wind was so strong that he didn't dare to hug the waist of the person in front of him, so he could only grab the corner of the person's clothes helplessly.

"Because it's wrong." Duan Shu's voice was very soft, "That's why we can't do it."

This is a discipline engraved in the subconscious mind. You can't do things that are considered wrong, otherwise you will be punished.

The back of the hand exposed to the air was icy cold by the night wind, and suddenly another temperature covered it.

Xia Xun helped him put the bracelet around his waist.

"You can decide for yourself what's wrong."

The biting wind pushed open the dusty door of the heart, and the scorching heat rushed in like attacking the city.

"you are free."

Just the right night and atmosphere, just the right words and that person.

He tried to reveal a little of his hidden self to Xia Xun, and the other party put away those cowardice very well.

Duan Shu was almost shaken.

There are still a few months before the next play. In his life that was only dull and boring in the past, Xia Xun's shadow is everywhere now.

In Xia Xun's apartment where he lived alone, Duan Shu saw him making desserts with his own eyes. He learned quickly and was able to make delicate shapes, so there was no need to use strange shapes to test Duan Shu's appetite.

In the lively movie theater, a new domestic blockbuster was released, starring Cheng Hongqiu, a well-known actor who has a close relationship with Duan Shu.

After watching the movie, Duan Shu sighed with emotion for Cheng Hongqiu's wonderful acting skills, but Xia Xun changed the subject and asked inexplicably, "Do you like summer or autumn?"

After Duan Shu was slightly taken aback, he couldn't help laughing: "I like winter."

"why?"

"Because it is white and clean in winter."

In winter, they walked side by side on the street corner with fluffy snow, without saying anything, only the sound of stepping on the snow.

This may be the brightest period of time in Duan Shu's memory.

He has evaded himself for a long time, lost in the dark sea, but at this moment someone is willing to be his lighthouse.

Although he still doesn't know what love is because he hasn't felt it, he should be able to learn.

Learn from Xia Xun who clearly understands what love is.

After going to Xia Xun's home many times, Duan Shu hesitated for a long time, and finally mustered up the courage to invite Xia Xun to his residence for the first time after having lunch together one day.

He used a very poor excuse: he bought a new projector, of course he should call his friends to watch it together.

This invitation has nothing to do with those unspeakable ambiguities, but a careful temptation.

The way you put your clothes, the display items on the cabinet, the books you read most often by your bed... You can always get a glimpse of your truer self from the most private solitary living place.

Xia Xun cooperated very well, he didn't show any surprise, and didn't raise his expectations too high, as if he just heard the proposal to go out for a walk together in the afternoon, and he accepted it calmly.

When they walked to the door that day, Xia Xun followed behind him, holding snacks and fruits prepared for the projector, while Duan Shu leaned over to enter numbers on the combination lock.

He thought that would be a good start, lazily nestled on the sofa watching the projection, he would pretend to ask Xia Xun's name casually, he knew Xia Xun had been waiting for him to ask.

Then Duan Shu will seriously remember that strange name, so that this relationship will completely move from an illusory movie to a reality within reach.

The door opened.

The relaxed smile on Duan Shu's face suddenly froze.

He saw that the shoe cabinet at the door had been tidied up, and the shoes that he put down casually on weekdays were neatly arranged at this moment.

Those familiar furnishings in the living room have changed their positions and are forcibly placed according to another person's wishes and preferences.

The familiar figure that I haven't seen for a long time is sitting on the sofa, leaning against the diamond-shaped pillow whose corners have been flattened behind her, her hair that should have been gray was dyed rigid black, she frowned and looked at the two people who walked in .

"You're going to be a mess when you live alone." She said sternly, "Who is this? Your friend?"

Before Xia Xun recovered from the sudden questioning, Duan Shu's voice began to tremble inaudibly.

"...I changed the password."

The woman on the sofa laughed sarcastically: "Aren't there just a few exchanges?"

"You are exactly the same as when you were a child, and you have never changed."

So he can never escape their palms.

The barrage of accusations was the same as before, even though Duan Shu was no longer the child who had no ability to resist, he was swallowed by the violent storm and pulled into the deep sea where his breath was instantly annihilated.

Duan Shu couldn't remember anything after that day.

That was the point where he started to completely forget everything.

The years that had been hidden were suddenly revealed before Xia Xun's eyes, and he couldn't imagine how Xia Xun would think of him.

He is so cowardly, small, and unbearable.

The illusion that was remembered by the other party for a long time must be shattered.

He could only choose to flee with a broken illusion.

At the same time, God gave him a good excuse. Lu Mingye's upcoming new film will be closed for several months.

Duan Shu remembered that there was a period of quarrel between them, about the sudden estrangement, about Lu Mingye standing between each other, about what happened and what didn't happen.

Maybe it wasn't a quarrel, he just listened passively to what Xia Xun said, unwilling to make any efforts that needed to mobilize his heart.

He locked himself up in the dark, empty room.

This was not something that Xia Xun could change with words at that time. Duan Shu knew that he would definitely give up, and Xia Xun had indeed disappeared from his life.

The last time they met was at the promotional event for Director Lin's movie.

A reporter mentioned the rumor that the screenwriter Xia Xun was his fan, and asked him how he viewed his fan, Duan Shu responded very sincerely: "I like the script he wrote very much."

Xia Xun not far away did not speak, his expression was stern, and he never showed a smile.

After the event is over, I sadly avoid my sight and say goodbye.

Duan Shu really likes the road story of saying goodbye to the past during the journey, but he can only live in the daytime forest.

After the lighthouse disappeared, only pale and numb thorns remained in his life.

Until this moment, the memory was awakened again, and Duan Shu even heard an apology that might never be available in reality, which came from the mouth of the fictional Wen Youlan, but solved his chronic illness for several years.

His parents wanted a child who could turn into a perfect appearance, Duan Shu once did it, but he lost himself.

He abandoned himself, and happened to have a little talent, so he created this shell that can hold everything, and became an excellent actor in the eyes of others.

It was because he was an actor that he was seen by that person.

The world is like intertwined rings, the past and the future, fiction and reality are tightly connected together, weaving beautiful patterns in his life.

The man who wrote the real second life for him, picked up his discarded soul and lost feelings from the dust, and sent them back to this numb body.

After the memory came back to life, a long regret filled Duan Shu's heart.

People's destiny is always changed at one fork in the road after another, and even reshaped into a completely different appearance.

If he hadn't drifted away from Xia Xun because of the resurgent cowardice in his heart.

If he hadn't left the cafe where he first met right away.

If there is no accidental accident.

in case……

No if.

Only irreversible reality.

But life is short and the future is still long. The past can be overwritten and reconstructed. As long as he is willing, he can fold those gray and white times that he missed and leave a brilliant and bright splendor.

That's what the lighthouse taught him.

The researchers in white coats around were talking in low voices. This time, Duan Shu, who was swept away by the turbulent memory, did not fall into a deep sleep.

He picked up the question that should have been asked a long time ago.

"Although your pseudonym sounds nice." Duan Shu asked slowly, "But I still want to know, what is your real name?"

Lonely regret travels through time and space, and gets the long-awaited echo. In the most beautiful voice, the never-extinguished spark shines brightly and blooms brilliantly.

The person in front of him answered him gently: "Qi Yan."

The author has something to say:

Because I need to protect my eyes, I won’t promise the time for the episode, and I will try my best to update it~ I may have to rest for a while before opening the next new article.