Immersive performance [entertainment circle]

The sun was shining outside the window, and the room was warm and bright, but Zhong Qin's finger on Ji Shuyuan's chest was like a piece of ice.

The coolness penetrates the thin top and follows the veins of the skin, as if it can freeze the heart.

Ji Shuyuan raised his hand to pinch his face, and slid his thumb over his plump lips to confirm that it was hot here, only then did he feel that his tense nerves eased a bit.

Then came the sourness that was so suppressed that it was hard to breathe.

He thought, this talent has learned to hide his suffering since he was ten years old. The last time he vented in front of others was the phone call he made to Zhong Fangfei. , or the friends he made later, he never revealed half of it.

This portrait glass is also like porcelain, delicate and fragile, but extremely hard.

He seems to be easily defeated, a spark, a puff of scorching smoke, or a dark night with no lights on, or a room without curtains, can make him collapse.

But he is also very tough, gossip can't pierce his barriers, his reason is broken into pieces, he can pick it up silently, and when he puts it back together, he is still strong.

But every silent crash hurts.

Every time it comes back together, it leaves cracks.

How can people live like this?

Might as well die and be freed.

"The half-sentence immediately following 'surviving a catastrophe' is called 'must have blessings', not 'must suffer'."

After being quiet for a long time, Ji Shuyuan seemed to have encountered a disaster when he spoke, and there was a weak lightness in his voice.

"The firefighters didn't save you to keep you alive in pain. You don't even write novels about this kind of heart-wrenching plot." He said, "If you really feel that you have sinned, the correct way is to find a way to make up for it—— What's more, what crimes do you have? Who would let a ten-year-old child bear the bill?"

"No one." Zhongqin said in a low voice, "but I know it myself."

"What do you know?" Ji Shuyuan said with a stern tone, "You are not the only one who knows what happened that day, it was even published in the newspaper, and everyone in the city knows about it, but who ever said you were guilty? Where is your crime? Shouldn’t the crime be sick and have a fever? Listen to yourself, isn’t this absurd?”

"...Don't kill me." Zhongqin scratched his neck and said aggrievedly, "I understand the truth, but I can't help but feel guilty. Everyone can comfort me and say that I am not wrong, but I am not Can."

"If you feel guilty, you can find a way to help other survivors instead of blaming yourself every day." Ji Shuyuan said, "The deceased is dead, the law and morality have not condemned you, and you think you can't die. Then live well, can't you?"

"I want to, too, and I don't want to be so painful, but I can't... Can't you understand?" Zhongqin looked at him with sad and disappointed eyes, "I funded all the survivors, and I went there secretly Two dead firefighters visited their homes and took care of their parents, but how can the dead make up for it? They always blame me in their dreams..."

"..."

Ji Shuyuan raised his hand to cover his eyes unbearably, his throat choked: "I'm sorry, I didn't control my emotions just now, I just... don't know how to comfort you."

"You don't need to comfort me." Zhongqin took a deep breath, "I can meet someone who can tell all these things, it is already a blessing from heaven."

"I wish I could bear it with you." Ji Shuyuan hugged him tightly, and said in a low voice, "I'm powerless and angry from embarrassment."

"You are not powerless. I don't have nightmares when I'm with you." Zhongqin lightly brushed his nose with his fingers, and sighed, "Why do you love me so much? How can I be able to meet you?" Teacher Ji is such a good person... Could it be that God did not distribute love evenly, and distributed all the love that should have been given to me by my relatives? But this is so unfair to you, why should you let me Are you going to bear all my demands alone?"

"I can't ask for it." Ji Shuyuan stared at him, and said in a deep voice, "My person only belongs to me, and I will bear everything about him. Only I can give him what he wants in this world. No matter how high the kite flies, the only one The thread is still only held by me. My name, Ji Shuyuan, is engraved in his heart and flesh and blood, and he has to wear my shackles wherever he goes, and no one can pry them open, and no one can deceive him."

"Wow, Teacher Ji is so scary, who can't make a detour?" Zhongqin laughed, "But the shackles that Teacher Ji gave are so sweet, I can't bear to run away."

"Little liar." Ji Shuyuan pressed his fingers to the corner of his eyes, "Didn't that disappointed look when you saw me just now mean you wanted to run away?"

"No, how can it be." Zhongqin licked his wrist flatteringly, "I'm just a little sad that Mr. Ji is attacking me. I thought I could be coaxed by Mr. Ji in his arms after selling out, but you are so serious, It scares me so much.”

After a pause, he leaned closer and looked directly into Ji Shuyuan's eyes, and said seriously: "Didn't I say that before? I hope you don't let me go, even if I beg you to scold you in the future, don't let me go. Ji Shuyuan Teacher, you are the last piece of driftwood I live in this world. The drowning person must not let go of the straw because he is disappointed with the straw, but because he..."

"Understood." Ji Shuyuan interrupted him, "I don't want to hear the rest."

"Okay." Zhongqin licked his lips, "Then I won't say anything."

The atmosphere was too heavy before, so Ji Shuyuan wanted to change the subject, so he pinched his face, glanced at the wall clock and asked, "Are you hungry? It's almost noon."

"I'm fine, are you hungry? The big guy can eat." Zhongqin said and was about to get up, "I'll cook for you."

"Wait." Ji Shuyuan grabbed him.

Zhongqin turned around: "What?"

"I suddenly thought of a way."

"any solution?"

"Let him deal with the knots that cannot be solved. There will always be other things in life that attract your attention." Ji Shuyuan said, "Escaping is not always a coward's act, it may also be the best policy."

"Teacher Ji started class again." Zhongqin said with a smile, "This time it made sense—well, it also made sense before."

"It doesn't matter if you become a coward, anyway, you don't have to care about others." Ji Shuyuan rubbed his wrist with his thumb, his tone of voice was as tender as his movements, "And the only person in the world who loves you still loves you very much."

Zhong Qin stared at him intently for a while, then suddenly turned and sat on his lap, put his arms around his neck and said, "I don't want to cook anymore, if Teacher Ji is really hungry...you can eat me first."

"..." Ji Shuyuan's throat tightened, and his voice suddenly became hoarse, "Okay."

He got up and walked to the bedroom with the man in his arms, rubbed his fingertips into the seam of his clothes, bit Zhongqin's earlobe and said, "Show me your scar."

"Look at it, don't move your mouth." Zhongqin complained in a low voice, "It's very itchy every time..."

"The old scar from more than ten years ago is still ticklish?"

"My heart is itchy, and my throat is also itchy." Zhongqin couldn't help arching his waist after being rubbed by him, and his voice began to stop, "It's much more itchy than my body..."

"Yes. I'll scratch you later."

Ji Shuyuan closed the door, put him on the bed, looked at the scar carefully, and asked after a long time, "Does it hurt?"

"Are you asking now or before?"

"What do you say?"

"It definitely doesn't hurt now, but it itches when you touch it." Zhongqin grabbed a pillow and put it under his body, closing his eyes and said, "As for the past... To be honest, I didn't feel any pain. I was already scared stupid at that time , didn’t notice it at all.”

Ji Shuyuan raised his eyes to catch a glimpse of the back of his head, and said in a flat tone: "Lie."

"Oh." Zhongqin rubbed his heels against his waist, and said obediently, "It's been so many years, it doesn't matter whether it hurts or not, why say it to make you feel uncomfortable."

Ji Shuyuan touched that place silently, then leaned over and kissed it.

"Hey!" Zhongqin hissed, "I can't keep my mouth shut!"

"I didn't agree with you." Ji Shuyuan clamped him, "Don't move."

"……Ugh."

With the tip of his warm tongue touching his skin, Zhongqin trembled uncontrollably, buried his face in the pillow, and gritted his teeth so as not to let out a sound.

After a long while, he really couldn't hold it back, turned sideways for a while, reached out and raised Ji Shuyuan's forehead: "Don't worry about it so much, it won't get better if you lick it any more."

"I don't care." Ji Shuyuan pulled him by his calf and brought him under his eyelids. He lowered his eyes to appreciate it for a moment, then bent his lips and said, "The whole body is so white, and there is such a difference, no one can bear it." Stay and take a look."

Zhong Qin raised his eyebrows, and was about to say "No one will watch it except you", but suddenly remembered that he had already been exposed in "Wei Young", so he had to shut up aggrievedly.

Ji Shuyuan's gaze swept over his beautiful eyebrows and eyes, and then fell on his bright red lips, and sighed: "Jujuan, do you know how good-looking you are?"

"I know." Zhongqin said without humility, "I have been praised by thousands of people every day since I was a child. I don't think it's hard not to know."

"So, you don't have to ask yourself what virtue and ability." Ji Shuyuan smiled, "There are countless people in this world who are willing to love you. It's my luck that I beat others."

"It's really good enough." Zhongqin snorted, "So you just like this face."

"More than that." Ji Shuyuan said, "I also like this body."

"...Superficial!" Zhongqin raised his leg and kicked him, "Get lost! Don't eat it!"

"Very good." Ji Shuyuan held his ankle and said with a low smile, "I also like this arrogant temper."

"..." Zhongqin's eyebrows almost stood up, "Is this what I call a joke?!"

Ji Shuyuan looked at his ecstatic look, and his smile deepened: "I hope you will play tricks every day."

Zhongqin was about to die of anger: "You still say?!"

He struggled to get Ji Shuyuan off his body, but this man was as heavy as a mountain, his lips, tongue and fingers were as nimble, and he always used them in tricky places, and soon he couldn't exert any more strength, even swearing It became a tiny whimper in the throat.

The temperature was high at noon, and Ji Shuyuan's sweat fell on his shoulders, making him shiver slightly.

A soft touch came from the back of the neck, Zhongqin tensed up and begged for mercy repeatedly: "Don't, don't bite... I have to go out to meet people, good brother, please restrain yourself..."

Ji Shuyuan stopped, scooped up the person, moved his lips down to a place that could be covered by his clothes, and asked dissatisfiedly, "Who do you want to see?"

"I have a job..." Zhongqin struggled to recall for a moment, then shook his head and said, "I'm so confused, I can't remember... I'll show you the schedule later..."

Being able to wake up a little bit when the two of them were talking about business matters would help Ji Shuyuan restrain his overly strong desires so as not to do irrational things.

So he continued to ask along the topic: "What did you go to the company this morning? Is there a new script?"

"Hmm..." Zhongqin is different from Ji Shuyuan, staying awake at the moment will only make him more tired, so he doesn't want to think about anything, trying to tease Ji Shuyuan to concentrate on doing things instead of chatting, "You, you Are you not full? No, if you can't, just... oh!"

"Just started eating, why are you full so quickly?" Ji Shuyuan put his face on his slightly hot ears, with a bit of doting in his tone, "Don't worry, it's still early, take your time."

The author has something to say:

Teacher Ji was puzzled: Shouldn't you eat slowly?

感谢在2021-12-0223:04:38~2021-12-0403:00:20期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 1 bottles of rain;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!