Immersive performance [entertainment circle]

Every time when Cui Zhengqian or Feng Qin worried that Zhong Fangfei would be overwhelmed, Zhongqin would say in an indifferent tone: "Isn't that good?"

But he didn't really want Zhong Fangfei to die.

Maybe there was such an idea once, but certainly not now.

Because he didn't take his own life seriously, he always felt that he was hanging on his breath every day, so he didn't care whether Zhong Fangfei died or not, and it was even better if he died, so he had reason to pay for his life.

But now he has Ji Shuyuan.

He feels that life is very good and happy, so he wants to live forever.

The unscrupulous "courage" he possessed to break pots and jars, he no longer has in his twenties.

He is a paper tiger that can be broken at the first poke, and the little courage he had to fight against Zhong Fangfei was fake, it was a bubble that was pretended or self-deception.

He couldn't beat Zhong Fangfei at all.

Zhong Fangfei can say that she will die without any nostalgia, but he can't.

He used to be a kite hanging in the sky that might break its thread at any time, but now he is a kite that Ji Shuyuan has gathered the thread and tightened his spine.

The sweetest and gentle hometown in the world is also a person's fragile weakness.

His weakness made him greedy for the world, made him afraid of death, and also lost all the courage to face the wheat.

At this moment, he seemed to understand Zhong Fangfei a little bit suddenly.

Although he doesn't want to admit it, he is indeed Zhong Fangfei's only thought left in this world.

She wanted to firmly control this "Nian Xiang" in her hands, but found that "Nian Xiang" turned out to be a living person, a person with her own thoughts and not controlled by her.

What's more terrible is that this "Nian Xiang" seems to have completely excluded her from her life. Whether it is the happiest time or the most painful and uncomfortable time, this "Nian Xiang" is unwilling to share with her. He even hesitated to tell her.

Obviously when "Nian Xiang" was a poor and helpless child, he could only rely on her for everything.

At that time, in the night after the fire broke out, he could only repeat the name of his dependent mother over and over again.

Too bad she didn't hear it.

She hung up a phone call that she regretted for the rest of her life.

So the child got up on his own, stretched his spine abruptly at an age when he didn't need to be sensible, and grew up emaciated but stubborn, and never turned to her for help.

At a young age, he was alone, and even stood in front of her to block the wind and rain for her, but he didn't need her anymore.

She is like a small appendix in his body, usually insignificant and dispensable, it will kill him when it hurts, but when it is discarded, it needs to be cut to make him feel uncomfortable.

But the surgical scar will always heal, but the lost appendix will never hurt again.

They don't have the fate of mother and child. Maybe they got together because they committed crimes in the previous life, so they tortured each other in this life.

After cremation, the remains were collected by relatives and then sent to the grave.

Zhongqin was like a walking dead throughout the whole process. Since he received the call from the police at that time, he had hardly communicated with anyone.

This time, Zhong Fangfei didn't need to take sleeping pills, which might still be able to save her. After sending a text message to Zhong Qin, she immediately jumped off the roof, was seen by neighbors, and panicked and called the police.

After Zhongqin received the text message, no one answered the call. He dragged Ji Shuyuan to Zhong Fangfei's house without stopping for a second, but there was a heavy rain and traffic jams. When he arrived, the scene was already blurred by the rain.

Except for that text message, Zhong Fangfei didn't leave him a single word.

The room was still the same, the table was half eaten, and the dishes and chopsticks hadn't been cleared away—she seemed to suddenly have the idea of ​​wanting to die, and jumped off the roof the next moment.

The police read Zhong Fangfei's message to Zhongqin and learned about the past between the mother and son, but they didn't blame Zhongqin, but told Zhongqin not to blame himself too much.

Zhong Fangfei has a history of mental illness, and was coaxed by Feng Qin and Cui Zhengqian to go to the hospital for an examination. At that time, on the one hand, she wanted to treat her illness, and on the other hand, she was afraid that she would make a fuss, which would have a negative impact on Zhongqin in public opinion. So leave a proof in advance.

It’s just that Zhong Fangfei later found out that she was going to a psychiatric department, and she refused to be treated emotionally. Cui Zhengqian and Feng Qin couldn’t help her, and Zhong Qin couldn’t talk to her about going together, so she had to let it go.

When Zhong Fangfei received the news of Zhong Fangfei's death, Zhongqin kept thinking about the past events, but he knew very well that even if he did it again, it would be difficult for him to patiently persuade Zhong Fangfei to receive treatment, let alone accompany her every day.

If the two of them stayed together often, maybe Zhong Fangfei's suicide time could be advanced several years, of course, it is also possible that he himself collapsed and died first.

After the incident, Zhongqin didn't bother to pay attention to the news on the Internet at all. Even Ji Shuyuan didn't go online for several days. Only Cui Zhengqian nervously checked the direction of public opinion at any time.

Unexpectedly, Xinglang's public relations department was already prepared, but the trend of public opinion was not as bad as they imagined.

The entry about Zhong Fangfei's death did quickly reach the top of the trending searches, but most of the comments focused on the online violence against Zhong Fangfei by netizens in the past.

Cui Zhengqian thought about it, and felt that this result was actually not unexpected. Firstly, except for the police and a few of them who were close to them, no one knew that Zhong Fangfei had sent such a text message to Zhong Qin before his death; secondly, Zhong Fangfei The comments on the Internet before were really too bad. Whether they liked Zhongqin or hated Zhongqin, netizens had the same opinion on Zhongfangfei. At this time, no one is more noble than anyone else; thirdly, Zhongqin has retired from the circle now, and his popularity has improved a lot in the past few years, when netizens talk about him, they will not be as malicious as before.

In fact, even if the public opinion is not good, Zhongqin has long since stopped caring.

He has been in a daze for the past few days. He has to react for a long time when others talk to him, and he really doesn't have the energy to care about other things.

Until the funeral was over, Zhongqin seemed to come back to life suddenly, and quickly came out of the state of walking dead. After that, life went on as usual for a long time.

He even updates videos every day as usual, laughs, talks, acts like a baby, and socializes with friends, everything seems to be in order.

Until one day when it rained heavily again, Zhongqin sat on the balcony and stared blankly for a while, remaining silent all afternoon.

The two of them went to bed on time at night, and Ji Shuyuan hugged him, feeling that his breathing had stabilized, and he could finally relax and fall asleep.

However, in the middle of the night, he was woken up by Zhongqin's shaking. Looking at the time, it was already three o'clock in the morning.

Ji Shuyuan turned on the bedside lamp and asked patiently, "What's wrong? Did you have a nightmare?"

"No, I can't sleep." Zhongqin said, "I want to see the sea."

Ji Shuyuan was stunned for a moment, and asked uncertainly: "Now?"

"Yeah." Zhongqin buried his head and said in a low voice, "I want to see the sea, I'll go now, right away, right away."

"Okay, okay." Ji Shuyuan quickly agreed, "I'll check the flight first, okay?"

Zhong Qin nodded.

Ji Shuyuan checked all the flights to the coastal cities, and finally booked two air tickets at [-]:[-] in the morning, and immediately got up and set off with Zhongqin.

The two of them packed lightly, only brought a change of clothes, and rushed to the airport non-stop, but they heard from the radio that almost all flights would be delayed due to the weather.

After listening to the radio in silence, Zhongqin closed his eyes and leaned on the back of the chair, and said in a low voice as if comforting himself: "It's okay, just wait."

Ji Shuyuan worriedly clenched his hand, put it on his lips and kissed it, hesitated for a moment, and asked tentatively: "How about we go home and sleep first, and come back when the weather is better?"

Zhongqin shook his head.

Ji Shuyuan opened his mouth and decided not to persuade him anymore.

When it was nearly five o'clock, the rain stopped, and the flight resumed one after another. After checking the tickets, the two boarded the plane. Zhong Qin sat on the back of the seat and stared blankly at the top of the cabin.

"Baby." Ji Shuyuan was so distressed that he quickly picked up, "Close your eyes and rest for a while, okay?"

Zhongqin slowly shifted his gaze to his face, and whispered, "I want to see the sea."

"You'll see it right away." Ji Shuyuan comforted, "The plane lands in an hour, and you can take a taxi to reach the beach in four or ten minutes."

"En." Zhongqin responded, and did not speak again.

When it was about to land, I didn't know what troubles it encountered again. The plane hovered in the air for half an hour before finally descending.

Zhongqin frowned, obviously dissatisfied, but he resisted the attack.

I took a taxi after leaving the airport, halfway through the drive just in time for the morning rush hour, and was stuck in traffic for another half an hour without moving.

Ji Shuyuan looked at Zhongqin worriedly, and heard him ask softly: "I just want to see the sea, why is it so difficult?"

Ji Shuyuan was speechless.

The driver in front pointed his ears and said, "If you think it's slow, you should go out early. You will definitely meet the morning rush hour when you come out at this time. Anyway, I didn't deliberately take a detour."

Ji Shuyuan's tone was not very good: "I didn't say you took a detour, please focus on driving."

"Hey! I'm not wrong! If you think it's slow, you should leave early!" Maybe because the long traffic jam makes people irritable, the driver immediately choked up when he heard the words, "And who is okay to go to see the sea early in the morning? This This road is already blocked to death!"

Zhongqin suddenly buried his face in his palm.

"Sorry," he said, "I'm sick."

Ji Shuyuan's face darkened instantly, he opened the door and dragged Zhongqin down, then went to the side of the road to scan two shared electric bicycles, and asked, "Can you ride?"

Zhong Qin nodded with red eyes.

"Don't be sad." Ji Shuyuan raised his hand to wipe the corner of his eyes, and coaxed softly, "We will see the sea soon."

The vehicles on the road were densely lined up in a long queue, and the two of them whizzed past on motorcycles. The cool morning breeze blew Zhongqin's hair from his forehead and sideburns behind his ears, revealing his beautiful and delicate face.

Ji Shuyuan looked sideways, but felt that he seemed to have lost a lot of weight during this time.

It was late in late autumn, the sky was still faintly dark at this moment, the sun had not risen, the wind on the seaside was cooler than that on the shore, and there was no one on the beach except them.

Zhongqin took off his shoes and walked slowly along the wet traces washed by the water. After walking for a while, he sat down on the spot.

The tide came up from time to time, wet his trousers and the hem of his clothes, but he still had no intention of moving.

Ji Shuyuan stood silently behind him.

After a long time, the place where the sea and the sky meet in the distance finally diffused a ray of orange light.

Zhongqin raised his head at this moment, his eyes were not as bright as usual.

He looked at Ji Shuyuan, lingered greedily for a while, and then whispered, "Teacher Ji."

"Huh?" Ji Shuyuan knelt down, gently held his neck, and stroked his chin with his thumb.

Zhong Qin showed a smile as if crying, and his misty voice blended with the wind: "Let's break up."

Ji Shuyuan took a breath, his Adam's apple rolled twice, and his voice was hoarse: "What did you say?"

"I said, let's break up." Zhongqin's expression was calm, but his voice trembled uncontrollably, "My life...maybe I was really born for atonement, that's why it's like this...I, people like me, I don't deserve to be with you..."

"No..." Ji Shuyuan pinched him with his fingers, his throat was as dry as a broken bellows, and every word was crackling, "No..."

He gritted his teeth and stared at Zhongqin fiercely: "Don't break up with me...don't even think about it..."

"I can't bear it either." Zhongqin pursed his lips, tears rolled down his eyes in the blink of an eye, "But... what if the heavens hate Wu and Wu and want to punish you together?"

He was almost out of breath when he said this: "I can't, can't imagine..."

"Then don't think about it." Ji Shuyuan closed his eyes, took a deep breath, and tried to keep himself calm, "Besides, if God really wants to punish you, why would you meet me?"

"Maybe he wants me to get you," Zhongqin said, "and then let me lose you."

"No one can make you lose me, not even you." Ji Shuyuan said immediately, "The legs are on my body, so it doesn't matter what you say."

Zhongqin tightened his trouser legs and shook his head: "I...I dare not..."

"I dare."

Ji Shuyuan repeatedly warned himself not to lose control, but he still couldn't hold back, and said fiercely and arrogantly: "Remember how you promised me before? Zhongqin, if you have the slightest thought of running away, I will lock you up You are not allowed to go anywhere in the house, do you hear me?"

Seeing that he didn't answer, Ji Shuyuan got up and picked him up, hugged him and walked back.

Zhongqin curled up quietly in his arms, neither resisting nor speaking.

In the distance, the sun has risen halfway from the horizon, and the golden light spots are sprinkled on the sea surface, reflecting the sparkling water.

The weight of the two made Ji Shuyuan's footprints very deep. Zhongqin stared at it for a while, took a deep breath of the moist sea breeze, then shrank his neck, buried it in Ji Shuyuan's neck and said: "Mr. Ji, you Just kill me."

Ji Shuyuan originally planned to buy a plane ticket to go home, but when he heard the news, he didn't even hit him, so he immediately turned and walked towards the nearest hotel.

Without asking for leave, Zhongqin's video update was cut off for a week, and Ji Shuyuan's company couldn't contact anyone there, so the secretary had to call Cui Zhengqian.

Cui Zhengqian couldn't get through to Ji Shuyuan, and sometimes couldn't get through to Zhongqin, but every time he got through after two rings, he was hung up again. In the end, he had to ask Song Jueming to use his strength to find someone and run away himself. Go to the hotel and smash the door.

It took more than 20 minutes for someone to open the door. Ji Shuyuan was only wrapped in a towel all over his body, with an unshaven face, and when he looked at Cui Zhengqian, his eyes were indifferent as if he didn't know him at all.

Cui Zhengqian didn't care about it at the moment, and asked repeatedly: "Where is Zhongqin? Where did you hide him?"

Ji Shuyuan didn't answer, and turned around expressionlessly.

Cui Zhengqian hurriedly followed, and was about to rush into the bedroom, when Ji Shuyuan suddenly turned his head, his eyes gouged his face like a knife, and said coldly: "Wait."

"...Oh." Cui Zhengqian subconsciously stopped, saw Ji Shuyuan only opened the door a crack and squeezed in, without letting him see the shadow of the bed.

After a while, the bedroom door was opened, Ji Shuyuan had already dressed, and returned to the bedside to continue feeding Zhongqin.

Zhongqin seemed to be in good spirits, but he was not energetic, the quilt was pulled up to his chin, and when he saw someone coming, he just nodded his head wearily as a greeting.

"You two are..."

The atmosphere was inexplicably scary - mainly because Ji Shuyuan's aura of not being close to strangers was chilling.

Cui Zhengqian stopped by the door and didn't dare to go in, hesitantly asked: "Are you... are you playing something?"

"No..." Zhongqin's voice was hoarse, he coughed twice, pushed away Ji Shuyuan's hand, and smiled at Cui Zhengqian, "Why are you here?"

"Why do you think I'm here?!" Cui Zhengqian said angrily, "You two disappear every now and then, and President Ji's secretary has found me here! What's the matter, you don't want a career, and he doesn't want a career? You two Is this going to hide in the mountains together?!"

"...Ah?" Zhongqin frowned and glanced at Ji Shuyuan, "Didn't I ask you to answer the phone?"

Ji Shuyuan didn't say a word, with the impatience of "None of my business" written all over his face.

"He's gone crazy these days," Zhongqin smiled apologetically at Cui Zhengqian, "I'm sorry."

Cui Zhengqian saw at a glance that something was wrong between them: "Why did you provoke him?"

Zhongqin sighed: "I said I want to break up with him."

"..." President Cui's jaw almost dropped, "What did you say?"

"It's okay, I've coaxed it all."

Zhongqin stretched out a bare arm from under the quilt, tugged on Ji Shuyuan's sleeve, and said flatteringly, "I regretted it after I finished speaking, really."

Ji Shuyuan said "Mm" in a neutral manner, and then pushed his arm back into the quilt.

"..."

Cui Zhengqian felt that these two people were crazy and abnormal. After thinking about it for a long time, he didn't know where to complain, so he could only ask: "Then when will you go back? Do you still want the company?"

"I'll go back tomorrow." Zhongqin said, "I'm sorry, but I'll trouble you to make this trip, and I'll reimburse you for the air ticket."

"Not bad for you." Cui Zhengqian exhaled, "Okay, I'm relieved to see that you are fine, you two pack up and go back quickly... Mr. Ji shaves your beard well, if you don't know, you can still Think……"

Realizing that he was about to slip his tongue again, Cui Zhengqian quickly stopped talking, and managed to avoid swallowing the sentence "I thought it was you who died my mother".

"Then what, I'm leaving first, the company still has a lot of things waiting." After Cui Zhengqian finished speaking, he backed out and closed the door, and patted his chest in fear.

Inside the room, Zhongqin threw off the quilt abruptly and complained, "It's so hot."

Ji Shuyuan turned down the air conditioner twice in silence, glanced at the unsightly marks on Zhongqin's body, and asked in a deep voice, "Do you still eat?"

Zhongqin shook his head.

Ji Shuyuan put down the bowl and started to unbutton it.

"..." Zhongqin backed away shyly in the corner, "You, you can book a ticket first, okay?"

"Ah."

Ji Shuyuan agreed, but instead of holding the phone, he leaned over and grabbed Zhongqin's ankle, dragging him down.

"Ms. Ji..." Zhongqin was turned over on his stomach, subconsciously clutching the pillow, "You should know that I asked you to kill me that day, but I was actually joking, right?"

"Ah."

"then you……"

"Cry when you are sad, and curse when you are angry." Ji Shuyuan pressed him down heavily, leaving several finger marks of different shades, "This is the emotional reaction of a normal person. It shouldn't be to torture me, roll roll."

"I knew I was wrong..." Zhongqin apologized countless times, "I really knew I was wrong..."

"Then why don't you cry?" Ji Shuyuan asked, "Why don't you cry when you're sad?"

"I've been crying for a week," Zhongqin said bitterly, "I cry every day, my eyes are swollen, and I can't cry."

"It was fucked by me." Ji Shuyuan said, "It's not because of sadness."

"..."

"You can cry when your mother dies, and you can cry when your father dies—even if you hate them." Ji Shuyuan said, "No one will accuse you of being weak."

"I-I know..."

"I don't care if you get angry at me, even if you lose your temper for no reason, I can bear it." Ji Shuyuan said, "But you can't break up with me."

"Yes." Zhongqin obediently agreed, "I will never say that word again, don't be angry..."

"No next time." Ji Shuyuan pinched his neck and turned his face around, bit his earlobe hard, and said bitterly, "Otherwise I'll eat you."

Zhongqin suddenly burst out laughing, and after a while, he said softly: "Okay. Next time, you can eat me."

Tossing until evening, Zhongqin ate the remaining half bowl of porridge, and said to Ji Shuyuan: "I want to go to see the sea again."

Ji Shuyuan has a little PTSD towards "Hai" now, upon hearing this, he immediately vetoed it: "No."

"I won't break up with you." Zhongqin said with a smile, "I'm leaving tomorrow, I want to take a look, okay? I didn't see clearly last time."

Ji Shuyuan leaned over to meet his eyes: "You swear."

"Okay, I swear." Zhongqin raised his hand and said, "If I break up again, I will..."

Ji Shuyuan snatched the words: "I will die badly."

"..."

Zhongqin opened his mouth, and after a long time, he said solemnly: "Okay, if I mention breaking up again, I will let, let Teacher Ji... die badly."

After he finished speaking, he tightly shut his mouth, his heart was beating so fast, he was already regretting in his mind, and he kept silently praying that God would never take this seriously.

Ji Shuyuan was finally satisfied and let him go to get dressed.

Although the sky was already dark, there were still a few tourists scattered by the sea.

Zhongqin didn't go to the beach this time, but sat far away on the stone platform, closed his eyes and felt the sea breeze blowing on his face.

Then, at some point, he felt his neck was cold and his clothes were soaked.

Ji Shuyuan quietly took out a few pieces of paper and wiped his tears in his collarbone socket.

Zhongqin's weeping was silent, but fierce.

He had indeed been crying every day before, and he thought that all the tears had been shed, but he didn't expect there to be so many.

But after crying, he felt a lot more relaxed, and the stone that had been stuck in his throat for more than a month finally fell back.

The sea is boundless, but he is as small as gravel.

There are tens of thousands of ants in the world, the emotion of grief is insignificant, and life and death are also insignificant.

"I don't have any relatives anymore." Zhongqin said, "It's not that I'm sad, it's just that I feel empty."

Ji Shuyuan responded, "You have me."

"I know." Zhongqin said, "But in the human heart, the space for pretending to be a lover and the space to pretend to be relatives may not be the same place. Before, they were both alive, and even hatred could fill that place. Now they are all dead. What should I put there?"

"Pretend me." Ji Shuyuan said, "I am your lover and your relative."

Zhongqin turned to look at him: "But I'm still a little scared."

"Then I allow you to pretend to be someone else." Ji Shuyuan said lightly, "Pretend to be my parents, Cui Zhengqian, Feng Qin, and even your half-sister."

"Aren't you jealous?" Zhongqin smiled, "Ms. Ji is so possessive..."

"I just want you to be happy." Ji Shuyuan said, "Jujuan, I just want you to be happy."

"Ok."

Zhongqin stretched out his hand, looked at the shiny ring on his ring finger, and said, "After I go back, I want to apply to set Teacher Ji as my intended guardian."

Although they have obtained the certificate abroad before, it is still different after all.

Zhongqin nodded to himself: "Thinking about it this way, I can feel that Teacher Ji is not only my lover, but also my relative."

"Okay." Ji Shuyuan felt a little swollen, "I'll apply too."

Zhongqin laughed again: "Before then, you seem to owe me a marriage proposal."

He swung his legs and lightly kicked the person next to him: "Is that right, Teacher Ji?"

The author has something to say:

Two in one make up~

The next chapter should be the end, I will post it when I finish writing~

感谢在2021-12-2317:15:38~2021-12-2321:41:13期间为我投出霸王票或灌溉营养液的小天使哦~

Thanks to the little angel of irrigation nutrient solution: 2 bottles of Pu Zhuzhu's cheek meat;

Thank you very much for your support, I will continue to work hard!