Immersive performance [entertainment circle]

Ji Shuyuan looked at him quietly for a while, and then said: "I didn't hear clearly just now, what did you say in the last sentence?"

"..."

This little thought should not be too obvious, but Zhongqin still decided to pamper him, and repeated earnestly: "I said, I like you very much."

"It sounds good." Ji Shuyuan touched his ears as if feeling itchy, and then leaned closer, "Don't stop, say it a few more times."

"...Are you annoying? It's endless." Zhongqin was ashamed and shy, "It's almost enough, this kind of talk is too greasy, change, when there is an atmosphere in another day... um."

"Okay, then what?" Ji Shuyuan smiled a little, "If you say too greasy, if you say less flimsy, is there any other way to express?"

"What else do you want to express?" Zhongqin was a little annoyed when he said this, "I told you before... that you didn't want it."

"I've already told you the reason for this." Ji Shuyuan couldn't laugh or cry, "Can't there be anything else between us besides that?"

Zhongqin frowned: "Don't you just like that..."

"Why do I like that?" After a pause, Ji Shuyuan said, "Yes, I like that, but I also like others."

"What else is there? Kiss and touch? Is this enough?"

While talking, Zhongqin put his arms around his neck tentatively, and raised his legs to hook his waist.But the man was so tall that it was difficult for him to reach even if he bent down.

"Why not enough?" Ji Shuyuan watched his strenuous movements, never helped him, and joked with him with a smile, "What kind of talent is this, it's like dancing, it's pretty pretty."

"..."

Zhongqin lost his patience, so he withdrew his foot and kicked him in the stomach: "Fuck off! I'll show you a fart!"

Ji Shuyuan didn't care about his tickling strength, and grabbed his ankle and pulled him up.Afraid of slipping down, Zhongqin subconsciously supported the cushion with his elbows, raised his waist slightly, and was taken advantage of by the man's arm, easily pulling him into his arms.

"...What are you doing?" Zhongqin quickly entangled him tightly.

"To take a bath."

Zhongqin was silent for two seconds: "I don't want to be in the bathroom."

Although he didn't want to admit it, he was really lazy and coquettish in this respect, and he didn't like the posture that was tiring, and he didn't like the position that was too hard.

When they were at home before, they had tried many different things, and the bathroom and kitchen had to be at the top of the black list in Zhongqin's place.

... But Ji Shuyuan likes it very much, I don't know what's wrong with it.

"What are you thinking about?" Ji Shuyuan weighed him down, "I said I won't mess with you today."

"Then let me go by myself."

"What?" Ji Shuyuan stopped suddenly, turned around and pushed him against the wall, "I can't even hug him?"

"...you can put me down and hug me well." Zhongqin felt quite speechless, "Are you tired?"

"I just like hugging like this." Ji Shuyuan said, "It doesn't tire you, why are there so many opinions?"

"You've made a fool of yourself, you?" Zhongqin grabbed the hair at the back of his head, "You're used to it... If you talk to me like that again, you'll sleep on the sofa tonight."

"Who is used to whom?" Ji Shuyuan laughed, "Little thing, you are only allowed to hate me, but I am not allowed to hate you?"

"If I provoke you and provoke you, you will hate me?"

"Teasing me all night, but I can't vent my anger. You said you didn't provoke me?"

Ji Shuyuan supported his leg so that he was wrapped tightly around his waist, and then he let go of his hand to grab his wrist, preventing him from grabbing his shoulder for strength.

Both of Zhongqin's hands were clamped, and he could only rely on the strength of his legs to support him. His back couldn't stop sliding, and his spine was pressed against the hard wall, causing some pain.

Ji Shuyuan took the time to ask: "Are you uncomfortable?"

"You...you bastard!"

Zhongqin wanted to kick him, but his legs became more slippery as soon as he loosened, the clothes on his back were all rubbed up by the wall, a section of skin was exposed on the back of his waist, and the cool wind poured straight into it.

Ji Shuyuan took half a step closer, pushed him up, put his clothes back in place, and finally made him feel better.

"Are you uncomfortable?" Ji Shuyuan asked again.

Zhongqin raised his head, thinking that he couldn't force it at this time, otherwise he would be the one to suffer, so he immediately changed his face and begged for mercy: "I'm so miserable... Brother let me go... I was wrong."

"Where did you go wrong?"

"I'll let you hug." Zhongqin said quickly, "You can hug whatever you want."

Ji Shuyuan shook his head: "It's not this."

Zhongqin thought for a while and said, "I shouldn't tease you. Sleep well tonight and work hard tomorrow."

"Any more?"

"...What else?" Zhongqin felt aggrieved and angry after finishing speaking, "I confessed to you clearly, why are you still bullying me?"

"Confession is good, I like it very much." Ji Shuyuan said, "But the things before and after the confession bother me—think again."

"..."

Zhongqin broke his head and couldn't figure out what was wrong.

As the time passed, Ji Shuyuan finally softened his heart, clamped his wrists with one hand, and freed the other hand to hold his back. Although he didn't use any force, his palm was much softer than the wall.

"Good brother," Zhongqin looked at him, "you give me some hints."

Ji Shuyuan didn't speak, Zhongqin was so anxious that he wanted to cry, but he only threatened: "I'm sleepy, if you don't say anything, I'll just fall asleep like this, you can worry about it yourself!"

"Well." Ji Shuyuan said calmly, "You don't need to sleep like this, you can fall to the ground as soon as your legs are loose, and it's not a cliff below, what are you afraid of?"

"I..." Zhongqin glanced down, pursed his lips and muttered, "Aren't I afraid that you will be angry..."

"I'm already quite angry." Ji Shuyuan said, "I won't be more angry."

"...Okay." Zhongqin said dejectedly, "I just didn't think about it... If you hug me, I will definitely go with you. I will stay wherever you put me, and if you don't let me go, I will hang on you all the time... ...I'm used to it, how can I still think of getting up and walking by myself?"

Ji Shuyuan seemed to be pleased by his words, and raised his lips very lightly: "So dependent on me?"

Zhongqin glared at him: "You knew the first day?"

"Row."

Ji Shuyuan finally carried him away from the wall, let him lie on the bed, lifted his clothes to check his back.

"fine."

Zhongqin wanted to pull down his clothes, but he stopped him: "It's a little red."

"Bullshit, can you not be popular?" Sensing the cautiousness of his finger brushing past, Zhongqin snorted angrily, "I did it myself, you deserve your distress."

In fact, he didn't feel anything for a long time. Ji Shuyuan's approach made him feel very tight, so it didn't take much effort. Later, when he put his hand up, it was more comfortable.

But it hurts, it hurts, Zhongqin is so angry when he thinks that the person who usually knows everything about everything bullies him so much, he is already generous if he doesn't beat him back, so it's nothing to feel distressed for a while.

"Yes, I deserve it." Ji Shuyuan kissed him, slowly pulled down his clothes, and sighed, "I regret it."

Zhongqin moaned and said, "It's useless to regret."

Ji Shuyuan turned him over, hesitated to speak for a while, and then asked, "Did you understand what I asked you to think about just now?"

Zhongqin instantly turned back into a quail, shrank his neck and shook his head: "...No."

"Look, you're really powerful." Ji Shuyuan squeezed his hand, "Which angry person have you ever seen but humbly explain to the other party why he is angry?"

Zhongqin felt guilty: "Then I can't figure it out, and I can't help it."

"Why can't you figure it out?" Ji Shuyuan said without waiting for him to answer, "Because you sincerely think you are right."

"..."

"You are in a bad mood and you vent me as a toy, yes, I am happy." Ji Shuyuan said, "But why do you think I am the same? Do you think I only want this? You like me and want to please me, so you can only In this way? I asked you to express that you can only think of this?"

"When will I..." Zhongqin said anxiously, "I didn't..."

He subconsciously felt that what Ji Shuyuan said was wrong, but he couldn't find a loophole for a while, so he didn't know how to refute it.

And Ji Shuyuan always reacted faster than him: "I regret it because I suddenly figured it out, maybe it's not your fault, it's me who didn't do enough to give you this illusion."

"no……"

"Because we were wrong from the beginning, and our order was wrong." Ji Shuyuan touched his face and said in a low voice, "I knew I shouldn't be so indulgent at the beginning... But, if I started chasing you after you played , will you still look at me?"

"No." Zhongqin said immediately, "I'm not a normal person, and ordinary means can't catch up with me."

Ji Shuyuan lowered his eyes: "Then what should I do?"

Zhong Qin breathed a sigh of relief, and finally knew what was wrong.

Ji Shuyuan has always acted very rationally. Even though he says he is dangerous verbally, he is always restrained enough in action, and it is easy for people to ignore the problems in his heart.

He has imprisoned himself for too long, and he no longer knows how to treat the things he likes, so he is fearful, afraid that if he does not do well, he will hurt the other party.

In this regard, like himself, he would subconsciously avoid it.

At the beginning, Zhongqin was afraid that he would only be in love with the drama, so he hesitated to take that step.

And Ji Shuyuan didn't dare to vent his desire easily, afraid of going too far, so he scared the other party away.After so many years, I finally found someone I like, and because I was too careful, I was always introspecting and reviewing.

He kept saying that he would never let him run away, but if he really wanted to leave, he probably wouldn't forcibly detain him.

Thinking of this, Zhongqin felt a little sad, hooked Ji Shuyuan's neck, raised his body and kissed his lips.

"Great Sage," Zhongqin sighed, "do you think I'm a puppy who will get sick if he eats the wrong dog food? How can I be so fragile?"

Ji Shuyuan didn't speak, but stared at him deeply.

"I don't care why you like me." Zhongqin said, "Even if you just like my good looks, so what? Impossible to be more..."

"Shut up." Ji Shuyuan would only get angrier as he listened to him, "If you can't comfort me, don't comfort me."

"..."

Zhongqin shut his mouth in embarrassment, and after a while, he still couldn't help asking: "Then how should I comfort you?"

After thinking for a moment, he continued: "Actually, the point I just wanted to say is not that, I just want to tell you that no matter why you like me or what you like about me, I will never leave you, and I will not get sick , I can't stand C..."

"To shut up!"

"...I'm so bored!"

Zhongqin licked his lips, grabbed Ji Shuyuan's collar, turned over and sat on his waist, and patted his face condescendingly: "Listen well, I will only say such nasty and shameless words once."

Ji Shuyuan wanted him to stop talking, probably the dog couldn't come up with any good words, but he endured the words, after all, he was a little curious about what he was going to say, so he listened to Zhongqin seriously:

"I know what you're worried about, isn't it because of the rumors that I've been harassed by others and I have a psychological shadow—well, I've been harassed a lot, from childhood to adulthood, isn't that unusual? It's like this in the circle, I'm used to it, if I have to talk about psychological shadows..."

Zhongqin paused for a moment, rolled his Adam's apple twice, and then continued: "I have to talk about psychological shadows... I am actually fine, mainly because of my mother."

It was probably something he didn't want to say, Ji Shuyuan wanted to stop him, but Zhongqin tightly covered his mouth: "Listen to me, I finally made up my mind."

After hesitating for a moment, Ji Shuyuan nodded.

"Didn't my father abandon my mother and run away after the company went bankrupt? It's no different from death. People often say that widows like my mother are the type that men like most. They are more charming than little girls, and they don't have to worry about risks. so beautiful."

Ji Shuyuan frowned: "Where did you hear such words?"

"At the wine table." Zhongqin said with a smile, "Sarcasm, right? You said it in front of me and my mother."

"..." Ji Shuyuan's fists stiffened, "When?"

"Ten years old, maybe younger, I can't remember." Zhongqin said, "Anyway, there are quite a lot of such words, and there are even worse ones. I can't say it because it's too dirty, so I just leave it to you. Paraphrase."

Ji Shuyuan didn't want to listen to his report, but asked, "Why did you appear on that occasion?"

"Do you need to ask?" Zhongqin looked at him like a fool, "My mother took me there."

Ji Shuyuan frowned so much that he could kill a fly: "Why did you take you to such a thing?"

"Because, she said that she would let me see with my own eyes how hard she worked, so that I would not be worthless."

"How could she bear..."

"It's not a question of can't bear it." Zhongqin said, "Who else can she talk to except me? It's really disgraceful to say these things, but there is no way, this is the truth. I know some parents are outside I am reluctant to tell my children about the suffering, so I can only hold it back, but some parents just like to show the pain to their children. I can’t say which is right, but I think other parents can comfort each other anyway. , my mother is alone, so she may... also want to get some support from me."

Ji Shuyuan snorted coldly: "You do understand her."

"I can't forgive you, after all, it's my own mother. And I have to rely on deceiving myself to live, otherwise you have to tell a child who is dependent on his mother that his mother doesn't love him that much?" Zhongqin said softly , "Isn't it more cruel?"

"..."

"Not much else to say, anyway, you should be able to imagine it. So I have always been disgusted with the so-called unspoken rules in the circle. I feel that it is no different from ordinary flesh and blood transactions. It just changes from ordinary money transactions to resource replacement." Zhong Qin said indifferently, "What's more, this kind of transaction has always been the exploitation of the weak by the strong. When it becomes a common phenomenon, it becomes a kind of coercion and persecution. insult like that?"

"……Um."

"This is indeed my psychological shadow, so later on, Mr. Cui... Anyway, I hated him for a while. He must be glad that I was an adult and sensible at that time, otherwise he would have given him a few knives."

Zhongqin gritted his teeth, then lowered his eyes to look at Ji Shuyuan, his voice softened a little: "But you are different, you never forced me, I voluntarily."

"I brainwashed myself at the beginning to get into the drama... You know people are like this, the more you dislike something, the easier it is to become what you hate. I hate trading so much, but at first I couldn't help but think of our business as one This kind of transaction, it seems that in this way, we can neither owe each other nor involve each other... But, I actually like to be like you."

Zhongqin sighed softly: "Some things seem to be unclear if you don't say them. I just realized it after I finished speaking, ah, so it is like this."

"I'm with you just because I like you. I would never change someone else." Zhongqin traced his eyebrows with his fingertips, and said in a low voice, "I also like your good looks, your self-discipline and your madness. Knowing that you will not harm me, I know that even if you harm me, I am willing.

"I vented to you when I was in a bad mood. I was really guilty at first, but I didn't feel guilty later, because I knew that I didn't treat you as a toy, but relied on you to do that.

"So I know that you are not with me because you like that kind of thing. You are like me because you like me. I can figure out the cause and effect relationship."

Ji Shuyuan grabbed his hand, just about to say that he finally said a few human words, when he heard him say again in the next second:

"But it doesn't matter if you just like that. Because you're a saint, and a saint won't be irresponsible."

"No matter what the reason is, it is enough for you to be able to do what you are doing now." Zhongqin said, "Humans are not puppies, they can think and talk. I know that you are not feeding it the best dog food for I hurt it, and I know that you have sex with me. Love is not to torture me. The puppy will only whimper when it is sick, if I am in pain, I will scold you, and I will beat you when I am anxious."

"Hit whatever you want." Ji Shuyuan said, "I'm afraid you..."

"The puppy can't choose, so if someone wants to send it away, it can only go." Zhongqin interrupted him, "But I can choose. I will get angry with you and get angry with you, but I will not leave you."

"I won't leave you." Zhongqin leaned over and hugged him, murmured, "You know very well, I can't leave you at all."

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